this is gonna break me so fucking hard its already hurting knowing i don't believe in god anymore because i don't feel like he is there and no its not Jesus who im talking about im talking about Allah for island Muslims he never helped me neither answered my prayers and im bisexual so i am already breaking all the rules i wera hijab onyl for my parents i sin and do everything so my path to heaven is really closed, if God is really merciful why did he make women suffer so much why did he create different religions