angst

[EP 10]

"you're all murderers! you're afraid of death!"says the bitch of a woman who wants to blow up a bus full of complete strangers with her and her man(?) because SHE wants to die. not to be dramatic here but such people should just go ahead, better than innocent people being killed for no fucking reason.[what i'm gonna say is solely for this woman, if you're having harmful thoughts, please talk to a loved one and take care of yourself. <3 you'll be okay! :)]you're not afraid of death? cool! OTHER PEOPLE ARE. other people have actual lives and they want to live and do and experience great things with their close ones. if you want to die so bad, go ahead. just don't take complete strangers with you, i promise they don't even know your name and don't give a shit about your pathetic ass. oh my god. the audacity to shamelessly blow up an occupied bus without a hint of remorse. malicious "people" trigger me so much. anyways, this filthy bitch can die alone. idc what she's been through.

[ep 4]fl is annoying. i can't w this melodrama in every drama, please be rational.

yes!!

ew, nasty racist.

yup, sadly. i wish they didn't have them have a pretend sibling relationship and then turn it around but imo they have the best dynamic and potential and they're ready to die for each other, so. 🧎🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

i do like XL now, but his past abusive behaviours can't be forgotten.the point isn't if they knew that she was a girl or not, violence is violence. CX has always been nice to everyone, he was very genuine and forgiving towards XY as XL no matter how much trouble she got him in. the only time he abused her and jing was when he had to follow orders which they disobeyed. yup, I'm biased. 😔💅🏻but Xiang kiu... eh, i don't hate him and i do empathise w his character. he could've been such a beautiful element to the story if his character didn't have that unnecessary violent arc written for him. again, i do like him in the later episodes more and he has pretty good chemistry with xiaoyao.idk i'm kinda waiting for cang xuan's angsty one sided yearning arc, sooooo 👀

I DON'T GET YAOLIU SHIPPERS, WHY DO THEY FIND HIM SO HOT???

i like him more now but in the beginning, guy threw her from a tall tree, gave her 40 lashes on sight, threatened to kill her countless times etc, and they call his love "pure" haha, mfs...

i agree! i find his love so pure. 🥺 he deserves the best.

i mean, she acts like someone who doesn't really feel it but is just copying what they've seen others do in romantic relationships, someone who's clueless about it.

i agree. but again, she has trust issues and thus has to test people again and again(I'll be a pos and say that i don't really feel the cause of her trust issues).oh... wha... gave her Heart?? please don't spoil me, i'm on ep 25. 🥺damn. i fundamentally struggle with feeling and understanding the concept of romantic love and i really settled on something there but... 🥺 is that not love? now i'm questioning myself even more. :/ maybe it's just because I'm really attached to him, haha!

yeah, I'm around ep 25 and they're getting cuter! but it still feels like she's just reading a script, but still adorable. please don't spoil me!

because it's "normal" and "acceptable" in their shallow view of reality.

i love xiaoyao. she's so smart, is people smart, has really high standards, is always helpful and kind. she's literally ready to die for xuan, i love their bond.

while on the other hand. contrary to what she says often, imo she gives away too much of herself, to many people. it's like she scatters pieces of herself everywhere, to keep everyone satisfied. this isn't really obvious but very subtle, i think.

but when it comes to jing, she's very confusing. and hurtful. why do i feel like she'll never ever give her heart to anyone? because I don't see it. and i empathise with her a lot, but again, she's very weird with him. the guy is too much of a doormat, he's constant chasing her, and she's just... idk, i don't want to say anything harsh. but that guy is too good, he's just too good and it's hard to see him hurting so much. i wish she'd either actually fall for him(doesn't seem likely so far) or just makes it clear that she won't. because even if she "chooses" him, which this show is about, it seems, it'll be for "companionship," while jing wants her soul, her heart, he's really in love with her(which i cannot comprehend, just trying to understand it through him tbh).

just rambling here. cang xuan. 🧎🏻‍♀️

i don't know how to say it without getting personal. xiaoyao, i get you.

"you know that if there wasn't something, i wouldn't have come to you," nah she's straight up using jing now. poor guy. he and xuan are my main characters.

thanks! but I don't have Netflix and i want to support the creators legally 🤡 I'll just suffer for now ig!

thanks!

will the episodes after 22 EVER be uploaded on YouTube?

this show is just a torturefest for xuan and shiqi. constant suffering for 0 reason.

there are a lot of misunderstandings. but a LOT of angst too. and yes, it's a forever love kinda dynamic. an epic love story.