Lost to You Episode 4

i am so freakin annoyed but before i get into…

i am so freakin annoyed but before i get into that, i have to say i don't get either brother - what they both dreamed about being "sugar dadies"!?? like WTF - i kinda get where Zhan Wang is coming from, given his health he rather focus on Xu Yuan who hasn't lived an easy life & it's something he can fix/help before he "kick's the bucket" so i get him trying to make Xu Yuan's life a bit better. & as Xu Yuan also has his grandmother's approval & they did take care of her when he couldn't. it makes sense. but in Zhan Xu's case i don't get him doing so much for a random student - why?!? cause he is attracted to him? cause Bian Ye reminds him of Zhan Wang & he feels like he couldn't be there for his younger sibling, so he is making up by helping a stranger? *********either way he's a doctor that's also a dentist(?) & conveniently he's got a dentist's office at home? but not enough money to pay the electricity bill? ******************************************************************************************************************** & idk what that medieval looking device was, but from what i know about devices that were used before electricity came into the picture, it was freakin painful & not sexy or arousing in the least - unless Bian Ye is into S & M, that scene was plain weird - ****************************************************************************************************************************************now the reason i am freakin p*ssed, i hate the sister - sorry not sorry but every time this b*tch opens her mouth & calls her brother a "jinx" i wanna drop kick her. she isn't just spoilt, but also an entitled little b*tch. why does her brother need to break his back for her? & her mother is grateful to Zhan Wang for getting her an acting tutor - but not filled with shame that her inability to educate that spoilt brat is putting an unnecessary burden on her son? & now she has to bow in thanks to a stranger that is younger then her??? ***********************************************************************************************************i am sorry but this f*cked-up & as they not living in the lap of luxury, leave that house needing maintenance, they in debt & the mother is in poor health - everything landing on Xu Yuan back & yet his sister is acting this self centered, but it's ok cause she is a fujoshi??? f*ck that sh*t - this not cute or funny, just infuriating!

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Yet another great double episodes. Episode 4 and 5 absolutely shattered me.

XuYuan spent his whole life believing he was born cursed. No friends, no warmth, no place that ever felt like home. The entire town looked at him like he carried bad luck in his bones. Then Zhan Wang walked into his life like sunlight through a shattered window.

He stayed.

He never laughed at XuYuan’s silence. He filled the empty spaces with patience, with kindness, with hands that rebuilt broken things. He fixed his house like he was trying to fix every year XuYuan spent alone. He dragged him into sports just to see him smile once. Bought him things not because XuYuan asked, but because nobody had ever thought he deserved anything before.

And the cruelest part is that XuYuan probably never understood just how deeply he was loved.
Because people do not fight this hard for someone they do not love. They do not become light for another person over and over again while the world keeps turning dark. Zhan Wang saw a boy abandoned by everyone else and decided he would spend every day proving he was worth staying for.

No matter how unbearable XuYuan’s life became, Zhan Wang kept showing up like sunrise after endless rain.

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