
dtsj_sapphire:
she'd rather be royal mother and be alone/single forever than open her heart to another man.
Agree: her expressed desire to be a Royal Mother symbolizes her yearning for a life centered around family, potentially including a child with Jin, as an integral part of her commitment to their relationship.
If she can't have those, she is willing to give herself to that responsability, and only that.
Ch.49:
The Royal Mother’s expression was as if she already knew everything. Xiao Yao’s eyes teared up, the entire world belonged to Zhuan Xu and there was nowhere she could go to hide from him. Only Jade Mountain cut off from the entire world gave her a place to rest.
Xiao Yao replied “I do!”
(note: hiding from CX sight).
Xiao Yao said “I thought it through, the world may be vast but there is nowhere I can go now. Being the Royal Mother is my only resting place.” In the past she greedily sought out the sights and sounds of the outside world but now that she lost everything, nothing mattered to her anywhere. She was tired and wanted only a peaceful spot to putter around for the rest of her life.
---> Part CX/XY:
Zhuan Xu grabbed Xiao Yao’s hand tightly like he was never going to let go “Why?”
Xiao Yao smiled so casually, like this had nothing to do with her “Zhuan Xu, how can you not know why? I could have lived like an ordinary girl, marrying and having kids, living a simple happy life. You took it all away from me! I can’t kill you, I can’t kill myself, I can’t even leave! The whole world knows I am Qi Yo’s daughter, the whole world is under your rule – if I can avoid people trying to kill me, I still can’t avoid your forces to bring me back. Zhuan Xu, the world is so vast but you’ve pushed me to the point of being with you or having nowhere else to go!”
“If you don’t become the Royal Mother, I can give up…….”
Xiao Yao shook her head “Zhuan Xu, I’m tired, let me rest now!”
Zhuan Xu tightly held onto Xiao Yao’s hand pleading “Xiao Yao, if you don’t become the Royal Mother I will give you any freedom you want, go anywhere you want!”
Xiao Yao got on her knees and raise her head to look up at Zhuan Xu “Gege, please I beg you to remember all we shared and agree to let me be the Royal Mother, give me a place to rest.”
Her expression was placid and in her dark depths there was no love or hate anymore, just nothingness.
He remembered when those eyes reflected intelligence and charm, beauty and wit. Those eyes showed happiness and sorrow, would get worried and mad…..even those last days on Sheng Nong Mountain those eyes reflected hatred.
But now there was nothing there! It was like a dried up well……..
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Xiao Yao stared at the peach blossom forest and remembered when Jing proposed to her. It was on Cao Ao Peak on Sheng Nong Mountain, which didn’t have any peach blossom trees, but Jing knew her parents pledged their love under peach blossom trees so he used his power to conjure up thousands of miles of peach blossoms and as the petals rained down he nervously asked “Tu Shan Jing wishes for Xi Ling Jiu Yao’s hand in marriage.”
Xiao Yao reached out her hand and caught a few peach blossoms and smiled.
Xiao Yao walked directly to the altar without looking anywhere else and the Royal Mother asked “As custom, I shall ask one final time – once you are Royal Mother you cannot get married or ever leave Jade Mountain. Do you still agree?”
Zhuan Xu yelled “Xiao Yao———-“ with tears in his eyes, pleading with every fiber of his being.
Under the peace blossoms falling around her Xiao Yao seemed to spot Jing and she tightly clenched her hands around the petals in her palm as she smiled at him and said “I agree.”

UNTIL:
From the sky came a white crane with a blue robed man standing on its back, refined and elegant.
“Jing, is it really you?”
Jing answered “I am Wen Xiao Liu’s Ye Shi Qi. Because you counted seventeen leaves on the herbal branch, that is why I am called Shi Qi.”
Xiao Yao smiled through her tears “You’re really back!”
Jing grabbed her hands “I’m sorry for making you wait so long!”
Xiao Yao burrowed into Jing’s arms as her tears fell “Jing, Jing, you’re finally back!”
Jing comforted her “Don’t cry…..don’t cry…..”
Xiao Yao started crying even louder and pummeled his chest “I kept waiting for you, I kept waiting for you and didn’t believe you died. Every full moon I think you’ll come back but you never did! I waited so long and thought you wouldn’t come back……..I thought you really abandoned me…..I hate you, hate you…..”
Jing let Xiao Yao hit and yell at him while repeating “I know you suffered a lot and I didn’t keep my promise. I’m sorry! I’m sorry!”
OUF! :D ...they can go back to "business"!=>