Zellie

Anytime

FL's death will most likely be shown, they may include ML's death too based on the novel

It could have been so if she had actively accepted him. The way I see it she slipped up, being unable to hide her feelings anymore. It didn't seem like she was acting entirely consciously and just decided to accept it since she couldn't pretend anymore. But there needn't be only a single reason and could be several things.

Together with what @LBPG said I think it was a subconscious act, she had been restraining herself all that time and on seeing him turn away she without even realizing it acted on her true feelings, when he looked back you can see her coming to her senses and start to let go but that small action was enough to let Yi San know how she really felt and she realizes that there is no point in pretending anymore.

Even though I wanted to see her, I feel like her appearance would only have dragged things out.

I don't know if it is just me but I completely understood Deok Im's reasons after her talk with Court Lady Seo but I also read excerpts from the novel so that adds to me being in solidarity with her decision. At first, I was really curious what her reasons will be in the drama but from what I read about her life as a concubine and what she told Court Lady Seo everything became clear, and now I feel like just the fact that she did not want to be concubine is reason enough.

But that's Deok Im's entire concept though, her being ahead of her time. Besides, whether it is the 18th century or 21st century which woman (who isn't into polyamory) will want to see the person she loves with someone else and be expected to be okay with it, it's just that her character is brave enough to express her feelings and as for her reason of not wanting to push herself into harm I fail to see how self-preservation isn't natural.

I hate how good this drama is, like can it just stop ruining my life by taking up so much of my attention.

I wanted to add that I don't think morals are all what viewers are concerned with otherwise antiheroes wouldn't be so popular and the context feels more important than the character's actions in a fictional scenario. My meaning being that the drama not complying with 21st century morals may not be the cause of a viewer's disdain (I agree that if anyone does expect 21st century righteousness then they should remember that this is indeed a historical drama) and I don't know about others but in this case more than whether Yi San is adhering to morals or not I am concerned with how he treats my best girl.

I am aware of how he was in the novel so I only disagreed with the part I mentioned but you are right about the drama portraying Yi San from the novel

Personally, I wouldn't hold Yi San manhandling Deok Im against him too much as long as Deok Im seems okay with it and a little grey in his character may help me deal with the pain of seeing him in mourning later but I respectfully disagree in regards to what you said about it being a different era. As far as I am aware a man laying his hands on a woman (that wasn't his wife) was looked down upon back then too and that scene is not between the King and his court lady but between a man and a woman he loves so his roughness is a little off-putting but yes, the drama need not follow the moral ethics of today.

It is likely that I am going to here for quite a while even after it ends, atleast I have company in this suffering 😭

I have been attached to several dramas before and I would rewatch clips of scenes, behind the scenes, edits, and whatever content available for weeks before I could move on after they had ended but never to the point of rewatching entire episodes while the drama is airing or taking up permanent residence in MDL comment section as I have with The Red Sleeve. Because I remember what it was like with the previous ones I feel like I am going to be in way worse pain with this drama

I have never been this invested in a kdrama before. I can only imagine what a wreck I will be after January 1st

He does say that, "Only such a woman can produce a rightful heir and producing such an heir is my only intention" but I didn't think that he meant finding a suitable woman but rather it was a long winded way of saying that he won't take a court lady as his concubine

I am not sure I understand what you mean, he doesn't imply anything about finding a suitable woman he only says that, "I have no intention of keeping a woman of humble status beside me. Only a daughter of a dignified family would qualify to be beside me".

Yep, Head Court Lady Jo mentions that Kyung-hee works in the Crown Princess' bedroom in the first episode

My pleasure. I am happy you gave this drama a chance and liked it <3

I'm glad you find it amazing ☺️

Fr, the way he didn't lay even a finger on her while she was sleeping even though we could clearly see his longing and even going so far as to making the head guard stand guard so no one else disturbs her (as someone who hates being waken up while sleeping that meant a lot)