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It was his desk mate , Jin Fan doesn't like anyone to sit next to him but the teacher Zhao asked if Kiki can sit next to him he agreed, they sat for two weeks but did left a good impression, when he turn 16 she thinks of discontinued her study , Zhang Jun visit teacher Gao during New year they spoke about luo qi qi asked Zhang Jun asked him if he happened to meet her , asked why she want to discontinued, when she returns the Math Book in the library she happened to meet him they solve the math problem again he give a piece of advice to her

She is jealous of LQQ that why before leaving to her father Town she got into Hangzhou university she wrote her an letter asking her forgiveness

Guan He went to Hangzhou, her father's hometown, and her mother and she should be very satisfied. As soon as the acceptance letter arrived, she and her mother left.

The day after she left, I received a letter from her, which I saw was postmarked the day before. When my dad handed me the letter, he smiled and said, "What a bunch of kids!" Is there anything you can't say to your face? Didn't you just go to her house yesterday to say goodbye to her?
I began to be madly jealous of you, jealous that you studied better than me, jealous that Zhang Jun liked you, jealous that you didn't care at all, jealous that everyone paid attention to you, all the teachers were desperately good to you, even the elementary school classmates who used to like me only talked about you and ignored me.

Jealousy caused me to do a lot of dishonorable things. At first, it was just a small action, for example, at Zhang Jun's birthday party, I deliberately let you sing after me, just because I understand that you sing less than me, but Zhang Jun made the original embarrassment romantic, it turns out that you are now the focus of everyone's attention, and no one cares about what Guan He is like. My jealousy made me go farther and farther, and I began to target Zhang Jun
also told him what you said, saying that you don't believe in love at all, and think that love is just an illusion. I have already said in front of him that your most important thing is learning, and you will never let anyone affect your learning.

I was a saboteur intentionally or unintentionally, but at the time, I didn't admit it, I told myself that Zhang Jun and I were just good friends who cared about each other, and I told him the truth. Now I no longer want to justify myself, I did try to destroy you by any means.

In the end, in the face of his persistence and your honesty, I retreated, my pride and I disdained to be a girl like Huang Wei, in fact, I was even worse than her under the gorgeous gauze. I'm not even because I like Zhang Jun, I just want you to taste the feeling of failure, because I hate you!

When I dwell on success and failure, I have already failed, but I am in the game and have long been lost. When you tell me that you have always envied me since I was a child, not only my studies, but also my attitude towards the world, I suddenly feel stupid. How can I be a failed person because of failed learning? If Dad had a spirit underground, he would be ashamed of me!

I began to distance myself from you, and I also cried and quarreled with her when my mother scolded me for not arguing, telling her that I had been forced by her to commit suicide. In the days after my junior year of high school, I lived a very simple and peaceful life, I didn't even look at the report list, I asked myself, did I try my best every day? As long as I try my best, I can sleep peacefully.
Zhang Jun finally broke up with you, you and he kept their mouths shut, I can't know the reason, I don't know how much weight I played in this process, I'm sorry!

I have posted about Xiao bo 1 and 2 in the novel she leave the message to meet her in the river Bank. The beautiful enchantress big sister wang brother squid and Xiao bo open the book store, asking him to meet her

I have posted about Xiao bo 1 and 2 in the novel she leave the message to meet her in the river Bank. The beautiful enchantress big sister wang brother squid and Xiao bo open the book store, asking him to meet her

I have posted about Xiao bo 1 and 2 in the novel she leave the message to meet her in the river Bank. The beautiful enchantress big sister wang brother squid and Xiao bo open the book store, asking him to meet her

Yes indeed it good to read the novel

Xiao bo 2
Xu Xiaobo's friends like him very much, this person does not say much, but he can do what he says, he is generous, and he is also righteous to his friends.

Their gang has a little money, but they are not so rich, that is, it is no problem to buy a BMW Brilliance of two or three hundred thousand, but it is difficult to buy a BMW X5 with more than one million, but it is not a high-consumption city such as Beijing and Shanghai, so they do not pull a single thing for the enjoyment of eating, drinking and gambling.

Xu Xiaobo is a little different from them, he doesn't raise women, doesn't gamble, doesn't powder, doesn't collect alcohol... It can't be said that he doesn't have a hobby, he likes to read, it is said that there are several cabinets full of books at home, but this hobby doesn't cost money, and this hobby is strange enough, now even university professors are busy making money, there is no time to read, he doesn't have a high school diploma actually likes to read?

Often a bunch of them were drinking to the head of Xing, and the women around them began to let go, and Xu Xiaobo got up to leave.

At first, everyone didn't understand, and even some people didn't like him, but after getting along for a long time, they slowly understood Xiaobo's personality, but they felt that he was very good like this, and wanted to introduce his cousin to him, but Xiaobo always smiled and refused.

Everyone wondered, what kind of person does this Xu Xiaobo want to find?

Xu Xiaobo is also asking himself this question, what kind of woman does he want to spend the rest of his life with?

If you just find a virtuous woman to form a family, it is not difficult, just like Brother Li, but he has more expectations in his heart.

Under the persuasion of Brother Li, he also got along with several girls, and they were all quite happy, but he always felt that something was missing.

Brother Li asked him, "What's missing?"

Xiaobo couldn't answer again.

Brother Li shook his head and sighed, "Did you unconsciously compare them with Qi Qi?" Qi Qi and you have known each other since childhood, and their temperaments are undecided when they know each other, and when they grow up, they inevitably have more tacit understanding than others, if you want that feeling, it must be lacking.

Xiao Bo was a little unhappy, and did not hide it from Brother Li, directly showing it on his face, "What nonsense?" Don't say that Qi Qi left long ago, even when I was there, I also always regarded her as a sister.

Brother Li did not speak.

Was Qi Qi ten years old when she met Xiaobo? It was the time when a girl's personality gradually took shape, and Qi Qi was very convinced of Xiaobo, psychologically very dependent on Xiaobo, and Qiqi's personality almost transformed into growth little by little under the influence of Xiaobo, becoming what Xiaobo wanted her to be. Even Xiao Bo's final renunciation only contributed to Qi Qi's transformation and growth again, to exaggerate, that girl was simply cultivated by Xiao Bo according to the expectations in his heart. It's just that Xiaobo himself didn't realize it.

Qi Qi finally became what Xiao Bo wanted her to be the most - self-respect and self-love, hard work, intelligence and confidence, sincerity in reason, and gentleness under strength, and under the beauty of all this, Qi Qi still hides stubbornness and extremes, and even inferiority and cruelty, which is also something hidden in Xiao Bo's heart.

Brother Li stood up and patted Xiao Bo's shoulder, "Your sister-in-law will take her son back to her mother's house tonight, I will resume my singleness and call the squid to play ball together."

Xiaobo was about to make a call when his cell phone rang.

"My eldest brother and I nagged you righteously, saying that we were playing ball together at night, do you want to take a leave with your enchanting sister?"

No, I'm with her, we're all on the 'water side', you guys hurry up, I have good news... No, there's a big surprise for you.

Xiao Bo laughed: "What kind of surprise?"

"You'll know when you come over, hurry up!"

Xiaobo hung up the phone and went downstairs with Brother Li to pick up the car, carrying another case of beer on the way.

When I walked into the "Water Side", the door of the shop was closed, so I sat inside and chatted with the squid.

Brother Li put the beer down and said to the enchanting with a smile: "You help us order some barbecue, and we will eat while playing ball later."

Enchanting agreed, but did not move, looking at Xiaobo with a grin.

Xiao Bo looked at the squid: "Your expression makes my scalp numb."

The squid asked enchantingly: "Do you say it or I say it."

"Say it!" But as soon as the squid was about to speak, the enchanting immediately said: "Let me do it!" Xiao Bo, you sit down first.

Xiao Bo deliberately pretended to be cautious, sat on the edge of the sofa, and said with low eyebrows: "Sister-in-law, you say!" Seeing

this, Brother Li was also interested, and sat next to him with a smile.

Enchanting held a piece of paper in her hand, folded it for a while, and opened it for a while, "An old friend came to the store today, guess who it is?" Xiao

Bo smiled and began to guess, from Zhang San, Li Si, guessed Wang Ermazi, enchanting and shaking his head with a smile.

Brother Li saw the squid and enchanting, and slammed the spirit, if it is an old friend, since the squid, enchanting and Xiaobo all know, it should also be his old friend, but the squid and enchanting do not care about his reaction, obviously this old friend has a better relationship with Xiaobo, is the person Xiaobo cares about, Xiaobo this person is very strict with himself, face and heart cold, looking at everyone is buddies, actually pick friends badly, there are not many people who can make him care.

Brother Li stepped on the squid under the table and asked him with his eyes, and the squid nodded slightly.

Their movements were very slight, but Xiaobo had always been delicate, and after a while, what Brother Li thought, he had already thought of.

He still had a smile on his face, but he couldn't say it, and his name was pressed on the tip of his tongue, but he couldn't spit it out. Perhaps because I care too much, I don't trust my own judgment for fear of being wrong.

For a while, the room fell silent, and no one spoke.

More than ten years ago, when they were young people, Brother Li, Squid, Xiaobo, Enchanting, and Qi Qi were like a small family, playing together, making trouble together, breaking into trouble together, bearing together, taking care of each other, and caring for each other, but since the squid had an accident and went to prison, they have not gathered again, either missing this or missing that, and at the most difficult time, only Brother Li and Xiaobo were
left
Later, the squid came out of prison, and after hard work and overcoming many difficulties to find the enchantment, they were reunited again, although there was a Qi Qi missing, but it was nothing, after all, the days were better and better, and everyone mentioned her less, just as they rarely recalled everything in the past.

However, this night, Qi Qi's name was like a spell that awakened everything they thought they had forgotten.

There was laughter, there was wantonness, and there were so many years of hardship and bitterness.

Between Qi Qi's departure and return, more than ten years of time have only passed in a flash, but the ups and downs of life, failure and success, reunion, bitterness and sweetness, they have all experienced it one by one.

Enchanting silently put the note in her hand in front of Xiaobo, "This is Qiqi's message to you." "When her hand was empty, the first thing she did was to grab the squid's hand, and as soon as she touched the squid's hand, she was tightly grasped by the squid in the palm of her hand.

The years are like a big river boat, sometimes the water is slow and the waves are flat, you can easily hold hands and laugh at the scenery on both sides, frolic and play, sometimes the wind and waves are strong, you must fight hard, one accidentally will overturn and die, in order to protect yourself and not drag others down, you have to let go.

After a great wave, it may be lost forever, and when the wind is calm again, the boat is still moving forward, andWe can only weep at the bow of the ship after those separations, wipe away our tears, continue to sail forward, welcome new landscapes, new people, and laugh in new landscapes.
There are few people in this world who have the courage to jump off the rapids and turn back to find the lost man, who knows where that person was rushed to? Who knows if he greeted new landscapes, new people, and laughed in new landscapes? Therefore, you can only press the past into the bottom of your heart and continue to move forward, there is no right or wrong, this is life.

But how happy it would be if you could not let go, if you could hold hands forever!

Enchanting looked at the squid, there were faint tears in her eyes, and there were words in her heart that would never be spoken, "Thank you, thank you for refusing to let go, without your stupid refusal to let go, there would be no holding hands today."

Xiao Bo held the note, but did not open it for a long time, only smiled and asked: "What does she look like now?"

The squid said: "I don't know, we didn't see it, she left the note to the clerk and asked the enchantment to hand it over to you."

Enchanting thought for a moment and said, "I think I saw her."

Xiao Bo smiled and did not speak, his gaze not only did not look enchanting, but hung down, staring at the folded note in his hand.

Enchanting said: "I was talking to my sister on the phone, afraid that the customers in the store would think I was noisy, so I didn't enter the store, stood outside and said, I accidentally saw a woman staring at me all the time, I thought she was a little familiar, but I was busy talking about things and didn't care."

The squid said, "You're stupid enough!" Being stared at doesn't even react!

"Hmph!" Enchanting ruffled her hair, smiled, very amorous, "I walk on the street all the time there will be people staring, am I still curious about the past?"

Brother Li smiled implicitly, but the squid laughed loudly.

Enchanting glared at them and said to Xiao Bo: "Although I didn't pay much attention, I still have a general impression, it seems that her appearance should be very good, and she is more beautiful than before, not that earthy Qiqi, otherwise I wouldn't have recognized it, didn't she make an appointment to meet tomorrow?" Just go with confidence!

Xiaobo was stunned and pointed to the note enchantingly.

Wavelet finally opened the note.

Beautiful and warm little bookstore, like a teenager's dream. Dreamers have forgotten what they thought in the red dust, but they did not expect that when they looked back, the dream had come true.

Xiaobo, tomorrow I will wait for you by the river.

Qi Qi
:
I'm talking about not seeing it!

Xiao Bo's heart suddenly beat a little faster, and he didn't drink at all, but he had a slight feeling of dizziness.

Brother Li also didn't talk about a gentleman's style with Xiao Bo, leaned next to Xiao Bo, read it with relish, and said with a grin: "Cheng, Qi Qi is present, this is bold!" Comrade Xiaobo, we have entrusted you with the task of welcoming Qi Qi back!

Enchanting said excitedly: "Tomorrow you are approved to meet alone, and the day after tomorrow we want everyone to go together, we will go to K song first, and then go to dance, to check if this girl has forgotten what we taught her back then."

The squid said, "And playing cards!" Brother Li and I are still a family, let you and Qi Qi's family, see who loses and who wins. The

people at the table laughed heartily, maybe they didn't have any big achievements, maybe they defeated the cruel years, and they were together all the time, this is the greatest miracle of life!

Xiao Bo smiled and did not speak, Brother Li gave the squid a look, the two stood up and went to play billiards, and the enchanting followed, one holding a can of beer and chatting quietly.

The squid glanced at Xiao Bo, who was sitting alone under the lamp, and whispered: "Qi Qi came back, I thought Xiao Bo would be the most excited and happy, but he didn't seem to be very happy, but he was full of things."

Enchanting glared at him: "If you don't understand, don't talk nonsense!" Brother

Li muttered while playing, "The old problem of Xiaobo culture people has been committed again, and before they have done anything, they have begun to think about the consequences of all kinds of sourness, worried that it is better to see each other than not to see, memories are beautiful, reality is cruel, according to me, people or read less books, how many happy big thinkers have?" It's all thinking too much and doing too little!

The squid said, "What do you mean?" Missing? What's missing? Will he go to see Qi Qi? Where can this be? How difficult it is for people to come back from the United States! Enchanting

thought for a while, but understood what Brother Li meant, looked at the squid, and said to Brother Li: "They are all too smart, and they are troubled by cleverness!" Think about what you do! If my family squid, this reckless thing, cares about you three seven twenty-one, rushes to you first to ask clearly, if you don't agree, I will smash you and fight at home. Brother

Li laughed, "Yes, so this kid is stupid!"

The squid touched his head, looked at his wife, and looked at his eldest brother, "I don't seem to be saying good things to listen to what you said, but it seems to be praising me again!"

Enchanting smiled and said, "I'm praising you!"

The squid asked, "What exactly do you mean?" Why didn't Xiaobo go to see Qiqi?

Enchanting said: "If Xiaobo is like us, he will go to meet, if he finds that he is different from us, then he will think about more things, such as whether Qi Qi is married, whether he has a boyfriend, whether he is worthy of it, whether it is possible, how big it may be, will it hurt Qi Qi..."
The
squid listened dizzy, "Won't he ask? If you meet and ask, you will know! What's wrong with yourself? Enchanting

looked at Brother Li helplessly, with a look of "Look, I really said it", Brother Li smiled and dragged the squid, "You hurry up and play, don't think about it anymore."

Xiao Bo came over with a smile, "What do you say?"

Brother Li said, "Just talk about you!" Don't hurry up and get the pole yet!

Xiaobo went to get the pole and waited for the next game to start while watching the battle.

Enchanting looked at the three of them, smiled and went out to help them buy barbecue.

The three brothers played billiards all night, drank a case of beer, and drained three bottles of white wine, and Brother Li drunk Xiaobo with a little deliberateness.

When Xiaobo woke up the next day, he found that it was already four o'clock in the afternoon, and he sweated on his forehead, and hurriedly went to the shower, scolding himself while taking a shower.

After taking a bath, I saw Brother Li sitting in the living room, stretching his lazy waist and saying to him: "I haven't eaten for a day, let's go to dinner."

Xiao Bo swept the clock on the wall out of the corner of his eye, and did not make a sound.

Brother Li didn't notice his expression at all, pushing Xiaobo out, while happily calling and asking the squid and the enchanting to come over to eat together.

After tossing for a long time, the four of them gathered in the hotel, and Enchanting also brought the child.

Wavelets because of sexZihao, there has always been a child, as soon as the little guy sees him, he climbs on him, and Xiaobo can only fight hard and coax the little guy to play.

A meal is disturbed, a plate hits, a chopstick falls, a child cries, Xiaobo is patient at first, the line of sight in the corner of his eyes has been sweeping the watch he wears on his wrist, and later, he began to accept his fate with a cold heart, just like in the rapids, a person rowed a small boat and wanted to go upstream, tired and sweaty, but found that the pulp in his hand was too fine, not enough to resist the rapids, slowly, he began to accept his fate, Just go with the current!

After dinner, when the four people walked out of the hotel, it was almost eight o'clock.

It was dark night, the sun had not yet set, and the sky was a warm blue, and wisps of flowing clouds floated in the sky like the scales of a goldfish.

Enchanting holding the child, looking up at the sky, the child is tired of playing, lying on the mother's shoulder and falling asleep.

While covering the child with a small coat, the squid looked at what Xiaobo wanted to say, Brother Li waved at him and ordered: "Squid, you take the enchanting and the child home, I will send Xiaobo." Brother

Li focused on driving the car, and Xiaobo looked ahead, but there was no focal length.

The two brothers sat side by side, not saying a word.

When Xiaobo found out, Brother Li had already driven the car to the river, he parked the car next to the embankment, Xiaobo looked at him puzzled, "Didn't you say go home?"

Li Gora opened the door, "Get down!" His expression was very serious, revealing the majesty of when he was a big brother.

Xiao Bo got out of the car silently, and Brother Li led him along the embankment and walked slowly.

Walking to an open place, Brother Li gave Xiaobo a cigarette, and the two lay on the railing, looking at the river and smoking.

"Xiao Bo, I deliberately drunk you last night, you are good at everything, but your mind is too detailed, I don't want you to ponder this matter repeatedly."

"I know." Xiao Bo's expression was calm.

"Now tell me the truth, what do you think?"

"I don't know, I didn't think about it."

"Then think now, think from the beginning."

Xiao Bo smoked silently, and after a long time said: "Back then, I really regarded her as a sister, or as another self."

"So what now?"

"I haven't thought about her very often over the years, but every time I'm happiest and unhappy, I think of our days together. Two people reading in a room, not saying a word, but as soon as they look up, they can see each other, which is very reassuring. And pedaling bicycles, going to the alley together to find snacks, both of them knocking on the door, buying peanut candy one by one, but we are all very happy. She liked to listen to old Shanghai songs, and always pulled me to listen to them with her, so that I gradually began to like listening to these songs. The

valve of memory opened, and all the past came to my face, "Once I was at home to help my mother turn over gloves, she came to me, the home was stuffy and hot, but she kept helping me turn over gloves, after we came out, I said to invite her to eat popsicles, let her choose at will, you're welcome, she pretended to pick for a long time, and finally chose the cheapest, and said that she just loves this." I still remember that every exam in high school would post the results, she would go to see it every time, once the list did not know who tore a piece, could not see my ranking, she was tiptoeing, counting up one by one with two fingers, inferring my ranking, I just bumped into, slapped her on the head from behind, asked her what she was doing, she turned her head and did not speak, just giggled at me. But you call her stupid, at that time I always thought about going to college in the future, going to part ways with you, and I didn't want to owe you too much favor, but she specially reminded me not to do this, it would break your heart..."

After Xiao Bo said that, he slowly lost his voice, just looked at the sparkling river in a daze.

Brother Li also ignored him, and slowly pondered by himself.

After a long time, Xiaobo said softly: "I think you are right, I have been unconsciously comparing all women with her over the years, I always want to find the feeling of not saying a word but being very at ease, even if you are penniless, you can still laugh positively, you can understand each other's tacit understanding at a glance in the noisy crowd, no matter what happens, you know that the other party will not abandon themselves." Xiao Bo raised his head and stared at a red floating cloud at the top of the treetops, "If I had never had, I might have been married a long time ago, but because I had it, I knew that feeling in this world really existed, so I refused to compromise." At

that time, Xiao Bo faced too much pressure in life, the future was dark, it was already good to be able to struggle to survive, he didn't have the heart to think about love at all, but when he began to think about this matter, he found that the best love in his life had already come, but at the same time he realized that it had been lost.

Brother Li took a sharp puff of cigarette and said, "Qi Qi is very good, but you and she have long been people from two worlds, people are high-achieving students in Tsinghua, who have drunk foreign ink, what are you?" You don't even have a high school diploma! This is not only academic qualifications, but also represents a person's experience, vision, social status, and interpersonal network.
Xiao Bo lowered his head and looked at his hand without making a sound.

Brother Li said: "She and you used to have a tacit understanding, that is because she and you live in the same world, now what do you take to have a tacit understanding with her?" When she listens to English songs, can you accompany her? When she takes you to meet your classmates, how should you introduce it? Oh, the man who didn't even finish high school? What will her classmates think of her? We are not children anymore, we all know that people actually live in the eyes of others.

Brother Li patted Xiao Bo's shoulder, "This is a real world, and you have always been sensible, you should understand that it is impossible between you!" Brother Li pinched the cigarette butt, took the last puff, and threw the cigarette butt to the ground, "You ask a hundred people, and a hundred people will tell you not to think about it."

Xiao Bo raised his head and said with a smile: "I know, I didn't think about it, big brother, send me home!" Brother

Li stepped the cigarette butt, crushed the smoke fiercely, and suddenly smashed Xiaobo with two punches, and Xiaobo was beaten and staggered back a few big steps.

Brother Li pointed at him and scolded: "You know a fart!" Do you know how many people tell Lao Tzu that your boy is too shrewd and makes me wary of you? But I don't believe in that evil, I believe in you! When the squid just came out of prison, even we advised him to stop worrying about enchantment, people are doing well now, but the squid doesn't care, he has to go to find enchantment, what happened? You saw it too! Our stupid brother who has been in prison has married a capable and intelligent beauty back! How many people are so surprised that they can't close their jaws? Over the years, how many people have advised you in front of you to leave me and set up your own door, but why haven't you done it? Such a clear good thing, why didn't you fucking do it? Xiaobo

was silent.

Brother Li roared loudly: "Xu Xiaobo, have you lived a comfortable life for too long and forgotten our origins?" We are the ones who come out to mess around! Hooligans who dare to do anything! You're not a fucking good citizen who does things forward-looking! Have you forgotten why you survived and lived better than others? You have nothing, some are courageous and dare to fight, the reason and rules set by those societies are not set for people like us, always according to the rules of those smart people, our group has long dispersed! Who ruled that a high school student can't marry a PhD? Who the stipulates that men in small cities are not worthy of girls in big cities? Who prescribes that we are worse than those elites? Whoever the prescribes who is more noble than whom? We also struggled step by step, sweating and suffering a lot more than them! Lao Tzu is very proud of himself! You fucking should be proud of yourself! She Luo Qiqi don't say that she is not a princess, even if she is really a princess, you deserve it!

Xiao Bo looked at Brother Li stunned, with a complicated expression.

Brother Li said: "You hurry up and let me go to see her!" Whether she is married or not, whether she has a boyfriend or not, she has said what she should say, what she should do, no matter what the result is, at least she has fought it, there are no regrets, the manly husband can afford to put it down, there is still a long road ahead, there are many good days, and there are many good women! Brother

Li brushed his hair with both hands, gasped for a few breaths, and his anger finally subsided.

Xiaobo subconsciously looked at the sky, the sun had set, and only the red glow reflected the last splendor.

It's been a whole day, will Qi Qi still wait?

Brother Li also looked at the sky and said gently: "I deliberately delayed until now, if the relationship for many years cannot be returned to a day's wait, then there is no need to meet." If she is still the Qi Qi in our memories, she must still be waiting for you, and she will definitely be gone! No matter what you think in your heart, what will happen in the future, can't she wait a day for you to see her?

"Big brother..." Xiao Bo wanted to say something, but his voice broke in his throat.

Brother Li glared at him and raised his leg to kick, "Don't go yet, do you really want me to press you?"

Xiao Bo dodged and avoided, nodded at Brother Li, and walked quickly along the river embankment.

Brother Li watched Xiao Bo's back disappear into the night.

He lit another cigarette and lay on the railing, smiling as he smoked in the evening breeze.

The red sky is fading its gorgeous clothes little by little, returning to darkness, and tomorrow is a new day.

No one knows what tomorrow will look like, whether it will be hazy or sunny? But that doesn't matter, the important thing is that there is tomorrow after tomorrow, as long as life is not over, there will always be the next tomorrow, and we can always hope that the next moment is the happiness we want.

What really lights up life is not the scenery of tomorrow, but the beautiful hope.

We walk bravely with good hopes, fall and get up again, try hard when we fail, always believe that tomorrow will be better, always believe that no matter how ordinary we are, we will have our own happiness, which is the most brilliant scenery in ordinary life.

(End)

Ok I will post the other version of Xiao bo after he received the message from kiki
Part 1


From childhood to adulthood, Xu Xiaobo and Luo Qiqi are all one family; Everyone goes out to play together, Qi Qi is only willing to take Xiao Bo's broken bicycle and go to restaurants to eat, Qi Qi will always occupy the position next to Xiao Bo, no matter who comes; The two watched the video on the sofa together, Xiaobo took Qi Qi to watch Jet Li's "Smiling Rivers and Lakes", and Qi Qi pulled Xiaobo to watch Audrey Hepburn's "Roman Holiday"; Both like to read, often one lying on the sofa, the other sitting in front of the lamp, each looking at each other, not paying attention to each other, occasionally looking up at each other, sometimes the other party does not notice anything, sometimes they collide, smile at each other, and continue to read their own books...

Xu Xiaobo knew that he was a little different from all his friends, and Qi Qi was also a little different from them, and that little bit of difference made him and Qi Qi always have a tacit understanding, making him always think that they were a family.

Until that day.

He returned from the field and went to pick up Qi Qi at the school gate, and saw Qi Qi and a group of classmates fighting and walking out of the school gate.

Literary and artistic insight has just ended, and the school gate is full of people. Qi Qi and a beautiful girl held hands, walking very closely, surrounded by a group of classmates in the middle. They laugh while talking, walking is not honest, you push me, I fuck you, shouting and shouting, I don't know what to say, a group of people laughed forward and backward.

The lights at the school gate are very bright, illuminating their vitality and flying brightness.

Actually, this is not special, it is a picture that is found every day on campus.

But that is, he has been chasing very hard, but he has never been able to get everything.

Those vigorous and bright spirits did not belong to him, and for the first time he realized, perhaps, that Qi Qi and he were not the same.

He had been waiting for Qi Qi for half a night, but at this time, he hesitated. He didn't want to pull her out of that group of energetic classmates, his world was not so natural and bright.

Qi Qi looked bright, talked and laughed, he was the kind of mischievous who could be generously allowed by teachers, parents and classmates to see, without a trace of darkness, let alone a trace of bitterness.

Behind Qi Qi, is the gate of the school, the lights reflect solemn and solemn, like a Davidian, condensing the strength of parents, teachers and the whole society to protect Qi Qi's flying and bright.

He stared at the gate of the school, and his heart was filled with bitterness, this door was easy for others to enter, but for him, it was difficult.

Qi Qi suddenly turned her head sideways, her gaze swept over, and before he could avoid it, her face lit up and she rushed across the road in surprise.

At that moment, he had an indescribable joy, and the bitterness in his heart was swept away, as if a little hope flew across the road.

He controlled his joy, afraid that it would be too obvious that God would see it and take it back. From childhood to adulthood, he always knew that he was a child who was not favored by God.

Qi Qi asked him, "How long have you been waiting here?" Why don't you call me?

He smiled and said, "Just came over, just saw you guys come out."

Qiqi's classmates followed, and a group of people looked at him with strange eyes, as if they could see at a glance that he was not the same kind as them.

"Qi Qi, hurry up, let's go eat spicy and hot together." The classmates called Qiqi.

With him on one side and classmates on the other, Qi Qi stood between them hesitating, not knowing whether to be with his classmates or with him.

Xiao Bo looked at the group of teenagers with shining eyes and made a decision for Qi Qi, "Qi Qi, go play with your classmates." He smiled and turned away.

Under the dim street lamp, Xiaobo was alone, lonely.

He knew that Qi Qi was walking in the opposite direction to him, but it was bright and flying, a joy that was blessed by everyone.

That's good!

There was a sudden sound of footsteps behind him, his heart jumped, and before he could turn back, Qi Qi jumped to his side, constructed his arms, and smiled like a flower.

At that moment, he felt a deep emotion and joy in his heart.

He asked, "Didn't you go to eat spicy hot?"

"I love kebabs." Qi Qi showed his importance in her heart unreservedly, and firmly told him her choice.

In his joy, he did not think deeply about Qi Qi's choice, or, at that time, he still had illusions that he could still realize his dreams, and that he and Qi Qi were still a family.

However, the last illusion was also shattered.

He also had to shoulder his responsibilities, he could not shift all the responsibility to others for his dreams, and he could not live only for himself, so he decided to break his dreams.

He knew very well that he would slowly become exactly like the people around him, he would gradually forget what kind of dreams he had, he would no longer have that little difference, but Qi Qi still had it.
For countless nights, he smoked, and in the smoke, he recalled the bits and pieces since they met. For six years, he almost watched her grow up little by little, there were too many happy memories between them, and he also believed that Qi Qi was happy. But every time, he always remembered the scene he saw at the school gate that night, and Qi Qi's expression was bright, bright and happy.

For so many years, he always felt that he was taking care of and accompanying this little girl, but now he suddenly found that it was actually the little girl who was taking care of and accompanying him.

Brother Li joked that he carefully guarded Qi Qi like a miser, not allowing anyone to interfere, and he had always thought that he protected Qi Qi like a big brother, and now he suddenly understood that he was not only protecting Qi Qi, but also himself, and the deepest light hidden in his heart.

No matter when you look up, you can see her next to you, so no matter what you see when you look down, you will firmly believe that tomorrow will be better.

He always thought that Qi Qi needed his protection, but in fact, it was just that the light in his heart had been struggling, and one would be accidentally extinguished at any time, and it was that light that needed protection.

Qi Qi does not need his protection, and when he is away, Qi Qi soon has new friends, a new life, and a happy life.

For so many years, maybe it was just a little selfishness in his heart, dragging her to be a family with him in their world, intentionally or unintentionally cutting off her opportunity to make classmates.

Now, will he continue to drag her and him as a family?

He is well aware of Qiqi's character, as long as he is here, Qi Qi will never turn his back on him, but he is also very clear about her intelligence, as long as her intelligence is used by her on the right path, she will definitely become a pearl.

Qi Qi still didn't know what she really wanted, and even if she stayed in their world, she wouldn't understand what she missed, let alone regret what she missed.

But he knew!

He chose to break off friendship with Qi Qi!

He knew that Qi Qi was sad, and he was more tender than her, because he not only carried his own sadness, but also her sadness.

He knew that under the scorching sun, Qi Qi sat by the river all day and smoked, smoking a pack, but he knew that Qi Qi would never take decadence and depravity as an attitude to life, don't ask him how he knew, he just knew, just as he knew that he would never compromise with God, no matter how God made it difficult for him, he would definitely win.

Qi Qi enters high school, and restricts all rebellious wanton and begins to be a good student.

During this time, he was particularly tired.

Brother Li was too anxious and too eager to achieve results before, resulting in an unstable foundation, flowers and brocade when there was no accident, fire cooking oil, I couldn't see that there was a problem, and the cash flow was broken as soon as something happened, one ring after another, and the whole fell down like dominoes. The rest of the business went to others, and in the end, only the K Cabaret and the Dance Hall were saved.

But in order to help the squid and him, Brother Li mortgaged the water side to the loan shark, borrowed cash to file a lawsuit to dredge up relations, lost money to the people he crippled, sent money and gifts to the bosses in prison, and asked them to take care of the squid and not bully the squid.

Although the K Cabaret is operating normally, but affected by the case, the competition is now far fiercer than before, the business is not as good as before, the daily income is not even enough to pay the interest of usury, and what is more frightening is not to mention the enemy, that is, all the "good friends" are standing by and waiting for the opportunity, it seems that just waiting for them to turn around, they will bite their soft underbelly and divide them apart.

Sometimes, he will be very afraid, afraid that if they can't survive it, Brother Li will be chased and killed to collect debts; Afraid of losing care, even if the squid is not physically injured in prison, he will fall psychologically; I'm afraid they won't have tomorrow.

However, he can't let anyone know that he is afraid, otherwise those people will immediately pounce, nor can he let Brother Li know that he is afraid, Brother Li just believes in him so he can still face everything with a smile, but he himself knows that he is very afraid, he can't sleep well every night, and often wakes up from nightmares.

The next morning, he had to face everyone with a smile and confidence, hiding his nervous fear with an indulgence that didn't care.

Sometimes, when he couldn't hold on, he would go to the green forest by the river, sit deep in the small flower bed, smoke and rest at the same time. Only at this time will he let the waist that has stood up for a day loosen and let the smile that has been hanging for a day disappear.

After ten o'clock, Qi Qi would carry her school bag and stride through the path outside the green forest, sometimes she was deep thinking, sometimes she was reciting English with words, she was working hard for tomorrow.

When he saw her, he would temporarily forget the fear and nervousness and enjoy only the moment of peace.

One night, he saw Zhang Jun when he went to rest by the green forest.

He didn't know what happened, only saw Zhang Jun secretly following Qi Qi, at first he thought that Qi Qi had offended Zhang Jun, and for several days, he went to the green forest in advance to wait for Qi Qi, but later found that it was not, Zhang Jun was escorting Qi Qi home.

He and Zhang Jun were very careful, but Qi Qi didn't know what was going on, but he noticed something strange, and pretended to be very calm and shouted: "Xiaobo, come out, I have already seen you."

He couldn't help but laugh, after laughing, it was a little bitter, Qi Qi still didn't understand that she and he were no longer a family, and—never again!
At that moment, three people were sad.

Qi Qi's face was full of unconcealable sadness, and while walking, he was still looking around unwillingly: "Xiaobo, Xiaobo, you come out!"

Finally, she gave up, as if she had suddenly lost all her spirit, carrying her back, burying her head, and walking slowly.

Zhang Jun hid in the green forest, his back against the tree, his hands in his trouser pockets, his head raised and staring at the treetops, motionless.

Knowing that Qi Qi had disappeared at the intersection, Zhang Jun still maintained the exact same posture, even Xiao Bo could feel the sadness and loneliness in his heart, in surprise, Xiao Bo began to understand his mind a little, this boy has a pair of wise eyes and sees Qi Qi's good.

Xiaobo stared at Zhang Jun with slight envy.

In this circle, it is easy to fall, but it is difficult to be reborn, and how lucky this boy is to have a chance to start over, and now he is on the same path as Qi Qi.

Zhang Jun lowered his head and slowly walked out of the woods.

Xiao Bo still sat still, lit a cigarette, spit out a smoke ring, and watched the smoke dissipate, just like watching all the dreams of the past slowly pass away.

When Qi Qi's first midterm exam results came out, Brother Li was taken aback and said that he didn't expect Qi Qi to be so powerful.

There are more than twenty grades in the first middle school, which is a good result that many people crave, but Xiaobo knows that this is just Qi Qi's takeoff, and she is still groping for direction.

He stopped worrying about her and began to truly integrate into his new identity, his new life.

Unconsciously, the number of times he went to the green forest gradually decreased.

However, whenever he is stressed, or thinks of squid, where does he go, sit quietly in the dark, and slowly smoke a cigarette.

Qi Qi has a new friend and is a boy who looks very sunny.

She also seemed to be really integrated into her new life, and she was talking to the boys about the literary and artistic performances, and the names of one classmate after another popped out of her mouth, which were properly assigned by her, and the boys next to her looked at her with appreciation.

Qi Qi is more and more like an ordinary good student, studying hard, caring about the class, actively participating in group activities, getting along with classmates, having a group of good friends, maybe she will have a crush on a boy, maybe a few boys have a crush on her.

He was happy, very happy.

Seeing her positive and hard work, he suddenly felt a little ashamed, he was also trying, but not positive.

There is no way to choose in life, but the attitude to face life is always chosen by himself, does he not even have this bit of courage?

He thought for a moment and put out the cigarette he hadn't finished smoking.

The more difficult it is, the more he has to cherish himself, this is the truth he handed over to Qi Qi, but he himself forgot.

Since the squid's accident, Xiaobo smoked very fiercely, drank fiercely, and often ran out in the middle of the night to gamble with people and race cars. Brother Li did not persuade him, pretending not to tune anything, so many years of brotherhood, he understood that Xiaobo was not the kind of person who indulged.

Xiao Bo is only 19 years old, and people his age are still enjoying life under the protection of their parents, but he has to work hard and grovel to make a living, and if there is no outlet for release, he may be crushed by the pressure.

But I don't know when Xiaobo returned to normal, no longer drunk, no longer went out to drag racing.

Song Peng asked puzzledly: "Xiaobo, what stimulated you?" Why is it that suddenly the tobacco and alcohol are not stained? Did you make a housekeeper girlfriend?

Xiaobo said with a grin: "It's just that I don't have a girlfriend to love, so I want to be nice to myself."

Everyone laughed, no one took Xiaobo's words seriously, Brother Li looked at Xiaobo and laughed, this is Xiaobo! Everything will be fine!

I don't know how Xiaobo begged Song Jie, Song Jie made a guarantee for him, Xiaobo cobbled together to borrow money and opened a roller skating rink, and others couldn't figure out when the shrewd Song Jie started doing unprofitable things,Brother Li was unconsciously surprised, Song Jie is not an ordinary person, he is very good at looking at people, knowing that he helped Xu Xiaobo at this time, in exchange for Xiaobo being grateful to him for a lifetime, the object of his investment is not business, but Xu Xiaobo this person. Brother Li himself is from here, so he understands Song Jie's approach very well.

Xiaobo cherishes this opportunity given to him by Song Jie very much, very desperately, in order to decorate and save money, the migrant workers in China are the most simple people, but also the most treacherous people, their simple dialectical psychology is, you people in the city are very civilized, under the money you give me, I try to work as little as possible is I earn, whether you are scolding, or polite, They all cling to their faith under seemingly honest and honest attitudes.

Xiaobo looked at the construction site for a few days, understood everything, moved the cover into the construction site, lived with migrant workers, ate together, got up earlier than them every day, worked until the latest, what physical work is not vague, when carrying glass, his hands were cut with blood, he didn't say a word, the next day he carried a shovel to dig a drainage ditch, blood bubble after blood bubble, he didn't say a word of nonsense except for the task, just buried his head to work, After playing with their lives, the simple side of the migrant worker brothers was stimulated, and they really had enough strength to start working, but instead persuaded Xiaobo to rest and rest, and Xiaobo said something in a low voice, and they all immediately executed.

The roller rink was renovated before the weather heated up, and as soon as the business opened, it was too good to be good, and Brother Li knew that they had finally survived the worst days and survived. This is not just the success of a roller rink, everything from beginning to end Song Jie is cold-eyed, they are surrounded by wolves, and finally won a partner with vision, ability, and relationship.

Xiaobo put all his attention on the roller rink, stayed on the roller rink every day, got along with countless ways to attract customers, and the profitability of the roller rink was rising.

During the summer holidays, when the students are closed, business at the roller rink gets better, especially at night, and sometimes ticket sales are restricted.

On the day that Qi Qi sent the gift, Brother Li happened to be in the roller rink, and the song hall called over, saying that someone had left a letter for Little Bogo.

Xiao Bo was busy, so Brother Li ordered: "Whoever comes over later, just bring the letter by the way."

Then he was so busy that he forgot about it.

In the evening, the two brothers were chatting while eating a box lunch in the office, Xiaobo suddenly saw the envelope on the table, picked it up and looked at it, "What is this?"

"Oh, say someone gave you a letter."

Xiao Bo smiled and said: 'How do you feel swollen and hard, like a grenade?' Saying that, he tore open the envelope, shook it, and fell out a pinecone and a stone.

Brother Li laughed when he saw it, "What is this?"

Xiao Bo didn't smile, his eyes were thoughtful, and he shook the envelope again, and a small note fell out, Brother Li naturally had no concept of privacy, leaned over to see, there was no name on it, and there was no payment, just a sentence.

"Pine cones under the Great Wall of Beijing, stone flakes on Laoshan Mountain in Qingdao."

He became more and more strange, "What is this?"

Xiao Bo picked up the pine cones and stone chips and glanced at them, put them back in the envelope, and then began to eat, as if he didn't care at all, "A gift from Qiqi."

"How do you know?"

"I heard from Song Peng that she was selected to go to summer camp and would go to Beijing and Qingdao."

"So what did she mean by sending this? Indicates that she has been to the Great Wall and Laoshan?

Xiao Bo didn't speak, buried his head to eat, couldn't see his expression clearly, and after a while said lightly: "She should have kept a pinecone and stone chips herself, she felt that this was as if we shared everything, just like everyone used to watch videos and listen to songs together."

Brother Li was speechless, ate silently for a while, and suddenly said: "Otherwise, you better go to the university!"

Xiao Bo looked up at Brother Li, with no expression on his face, and said to Brother Li very gently: "Fuck you!"

Brother Li knew that he was really angry, and said no more, and said with a smile: "I said the wrong thing, eat, eat!" Song

Peng is thirteen years younger than Song Jie, almost two generations, and Song Jie's personality is completely different, and it is completely impossible to see that they are brothers.

Song Peng is very jumpy, he also knows that he has capital, the mantra is "people are not frivolous teenagers", but he restrained his arrogance before Xiaobo's gentleness and tranquility, and got along well with Xiaobo.

In the past few days, Song Peng has been fascinated by manipulating the spotlight, likes to lie in front of the window, pick targets, and be illuminated happily, Song Peng has more fun.

Xiao Bo sat on the sofa while reading the newspaper, while chatting with Song Peng every sentence.

Song Peng didn't know what he saw, didn't speak for most of the time, stared down intently, "Xiao Bo, is there a telescope?"

Xiaobo pointed to the drawer, and Song Peng picked up the binoculars and looked down, smiling as he looked.

"What are you looking at?"

"Classmate, I found that some people have an affair with each other."

Xiaobo smiled, didn't care, and continued to flip through the newspaper.

Xiaobo finished flipping through the newspaper, and Song Peng still held the telescope and read it with relish. Xiao Bo stood up, stretched his waist, walked to the window, and casually looked at the roller skating field.

Song Peng laughed twice, put down the binoculars, and went to fiddle with the spotlight.

Xiao Bo piled up the shadows in the window glass, doing the action of the circle machine, moving his muscles, and suddenly saw a familiar person shining under the spotlight - Qi Qi.

Qi Qi and a man were rollerblading, and suddenly they were illuminated by the light, and they were so shocked that they almost fell down, but fortunately the man moved quickly and helped her up. Qi Qi was obviously very upset, and hurriedly hid to the side, wanting to avoid the light, but Song Peng continued to chase her with the lamp, with a thief's smile on his face.

Even if Xiao Bo couldn't see clearly, he could imagine the impatience in Qi Qi's eyes, and he said to Song Peng with a smile: "Don't play, this light only shines on the better people, break the rules, and it will be difficult to manage in the future."

Song Peng said ruefully: "Let her go!" "Move the spotlight away and search for new targets.

Xiaobo picked up the binoculars and saw Qi Qi sliding into the corner, resting against the railing, Zhang Jun slid in front of her angrily, didn't know what to say, and turned around angrily and slid away.

Qi Qi looked at the roller rink in silence, probably feeling that no one around knew her, her face was a little relaxed, and her expression became a little sad.

Xiao Bo was puzzled, didn't she just go to Beijing and Qingdao to play? You should be happy.

I looked away from the telescope and took a look at the roller rink.

The spotlight is being cast on a pair of men and women who skate well, depicting the two very lively and moving, and also acquaintances - Zhang Jun and a beautiful girl playing pair skating.

Xiaobo picked up the binoculars again, looked at Qi Qi, and began to understand a little where her grief came from.

After watching for a while, Qi Qi suddenly rushed into the roller rink alone, skating almost frantically.

Xiao Bo's telescope chased her figure, he could understand her feeling at this moment, he wanted to try to get rid of all unpleasantness, wanted to leave everything behind, but - his heart jumped, and he watched Qi Qi fall backwards.

Protect the head!

Qi Qi did nothing, just fell so the concrete floor.

Because of the telescope, the picture flashed clearly and visibly in front of his eyes, and his feeling was as if Qi Qi fell in front of him, and he actually subconsciously stretched out his hand and wanted to grab her.

Zhang Jun in the spotlight glided happily with his female companion without noticing, dancing with the music, not knowing how sad Qi Qi was at this time.

Qi Qi lay alone on the cold concrete floor, motionless, under the telescope, the pain on her face was extremely clear.

Wavelet jerked away the binoculars.

Song Peng chased Zhang Jun with the spotlight to play, noticed Xiao Bo's abnormality, and glanced sideways at Xiao Bo, "What's wrong?"

Xiaobo smiled, "It's nothing. He picked up the binoculars again.

There was a young couple who stopped by Qi Qi's side, helped her up, and sent her to the rest area. Qi Qi held his head, shrunk his shoulders, and sat on a bench like a wounded little beast. After half a ring, she raised her head and followed the beam of the spotlight, magically sad and confused.

Suddenly, she stood up and walked outside the roller rink.

Xiaobo threw down the binoculars and said to Song Peng: "I'll go out to buy something." As soon as he reached the door, he turned back, removed the spotlight from Zhang Jun, searched around the crowd, stopped at a group of young couples, and said to the little brother who was playing music on the side: "Let me send them a free drink and fruit plate." Xiaobo

looked at Qi Qi from a distance, watched her buy an ice cream, held the ice cream, smiled at the air connection, and stubbornly said to herself that she wanted to laugh and not cry!

Slowly, hard, she actually made herself laugh, even laughed, and hummed a song, looking very happy.

He was very uncomfortable, if he could, how he wished he could accompany her, so that she could cry out loud, and not have to force herself so hard anymore.

But he couldn't!

He could only watch her throw herself alone, get up alone, swallow back tears alone, face the world with a smile alone.

Growth is inherently accompanied by pain, and being strong is a thick cocoon formed by layers of wounds.

Qi Qi walked and jumped like a happy bird.

No matter how many difficulties she encounters, she will definitely be able to defeat them bravely and strongly.

He followed behind her, staring at her stubborn back, sad, gratified, and proud.

A bicycle rode past him, the people on the car paid attention to Qi Qi, slowed down, and when they passed by Qi Qi, the owner stopped the car and greeted Qi Qi, it was Chen Jin who had just become a provincial champion.

Chen Jin pushed the bicycle to Qi Qi's side.

Because there were no vehicles on the road, it was very peaceful, and there happened to be a tailwind, and the conversation between the two reached Xiaobo's ears without a word.

Qi Qi said: "I went to see the list in the morning, congratulations."

Chen Jin was not interested in talking about his results, but was very concerned about Qi Qi's results: "I saw your results last semester, was it very shocking?" Still holding on?

Xiaobo was a little surprised, it turned out that this was also a person who knew that Qi Qi had not really taken off at all.

Qi Qi's voice was a little frustrated, "I'm insisting, but it's very hard, and sometimes I don't understand what I'm insisting on."

"When you get to the top of the mountain you will understand, if you give up halfway, then you will never understand." Don't give up! With the first time to give up, your life will be accustomed to retreating in the face of difficulties, but if you overcome the past, your life will be accustomed to moving forward against the wind and waves, looking at it is just a simple choice, in fact, the impact is very large, it is a completely different life. I

don't know how much Qi Qi understood these words, Xiao Bo was a little awe-struck by this genius, this is not a nerd who can only read, but a truly wise fighter for life.

After Chen Jin chatted with Qi Qi for a while, he rode away and asked Qi Qi if he wanted to send her home.

Xiaobo hoped that Qi Qi would agree, but Qi Qi refused.

"Goodbye!" Chen Jin pedaled his bicycle and left.

"Have a great college life!" Qi Qi shouted at Chen Jin.

Chen Jin smiled and turned around, "I'm waiting for you in Tsinghua."

Xiao Bo didn't know why, when he heard these words, his footsteps stopped abruptly, and after a while, he continued to walk, and his hand unconsciously shrunk his body into the darkness.

In the dark night, the only light source is one street lamp after another, neatly arranged along the sidewalk, guiding people's direction.

Qi Qi walked under the street lamp, as long as she kept walking, she would definitely be bright and bright all the way to a happy and warm home.

The world outside the street lamp is dark and gloomy, blurry, walking one foot deeper, one foot shallow, and even the person walking himself does not know what he will step on next foot and where it leads in front.

Xiao Bo is walking in the world outside the street lamp, he has the courage to walk his own way, and he is confident that he will reach the bright other side, but he does not want Qi Qi to enter this world, for Qi Qi, a talent like Chen Jin is a good mentor and friend, that is her companion.

One bright, one dark.

They will eventually go further and further.

This night, Xu Xiaobo clearly realized for the first time that Qi Qi would soon go to a distance that he could not reach.

After the start of the new semester of the second year of high school, Qi Qi was no longer alone when she left school, and Zhang Jun sent her home.

Xu Xiaobo did not go to the flower bed of the green forest to sit and rest for a long time, and he hardly saw Qi Qi again.

He heard that Qi Qi was in love and fell out of love again.

One is a former rogue, the other is the first in the first grade of the first middle school, and the love between the two is also vigorous and well-known.

Brother Li was very angry, angry that Zhang Jun dared to dump Qi Qi, angry at Qi Qi's stupidity, and not that he didn't know who Zhang Jun was, and he would fall in love with Zhang Jun.

Xiao Bo did not realize that Zhang Jun had lost Qi Qi, a man and a womanDifferent, a woman can love a man with a look up, but it is difficult for a man to love a woman with a look up, at least not Zhang Jun now, Zhang Jun has tried his best, but he is tired, so he let Qi Qi fly, and also let himself have a way to live.

Qi Qi must have been injured, but she must also have let Zhang Jun get hurt, this is just a growth without winning or losing.

He went to the green forest more often, and Qi Qi walked beside the sunny boy he had seen.

The young man thought of a way to make Qi Qi laugh.

Xiao Bo couldn't help but smile, he believed that Qi Qi would be fine because of the friends around her who loved and cared for her.

Xiaobo felt that everything was very stable and quietly waited for the final college entrance examination.

After the college entrance examination, he did not go to inquire about Qi Qi's results, he has been waiting for three years, and he is not anxious about these few days, he wants to wait until the day of the list and see it with his own eyes.

But when Song Jie was helping his younger brother Song Peng inquire about the results, he also knew Luo Qiqi's results, and said it casually at the dinner table, "This time the city champion is a girl, it seems to be called Luo something..."

Song Peng said dissatisfiedly, "Luo Qiqi! Brother

Li was amazingly excited, staring at Xiao Bo, but he didn't seem to hear it, his expression didn't change at all, he just picked up the wine bottle and slowly poured a full glass for himself, and drained it with his neck.

Brother Li felt guilty and sorry in his eyes, Xiaobo smiled and poured him a glass of wine, patted him on the shoulder, good brother, don't say who owes whom!

Brother Li immediately picked up the wine glass and drained it. Good brother, everything is silent!

Song Jie laughed, "What are you two brothers playing dumb riddles?" On

the day the college entrance examination was released, Brother Li put down the things at hand and came to Xiaobo at noon to accompany him to see the list, but he was busy, and things were always one after another, until the afternoon.

Brother Li asked, "Can you always leave now?"

"Eat first, starve to death!" The list is posted there, and it won't run, when can't you watch it? Brother

Li sighed and did not force him, "Then let's eat first!" Brother

Li can also understand Xiao Bo's thoughts, and seeing with his own eyes that Qi Qi's achievements are actually the final farewell, and since then, the little girl back then has completely flown out of their world and has no contact with them.

I went to a Sichuan restaurant, Xiao Bo ordered a plum vegetable button meat pot and a lotus leaf steamed pork, both laborious dishes, served very slowly, and ate a meal for two hours.

After the two of them finished eating, the sky was already gloomy.

Brother Li drove the car and went straight to the first middle school, and before he reached the school gate, Xiaobo suddenly said: "Stop!"

Brother Li didn't know what was wrong, and immediately turned the car into the boulevard and stopped on the side of the road.

Looking out the window, you can see the school gate of No. 1 Middle School through the gap between the trees.

The sunset has long set, only the last bit of afterglow makes the sky half bright, rendering layers of cold blue, the lights at the school gate have been turned on, two girls stand side by side at the school gate, looking up at the red list, one of them is Qi Qi.

They kept standing at the front of the list, not knowing what they were doing.

A long time later, when it was completely dark, the two people were finally leaving, walking along the school wall, Qi Qi kept a smiling expression, talking to the girl next to her, but as she walked, she suddenly began to shed tears, even the smile was still there, but the tears kept flowing.

The girl next to her noticed that Qi Qi was crying, and her gaze hurriedly swept over Qi Qi's face, looking into the distance, pretending to know nothing.

Qi Qi cried as she walked, passing by their car, and in the darkness, she didn't notice the car parked behind a row of willow trees.

Brother Li pushed Xiaobo, but Xiaobo didn't move, just lowered his head and looked around for smoke.

Brother Li threw a pack of cigarettes to him.

After Xiaobo finished smoking a cigarette, he opened the door and got out of the car, and quickly walked to the school gate to see the red list.

Luo Qiqi
The big characters
scalded with gold dust, at the very top of the red list, are very dazzling and very spirited.

Brother Li casually turned on the stereo, drove the car slowly, and when he drove behind Xiaobo, he stopped the car, rolled down the window, and smoked silently.

Xiaobo stood motionless, staring at the red list for a long time.

Brother Li could only see his straight back, and he didn't know what his expression was now and what he was thinking.

The low singing of the carriage plays softly in the summer evening breeze.

Brother Li didn't pay attention to it, but he listened to it, and he was in a daze, and he forgot to smoke the cigarette, letting it burn slowly between his fingers.

Who is beating my window, who is pulling the strings, that forgotten time gradually rises out of my heart, who is knocking on my window, who is pulling the strings, the joyful scene in the memory slowly emerges in my mind, the slowly falling rain keeps hitting my window, only the silent me, from time to time recall who was knocking on my window, who is pulling the strings, the joyful scene in the memory slowly emerges in my mind, the slowly falling rain keeps hitting my window, only the silent I recall from time to time, who was knocking on my window, who was pulling the strings, the joyful scene in the memory slowly emerged in my mindIn my head

The first and the last episode she is waiting in the river Bank, in the novel when she return to her home town she visited her school, the place they use to hang out was demolished, but by chance her eyes see a book store, she was curious so she go inside the book store, it was Xiao bo bookstore since it's was her wishes to open a bookstore so Xiao bo open one for her, she was happy that her older brother didn't forgot her , they was one chapter in the book , she say her brother has forgotten her and Zhang Jun Stop loving her.
Zhang Jun drive eight hour just to visit after he come to know how much she loved him , he hide from her and start to cry , it seem he doesn't have the encourage to face her, her older brother might visit her . She might be with JIN FAN he was the who really motivated her in her primary school where he help in memorize, English, math

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I will give you the link of the novel you can read it, the older women is related to him, LQQ asked who is she so he answers it's relative they know each other, he has no feeling for her he called elder sister

Will share their first kiss chap as well
Chapter 6: The Grand Farewell
1. The First Kiss
to Remember Always On
Wednesday afternoon, after class, the homeroom teacher called me to her office.

I vaguely understood what she wanted to talk about, and sure enough, she told about the students who had early love in previous years, and used their experience of declining grades and failing the college entrance examination to teach me that early love is absolutely not correct. and from the perspective of the same woman, it is deliberately emphasized that girls are more emotional, whether psychologically or physically, early love will hurt girls much more than boys.

She spoke bitterly for an hour, and I was silent.

As soon as I walked out of the office, I immediately forgot everything she had said and put it in the trash, not that she didn't make sense, but that she understood better than she did, that she underestimated my mind too much.
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Zhang Jun was also approached by the head teacher to talk, and must have advised him to break up. But none of us should have done anything about it, and we didn't even bother to communicate about it.

Teacher, for me and Zhang Jun, it is very annoying, but it does not constitute any deterrent.

Zhang Jun and I are still "early love" in our own way. I have the aura of being the first in my grade, Zhang Jun is the top four in the class, the homeroom teacher and his brother-in-law know each other, and the teachers adopt relatively gentle educational methods, but they are still disturbed, and they are invited to the office every week to talk. I want to tell the teacher that if my learning is affected, it is not because of early love, but because of you.

After the results of the midterm exam, I was the first in the age and Zhang Jun was the twenty-eighth.

I breathed a sigh of relief, now the teacher should no longer be talking in our ears about the impact of early love on learning, right?

On Saturday night, Zhang Jun asked me to go for a walk by the river.

Autumn colours have stained the aspen forests on both sides of the riverbank. At a glance, it is golden and has a heavy splendor.

We sat on the bridge and watched the river flow under it.

Zhang Jun handed me an old tin biscuit box, and I opened it to see that it contained a lot of beautiful stones.

I looked at him suspiciously, and he smiled and said, "Late birthday present."
I didn't hold back, pursing the corners of my lips and laughing, "
I thought you forgot this year."

"I won't forget," she said.

"Why are there so many stones? Didn't you say you would only give me one a year?

He grabbed a few stones and let them fall from his fingers, making a clanging sound, "Over the years, I will pick up stones when I like you, and throw away all the stones I pick up when I don't want to like you." I still remember when I was in junior high school, I saw you dancing with Xu
Xiaobo again, and I ran here that night, threw all the stones, and said to myself while throwing stones, I definitely don't like you again. Images
of the past come to mind, as clear as yesterday, but it has been more than three years.

I smiled wryly and said, "That night, I was under the bridge."Huh?" He didn't understand.

"The night you threw the stone, I sat there and watched you all the time, and after you left, I went home, because I came back late, and my father scolded me." I pointed to the shadow next to the pier, where I was sitting.

He looked at me sideways, the expression on
his face was sad and joyful, very strange, and it was estimated that I was not much better than him, and it took us more than seven hundred days to get from under the bridge to the bridge.

He looked down at the river and said, "I always thought you hated me. But then you helped me hide the gun, I thought that you can't do these things for everyone, and when you refused to give me the gun, I was anxious on the surface, but I was very happy in my heart, feeling that you seemed to care about me very much, otherwise I would not have investigated the conviction regulations for possession of firearms. Later, when you set me with questions, I thought, will you like me a little, but you and Xu Xiaobo have always been together, I will take the problem to set you too, you said you don't like Xu Xiaobo, I am very happy. Later, I was locked up in the police
station for interrogation, and every time I was
in a difficult situation, I felt scared and happy
when I thought of you.

At that time, it wasn't just him who was sad, I
whispered, "Every time I see you with someone, it's so uncomfortable." The dress I wore that
day when I danced with Xiaobo was red,
because of you... So who always wears red
skirts.
"Why didn't you pay attention to me then
Zhang Jun rubbed my head a few times, and
held my arm fiercely, very hard, very hard, so
hard that I was in pain, and I also knew that he
just wanted me to feel this pain.
I was silent, joyfully feeling the pain he had
given me. He sighed and let me go.

His eyes were so sad, my heart was sour, leaned on his shoulder, for the first time, very gentle, very humble said: "Let's not quarrel in the future, if you don't want me to interact with
Shen Yuanzhe, I will distance myself from him."

He stared at me, sad but gentle smile: "Qiqi,
how good it would be if you remained the
same."
I thought he was talking about my feelings,
lowered his eyes, and said shyly: "
I will always like you and will never change."

He suddenly lowered his head and touched my
lips lightly.

My body tensed, my heart tensed and
expectant, and I closed my eyes, but did not
turn my head, with suggestive encouragement.

But he has been hesitating, nervous, dare not
make the next move, I waited for a long time, he did not move, I turned my head away with
disappointment, embarrassed and ashamed
eyes still closed, but he lowered his head again and kissed my cheek, I followed his direction,
lips ran over his face, and took the initiative to
kiss his cheek. In the tense skin rubbing, the lips
of the two finally touched, he kissed me tentatively and gently, but immediately left, I did not turn my head, just grabbed his arm, he seemed to suddenly make up his mind, suddenly lowered his head, and finally really kissed me, and gently pried my lips with the tip of his tongue.

Because of my clumsiness, the kiss is not as moving as depicted in the novel, and the two people often touch their teeth with their tongues and teeth against their teeth, but we are still very engaged.

When he finished, I still had my eyes closed, without any strength in my body, leaning on him softly. He held me tightly and said, "Qiqi, I'm sorry, I've always been a very bad person.

I buried my face in his neck and hummed softly, "Well, you're a big badass." But I like the bigbad.

Zhang Jun muttered: "They say that girls will
always remember their first kiss, I don't know
if it's true."

I smiled and said, "Ten years later, you're going
to ask me."

He looked at me silently and smiled, but his
smile fluttered.

The late autumn evening breeze carried a hint of coolness, and he took off his coat and draped it over my shoulders.

I was in his clothes, holding his hand in silence, and my mood was peaceful that I had not seen
in a long time. I felt that the arguments were
boring before, everything else became unimportant, I just knew that I liked him very much, and as long as he liked me too, I would be happy.

He also sat in silence all the time, holding my hand tightly, which made me feel very warm.

He suddenly asked me, "Have you decided what major you want to study in the future?"

"During this time, Hikaru is busy arguing and
angry, where does he have time to think about this? Do you have time to think about this? "I'm half coquettish, half complaining.

"I think a lot, especially about your future

"What? Say it and listen.
He jerked me a hug and said with a smile, "Don't talk about that tonight, okay?" Obviously

it is a topic that you brought up yourself, I smiled, full of joy, only love for him, and nodded
gently: "Good."

He took my hand, looked up at the sky, and said with a smile: "Tell you a joke."

In his jokes, I laughed and laughed, and he kept
looking at me.

From Monday to Friday, Zhang Jun did not
come to me and went home with me.

Since last weekend. After the two of us talked
by the bridge, my mind became calm, I was no
longer so troubled and did not pay attention to these details.

On Saturday, classes were normal during the day, but Zhang Jun still didn't come to me, so I had to go to him after school.

He and Huang Wei sat by the fountain under the teaching building talking and laughing, Huang Wei ignored me, and I also pretended not to see her, only said to Zhang Jun: "See you at night?"

Zhang Jun looked at me silently for a while: "
Haven't you seen Tong Yunzhu?"

"What's wrong? Is she looking for me?

Zhang Jun shook his head and was silent for a long time: "I have something tonight."

In front of Huang Wei, I didn't want to show
any disappointment, I smiled and nodded: "Okay, then I'll go first." As

I walked, I began to get angry, and after being angry for a few minutes, I reminded myself that I just said last weekend that I was not angry, and my mood slowly calmed down, maybe Zhang
Jun just had something important, but he was
careless and forgot to tell me for a while.

Tong Yunzhu caught up breathlessly and handed me a letter: "Why did you disappear as soon
as school ended?" This was handed over by
Zhang Jun to me and asked me to give it to you after school. I wondered how he had never
written to me before, so why did he suddenly
give me a letter?

I don't want to go home, I just want to find a quiet place first and read the letter without interruption. In one breath, he ran to the river, threw his bag on the ground, and opened the letter.
"Luo Qiqi:"

As soon as I saw the beginning, my heart sank, and I watched it again in disbelief.
Luo Qiqi:

I wanted to tell you last week, but I really didn't know how to speak, so I could only write a
letter.

When I was in elementary school, I always felt
guilty about you, and every time I saw you
silent, I wanted to do something for you. At that time, you were really like a little rabbit, or the
most frightened rabbit, every time I was with
you, I would be very nervous and careful, for fear of scaring you away.

The memories of elementary school are not beautiful, but because of Teacher Gao, all the
unpleasantness becomes irrelevant. There has never been a teacher as good as Mr. Gao, when every adult thinks I am incorrigible, only Mr. Gao is willing to praise me, if not Mr. Gao, I will
definitely be completely bad, knowing that rot died on the street. During the summer vacation of the fifth grade, I went to listen to Mr. Gao's
lectures every day, and then went home with
you. There is no tobacco and alcohol, no
fighting, and a lot of exercises, which is
obviously not fun at all, but I am very happy,
happy every day, and I am looking forward to
going to school.

Once, the two of us were playing in the river, I was lying on a big rock, sleeping, you used a
cool hat to cover me from the sun, I deliberately pretended to sleep, to see how long you can
lift, you actually kept holding, so that I was
really embarrassed to pretend to sleep. Do you remember? Definitely forgot. You were really
stupid at that time, you were stupid to do
anything, and you wouldn't say anything, as
long as I and Teacher Gao looked at you, you
would stutter, and you couldn't say the questions you would obviously do.
After I went to junior high school, I have more
and more friends, and the teachers are good to me, but I don't know why, I always think of the
summer vacation of the fifth grade, I think of us listening to Teacher Gao's lectures together, I think of you solving the problem very quickly,
but I stutter how to explain it clearly, and I want me to help you explain. As I say, you keep
nodding your head, and you're not afraid of
neck soreness. I also think of your silly
appearance when you held up your cool hat to shield me from the sun.

I used to think later that if we hadn't gone to the same middle school, maybe it would have become a very good memory, and you would only be my sorry and happy memory, but we were in a school, I could see you every day, and the cabaret, no matter where I went, I could always meet you.

I'm worried that you and Xu Xiaobo will
become bad together, I'm worried that you
can't deal with that gang of hooligan riffraff,
and I feel sorry for you to stubbornly fight
against the cornucopia in the most stupid way. But you haven't gotten worse, not only haven't you gotten worse, you've gotten better and better. From talking to people with always bowed heads, to standing in front of thousands of people, speaking awards awards; From stammering so hard that you can't even speak when you're nervous, to representing your school in a debate tournament. Every time you have spoken and debated competitions, I have listened to them; I also went to see your board newspaper, and I specially recorded clips of you in the TV news. Watching you become more confident and happy little by little, I sincerely rejoice for you.

I always thought that this was because I had
done something sorry for you, because I was guilty, so I especially hoped that you would have a good life. When I suddenly found out that I was jealous of Xu Xiaobo, I realized that I already liked you, and I didn't even know when this
happened.

When I was a freshman in high school, you
were in the next class, and I saw you almost
every day. You never see discipline as zero and always like to be late. Everyone has already
taken their seats in the classroom, and you
step on the bell and walk to the classroom. I
used the power of the squad leader to occupy
the position of achieving the best. I really like
to see you at that time, with a high horse's tail, walking, not squinting, holding your head high, striding and stride, the horse's tail swaying
happily behind your head. You exude
confidence all over your body, like a fighter, no matter what is in front of you, you will stride
over with your head held high. Every time I see you, I feel as if I have a lot of strength.

You often because you are late to the teacher
of Sorrow, but you still go your own way, and
once again you are late, the teacher did not let you into the classroom I saw you concentrating on enjoying the scenery outside the window,
and dipped your fingers in water, drawing on
the window glass, obviously enjoying being
kicked out of the classroom by the teacher,
even the people who look at you will feel happy, but I even secretly thought, it is best if you can be punished by the teacher often, I can often
see you in class.

At that time, I wanted to tell you every day that I liked you, but when I secretly escorted you
home, your name was "Xiaobo", and when I
thought that when Song Peng wanted you to
confess, you slapped your love letter back in
front of Song Peng in public, I was timid.

Because of the summer camp, I finally have the opportunity to really get close to you. I played
countless tricks to catch you up, and every day with you, I was pleasantly surprised and
apprehensive, and I was always afraid that I
wasn't good enough to make you like it enough.

Probably because I have known since I was a
child, I have always had a little you in my heart, I always try to protect you and take care of you, but you have grown up, not only grown up, but also stronger and better than ordinary people, I am just an ordinary boy in front of you, you don't need my protection and care at all.

When I first got with you, I was ecstatic and
secretly vowed that I would make you happy
forever, but now I find that I didn't do it, and I
can't do it anymore.

I used to love you very much, but those feelings have been consumed in countless trivial
contradictions and quarrels again and again.

I thought about it for a long time and felt that
breaking up was the best ending for you and for me. You will definitely meet a wonderful boy in the future, who will make you always walk forward with your head held high.

ZHANG Jun

I didn't shed tears or feel uncomfortable. I don't believe it's true.

I slipped the letter into my pocket casually,
carried my school bag, and returned home calmly, but I put down my school bag, lied to my mother, and walked out of the house again.

I went to Zhang Jun's house to look for him, called Zhen Gongzi to inquire about his
whereabouts, and went to the places he
frequented to find him, I didn't know what I
was thinking, I only knew that I wanted to see
him.

I searched for a whole night, home, school,
roller rink, K song hall, dance hall... None of
them found him.

I went downstairs to his house and sat on a
platform by the flower bed, waiting for him.

It was past eleven o'clock in the evening, and he still hadn't come home, and I still waited, not
thinking about how my parents would handle my late return, until after twelve o'clock, when a familiar figure appeared under the dim street lamp.

He put his hands in his trouser pockets,
lowered his head, and walked slowly.

"Zhang Jun."

He turned around and looked at me stunned,
never expecting that after twelve o'clock, I
would still be here.

I walked up to him, not wanting to cry, I could only try to smile: "I've read your letter, I want to know if you are serious?"

He nodded slowly: "Seriously."

"Is there really no chance of saving?" I admire
myself for being able to speak so logically.

"There is still half a year to go to the college entrance examination, you concentrate on studying, don't force yourself to accommodate me."

"I like you, you know? Whatever I do, I am
willing, and I am not forcing myself.

He was silent for a moment, looked away, and
said, "But I don't like you anymore." He seemed afraid that I wouldn't believe it, and said, "It's
very unhappy to be with you, and for a long
time, no amount of likes will be consumed."

I gasped in pain, as if a house in my heart that
had been carefully maintained was rumbling
down, as if the whole heart was about to be
shattered into powder, but my face was
strangely laughing, perhaps to keep the tears
from falling, perhaps just a habitual reaction for so many years, the more it hurts, the more it
had to be covered up with a smile.

He said, "I'll take you home.

We walked in silence, and as we passed the
familiar bridge, I tripped over the steps, and he held me up, and the physical contact made me .suddenly, without any self-esteem and pride,
grabbed his hand and asked him almost
pleadingly: "Can we not break up?" No matter what, I am willing to change, you tell me, I will
change.

He stared at me silently, as if there was
nostalgia in his eyes, but just when I thought he would agree, he withdrew his hand: "You can't
turn your mind for a moment now, sleep well tonight, and tomorrow you will know that it is not a big deal."

My pride and reason no longer allowed me to
say anything, but my vulnerability and feelings were unwilling, and I grabbed his fading
fingertips, hoping that he would be
soft-hearted, but his strength was greater and more determined. Finally, he withdrew his hand forcefully and moved away from me.

He walked in front and I walked behind, the two of them keeping an estranged distance at their
fingertips.

I suddenly remembered the story he told me
about his quitting smoking. He began smoking
in the second grade of elementary school until
the third year of junior high school, and he wanted to smoke at least one pack a day. In his freshman year of high school, he decided to be as normal student and started quitting smoking. It was very uncomfortable, and the friends
around him often deliberately tempted him
and smoked him, but he said that since he had
decided, he must persevere, survive the most
uncomfortable days, everything will be fine,
and sure enough, after surviving the most
uncomfortable weeks, he no longer has any
desire to smoke.

I think this time, he also made up his mind to
quit me.

Walking downstairs to my house, I refused to
go upstairs and kept standing, but he turned and was about to leave: "I'm home." "It was the
first time he didn't watch me go upstairs and
didn't smile and tell me to call him.

I was ashamed of my reluctance and
immediately ran into the door, but as soon as I
rushed to the second floor, thinking that this
was the last time he would send me home, and
from then on, he would never appear in my life again, and my heart was like a knife, bent over,
so painful that I could hardly breathe, all my
self-esteem was nothing, and rushed
downstairs again.
He had already walked away, and under the
street lamp, his figure became extremely thin.

"Zhang Jun!"

All my feelings melted into a heart-rending
scream, and how I wished he could understand how sad I was at this moment, how sad I was,
how much I wished he could turn back.

He didn't seem to hear me call him at all, and he still walked. But I knew he heard it, because his steps stopped.

I kept staring at him and he never looked back.

It was long after his figure disappeared that I
climbed upstairs in dismay, and my parents
were very angry and asked me where I had
gone, so I rushed directly into the bedroom and locked the door.

Mom and Dad kept scolding me, but everything seemed to be separated from me. My body sits here, but my soul doesn't know where it is.

Gradually, the voices went quiet, and it was just me, sitting in the dark.

By the time I remembered to look at my watch, it was three o'clock in the morning.

I didn't wash my face, didn't brush my teeth, lay down directly, but I couldn't sleep, thinking that from tomorrow, Zhang Jun would have nothing to do with me, I was so uncomfortable that I
was like being delayed, I felt sick to my
stomach, it seemed that I was about to vomit,
ran to the bathroom, but I didn't eat dinner at
all, I couldn't vomit anything, just squatted on
the ground and drank.

After a night of tossing, I didn't close my eyes
at all, and soon it was half past six, and the
alarm clock, as usual, sounded without the
slightest emotion, reminding me that I should
recite English.

It seems that I have finally found something to do in the collapsed world, take out an English
book, shut myself on the balcony, and roar at
the top of my throat, frantically reading
English, but whether I remember it in my head
is not clear at all.

When my mother got up, she wanted to teach me a lesson about last night's return from
night, but when she found that I had studied
the balcony, she didn't say anything more.

Mom made omelettes and warmed up the milk. I didn't have any appetite, and my mother asked me, "What's wrong?" Breakfast must be eaten, otherwise you will have no strength for the day.

Not wanting her to see something strange, I
picked up the bowl and forced myself to start
breakfast.

My sister ate breakfast while bargaining with
her mother about how much pocket money she should give her this month. My head was blank, my ears were buzzing, and I couldn't hear what they were saying, but when my mother asked
me, I was able to answer as usual.

My mother asked me, "Are you still out looking for classmates this afternoon?" "On weekends, I have to go to see Zhang Jun.

Caught off guard, my tears fell, and I didn't even have time to cover up, I immediately lowered
my head, raised the bowl half to the side of my face, pretended to be drinking milk, and covered my face with the bowl, but I clearly saw that my tears fell into the milk one by one, and on the smooth milky white, dripping out a circle of
ripples.

In a trance, I heard a voice say "don't go out"
calmly, so distant and strange that it didn't seem to be my own voice at all.

Throughout the day, I held the book and
studied tirelessly, from 6:30 in the morning to 10 in the evening, and the total number of books I read added up to only one page.

At night, I lay in bed and told myself that
whoever leaves in this world will still live, I am
in pain now, and in a year, I will not remember
the pain now, and ten years later, when people mention Zhang Jun's name, I will think for a
long time to remember who he is.

Everything will pass, everything will pass!

In the self-persuasion over and over again, I
finally went to school in Tianming.

When Yang Jun saw me, he asked in surprise, "Did you stay up all night and work hard?" Why is the face so ugly?

"Well, do the questions three or four points."

Yang Jun was greatly stimulated and immediately began to work hard.

I knew that it would not be long before the
news of my breakup with Zhang Jun would
spread throughout the school, many pairs of
eyes would look at me, my self-esteem would
not allow myself to be decadent because of the loss of love, and all day, I forced myself to read
and study, even if the efficiency was almost
inefficient.

After Zhang Jun "dumped" me, his confidant
Huang Wei accompanied him home every day.

I always knew that Huang Wei liked him, but
Zhang Jun was very slow, and he always
thought that Huang Wei and him had a pure
friendship. I don't know what is the
relationship between him and Huang Wei now, but it is a fact that they are in pairs, and all the
classmates began to say that Zhang Jun's
new girlfriend is Huang Wei.

My long-standing fear came true, and I became one of Zhang Jun's ex-girlfriends, and everyone turned their eyes on me with sympathy and
schadenfreude.

I tried my best to pretend I didn't care, and in
the class, I became extremely lively, playing
pranks with Yang Jun constantly, fighting
non-stop, and laughing every day, lest others
not know that I was happy.

Shen Yuanzhe often accompanies me home
after school, chats with me, and occasionally
picks me up to go to school together, so
blatantly going in and out, soon the rumors
about me and him are in full swing, I not only
did not avoid suspicion, but used a higher
frequency to go home and go to school with
Shen Yuanzhe to make this rumor more vivid.

Lin still asked me to study in the library every
weekend, Yang Jun helped me sort out the
puzzles, pretended to compete with me,
accompanied me to do homework, and later,
Shen Yuanzhe also joined our weekend learning group.

I am very relieved that in this most difficult
time period, I still have friendships around me, they did not ask any questions, but they used
various ways of companionship to do the limit
of what a friend can do.

The school holds a boring and boring learning
experience presentation in the auditorium.
I learned from Chen Jin and completed the
task in three minutes in one minute. Only now did I understand that it was not that Chen Jin
did not want to tell the truth, but that the
teacher was unhappy that we did not have to
listen to all the lessons and did not have to do
all the homework.

After the meeting, I quickly walked out of the
lecture hall, and when I arrived outside the
teaching building, I was stopped by the first
senior in high school and asked me for some
academic confusion. I didn't have the slightest mood, but I suddenly remembered Chen Jin, so I stopped, patiently listened to him talk about
his doubts, and then gave the most pertinent
answer.

Gradually, more and more people around me .
were watching, gathering into a small circle,
and my junior brother bought me drinks.

I was patiently answering, and saw Zhang Jun
and Huang Wei coming side by side, probably
Huang Wei's smile was too dazzling, so I also
smiled brightly, and waved with Zhang Jun,
easily said hello, but he changed color, stared
at me fiercely, and left quickly.

I still smiled brightly, happily answering the
questions of the junior brothers and sisters,
and when I finished answering the questions, I kept smiling, walked into the teaching building, stood Tong Yunzhu by the window of the
corridor, and asked with a cold face: "Have you ever liked Zhang Jun?"

I smiled and didn't speak. I have always known
that the opposite of love is not hate, but
treating him like an ordinary person, and I have always been good at disguise.

I was very unhappy, very miserable, but I couldn't let others know that I was in pain.

I am very grateful that the soul is wrapped in a
skin bag, so that we can live every day with
heart to heart and body to body.

During that time, I didn't dare to recall, every time I remembered, I only had pain, and I couldn't remember what I did every day. It seems
that every day when I go to school, I need to
take a deep breath and feel that I am not going
to school, but to fight.

And so muddled to the end of the period.

After the results of the final exam were
announced, I was still the first in my grade, and I didn't believe it myself. Lin Still, Yang Jun, and
Shen Yuanzhe all knew that in the past two
months, all my energy had been pretending to
be happy strongly, and I had not invested much energy in studying. But learning is probably like driving a train, as long as you get on the track,. everything will naturally move forward.

I don't know how I got the first place, but I'm
glad I'm still number one in my grade. The first grade score can unmistakably tell everyone
that Luo Qiqi is not harmed! Luo Qiqi didn't
care that Zhang Jun didn't like her anymore!

This is the advantage of being an eagle,
everyone thinks that you are strong, and the
emotion of injury will not coexist with you.

Senior students no longer have the right to
spend the winter vacation, and the school
announced that only the New Year holiday will be closed, and classes will be held as usual at
other times, so after the exam, we still attend
classes.

During the winter vacation, I did not go to pay New Year's greetings to Teacher Gao, but only wrote a greeting card and mailed it to her.
Because I don't know how to face it, I don't
know how to explain it.

I began to count the days looking forward to
the college entrance examination, hoping to
end my life here quickly, and I was like elementary school again, I just wanted to run forward, it turned out that after so many years, I was still
the one who just wanted to escape when things happened.

After the New Year, the countdown to the
college entrance examination began, and a
large red Arabic numeral sign was erected at
the back of the classroom, and every day the
teacher would change the number by hand,
reminding everyone that there was another
day left until July 7.

Under the huge pressure of the college
entrance examination, the students are
immersed in hard reading, everyone's faces are covered with a layer of gray, hope is ahead, but the pain in front of them is to be beaten day by day with the flesh.

I began to really accept the fact that Zhang Jun and I had separated, and I became very silent,
no longer playing loudly with Yang Jun, and no
longer laughing often. However, before the
depressing college entrance examination, everyone became silent and unhappy, and my
changes seemed extraordinarily normal.

Day by day, Zhang Jun seems to have
disappeared, and I haven't seen him for a long
time.

When we were in junior high school, we used to take different stairs in and out of the
classroom, and we often "bumped in", but now we walk the same stairs up and down every day, but we never meet. Comparing the past and the present, I understand that he was hearty and
ruthless today.
In the dead of night, I often wondered how I
had lost him. I don't have to wait until ten years later, I know I must have done a lot of things
wrong, but I don't know where I was wrong.

Shouldn't I study hard? Should I just fall in love and not study? Shouldn't I be a strong and
independent girl? Shouldn't I have self-respect and self-love? Should I express my importance
to him with negative decadence? Should I cry
and jump off the building to keep him?

I couldn't tell anyone about my pain, I had to tell it all to the diary. My diary is filled with all sorts of fantasies, fantasizing about a few years from now, me and Zhang Jun can still be together. I
fantasized about these various versions of the reunion and wrote them down in a diary.

I even used these fantasies to encourage myself to study seriously and try to change my
shortcomings, telling myself that only in this
way can I one day come up to him well enough
to make him like me again.

In the hope for the future, the days ahead are
no longer so desperate, and I am no longer so
sad.

I learned very easily, and compared with my
classmates who were flooded by the sea of
questions, I was like a person from another
world, going to bed on time every day and
never staying up late.

My classmates thought I was amazing, I didn't
listen to lectures in class, I hardly did
homework, but I was able to sit first and even
my sister couldn't figure it out. I told her that
the key to the three years of high school is the
first year of high school and the second year of high school, all the knowledge has been learned in the first and second years of high school, the third year of high school is just a systematic and organized process, if you really eat all the knowledge in the first and second years of high
school and engrave it into your mind, of course, the third year of high school does not have to
work hard.

My sister was in her first year of high school, and what I said was very meaningful, but she didn't listen to it at all.

In the midst of torment, it was finally June.

Two mock exams, I firmly ranked first. Guan He was in the top 20 of his grade, and Zhang Jun's grades were stable at around 30th in his grade.

After the last mock exam, except for the senior year, the school was already on holiday. After the teacher finishes the exam papers, we will also have a holiday. For the rest of the week, the school's library and classrooms are open to senior students, allowing us to freely review and prepare for the college entrance examination.

For a week, I flipped through the English and
didn't bother to touch anything else, and Yang Jun couldn't stand it, dragged me to the library, and forced me to do some exercises he ticked
out.

I went to the exam room without any
psychological burden and answered all the
subjects very easily. My aunt across the door
was stunned to find me watching TV at noon
between exams, and she was stunned until she ran to school more than forty minutes before
the exam.

On the morning of July 10th, after the
last exam, everyone was officially liberated.

The moment they walked out of the examination room, no matter what the result was,
everyone had a happy expression on their face after the disaster.
A whole year of the topic of the sea of the
mountain, get up early and be greedy,
everything is finally over!

In the evening, the school held a graduation
party for us, before everyone was fighting for
the college entrance examination, it is
impossible to prepare a performance program
like elementary school and junior high school
graduation, but the graduation of the third year of high school is obviously more important than the graduation of the other two grades, and the school can only work hardware.

This year, the director of education chose th open air, hung small light bulbs on all the trees,
and set up large projection screens.

When night falls, the evening breeze blows and countless small light bulbs are lit, the
atmosphere becomes romantic and sad.

The original plan was to have two music
teachers in the high school as the host, but the
female teacher could not come in an
emergency, so she could only find it from the
students. The teaching director was so anxious that he asked Shen Yuanzhe for help, and Shen Yuanzhe recommended me. The male host, Mr. Li, came to invite me to help him host the play,
but I refused without thinking, and after a
moment, I changed my mind.

Since elementary school, Zhang Jun and I have been in the same school, and tonight is our last night in the same school. I hope that as long as he remembers this graduation party, he will
remember me.

My wish now is humble, I just hope he doesn't
forget me.

The music teacher helped me choose a plain
white puffy skirt, the waist was very thin, the
skirt was not long, just reached the knee, but
there were countless sequins pendant, walking, like stars twinkling, wearing the matching rhinestone headband, completely the princess dress that all girls longed for.

The music teacher wore a white shirt and black trousers, and as we walked side by side to the
illuminated venue, all the teachers and
students were already seated.

The old principal took the lead in applauding
warmly, and the teachers also began to
applaud, and thunderous applause gradually
erupted around him, celebrating the real end of the suffering senior year.

With a smile that I think is the most beautiful, I announce that tonight's party has officially begun.

"All the programs come from everyone, any
student who wants to perform a show can go
to Shen Yuanzhe, he will register everyone's
requirements, and then I will negotiate with
Teacher Li to arrange. Tonight, although our
beloved Director of Education is present, we do not need to pay attention to him, and whether
the theme is healthy and positive does not
belong to this evening.

Everyone laughed, and Teacher Li said: "The
first program of tonight is a solo piano, and the performers are in the next place, please use
this time to consider the program they want to perform." Teacher

Li sat down at the piano and began to play,
which was the passionate "Graduation Song".

The students came one after another to get
notes and think about the show to be
performed.
I sat next to Shen Yuanzhe with a smile and
chatted with him in a low voice, but I couldn't
help but search for Zhang Jun. Finally, seeing
him, he did not sit in the seating area of his
class, but straddled the railing of the flower bed with Zhen Gongzi and Jia Gongzi, talking and
laughing. It happened to be face to face with
me and Shen Yuanzhe.

When Teacher Li played and played a song "Graduation Song", a classmate had just handed in a note, but it was too late to prepare props, Shen Yuanzhe asked me: "Do you want Teacher Li to play another song?"

I laughed and said, "That's too dull, look at me."

I took the microphone and walked towards the center of the venue and said with a smile: "If there is a vote now to elect the teacher that everyone hates the most, I wonder who everyone
will vote for?" Everyone's choice must have their own tendencies, but there is a teacher who must be on the list, guess who?

The students laughed, and the teachers present also laughed, after all, the party had just begun, the atmosphere was not warm, and the students still did not get rid of the shackles of being students, so they just laughed, but no one really dared to say it. I smiled and saluted the teaching director: "Director, congratulations, you are the teacher with the best vote."

Everyone burst into laughter, and I said, "As the teacher we hate the most, I, as the representative of this graduate, would like to invite the
teacher to improvise a show for us." The

microphone was handed to the director of instruction, who held it and kept coughing and clearing his throat, but did not say anything about
the performance.

I started shouting, "One, two, three, four, five, we've waited so hard; One, two, three, four, five,
six, we waited so uncomfortable.

I smiled and waved my hand, signaling
everyone to join me in saying that this was the
slogan we learned as soon as we entered the
first year of high school, and everyone in th whole grade knew it, no one did not know, and it
was the director of teaching who was always
strict, and everyone immediately joined in.

But when everyone started shouting, I was a
little distracted, has it really been three years? It seems that being ridiculed by horsepower is still yesterday, it seems that he has just fought
with Song Peng, is that really already a
thousand days away? ?

"One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, we are
in a hurry; One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, do you have it, teacher?
The roar of about 500 people in the audience
was not small, and the teaching director
hurriedly said: "Yes, yes, I will sing
the first Zhang Xinzhe's "Over the Fire" to everyone."

"Wow!" I exclaimed, making an incredulous
look at my classmates, indicating that it was a
song that seriously exceeded the standard, and the classmates laughed.

Did I promise you too much, or did I not give
enough in the first place, you always have a
thousand reasons, I have always followed your feelings, let you go crazy, let you indulge, think
that you will be moved one day, about the
rumors, I pretend to be indifferent
The teaching director sang while walking,
which shocked the entire audience, because his voice was exactly the same as Zhang Xinzhe.

I didn't have any surprises, because the teaching director had a very good personal relationship with Shen Yuanzhe, and I heard Shen Yuanzhe mention that he sang Zhang Xinzhe very well, otherwise, I wouldn't dare to make fun of him
casually to enliven the atmosphere.

I sat in the dark, taking advantage of the night,
staring at the opposite side without any
scruples, Zhang Jun was still sitting there, his
figure was faintly recognizable, but his face, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't see clearly.
Did he see me?

I knew he wouldn't pay attention to me at all,
but, it didn't matter, I walked to the center of
the brightest stage for you to see.

Every time I play, I think deeply in the casual .
way, do everything I can, and create one
wonderful after another, but not for my
classmates, but for the person hidden in the
corner.

I showed great to the audience, just to make
him look at me, just to make him remember me.

Can he understand my mind?

I don't want him to understand, I just want him to remember my beauty tonight, and I know I'm beautiful tonight because I used all my wisdom and all my love for Him in beauty. I condense all my youth tonight and bloom for him.

Guan He came to register the show, and I joked with her: "The beauty is going to reappear?" In
the past three years, Guan He really has not
participated in any activities related to
literature and art, and her classmates hardly
know that she has a good erhu and a good
voice.

She only smiled at me and nodded, calm and
indifferent, like to the most ordinary classmate. She told Shen Yuanzhe: "My program is "Every Day in My Life". I deliberately left Guan He's
program to myself to report the curtain.

When I walked to the center of the stage, I
suddenly remembered the cultural
performance of the third year of junior high
school, and Guan He invited me to perform
with her, that is, we were still very close. I don't know when we became strangers.

"In everyone's growth, there will be some
important people who leave a strong chapter.
There is also such a person in my life, her
appearance once made me feel that it was the
greatest disaster in my life, I was jealous of her, envious of her, but in the envy and jealousy of
him, I kept chasing her, hoping that I would
become better, better. I used to be extremely
painful for this chase, and now I finally
understand that I can stand here today, I can't
do
without her, because of her appearance,
I became who I am today, and I want to thank
her. "Every Day of My Life", performer:
Guan He.

Guan He came from the darkness and walked
to the center of the bright stage; I walked off
the stage and into the darkness. At the junction of light and darkness, the two passed by, and I
looked at her, but she smiled and looked at the audience.

I don't know if she understood me, but it didn't matter, the important thing was that I finally let go of my heart. I stopped envying others, I
began to like myself.

Guan He bowed to the audience and said with a smile: "In the first six years of middle school,
have laughed and cried; There have been pride, and there have been low self-esteem; I have
made mistakes and corrected them, maybe I am not as good as my parents expected, but I have done my best, and I have no regrets about
myself. I give this song to all the teachers and
classmates who have given me help and love,
thank you, "Every Day of My Life". I
pray that every little dream can be slowly.
realized tomorrow, I am so ordinary but so lucky, I want to say thank you, every day of my life, watching time fly by, I look back on the past
once a reckless teenager, once lived like a year, I was so ordinary but so lucky
, I want to say thank you for every day
of my life Near the end of the party, the
atmosphere became more and more sad, and many girls couldn't cry when they sang.

The time is almost up, and it is necessary to say goodbye.

Teacher Li quietly gave me a few words, and I
opened the curtain for the last program.

"The last program is the chorus, the title of the song, "Farewell", the performers, all the teachers."

All the teachers walked to the center of the
stage and stood in rows.

Teacher Li played Master Hongyi's "Farewell".

Outside the long pavilion, on the side of the
ancient road, the grass is blue. The evening
breeze blows the sound of the willow flute, and the sunset is outside the mountain. The end of .the sky, the corner of the sea, the acquaintance is half scattered. A pot of cloudy wine is all over the day, don't dream cold tonight.

The amiable old principal, the gray-haired
geography teacher, the white-faced political
teacher, the English teacher who used to blush, the sloppy math teacher, the physics teacher
who lectures confusedly, the rigid and serious
teaching director...

My eyes are moist, and I believe that at this
moment, all my classmates' eyes will be a little
sore.

Three years, the most youthful and brilliant
three years! The first year of high school, our
carefree military training, sweating and singing military songs; In the second year of high
school, when he was divided into arts and
sciences, fast and slow classes, he was anxious and painful; In the third year of high school, the boundless sea of questions, we sleep three
times and get up five more.

We have kicked the right step together,
developed together, skipped class together,
scolded teachers together, played together,
studied together...

Whether we love it or hate it, the three years of high school have left the most indelible
memories in our lives.

The old principal said goodbye to everyone in
the song: "Graduation is an end, but also a starting point, the third year of hard work is over,
but the life of hard work has just begun." On behalf of all teachers, I would like to give a parting message to all students: 'Tianxingjian, gentleman with self-improvement; The terrain is kun,
and the gentleman carries things with great
virtue'!
The teachers left one after another, and I tol everyone according to Mr. Li's instructions in
advance: "The following is the dance time left
by the school for everyone, and the old
principal said that as long as one or two students are willing to dance, the music will play for
him." At the beginning, the classmates stil looked at me, I looked at you, embarrassed to play, soon there were bold boys with girlfriends as
usual, many underground affairs wereexposed, provoking many boys to get upset.

Many students can't dance, those who can
dance can't dance, and the open-air dance floor with flickering lights is full of beautiful or
clumsy figures.
Yang Jun jumped to the table next to me and
stared at Tong Yunzhu, who was dancing, in a
daze.
I said, "If you want to, go and ask her for a
dance."
Yang Jun's expression was gloomy: "I can't
dance."
I walked over and patted Tong Yunzhu's
should"Go and ask Yang Jun to dance!"

Tong Yunzhu was stunned for a moment, and
immediately said, "Okay."

She came over to invite Yang Jun, who twisted and said, "I won't jump."

Tong Yunzhu smiled generously and said, "So,
your first dance needs a dance partner who can dance." She stretched out her hand to him, and
I shoved Yang Jun, who blushed and held Tong Yunzhu's hand.

Amid the sound of dance music, the student
began to leave in pairs.

I hid in the dark, searching everywhere for the
figure of Zhang Jun, but I couldn't see him, is
this the way he chose to say goodbye?

On the stage, fires and silver flowers and stars gather, but they are bright for parting.

Amid the gentle and sad music, I walked towards the school gate.

Goodbye, Ichichu!

Goodbye, my youth!

Chapter 7: The Two People
of Fanwai
Fanwai 1: Zhang Jun
Zhang Jun
was recently dumped by his girlfriend again.

This girlfriend is very beautiful, but there is a
not very good problem, and she likes to ask
about his love history. She investigated his love history clearly, a total of six ex-girlfriends, each of whom was carefully interrogated, except for one, for the simple reason that the other five all offered to break up with Zhang Jun, and only
this one was Zhang Jun's proposed breakup.
According to the logic of your girlfriend, since
you took the initiative to dump others,
naturally you really have no feelings, but the
other five are different, who knows if you have no residual love, is it possible to resurrect? The age is just that, especially the first and second
terms are very suspicious.

So the following conversation often plays out

, "Which girlfriend do you look like?"

"Which girlfriend do you like the most?"

Zhang Jun does not like to answer these
questions, but when a woman is verbose, God will cry, and instead of being verbose by her, it
is better to answer honestly one sentence by
one.

"The most beautiful girlfriend... I want to think... It was as if sitting right across from me.

"Favorite? There is no favorite, only the only
favorite, and that is you.

He coaxed her like a child. The girlfriend has
not experienced unforgettable feelings, and
she does not understand that the most
reluctant page in life must be hidden deepest.

He has always been good to her and has a
peaceful life.

However, one day, his girlfriend didn't know
where she heard that the girl he dumped was
from Tsinghua, and immediately became
interested and repeatedly asked what the girl
looked like.

He wanted to perfunctory as soon as possible, but his girlfriend didn't know why, and
suddenly became anxious, and had to say a bad word about the girl, to say the shortcomings
that the girl hated him, otherwise he would
break up with him.

He lowered his head and thought for a long
time, exhaustion welled up in his heart, raised
his head and said to his girlfriend: "For me, her only flaw is that she doesn't love me." The

girlfriend looked at him stunned for a while,
and said very calmly: "Let's break up!"

He said, "Good!

They broke up, but Zhang Jun still helped his
girlfriend solve the job.

He also helped find a house and move, and only after everything was arranged did he retire.

Girlfriends dare to look, "No wonder your
ex-girlfriends all praise you as if you were
heaven and earth, but they refused to be your girlfriend."

Zhang Jun smiled and said, "It's that I'm not
lucky." The

female Peng puppet looked at the gray on his
jacket, and wanted to reach out to help him cut it off, but Zhang Jun immediately took a step
back, and his girlfriend was nothing, smiled self-deprecatingly, and withdrew his hand: "Why
doesn't she like you?"

Zhang Jun played with the car keys, making it
tinkle, and smiled, "Who?" Who doesn't like
me? I thought everyone liked me! The

girlfriend didn't speak again, sent him
downstairs, and waved him goodbye.

Zhang Jun got into the car, unconsciously
hummed Jacky Zhang's song, hit the steering
wheel with one hand, opened the CD in the car with the other, listened to Jolin Tsai's song, was too lazy to change the disc, casually turned it
off again and turned on the radio.

The host broadcast the traffic conditions,
he was driving, while adjusting the channel, the stereo was a male voice, a female voice, happy back are flowing in an instant, like a life full of
holes.

Finally tuned to the channel with songs, and it
happened to be the prelude, and he stopped.

Very warm and good mezzo-soprano, the music is also soothing and pleasant, slowly pouring
out in the small space of the carriage, the first
lyrics attracted Zhang Jun's attention.

I want to ask you if you still remember my
name, when the sea of people rose and ebbed
several times, those things in those years,
those crazy, warm and romantic days, ah, like a .lifetime you came all of a sudden, I miss a
lifetime of such irrationality, how is it to be
happy for a while, why I insisted that it must be my most memorable thing, crossing the
mountains and oceans, joy and sorrow, not not alone, fortunately there was your warm heart,
still lit up with the light you left, you shine all of a sudden, I was dizzy all my life, really like a
fool, really embarrassed, but I really thought at the time that the way you hugged me was a hint of commitment, after people came and people
looked forward to expectations and
disappointments, I was still lonely, fortunately
the eyes that had shed tears for you still lit up
with the light of love over the years these
things all at once, what kind of days have you
spent in your life, please promise one thing, if I can see you again, please let me see your
brilliant appearance

In the song, the smile on Zhang Jun's face
slowly faded, his eyes stared intently ahead, and there was a faint sadness in his eyes.

When he was young, he loved a girl with all his heart, but that girl did not love him, or could
not say not at all, it should be said that he did
not love very much.

At that time, both of them were young, an from time to time there would be disputes, and a
little thing, Qi Qi would ignore him. He loved
very humbly, and he kept her with repeated
compromises, only hoping that she would one
day be touched and see his heart with his hands in front of her when she looked down.

But no! Her front was so brilliant that she couldn't keep her head down, she just wanted to fly
forward.

That time, before the final exam, they had the
biggest argument, no one spoke to anyone,
cold war, in fact, he did not want to cold war
with her, he knew very naively hoped that this
time she would come and say "I was wrong, we are okay", he naively used this way to see her
difficult to capture heart, wanted to see that
she cared about him.

In the anxious waiting, all he waited for was
disappointment, Qi Qi still lived his own life,
indifferent to his departure, while he was
undisputed and had her in his mind every
moment.

After the test results came out, his results were a mess, and she was not only far ahead, but also threw the second place farther and farther
away, and all the buddies around him persuaded him to break up, and this girl didn't care about him at all.

However, he couldn't bear it, even though he
knew that she didn't care about him, he was
still reluctant to break up.

The school invited previous outstanding
graduates to give lectures, and Qi Qi sat not far in front of him, and he didn't listen to a word
about what was said on the table, and kept
looking at her.

Her eyes were bright, staring at the Tsinghua
Peking University students on the stage, so
Sometimes pensive, sometimes smiling, he was a little sad, he was not one of those excellent
boys, he could attract her gaze.

Since the winter vacation of the second year of high school, when Mr. Gao asked Qi Qi whether he wanted to go to Tsinghua University or
Peking University, he felt the pressure rolling
in and began to wonder where the way out of
this relationship was?

At that time, he told himself that as long as two people love each other, he is willing to do his
best to work hard, and he will definitely be able to overcome difficulties together.

And today, he stared at Qi Qi, obviously close at hand, but felt that she was getting farther and
farther away from him, and there seemed to be a gap between the two that he could not cross no matter how hard he tried.

A heavy sadness filled his heart, and he did a
very childish thing. I said to myself in my heart, if at this time, she looks sideways at him, then it proves that our fate is still there, and I will go to her later and apologize to her. Tell her that no matter where she plans to fly, I will do my best
to catch up.

But no.

For nearly two hours, Qi Qi did not glance in his direction. It was as if there had never been such a person as him in her life.

He smiled to himself in his heart and said, look, God said that you have no fate, tell you not to
be self-sufficient, put hand

After the conference ended, she quickly
disappeared into the crowd as usual, seemingly unable to remember that she had a boyfriend.

His heart had sunk to its lowest end, but pride made him have to keep smiling.

Holding on, Guan He said and smiled, and
walked out of the auditorium casually, but he
still thought about her in his heart.

A bend turned a corner, and she suddenly
appeared in front of her, but beside her stood a young man with a radiant look and momentum like a rainbow - Chen Jin, a former provincial
champion and now a high-achieving student of
Tsinghua.

The two of them talked and laughed in low
voices, their eyebrows had exactly the same
confidence, the same firmness.

At this moment, he suddenly thought of an apt word to describe them: flying together.

What Qi Qi needs should be such a boy who
can accompany her to fight for a long time.

He tried his best to pretend that he didn't care, pretending that he didn't care, but deep down
he knew how naïve he was, and he didn't even have the courage to face Qi Qi, so he just fled in a hurry.

Just when he was most hesitant, Qi Q proposed to break up with him.

He told himself that this was the best outcome. You are indeed not suitable, but every night, he always thinks of her, and from childhood to
adulthood, her figure is engraved with every
page of his memories, thinking of tearing these memories away, as if tearing away his entire
youth, the devastating pain makes it difficult
for him to accept the loss of her.

Reason told herself over and over again that Qi Qi was not happy with him, she was always
hesitating and struggling to get angry, and it
was better to suffer alone than to be two
people suffering together.

But if he doesn't manage how much wisdom
analyzes, his feelings are always painful, and he is reluctant to let go.

After a painful struggle, he decided to give
himself one last chance, he studied hard, if the midterm exam results can enter the top ten of
his grade, and he still has hope to accompany Qi Qi into the future life, then he will never let go; But if after all your efforts, you still fall far
behind her, then let it go!

You can't have her, at least you can bless her
and let her fly without concern.

Having given himself one last chance, he stood before her and humbly begged her to return to him.

The first thing she said was to secretly accuse
him of doing too poorly in the final exam and not having the self-control to control himself.

At that moment, he was disappointed that her
sanity was sober, but at the same time he
admired her rational sobriety, this girl, let him love and hate.

Qi Qi returned to him, and he tried as hard as
he could. For the exam, and even more for the
future of him and Qi Qi.

Every time he saw her, his heart surged with joy and sadness, maybe after the midterm exam, he would let go of her completely, maybe this was the last time he had her in his life.

Because every day was the last, he tried to
make himself happy and also tried to make her happy, carefully guarding their every day.

Qi Qi looked at his gaze but still hid a lot of sadness, maybe she was thinking about the future and love choices in her heart.

He knew that she didn't want to give up
anything for love, and Guan He said that Qi Qi
looked down on Anna's love in "Anna Karenina", and that women must never put love first,
and he read the book three times in a row
because of this sentence.

After trying my best, I didn't even make it to the top 20 in the midterm exam.

On the day the test results came down, he sat
alone by the lotus pond at school for the night, maybe Qi Qi was all his youth, losing her meant losing all the happy memories of the past, but
he had to give up.

By the bridge, he wanted to break up with her, but he couldn't control himself and kissed her.

He wanted to ask Qiqi, will you always
remember me?

Qi Qi said, you will ask me in ten years.

How he wished he would have the opportunity to ask her ten years later, but ten years later
there would be another boy next to her.

He did not have the courage to propose a breakup in person, and could only propose a breakup in a letter.

That night, he was so painful that he had
nowhere to vent, he wanted to drink, he
wanted to fight, but he knew that Kiki would
despise him for doing this.

He can only control sensibly.

Sneaking into the fourth elementary school,
sneaking into the empty classroom, sitting in
the seat they once sat in, and allowing
themselves to be immersed in grief in the dark.

That silly little Qiqi, that bad little Zhang Jun...

She used to stubbornly hold a cool hat to shade him from the sun, and did not change positions for hours.

She had stammered as soon as she saw him
look at her.

She came to school in a new dress, but hid
behind everyone, walked along the base of the wall, he said "your skirt looks good", she was not happy, but as if she had done something shameful, her face was flushed, and she walked away quickly without saying a word, ignoring him for days, so frightened that he did not dare to talk nonsense in front of her again.

After watching the police movie, he told her,
let's create a code that belongs only to us. She
pursed the corners of her mouth and didn't say anything, probably thinking that he was bored, he excitedly dismantled his surname into "longbow", and her name into "Xi Si", telling her that
in the future, we will face the code, tell her, in
the future, we will call the code, you will say "Xi 4 calls the long bow, Xi 4 calls the long bow", I
will say "the long bow is in, the long bow is in".
He asked her to call him "Longbow," and she
smiled, but pursed the corners of her mouth.
She brought a large bag of beef jerky made by
her mother from home, and he asked her, "Do
you eat alone?" Is there my share? She glanced at him quickly, did not speak, took out two blank pieces of paper, carefully divided the beef jerky into two piles, he wanted to take it, but she
suddenly held his hand, not allowing him to
take it, before he could react, she immediately
retracted her hand, her head was lowered as if. It was going to be attached to the table, the two small hands were busy, quickly took out a blank piece of paper, and divided a pile of more beef
jerky from the two piles, "This is for Mr. Gao,
just forgot." Her voice was as small as a little
mosquito humming, and he leaned over and
asked, "What do you say, why didn't I hear
anything, I heard a mosquito humming, hum,
what is she humming?" She twisted her head,
looked out the window, and stopped talking.
For the whole class, no matter what he did or
said, her eyes did not look at him, but when he
finished eating his beef jerky, she pushed her
own beef jerky over, stared at the topic,
hummed and said: "Here you go, my teeth hurt a little, I can't chew."
After entering junior high school, he was not in the same class, but he often ran into her, and
every time he saw her, it was like looking in a
mirror, so that he couldn't help but look at
himself.

Seeing that her academic performance went
up, I felt that I couldn't be too bad, after all,
they were all disciples of Teacher Gao, and
they were classmates who won awards in a
competition, so they kept their grades up while mixing.

Seeing that although she went in and out of the cabaret and dance hall, she did not indulge or
follow the trend, always holding a book, and
doing her own thing without anyone, he felt
that even if everyone thought that it was cool
to take drugs, he could not be contaminated.

Qi Qi has the courage to go her own way, no matter how enchanting and tempting the girls around her are, she can walk calmly in the dirtiest and most ugly clothes, paying no attention to
the people around herHow to look, every time I
see her like this, I want to put a basin of cold water in my head and pour all the messy thoughts
in his head.

In the third year of junior high school, if there
was no Qi Qi always on the side to remind him, maybe his grades would have been unable to
keep up, or maybe he would have been
impulsively following the people around him.

After going to high school, when he found Qi Qi in the next class, he felt that God helped him too.

During the military training, Qi Qi sunburned
his face, he went to consult Tong Yunzhu what to do, and then sent sunscreen to her, but she
stupidly slapped things back to Song Peng, so angry that he could only smile bitterly.

When he was sick, Qi Qi would sneak out of the house to accompany him, and at that time, he
was really happy, he could hold her hand, talk
to her all the time, and kiss her. He knew that
she was timid and guarded, so he was always
careful not to exceed her bottom line, only dared to kiss her hands and cheeks, and did not
even dare to touch her mouth, but those secret desires tortured him to sleep in the middle of
the night, he comforted himself, it doesn't
matter, anyway, for a lifetime!

Lifetime? Not even tomorrow!

Zhang Jun lay on the table, and tears fell
silently.

In the dark classroom, he was the only one, and he didn't have to pretend to be strong anymore, nor did he have to mind that men shouldn't cry, so he let sadness all flood into his eyes.

He wasn't home until late at night in the
classroom.

The past that was still swirling in his mind, Qi Qi appeared in front of him like a miracle.

He was in a trance, as if time had not passed, he was still Zhang Jun who could sit next to Qi Qi
and do his homework, he wanted to be able to
get in front of her, laughing and teasing her, "I'm joking with you, let's go to the river to pick up stones!"

But Qi Qi's eyebrows in front of him are full of
rational restraint, his expression is very calm,
and he speaks in a clear tone and strict logic,
not at all like a male and female lover who is
breaking up.

He knew that such a Qi Qi would figure it out
and accept the breakup sensibly.

He sent her home, thinking that this was the
last time, and his heart was torn, and he could
only tell himself over and over again that if he loved her, he would stop dragging her.

In a short distance, he almost exhausted all his
sanity, and as soon as he arrived downstairs, he immediately turned around and left, not daring to linger for a moment, he was afraid that he
would regret it.

"Zhang Jun!"

He heard Qi Qi's cry, but he couldn't turn back
, let alone dare to turn back!

The breakup became a watershed moment in
his relationship.

Before this, although he had blamed Qi Qi for
not loving him enough, he knew that there was no way to force it, and he did not hate her.

After this, he began to slowly hate her.

After they broke up, he was still trying to
restrain his thoughts about her, and every time he saw her, he would feel a tightness in his
chest, and she immediately lost everything,
playing with her classmates every day, laughing brightly, and studying without being affected in the slightest.

He began to go to school with Huang Wei and leave school together, he was well aware of
those rumors, but naively hoped that the
rumors would reach Qi Qi's ears, he even used Huang Wei viciously, and again and again as if unintentionally met Qi Qi, let her see him and Huang Wei together, he just wanted to find a little trace of caring about him in her eyes, but no! Qi Qi is always elated and in good spirits.

He once thought that after he worked so hard, she would be a little sad for his departure no
matter what, even if it wasn't for their love, there were still memories between them from
childhood to adulthood, had she never
cherished the relationship between them? Wasn't she at all sad about losing him?
But she didn't!

She and Shen Yuanzhe went to school together, talking and laughing, every time he saw them
, he didn't seem to care, but his heart was so
uncomfortable that it seemed to explode, he
couldn't help but wonder, did Qi Qi really like
him? Perhaps, for Luo Qiqi, in addition to his
own studies and future, it does not matter who the boy walking around him is.

Qi Qi's life is as usual, still taking the first place in this exam, she said to others with a smile:
Zhang Jun and I broke up, but we are still friends."

She was so sensible and generous, but he was
extremely disappointed, it turned out that he
was much lighter in her heart than he thought.

His saddest scene happened a week after they broke up.

The school held a conference to introduce the learning experience, Qi Qi stood in front of the
students of the entire high school, introduced her learning experience, others were reading
with the manuscript, but she was
empty-handed, unprepared for a long time, full of care with a little impatience, simply talked,
and walked back to the seat, Qi Qi looked very similar to Chen Jin back then, because he had a set goal in his heart, and always didn't care
about external honor.

He looked at her offstage, bitter and proud.

After the conference, she was surrounded by a group of senior students, but at this time, she
lost the impatience and strange patience.
When he passed by, when he saw her from a
distance, his heart hurt, and his eyes could not even stay on her face, he could only look away as expressionlessly as possible, but she smiled
happily, waved at him, and called him affectionately, "Zhang Jun!" "It's like he's a very ordinary classmate, and there's nothing going on
between them.

His heart was as if he had been poked hard by a dagger.

She saw the king between them as completely non-existent!

She is sensible and generous, and has grace, so okay, let him be a childish and stingy person.

He was extremely hurt and angry, no matter
how others looked at him and laughed at him,
he decided to break off friendship with her,
and when Luo Qiqi appeared, he must avoid it and never see each other again! Anyone who mentions Luo Qiqi in front of him, he must turn his face, all his friends know his taboo, never
mention Luo Qiqi, his actions shamelessly tell
all friends, yes, I am injured! Just to be able to
stay away from her.

From then on, until he graduated from
high school, he never saw Luo Qiqi again, nor
heard from Luo Qiqi, and he used all his efforts to tightly block her out of his world.

This time, he was determined to forget her
completely!

Since then, until he was admitted to university and left his hometown, he only saw Luo Qiqi
twice.

Once was the graduation party, Luo Qiqi was
temporarily pulled to be the host, he kept his
head down, refused to see her, kept talking to
his classmates, refused to listen to her voice,
not long after the party began, he took
advantage of everyone's lack of attention to
leave quietly, what Luo Qiqi did that night and what he said, it has nothing to do with him! He didn't even see what she was wearing.

The last time was after the admission letter
came down, he went to run and exercise in the early morning, and met her on the way back, he originally wanted to turn around and leave, but in the drizzle, she stood on the bridge, throwing stones one by one, with a faint sadness on his
face, he suddenly couldn't move, and even had an illusion that Luo Qiqi was sad for him.

However, he was self-absorbed again, and Luo Qiqi looked at him silently for a while, and turned away without saying anything for a
long time.

He stared at her back slowlyDisappearing into
the rain of smoke, thinking that from now on
she was completely out of his life, her world he would never be able to touch again, and all he
could do was hope that she would be happy forever and that there was a good boy who could
fly with her.

It turns out that I hate so hard, just because it is love.

Very sad, but he will not regret loving this girl
and hating this girl.

Zhang Jun returned home, his thoughts still
restless.

The valve of memory was opened, as if
releasing a flood beast that had been
imprisoned, which could no longer be
controlled by himself.

Turn on the computer, go online and search for songs, he wants to know what the name of the
song is.

Liu Ruoying's "Light".

He clicked the play button, and the song sounded, because the impression was good, and it
sounded more moving than just now.

I want to ask you if you still remember my
name, when the sea of people rose and ebbed
several times, those things in those years,
those crazy, warm and romantic days, ah,
suddenly you came to a lifetime, I miss a
lifetime of such irrationality, what is it to be
happy for a while, why do I insist that it must
be my most memorable thing
?
Zhang Jun leaned on the recliner and listened
silently.

He has always believed that he has forgotten
, but in fact, he has always hidden that memory in the deepest depths, allowing time to pass
, and the dust of time has buried it heavily, but it has always been there.

So many years later, for the first time, he asked himself why, why can't he forget?

Maybe it's not just because those years are
engraved with the laughter and sorrow of his
youth, the sincerity and clumsiness of his
youth, and the success to work hard, without
her, maybe his college entrance examination
results will not be so good at all, and he can't
calmly choose his favorite school and major; It
is also she who makes him know how to chase
dreams and realize dreams, a little girl can
persevere for her dreams, how can he not do it as a big boy? Therefore, he will refuse to take
over his father's business, insist on doing the
garden landscape design he wants to do, will
work hard again without giving up after failure again and again, will enjoy the joy of success
after hard work, and will truly understand what a sense of achievement is.

The light she left in his heart made his life more exciting.

Love her and make yourself better!

The prompt for the SMS sounded.

He was not in the mood to pay attention, but
the other party was very stubborn, kept
texting, and when he repeated the sixth time, he picked up his mobile phone, which was anunfamiliar number.

"Is it Zhang Jun?"

Six identical messages in a row.

He replied, "Yes, who are you?"

"I'm Guan He, I hope you remember me, I have something to tell you."

Zhang Jun was too surprised, "Of course
, remember, I'm not used to texting, I'll call you now." The phone had not yet been dialed, and a new text message arrived, "Then you must also remember Luo Qiqi?"

Zhang Jun didn't know how to reply to this
message, let alone whether to call Guan He, he looked blankly ahead, the computer's stereo was playing "You came for a while, I miss it all my life."

Guan He obviously didn't need his answer, and a new text message arrived, "On your birthday in the second year of high school, Qi Qi sent you a bottle of lucky stars, have you seen the words inside?"

At this time, he did not have the courage to dial the phone, as if in this way, to protect himself at a safe distance, he sent a text message, "What
do you mean?"

"That's gone. If you haven't thrown them away yet, take a look at the lucky stars.

Before he could understand what she meant, a new message came out, "If you've thrown it,
Just say nothing as I did."

"What the hell do you mean?"

"I mean very clearly."

Zhang Jun held the mobile phone for a long
time, suddenly jumped up, and hurriedly
walked into the bedroom.

He took out a small black old-fashioned
suitcase from the bottom of the cabinet, with a small lock locked on the zipper, the key of
which he had thrown out of the window many years earlier. He had never opened it in all
these years, but after buying the house, he
immediately moved it from his hometown.

He went to find a wire cut, sat cross-legged on
the floor and began to unlock.

I haven't done this kind of business for many
years, and the gesture has long been rusty, but
this lock is easy to pry, toss for a while and then open.

The box was stuffed with miscellaneous things, and he still remembered the day Qi Qi greeted him with a smile, he came back from school, and wanted to immediately throw away everything related to Luo Qiqi, carry it in a large cardboard box, and walk to the trash. But he didn't throw it away, and reported it back intact, found a suitcase, stuffed everything into it, and shrunk it.

He began to take it out one by one.

More than a dozen dinosaurs were purchased
from the Beijing Planetarium, and they originally wanted to keep them for nine years to tease Qi Qi, but Qi Qi didn't like to accept his gifts,
and he didn't dare to give them at all.

A jewelry box with the peach heart
gold necklace that Qi Qi didn't want, Guan He
retrieved it from the trash can and returned it
to him.

Zhang Jun smiled bitterly, fate had hinted at
the end at the beginning, but he had always
been obsessed.

A beautiful photo album, inside are the martial arts photos of him and Qi Qi in Qingdao, Qi Qi
refuses to take pictures, he can only let Zhen
Gongzi and Jia Gongzi try to take secretly, all
the photos are carried by Qi Qi's realization,
looking although a little weird, but there is a
peculiar nature of secret photography, when
he installed the album at that time, he also
sweetly thought of taking it out when they
went to Qingdao for their honeymoon after
marriage, scaring her to death!

Zhang Jun only opened it and took a look, and immediately put the photo album and the top
and put it aside.

Finally, he found a glass bottle containing the
lucky star she had given him, but he was not
lucky
Opening the glass bottle, grabbing a handful of
lucky stars and looking at it carefully, suddenly he understood what Guan He meant...

He picked a green lucky star and carefully
opened it.

Halfway through the unfolding he saw small
words on the note, and he was short of breath, but controlled himself and slowly flattened the note.

"I heard that you confessed to Guan He, and I
decided to ignore you. I thought I could dislike you if I ignored you.

Zhang Jun immediately opened another lucky
star.

"When I stood at the ping-pong table, the most scared thing was to see you, you didn't show up, I was happy."

"When I was speaking, I saw you, and I knew it was impossible, but I really hoped that you
would come to see me."

"To tell you a secret, I don't like to pick up
stones, I just like to pick up stones with you."

"You fall asleep on a big rock, I will cover you
with a cool hat, as long as you are sleeping, I am willing to cover you from the sun forever."

"To tell you the biggest secret, I am very jealous and hate you talking to Guan He very much."

"When I'm not happy, when I'm happy, I write
'longbow' on the paper, as if you accompany
me unhappy, happy, write a piece of paper and throw it away, and no one knows what it means."

"The first time I was attracted to you was the
day when it fell hail, and you said you would
protect me."

Zhang Jun didn't understand this sentence,
what does it mean? Qi Qi liked him in
elementary school? He read several notes in a
row, and Qi Qi ignored him at that time
because he misunderstood that he liked Guan He, not because he already knew that he had
stolen the pen.

But why did she lie to him?

At the moment of sudden epiphany, it was as if
there was a bomb under the age that exploded in the head, and the heavy years not only did
not reduce its power, but made it ferment and
expand, exploding the pain of being squeezed
to the deepest part by the years.

But beneath the pain there was ecstasy.

His heart is beating wildly, his hands are
shaking, Qi Qi, Qi Qi, have you really loved me so much? Zhang Jun, Zhang Jun, you are such a big fool, why don't you understand that the
softest corners are always hidden deepest?

Zhang Jun couldn't remove it anymore, so he
grabbed his mobile phone and called Guan He.

After not seeing each other for ten years, but
not in any mood, he opened his mouth and
asked: "How do you know that there are words in the lucky star?"

Guan He was very surprised, although she did
hope that Zhang Jun did not throw away Luo
Qiqi's gift, but after all, it was just hope, after
all, she had also heard about his countless
vigorous affairs over the years. She said: I knew eleven years ago that Qi Qi secretly told me.

Zhang Jun was silent, and after half a ring, he
asked in a difficult voice: "Why tell me now?"
Why not back then?

Guan He was silent.

Zhang Jun slowly regained his senses and
asked, "Why did you suddenly tell me this?"

"I don't know, maybe because I received a letter from Luo Qiqi and suddenly wondered if you
still remember her."

Zhang Jun wanted to say lightly, "Of course I
remember, she is one of my ex-girlfriends", but he couldn't say it.

"Since you still have the gift she gave you, I'll
tell you one more thing. Luo Qiqi returned to
China, where we grew up together these days.

Zhang Jun's heart jumped wildly, and he asked
in a steady voice: "Is there her phone?"

"I only have her email address, but this world is not big, Luo Qiqi and classmates, you also have classmates, if you have the heart, you will
definitely be able to find her."

There were several voices on the phone, and
Guan He said, "I'm going to hang up."

Zhang Jun said, "Okay, just now... I'm sorry! Anyway, thank you for letting me know that there
are words in Lucky Star and that those words
are important to me.

Guan He was silent for a moment and said:
"Thank yourselves, if Qi Qi has forgotten you and forgotten me, she will not write to me, if you have forgotten her and thrown away the
memories that belong to you, even if I tell you,
it is useless."

After Guan He finished speaking, he hung up
the phone.

Zhang Jun stood dumbfounded for a while, then suddenly rushed outside, rushed to the door, returned again, stuffed everything back into
the box in a mess, and went downstairs with
the box.

After driving for more than eight hours, I
returned to my hometown in the early morning.

But when he really returned to his hometown, he began to be a little confused, what did he
want to do?

Tell Qi Qi that I misunderstood you? I didn't
break up with you because I didn't love you anymore? Is it a lie that I say that my love has worn out?

Because of the pride and clumsiness of youth there was indeed one misunderstanding afte another between them, but after so many years, these misunderstandings were no longe important.

He parked his car downstairs and sat in silence.

When dismantling the lucky star, the long time was shortened, as if they quarreled and broke
up just yesterday, and the ten years in between no longer existed, he rushed back regardless of it, thinking in a trance that standing at this
staggered point of time, he could recover those lost time and correct the mistakes made in those youths, but when the impulse dissipated, he
found that the past time had passed, and the
future time - there was no future! They hav no turning back and cannot move forward!

After sitting for a long time, he lit a cigarette
and, while smoking a cigarette, slowly drove
the car from one street to another.

The four children he and Qi Qi read together,
one, the movie theater where they watchedmovies together, Qi Qi's former home, the roller
rink where he and Qi Qi went to roller skate...

He has returned to his hometown several times over the years, but each time he has come an gone in a hurry, and this is the first time he has
revisited his hometown.

With the appearance of one location after
another, all the memories that he deliberately
sealed were like a movie, in his mind, scene by
scene, vividly let go.

From noon to afternoon, Zhang Jun walked to
all the places he and Qi Qi had been, fearing and hoping, searching for her figure in the crowd, and even he didn't know whether he wanted to see her or not.

After looking for a day, he didn't see Qi Qi.

He couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, he only felt tired, and the heavy exhaustion made him seem to collapse.

He parked the car by Qiqi's favorite river
before, and the whole person lay on the
steering wheel.

In fact, even if you find it, what can you do?
What difference does it make to see it or not?

Who knows if she's married or not?

Even though she is still single, she and he have
followed very different life trajectories, what
else is there to say except a "hello"? Those
misunderstandings and apologies have long
Been washed away by the years and no longer matter.

What could he tell her? Over the years, both
the body and the mind have been stained with
layers of dust from the west. Ten years was long enough to mold them into two completely
strange people. He was no longer the teenager he did not care about back then, the bumps of
red dust had made him numb long ago, and he
didn't even have the courage to jump down the river of time to chase her.

What is used to remember the past is not to be pursued.

He put his head on the steering wheel and
slammed it heavily, again and again, as if this
would knock off the dust and vicissitudes of ten years.

Zhang Jun lay on the steering wheel for a long
time, knowing that the setting sun would
reflect his glass window red.

He looked up at the broken bridge in the
distance, which was empty, only the brilliant
but lonely burning of the sunset.

Today is already over!

And tomorrow, tomorrow is the end of the
world!

He lit a cigarette and, while smoking it, opened the glass bottle containing the lucky star.

"I really want to ask you, whether it's me or Guan He, but I'm afraid of disappointment, and I'm even more afraid that you will lie, so I haven't
dared to ask you, and I don't bother to ask."

"In fact, every time you invite me out to play,I really want to go, but I have no money to invite
you, so I can only refuse, and when I have
money in the future, I will definitely agree."

"On my birthday, I made a wish that you would always love me, would you always love me?"

Zhang Jun didn't want to look anymore, opened the door and got out of the car, walked up the
dirt slope on the side of the road, and looked at the river.

It is the last splendor of the sunset, the sunset
covers half of the sky, the trees by the river are all reflected orange-red, the river surface is
sparkling, shimmering with a little silver light,
and the broken bridge straddles the shore
alone, casting a gentle reflection on the river.

In the reflection across the riverbank, the
author is a woman wearing a large white T-shirt and blue denim shorts. She bent over and lowered her head, washing the stones with river water, and with each wash, she directly pulled up
the large T-shirt on her body to dry it, and then put it in the tin box next to her.

The light and the sparkling light are
intertwined, plating the woman's thin figure
into a warm and blurry silhouette, which is not clear to see, but it is like a gentle dream left out of time.

Zhang Jun's body froze, and the cigarette butt on his fingertips slipped and fell to the ground.

Qi Qi suddenly raised his head to look across
the river, and Zhang Jun immediately squatted down and hid behind the trees, not
understanding why such a strange and childish reaction.

Qi Qi's gaze slowly swept around the other side of the river, then lowered his head and
continued to wash the stones.

Zhang Jun's tears slowly ran out of his eyes, he wanted to control it, but he couldn't control
anything, pressed his palm his eyes, but there
was no way to put all the bitterness back, he
could only let the tears soak his palm.

At the age of nineteen, he hid alone in their .elementary school teacher, lying in the position
where Luo Qiqi had done, crying for her, but .she would never know that a teenager had shed. .tears for him.

At the age of twenty-nine, he shed tears for Luo Qiqi again, will Luo Qiqi know?

Ten years later, they stood again on the bridge of their childhood, again on a bridge, under a
bridge.

However, the distance between them is not
only a bridge, but also a Pacific Ocean, and ten years of personnel and red dust.

Zhang Jun is no longer the person he was when he was nineteen, Luo Qiqi is no longer her
when she was seventeen, they are no longer
the person they love in each other's memory,and even they can't tell which person they are
attached to, or that simple and sincere youth.

How about seeing each other again? This
goodbye to you is no longer you, and the. familiar face will only highlight the vicissitudes of the years and years.

I thought so, he was her motivators. Both study in tingshua university, both came first place in whole of their province, in the book Jin Fan
even suggested her to study in Harvard
university. That why she stayed behind USA

She started liking him in the primary school, base on the novel , they have their sweet moment in later episode, but in the novel they even had their first kiss after they broke up

In the Book they had more romance they even kiss

He is more suitable for her,

Read the book it worth understand ing the whole drama , in the tv serial they have changed Xiao fie, where she meet her in Beijing, in the novel she doesn't know where she is? Luo qi qi watch wang Zheng downfall

Maybe they can't elaborate but remember when both went roller skating they are girl calling his name Zhang Jun?

In the book he was because he was rich , good looking