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okkk wow, now that the part about the episode in general is done, i'll quickly sum up how i feel about the series lmao !!!

you maniac for me as a series is a sign of learning how to grow, it is allowing yourself to see and experience a couple of guys struggling through their lives due to past trauma and hurt amongst other things as well as attempting to figure out how to love one another. the red flag is there, there was love bombing, there was lack of communication, there were harsh words being thrown around and criticism however, there was no crime. and i think that's where a lot of people's judgement is a bit fogged up too because a lot of the comparisons i've seen in terms of red flags has always been chinese bls and their 'toxicity' when in reality most of those are just crimes, sa, rape and so on isn't being a red flag, emotional coercion is not being a red flag - it's a crime. and you maniac doesn't fall under that therefore it is labeled as 'boring' and 'wrongly marketed'.

that also comes where i judge the direct use of 'red flags' and flags alike. describing someone as a certain flag according to traits is always a bit off to me, there'll never be an understanding of a mid-point, of a gray area and the middle where something can be this bit truly, is it. that's also where i say that i've seen a lot of people say 'dean isn't a red flag, moth is" and so on, they both are. matter of fact, they all are, in their own ways? why, because they're the type of people who hide their feelings, who don't communicate, some love bomb, some do not appreciate the friendship they hold with others, some may even use others for their own benefit but at the root of it all, they're the type of people you're told to stay away from and like i've seen, plenty of people personally saying they would never date someone like them. there you go, you cannot date someone like them if they don't align with your views, if their behaviours constantly piss you off, if their words get on your nerves. the baggage that they carry emotionally pours out physically and verbally onto their actions therefore, they're not the type of people we'd engage ourselves with or if we do, they're the people we go "how the hell did i deal with _??".

the other thing that i love about this series in general is the fact that deanmoth were never portrayed as 'good' or 'bad', neither were good nor bad, they both had their issues, they were both morally grey, some actions we understood, some actions we defended whilst others not but at the very end, it was never about that as an intention, it was to show that no person is just fully good or bad, there's always going to be something complicated and messy about them that wouldn't align with a lot of us therefore we'd condemn them. i would give the example that many people crucified moth in the later episodes like crazy until the very end, some with dean, others ten etc. showing that everybody's different and their own experiences will project onto the behaviours and actions of these characters.

other than that, the series is definitely not for everyone. i wouldn't call it a series that requires too much emotional maturity nor a series that requires you to have direct experience but it is a human series with human characters and that's what it focuses on, it's not a series that just acts as a series, it's almost like a placeholder for experiences in life and for the learning curves we go through. if you feel like you can't relate to it, it gets harder to feel like it's an amazing series but for me personally, as i've said before, i relate to and understand these characters on so many levels and their experiences in different ways which is why this series is one of my favourites and will continue to be.

that's also where i say that it does make me sad seeing so much criticism, down-voting, low ratings for the sake of low ratings and so on and where i'll reiterate my hope that one day, this series will be appreciated more for what it does and what it tries to do. like i said, it wasn't perfect and i don't think there's ever been anything that was perfect and that's fine because perfect doesn't always equal good and good doesn't always equal perfect, it's almost a fickle descriptor when cinema and media is something for everybody to interpret in their own way and appreciate in their own way.

if you don't like you maniac, that's completely fine. if you liked the beginning but not the later half, that's also fine. if you liked the last half better than the first half, also completely fine, however, what isn't fine is calling the director, scriptwriter etc. names and belittling them because the story didn't go your way, belitting the actors or assuming they don't even like the story they chose, that's not okay. it's never okay to say such things, constructive criticism is something that will always exist but downright disrespect towards the cast and crew will never be and i hope i don't see it again because it's disheartening.

anyway, i just wanted to leave this off saying that i enjoyed writing reviews for you maniac so much, i know i wrote some very in detail ones and sometimes not, overall, it's been such an enjoyable time watching this series and sharing my viewpoint of every episode and everything being said or done, some might be far off, others close but at the end of the day, this series is beautiful and i'll hold it close to my heart for everything that it made me feel and go through, even though i got irritated so much sometimes seeing the way people talked about it lmao, but that happens and it's a normal thing that we live and move on from, look back on and laugh at our behaviours.

that's you maniac. a story of growth and love where you look back years from now as dean or moth and say, damn, we were messy and chaotic but we still ended up together. because being human means being dumb and being dumb means understanding that we make mistakes and stupid decisions but also, it's how we live to learn and learn to live going forward.

sorry for the very long yap lmao but i hope if anybody reads this freaking almost novel sized review, you enjoy at least a little bit of it and my chaos, thank you so much and i'll see you all in the next williamest series ! 🌸

"will you be my boyfriend? you're already kneeling down to ask me to be your boyfriend, so what are you going to do when it comes to proposing? i'll figure that out when the time comes. after everything i said, you still haven't got your answer? yes."

fucking kick me.

"can you please not go? can you? i'm begging you. can we stay together? you won't leave me, right? you won't, right? let's stay together."

dean is fucking insane thank you, bye.

"i'm grateful to you too anyway for choosing to stay in my life. i'm greatful to you too for making me realise that i deserve love too."