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Replied you below sis~

Hi sis, replied you below~

Also, remember the first time XY talked to FFB? XY asked him:"What exactly do you want?" He said:"I want you to remember me." He knows he will have to leave one day, and the only thing he could ask from her is to remember.

Besides, after bringing XY back from death, he asked CX for nothing but a peak of Chenrong mountain to "bury the soldiers". He had expected it.

He is afraid that she loves him, while He is afraid that she does not love him. He is afraid that she would forget him, while he is afraid that she would not forget him. He said I want you to remember me, then did everything to make sure she will forget him.

@Megumi-H
Thank you!
Yes, XL is a true hero in the wrong camp. Some fans say he is the most god-like being in the whole story. I agree.
To me, the title "lost you forever" has always meant XY lost XL. I believe she had secretly guessed countless times in her heart whether he had loved her. Although there was no proof to convince herself, her heart kept telling her: Yes, he had.
Do you know this story is part of Tonghua's "Scriptures of mountains, Records of seas" series? This series was originally planned to have three stories, and one which happens before LYF is yet to be written. If Tonghua can finish it, I hope XL could show up in this story, even if only for a short time.

@nathsketch
Yes. The story of him and her is such a regret.
Remember the first time he talked to her as FFB? She found out he was FFYY's brother, so said ironically: "How small Dahuang is!" He answered: "On the contrary, I find Dahuang too big that I didn't meet you until now." He must have been regretting it as well. There is just too much he cannot say.

I think one of the main reasons why XL keeps pushing XY away is, he knows he will probably die when Xiyan finally come to wipe out his army. So if he takes XY, she will end up being a widow, heartbroken more than we are now.

XL is certainly smart enough to know, if he doesn't leave the Chenrong army he will die sooner or later. It is because XY once said(he remembered it and recalled it later) "if I cannot find a forever, a short companion is good enough", that he decided to accompany her as a playboy before he has to go.

Additionally, I remember it clearly, during a interview TJC also said that XL has always known his fate is to die for his army.

By the way, in another interview, the interviewer asked TJC: "if you were XY, which male lead will you choose?" He answered: "Xiang Liu", the interviewer asked: "Even if you know he will die in the end?" TJC said: "I don't count the cost(fen bu gu shen)."

So girls what do you think about it? Please let me know. Looking forward to your reply~

Ladies please forgive my poor English. Just want to discuss with you the reason why XL keeps pushing XY away.
I'll write my view below in spoiler tag: