10 Things I Want to Do before I Turn 40 Episode 1

we need to be hornier.

tanaka keishi is a terrorist for taking that screen+shot right in his fucking face OMG . . . i started this show after hearing so many strong opinions about it. i wanted to give it a fair shot because i do think there was valid criticisms but i thought maybe at least the show would just be inoffensive. & now having started it that kind've makes it even more offensive. at first it was okay. they weren't really reinventing the wheel here this was a very standard j-drama. & then our couple started interacting more & i felt like i just got pushed down a hill ｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆　　 ｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆ i think I'll start with suzume. he comes off as kind've patronizing. i think there is a truth in his character. there is definitely a demographic of gay people just like him. but i too am a cutesy gay man & it just feels like he has to remain in his cookie cutter. also personally this show should be a lot hornier. he is a gay man living alone for four decades he LITERALLY needs release. i always hate how feminine uke characters are always treated like smol boys some of us are perverted sluts MOST of us are perverted sluts. & this kind've goes to my problem on how being queer is written in this show. he definitely has thouight about being attracted to men before the show started along with aversion to women as love interests. but then we get the scene of his shock & awe seeing the dating app & it is completely framed as him only just now opening himself up to the idea of liking a man. which is an okay thing to explore. if you try & explore it. say something about this new feeling ,say something about the world you exist in that makes this an uncomofrtable new feeling ,one that makes you scared to feel it. & then tanaka's entire dialogue at the end is just so silly to me. how do you know that he is gay ? is it just gaydar intuition ? because it wasn't in the notes unless it's a language barrier & he wrote male lover. this kind've ties every different thing i have been talking about together but kazama shunsuke does too much in his acting performance sometimes. j-drama actors always get a little animated but i still have a problem with it here. he just does not feel like a real person & more of a caricature. i get harsher when it is a queer show. i am tired of safe " " we're just like you " " gay depictions. we are messy beings with complicated living experiences. sometimes it's fun to have boys' loves that exist in a fantasy land where we're all ignoring homophobia for a booktok prompt & trope but this isn't doing that. i want to see them go more. i want to feel intense catharsis seeing my fears & insecurities that makes straight people uncomfortable because they can't empathize.

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