this weeks eps were quite boring to me; tbh since last week i kind of got 'tired' of this drama, but not to the extent of dropping it. i'll defo finish this but my rating wil most prolly go down.
the way theyre is my type of personality. i prefer being calm. but ofc i also hav the hyper side of me at times,…
honestly I don’t rly expect life to get better the way ppl quote it. cuz that’s just how life is. I just need to survive through it somehow I guess. also since I’m venting to u right now, let me tel h another thing as wel that I’m currently going through, which is the stress over results day. I live in the UK n we hav this massive exam known as GCSE n legit my work life, my career depend on there results. I can’t explain I stressed I get, I feel physically sick to the point I can’t eat n I’m constantly feeling like vomiting. I stop crying legit every night, I feel extremely nervous, scared n even exhausted from feeling such a way. btw my results day is in two weeks to it’s my college enrolment day (basically we hav our results then run to the college I want to go n enroll there before space runs out, but obviously I need the grades first). I like the feeling makes me sh soo bad (I’m clean for 3 months). I’m rly sorry for venting to u, n tysm for listening to me, I needed that right now. 💕 also if u wanna add my insta it’s @ttxss_614, u can talk to me whenever, tho i can’t rly advice other, I’m a good listener. :))
the way theyre is my type of personality. i prefer being calm. but ofc i also hav the hyper side of me at times,…
yh.. I don’t think I’m capable of loving someone or being loved by others. I don’t exactly consider this as I bad thing anymore, it is what it is. when u lov someone romantically or platonically, there r certain commitments that both sides needs to maintain for the relationships to workout, I don’t think I’m capable or giving enough, so rather than being a friend/partner to the other person, I’d just simply become a burden.I might sound cringe but I honestly don’t c any value within me, I’m just there for no reason.
the way theyre is my type of personality. i prefer being calm. but ofc i also hav the hyper side of me at times,…
awhh that’s rly sweet of u. I’m glad u hav met ur ppl n u deserve the best. to me my biggest worry isn’t being alone, rather it’s being recognised n expected too much. my entire life I’ve been a v good student, a pretty good child too (even tho i was a lil troublesome w certain ‘friends’). so everyone around me stil expects me b like that. it was easy back then, but I’ve grown up n ive changed now. I’m not n i was never v close to my parents but I got pretty much anything I wanted as long as my grades were high. so in other words, in my life all I’ve been ‘taught’ was if I study n I can get anything. studying n achieving makes me feel happy but there’s a limit to it. so as I’ve said before, everyone around me expect a lot from, starting from my parents, n this hav started to become v much pressuring n burdening to me. so I feel like one of the reasons y I hav blocked everything (esp ppl) out of my life is to escape reality. ppl around me is part of my reality, so by blocking them out, at least 30% of my reality is gone. ( idk if I’m making sense tbh😭). there r soo many things i lov doin on my own such as sleeping, reading/watching, working out, doing makeup, art n music n etc. so I honestly hate being w ppl, esp those ppl who expect me to perfect, a perfect friend, a perfect student n so on. they don’t seem to understand how hard it is for me. I just wanna live in peace, w my own happiness n my ambitions.
the way theyre is my type of personality. i prefer being calm. but ofc i also hav the hyper side of me at times,…
yhh igy. i lov the way they are. i wish i had ppl that in my life. i mean im stil pretty young n at this age its more normal to b 'hype', idk y im like tha tbh lmaoo. i wasnt like this until 2 years ago; when i was 14 a lot happened which made me change. i blocked everyone, as in i wouldnt talk to others, n in that way i had lost many friends. i mean i dont regret doing what i did. i lov being alone, the feeling of loneliness is a huge to comfort to me (to an extent ofc). but then when i do meet ppl irl, im not awkward, i think im quite fun and im pretty much a whole diff person when im w others. i try to give all of my energy to them when i do meet them once in a while, cuz i dont communicate in any other way (i've social media but im inactive 99% of the time lmahkjdh). i dont hate it but its exhausting to pull out that character; tho just until 2 years ago i was the type who is v loud at school, with big friends groups n ect.
im sorry for telling u all of this, idk y i just felt like i could tell u since u seem mature enough to b understanding :))
at one point they were saying that they don't know how the viewers will react to them seeing calmly hanging out…
the way theyre is my type of personality. i prefer being calm. but ofc i also hav the hyper side of me at times, esp cuz im 16 y/o n a lot of my friends r v hype n outgoing. (idk y i mentioned age but in my head it made sense to mention it😭)
i lov this show, honestly soo comforting. its literally free therapy. also id recommend u to watch it at late evening or at night, idk but the vibe hits diff then. everyone here r v mature (i mean they're full grown men) n the way they express their emotions is actually beautiful. love all of them so much.
also if u wanna add my insta it’s @ttxss_614, u can talk to me whenever, tho i can’t rly advice other, I’m a good listener. :))
so I feel like one of the reasons y I hav blocked everything (esp ppl) out of my life is to escape reality. ppl around me is part of my reality, so by blocking them out, at least 30% of my reality is gone. ( idk if I’m making sense tbh😭). there r soo many things i lov doin on my own such as sleeping, reading/watching, working out, doing makeup, art n music n etc. so I honestly hate being w ppl, esp those ppl who expect me to perfect, a perfect friend, a perfect student n so on. they don’t seem to understand how hard it is for me. I just wanna live in peace, w my own happiness n my ambitions.
im sorry for telling u all of this, idk y i just felt like i could tell u since u seem mature enough to b understanding :))
everyone here r v mature (i mean they're full grown men) n the way they express their emotions is actually beautiful. love all of them so much.