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Man, this ep was rough.

Mitsuru is trying so so hard to pretend that things are going to be okay, that they can just stay like this forever with Koichi in permanent pause, and everything in the world is working to show him all the ways that's just not going to happen. And Koichi with his calm acceptance that only breaks when he sees Mitsuru getting upset...they're both breaking my heart.

They love each other so much...when Koichi was doing his whole "can't a person have two number ones?" thing and Mitsuru thought that he wouldn't like it if Koichi liked someone as much as him I wanted to shake him, because Koichi so wasn't talking about himself there.

The next two episodes are gonna hurt a lot.

Hey now, they mastered the head tilt in Eternal Yesterday. Small steps!

For me personally, I find that if the chemistry works for me it can make up for lackluster (or even no) kissing. Someone elsewhere said that Japan is good at bringing thirst, and I tend to agree with that when the leads have good chemistry. To use the EY example, I fully believe that Koichi and Mitsuru want each other in all ways. They're pulling it off and while I might have made comments about dead fish kisses after ep three, I believed it then too. I also believed it in MBM and OFC, for what it's worth.

No for real though, their chemistry is killing me.

I feel like this episode is gonna be a grower.

As in, it's gonna get caught in my head and linger there for a while. All the episodes linger for me, really, but this one is the turning point. I think this is the episode where people need to decide if they want to be put through pain, because pain is coming, and how.

This is the first ep that made me cry.

No, I don't think he's counting Koichi. I think that he sees how warm and loving Koichi's family is and it hurts, and I do think that there's relief when he is once again by himself, but he's confusing that with coldness. I also agree with wei x lan that he's telling himself this because part of him knows Koichi won't always be there, and not in the abstract way we all know the people in our lives might be gone one day, but in a very real, inevitable, Koichi is on borrowed time kind of way.

I think him turning away when Koichi told him that he likes him the most was fear and sadness. For all that he's been walking around telling people in his best exasperated voice that Koichi isn't dead, he's just a living corpse, gosh, I don't think he ever really let himself know what that meant for them. The stuff with the teachers and Koichi's calm words made him realize that there might actually be a time limit, here. And that means he's going to lose the one person he loves more than anything else. He's not rejecting Koichi, he's rejecting all the other stuff.

At least that's my two cents.

Yes same. Not a lot happened but I can already tell that this episode is going to linger in my mind. And I think we're all definitely boarding the sadness train beginning next week.

I agree, I think it makes a lot of sense. There have been shades of this the entire time, it's just reached a breaking point. Between Mamoru's belief that Issei doesn't mean what he means when he says "like/love" and his own issues with self worth (issues that he's had since episode one - even all that attention when he was on the wall and popular wasn't enough for him) it makes a lot of sense. Especially considering he has stopped doing well professionally.

My one concern is It's a lot to resolve in one 20 min episode. So I'm starting to wonder if it will end on an uplifting note if not necessarily an unambiguously happy one. I can see that for sure.

As far as I know there isn't one. I read the Spanish translation. (that I think is now gone)

I think the two things are the same for this

*Anyone else notice how much more open, talkative, and confident M seems since their mutual confession?*

YES and I love it.

I think that I have mostly accepted that it's gonna hurt like hell. And the pain is gonna start soon, pretty sure. Since we're at the halfway mark.

Yeah, Koichi (and Hashimoto, bless her) were not moving along as fast as Kagamiya and Mitsuru, but it's only a matter of time til it clicks for him that he's stealing from Mitsuru (even this ep Mitsuru's eyes were drawn and bloodshot, and that was after only one night), and I doubt he'll want to let that stand. I'm kinda curious if Mitsuru will fight him on it - my gut says yes. He'd give Koichi anything.

So yes. Tears are in my future. There's a masochistic part of me that's kinda looking forward to it.

Okay, okay, I take back the things I said about last ep's kiss. Clearly they were going for something and I can respect that. Spicy, spicy.

But more than that, I am just enthralled by how comfortable Mitsuru is with Koichi, and it clicked for me that this is the most we've seen them interact in the time after they confessed to each other. They are so lovely, and I'm going to cry buckets, I can tell.

I wonder if Kagamiya will admit that she suspects Koichi is stealing Misturu's life force. She came close to it before Class Prez came flying in.

What is UP with the teachers?

This ep was too short! I want sleepovers every episode now.

It's up on gaga now

My general assumption is people are watching it without subs. I would probably do the same if I could. I will try to be patient but hot damn those gifs are telling a story.

No but seriously throw a bone, here. I am seeing gifs and I am taking back everything bad I said about the kiss last episode but it's not the same as watching it.

Aw the giggling actually saved it for me, a little. They're so giddy and relieved and it's really sweet.

I also think I've come around to the kiss after *mumblemumble*rewatches. I think it fits. I do worry that'll be the best we get but I'm willing to wait for at least one more before I decide it is.

I have a question regarding that if you don't mind answering. I can message you to prevent spoiling anyone. If you don't mind.

The tent stuff was so darn good I can't deal with it. Koichi just getting more and more riled up as he talks, letting out all this stuff that he's clearly been thinking of for a while - the way he just freezes when he sees he's made Mitsuru cry. And the scene at the little pavilion like thing...not sure how I missed that this occurred the summer before the zombifying, but now I know and that means, seeing as they met in the spring 2 years before Koichi was hit by a truck, that this is a year's worth of pining exploding all over everything. That makes a lot of sense.

The acting is so good, honestly. My heart hurt for Mitsuru when he's watching Koichi and then catching himself, over and over. It's so relatable in the most painful way, every time he has to remind himself that he has to hide. And Koichi himself is so emotionally open - no wonder Mitsuru's reaction to him was confusing!

It also throws such an interesting wrench in everything, that they were already together by the point that the accident happened. In a way it makes it hurt a little more, because they both know exactly what they stand to lose if and when Koichi dies for good.

I hope it only gets better. This episode really raised the bar for me (and it was already pretty high, if I'm honest). Really looking forward to next week! The preview looks spicy and I think it's in the present again, or the time in which Koichi is zombie boyfriend.

Oh no you were fine, I just wanted to explain myself a little. :)

As one of the commenters who expressed some disappointment, it's true that I think it could have been done better and still conveyed innocence or tentativeness if that was the intent. It also makes me worry that this is the future w/r/t any other kisses.

That said, I have always maintained that even with kisses I'm not jazzed about I'll still love it if the chemistry otherwise can carry the day, and it is, for me. I loved absolutely everything leading to the kiss, like right up until the moment lips touched, and I loved the little moment afterwards.