Beatrice

17 year old Win is friendly and fun. 44 year old Win has a lonely and miserable outlook on life, being let go from a cold office gig and has even frostier relationships with his younger brother and his high school friend who has already hit their limit from his hitting them up for money to pay the rent he's behind on. His father has passed and the legalization of gay marriage in Thailand makes him think of the only romantic love he felt in his life for his high school crush Nut who passed away too soon. Win's will to live a full life died with Nut at just 17. Feeling his lowest, Win lives carelessly and while driving decides to reach down for his phone that's fallen below the passenger seat instead of waiting until he can safely pull over and crashes, but wakes up in as his 17 year old self again. The magical conceit is never explained, so it could be that this is all a lucid death dream of a man going back to the warmth of his teen years in 1998, a point in his life when the people he loved and loved him were all in his life and his dreams still had possibility.

Aside from his rental band practice room boss Phob's death being unpreventable, everything else falls into place for Win. He takes on cooking duties for his father, brother, and especially to ensure that Nut eats healthy. He enacts group running exercises for Nut's health as well, getting Nut to see a doctor as soon as he's able to as a pretense as a health check for their band activities. As a result of everything he spends even more time with Nut. The first time around, Nut wrote in his journal that he wished he could have had some time to date Lin, someone who made it very clear she liked him. This time around, the first thing he does is the tell Nut that he liked him to a confused Nut who wasn't sure if he heard right. I really like how this key difference made Nut open up to seeing Win in a romantic sense, which makes him contextualize everything that Win does for him through that lens rather as just a best bro to the point that he wrote a romantic song for Win. The scene where Win drops Nut back off to his room, but has to stay in there for a bit when Nut's strict father is checking outside the window is so beautiful. Win asks what Nut wanted to tell him with Nut saying to wait until after the competition the next day, but basically tells Win what he wanted to confess with the lyrics of the confession song that he wrote for Win and instead of saying anything, Win just kisses Nut and Nut answers "I like you too" before they resume kissing. They are so cute. All Win's effort's pay off and Win gets a surgery in time in Bangkok and the combination of a healthy living style that Win has got Nut doing worked well for his recovery.

Another result of Win trying to get everything back into place, but in a different way is that his band group becomes 500% more gay. Aside from Win winning the heart of his dream boy Nut, their rich drummer Ek and college bassist Chai gets together, and their two band managers Biu and Lin get together. At first it was eye rolling that Ek and Chai gets a camera angle kiss, but then it turns out the actor who plays Ek is actually 17 in real life, so that was understandable. But really they should have just cast an actor who wasn't 17 in the first place. I also really enjoyed Win and Biu being a girl and boy best friends forever pairing. Win's relationship with his most understanding father is so sweet as well as is Ek's relationship with his loving parents. Nut has the most tumultuous relationship with his suffocatingly strict father who is not won over to letting Nut pursue his own happiness even with Nut's brush with death, but instead the band gets a deal to release tapes of their music and to do a concert as well. The man finally smiles approvingly for his son in the crowd. Nut's dad is not all bad though, he did look away that day that Win snuck Nut out for practice and probably when he snuck back in with Nut into the room. When Win and Nut discuss coming out to his dad and to the fans, Win tells Nut that his dad probably already knows and to let him pretend he doesn't and as for the fans, definitely not the era for coming out yet, but in 20 years they can legally register their marriage. Nut doesn't even question the idea of marriage with Win and instead thinks 40 years with Win is not enough and wants 60 and more. I was hoping there would be a flash forward back to 2025 where we see 44 year old Win and Nut living a happy domestic life, but we leave off with the teenagers happily living their couple life in Nut's room. The lack of a future scene also leaves it as a possible death dream scenario for those that enjoy a bittersweet finale, but that's just personal interpretation, it's absolutely a happy ending.