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well skeptically little me isn't elated to find Rocky tending to sick Ju - know Ju was elated cause he feels Rocky didn't desert him, and yet there too many warning signs as to WHY Rocky found a conscience. yeah i know he cares cause that "i love u" the night before, wasn't a slip of the tongue. those were his true feelings - ones he is scared shitless to admit, but that's beside the point. and yet he is Not in a place where he is ready to face reality and take the 'world' by the horns. so i get the motivation here is more monetary - his mentioning he spoke with Ju's grandmother, or the fact that he got money from her - more or less confirming the fact he working for her (i.e his job is to take care of Ju) so his caring for him while sick, was a job, not him feeling guilty. *********************************************************************************************************************************Ju can't help but make more out of it, but thankfully he got Beshie to turn too for advise (and to-date his advice has been spot on) even though his encouraging Ju to turn too Glenn .... hmmm not great (as Ju himself pointed out in ep 2 "...Glenn wasn't serious about him, he only wanted on thing. and Ju wanted/needed someone serious...") but sadly Ju now running scared and wants to get over Rocky ASAP. so the best way to get over one dude is to get under another.... ahem (u‿ฺu✿ฺ) don't quote me on this lol ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************and i won't be liked for what i'ma say, BUT that old hag of a grandmother is making my blood boil - u would think that "with age comes wisdom" but nah she a moron. all her good intentions be paving the road to hell for her grandson. so why not stop and think or better yet, talk to her grandson and ask him what he wants - but Nope she like a bull in a china-shop, who knows best cause she well intentioned - OMG the stupidity! but most of the parents/adults in these BL's tend to be moronic and everyone keeps saying - u need to forgive and forget as if, just cause they're older - they get a pass at acting however. like Rocky's father, he has the song and dance down - but what is the use of all those words - when he can't support his own children ?? as the saying goes actions speak louder then words - and him telling Rocky "don't burden urself, live ur life etc..." all good and well, but then who gonna pay for his medication? his and his younger children's food, education let alone keep a roof over their heads? his positive words will? hopeful thinking will?? so his words r more to 'wash his hands of being a burden' cause he told his son he doesn't need too - that doesn't make the "problem" go away - as Rocky isn't gonna take that advise, cause that not freakin logical - aish these type of people freakin frustrating. there no logic or common sense used in their words/advise or actions, but it's ok, cause they well meaning (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧ ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************so get why Rocky is doing the things he is doing, he's desperate for money - so he can ignore what happened when he's getting paid for being with Ju. but would he have come back without the "job" offer?!? this more complex then it seems and yet Rocky isn't in the right, even if i can "get" why he did what he did - Ju moving on is the logical go-to considering how his heart got stomped on - so yeah Judah shouldn't jump from one dude to the other - he needs to get his head straight. but in this instance maybe he needs someone who seems to care, to come in and be a buffer - or someone who just shakes things up and pushes Rocky into a corner, making him confront his demons - which considering how he dealt with the situation, the ending was well deserved (yeah there a miniscule part of me that feels bad for him as he was trying that the very end to idk be friends?!? but considering how he hurt Ju - the "lets take is slow or let's be friends.." doesn't make-up for how he acted or what he did) so yeah he needed to be punished even a bit and that was better then any slap or harsh words, would work at getting even.
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the morning after - the rude awakening. could say 'called it' but anyone - including the ones involved, would be able to 'call it', but emotions were running wild, the heart ruled, add alcohol to the mix, so we get what we got. **********************************Ju was elated waking up in Rocky's arms, but he should've known better. and as happy as Rocky was - for a sec, in a blink reality invaded in the shape of his sister (even though he didn't need her to "wake-up"), her call just came as a reminder off everything, mainly his fears. ****************************************************************************************************************************************and this off topic - i get his family poor, he the only breadwinner, let alone the only other adult - sick and the sister still a kid in school. so she has no other person to turn too (and she been putting off that call for over a week). but when u already carrying this enormous burden, add the pandemic - making keeping a job or finding one, near impossible, that call just seems too me - as burdensome - ************************************************************************************************************************but her confession and his reaction should've made Ju 'stop and take note' - not the fact that he told her he was all alone (which was also a sign of how he felt 'the morning after') but when she confessed, his knee-jerk-reaction was "how did dad react - what did he say..." that's an indicator that he is not ready to be in a relationship with a man. but poor lonely desperate for love Ju, was ready to keep trying (that was heartbreaking to watch - him putting on a brave smile, apologizing unnecessarily aish that hurt me...), even though Rocky was being mean just cause he was running scared. and it was easier to hurt and push Ju away - then confront his own demons and admit that he was scared, cause he liked what happened between them - i.e he was gay. ******************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************** they both have valid reasons to act crazy the night before. like i get Ju's desperately, 'trying' in the face to Rocky abrasive even repulsed attitude, or Rocky's running scared - feel bad for both of them - even though if i was Judah, would punch Rocky in the face, for being a freakin coward that's basically running away - a treating him like dirt the morning after, cause he couldn't "deal", acting like he was forced into bed. his anger is escapism. easier pushing Ju away instead of dealing with who he is. easier, just running away - ******************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************** this is why drunk sex is a no no, especially when it's ur first time (like it was with Ju - btw in the previous ep he kept talking about being 'good in bed' and 'being able to satisfy Rocky's every need' that guess work?!?) that aside. dude already head-over heels and is getting heartache for rushing blindly at someone who has a ton of baggage he needs to sort out first - before he ready for anything... sad and frustrating - but that's people for u, everyone and their personal baggage... either hurting themselves or others ugh
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another very bitter sweet ep - Ju's proclamation was turned funny by his approach, while Rocky's retreat which added to the fun, was also an indicator that he, scared - and u could see/read the fear on his face. the problem is that Ju was assuming, it was a "normal" reaction every straight dude would have, when someone "out and proud" made a statement like that. he doesn't comprehend that there is something more going on with Rocky. ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************from the 1st ep there have been very subtle hints to Rocky's fear... so here as long as it's fun and games, he was able to laugh it off. but the sec Ju says anything that comes off, as him insinuating that Rocky is 'made of the same cloth' he get's defensive - like when Ju innocently told him "...deep down they r alike..." - he never meant that Rocky was gay, but that personality wise they were more or less the same, or the fact that they both were suffering all alone. but as Rocky scared to the bone of being outted, anyone mention that word, is enraging - thus his reaction. lashing out and hurting poor Ju, who was really shining in this ep - ****************************************************************************************************************************************from the start he was pretty subdued, and only in this ep u notice, that he was indeed depressed. he might have acted like he "didn't have a care in the world" and he was A-o.k. but here u see him come to life. he was happy and full of joy, flirty and fun - so Rocky's lashing out was uncalled for - yeah he's running scared and usually a scared, injured animal will lash out and attack in defense. but Rocky not a freakin animal, he's human and he should've tired to find a better way to say "no, thank you" as he knew that Ju was also in a very vulnerable place, and hurting no less then he himself - but it is what it is - sad reality... **************************************************************************************************************************************** ****************************************************************************************************************************************so the whole next scene takes me back to the start of this ep, and what i wrote in the previous ep - about alcohol and how worrisome i found that every real moment these two have, is clouded by a haze of alcohol - which enables them to be very honest. but it also can make them say and do things, that they might end up regretting when they sober up. ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************Ju's one sided conversation with Beshie, which is more a confession of his feelings about Rocky - to Rocky, unbeknownst to Ju (as he doesn't know Rocky on the other side listening in) and then Rocky's reading the last texts his mother sent him (their last conversation) were it's her acceptance, about knowing he is gay and telling him not to run away, that she is there for him - that's why he was crying. the reason he went to Ju was cause Ju's confession was more or less the same sentiment. that moment Ju's words brought it all home to him, and that's why he went to Ju - but does this mean he is ready to "come out"?!? his initial worries and fears haven't been dealt with or elevated, so the outcome isn't gonna be positive - again sad and so predictable.... aish
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these two r burrowing a hole in my heart - i'm sitting here feeling every emotion viscerally, its so freakin beautiful and painful. really great job done by both actors - yeah great script, directing, etc.. but to convey the multitude of emotions, all through facial expression, not only dialogue - bravo. ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************like mentioned in the previous ep, Rocky needed that human touch - hug, as much as Ju needed it, and ironically or not - the initial pureness turned sexual, as both r attracted to each other. even if they r not ready to cross that bridge at this point in time. also Rocky wasn't as aware of Ju - maybe his thinking about his family let alone remembering his mother was a "mood" killer. but the day after a good nights sleep, he was Very aware of Ju. lol ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************seeing them warming to each other - coming closer as friends. caring and helping each other, let alone leaning emotionally one on the other, is bitter sweet. shows how much of a burden each carried all alone, who knows for how long and now suddenly cause of "life" they were put together, and they just clicked - and seeing their budding romance, is very endearing and heartwarming, but worrisome cause having said all that... them always having these heartfelt connection's, when drunk(!) is not a great thing. yeah alcohol enables them to be Very truthful about really painful or embarrassing stuff - but it can turn into a crutch or worse a regretful event. which can leave either or both in a more painful situation. basically "going to sleep drunk and waking up pregnant" (._.`) ****************************************************************************************************************************************so Ju confession / declaration however astounding or predictable is worrisome cause what happens when they sober up?!? regret? heartache?!? considering Ju knows (thinks) Rocky straight - that a recipe for disaster and heartache not a loving long term anything else (•_•)
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people be calling Judah's attitude sarcastic, no he a total b*tch...at times LOL. but as mentioned already, he pushes people away before they can do that to him. it's not easy to get close too, or even want to get close to, people like this. but this just goes to show's u that they've been through sh*t. and we have gotten tons of hints from his semi-stories, about his family situation. plus have to admit, both mother and grandmother r kinda annoying. he Not a baby, but they insist on babying him (i get that they care/worry. but to me - and this just the 2nd ep - it comes of "over") which is kinda suffocating. and that grandmother with the overly lovey dovey attitude is overbearing and annoying. know her type exist, and yet she a total caricature (sorry, but as in bad-joke). *****************************************************************************************************************************so growing-up in that type of environment, let alone everything we can guess at, little wonder he got his guard is up. yeah still hard to love his character - cause not everyone likes the spoilt brat personality (in addition to everything else), that thinks they can act however, say whatever without any consequences. so i get why he's getting judged harshly. but ironically i don't dislike Ju like i did Cairo from Gameboy's (now he was an over entitled spoilt brat, that from start to finish though he was a gift from god to humanity, and as Gav initiated contact and wooed him - it was his job, to pursue and baby that annoying brat till the end of time). here Ju might be abrasive at times, but he has moments where u see, how vulnerable he really is - like at the end, that hug was more seeking comfort and kinda heart breaking... it slayed me cause finally u see the truth - him without the bravado and bitchy come-backs - just a hurting soul seeking comfort and warmth from another, felt that in my soul ugh. *************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************Rocky is also opening up and warming up to Ju - even ignoring some of his bitchyness (cause Ju didn't backstab him, but wrote his name on the pass) and yet it's baby steps with Rocky. but he's warming too Ju and even though he doesn't say a lot, u know from the little he does - that he also a hurting soul - cause that hug at the end - he needed that as much as Ju did. that moment of humanity - pure - soul touching, without farce.... ******************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************side note - really love Beshie - he a true friend and a great one at that he doesn't sugar coat things but tell u like it is and gives good advise. Ju lucky to have him - well at least he got one great person in his corner. cause from what i've seen of his family i have my reservations (pointed out above)....
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interesting start, both mains r pretty strong character's - and this is a newer plot then the ones we usually get in BL's. refreshing? interesting? intriguing - yeah to all of the above.. Ju (Judah ) is a tough character to like - he is abrasive and his condescending, arrogant attitude doesn't endear him. and yet too me his "bitchy" personality is an armor - it's walls built to keep people out - to push them away, before they get too close and might end up hurting him. it's his defense against the word - he wants to come off over confident (and maybe he is), but there is also a ton of insecurity. so a strong and yet intriguing character that is all bravado at the start - with the barbered quips and biased observations. so can't wait for him to lower his guard, and let u see the "heart" that beat's underneath (indicator, his developing a conscience and writing Rocky's name on the pass at the end). **********************************************************************************************************************btw Ju sure he gay?!? buff dude working out inches from his nose, and he reading? (╹ڡ╹ ) *****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************Rocky - man of mystery and few words. comes in like a thief in the night and steals our - well everyone's included jaded Ju's focus lol... they were butting heads from the word go, and it was interesting seeing the potential there. also liked that Rocky wasn't turned-off by Ju's abrasive attitude, but gave as good as he got, without becoming defensive or turning out to be the stereotypical machoman. he was pretty laid back and cool, even after finding out Ju lied about the "pass". ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************side note - saw a reaction from a gay person, that didn't like Ju cause "his character's is a bad-stereotype of what gay person is..." in their eye's. if there was any stereotyping - i think Beshie kinda takes the cake and yet - as there r people like Beshie around - let alone he wasn't a caricature (or used as a bad-joke) but just a character, that was out, proud and loving it effeminately - i didn't find anything in him, Ju or anyone for that matter - that was used derogatorily to the community in general IMHO
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so confused - what does she mean she wont live until her next birthday - won't by choice? or she in danger - ugh!!!! this is why the subs being bad is really frustrating - and why Fujishima cry when his Chairman told him (i think) that he didn't need to resign, as the CDT were needed (cause they saved his son and were important) was there a threat in there? that i didn't get those tears of joy?!? ******************************************************************************************************************and if Takamori went to another hospital just so his illness would be kept a secret, how did that douche doctor find out, and pass on the info to Makabe ?!??? *****************************************************************************************************so frustrating that halfway into the drama and still more questions then answers... ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************btw totally cute that Byakuya has fallen for Masaki - obvious as he is the one that not only saved her, but took her in and gave her a home and family. there was a sec where i was sure he was crushing on Maria. but doesn't seem so, or it's one sided and now he seems more interested in her brother and the mystery surrounding Byakuya. then romancing Maria. so i don't think this will turn lovey-dovey. pity, there too many potential couples ****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************side note - idk who child or adult, would confuse a sweet little ladybug to that humongous scary ass spider. seeing Masaki holding it in that plastic baggy, freaked me the frack out. as a kid or adult i would run screaming bloody murder, in the other direction seeing that thing - i donno what that kid was on, to think that was cute and "capture" worthy, i shudder thinking about it
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this is so good, to think this is So freakin good with bad sub's - how great is this really?!?? when u accurately get what's going on... oh well, it is what it is... doubt this will get re-subbed anytime soon, and even though not yet at the end Know this is a rewatch (with the hope's of finding it correctly subbed). *****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************really love how the CDT member's have come together - even Sendo the Neurosurgeon, who is under Makabe was more loyal to the new group he chose to join - that was fun and sweet to watch, how they were trying their best to win against the JMA representative's. ****************************************************************************************************************************************and again in-spite of the subs this was heartwarming and breaking aLl in one - really great acting by all. love how they humanize the interactions between patient's and doctor's - well they show u the normal attitude (i.e reality🙄) and then the more personalized/humanized version cause of Byakuya - and the other member's wanting to explain emotions and day to day things, that she doesn't seem to comprehend. ***************************************************************************************so her revel/confession at the end was sad and yet makes u wonder what is really going on - where and why was she raised - cause to-date any scene where u see a child/human in a white room existing alone. it's someone that is treated as a lab-rat and experimented on - make's getting "what Is going on" all the more complex and intriguing
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another great bitter sweet ep and that's saying something, considering the sub's. yeah the cloak and dagger stuff is going over my head, as i donno what is going on, who is against whom and how everything is connected, let alone if it's connected.there some indicator's, but is this all one plot-line or not, i really can't figure it out with the little info i'm able to clue out in every ep. but the side stories that r introduced in every ep r easy to figure out and hard not to get invested in - even with the language barrier. so yeah a very heart breaking and warming ep like the previous one. ****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************also like that finally not only Maria, but the rest of the CDT member's trust Byakuya and r turning to her or at least open to listen to what she is saying, and not writing her off and pushing her aside. even though she has moments where she seems shady, i don't think she is motivated by "evil" (for a lack of a better word lol) so i hope whatever is going on will come to light.... (and i aint talking about despicable Makabe coveting the Hospital director position - anyone with eye's get's his motivation - but to what lengths has he gone and is he involved in Yuki's and "Dr. White" situation/mystery idk).
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another guessing game of an ep and yet what started out very weird, turn heartbreakingly sweet... those people who acted like they related to "Dr. White" and tried to more or less abduct her - that whole scene was so weird - Masaki and Maria rushing to believe stranger's, let alone hand over all that info about her and if it was determined by Maria, she would've happily pushed Byakuya/"Dr. White" into her abductor's open arms, no questions asked. thankfully Masaki caught on that something was suspect, and also Byakuya/"Dr. White" aint that big of a pushover (even though she comes off like that sometimes). makes me think she knows more then she is letting on. and with that end, i really don't know what is going on and why Yuki (Maria's older brother) is on the run and talking about life and death situation's - WTH is going on in that hospital frustrating not picking up any clues, that will give me sliver of a lead bad subs at fault or good writing idk lol ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************the warm hearted part was the kid obviously - poor baby was putting on a strong front so he could support his mother or not burden her. how heartbreaking for someone so small to carry such a burden all alone - but Byakuya's innocent approach is what broke through his walls and enabled that team to finally come together and help that boy - about freakin time (what with shady Hitoshi lurking at every turn )...
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another ep where the sub's leave A Lot to be desired - but something better then nothing. that being said Maria is a bit over the top, and it's starting to grate - she keeps screaming at everyone and i think it's gonna be a running theme everyone, rushing to shut "Dr. White" up. and i get she not a doctor per-say - heck she a patient with amnesia. but even an average-jane like me, get's that she making the right diagnosis time and again - while the certified doctors in that hospital r a bad joke, that keep going around like blundering fools or worse pompous asses, that know it all while miss-diagnosing patient's left right and center.so shouldn't someone who has seen her in action, not rush to shut her up?!! but try to figure out what she is saying and why - just so no patient's end up dead?!? but i guess placating over inflamed ego's is more important?!? ************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************and i guess this a comedy as some of the acting is overacting and badly done for comedic effect - which isn't coming off well what with the weird subs or the serious plot. with the mystery surrounding "Dr. White" let alone the conniving underhanded Head of surgery Makabe. but as this a guessing game maybe there r some answer's that i'm missing idk
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1st off what i found was subbed badly - something better then nothing, so not complaining - just making this point clear. ****************************************************************************************************************************************when heard of this months ago, was really interested cause the description reminded me of Hyochakusha (not word for word - but the broad outline is similar), and that was a blast. so this made me curious. considering the troublesome subs, after watching the 1st ep, have to say this still more a mystery. cause i donno if something important wasn't subbed or was subbed wrong.********************************************************************************************************************************* having said that, this was fun and funny (donno if this supposed to be a comedy) but i laughed a lot and the actress playing "Dr. White" is adorable and hilarious (even though there were bit's that were plot-holey) and again hard to really leave a review of what's what, as it was a guessing game - ***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************but the basic's r hard to miss. like the bad-guy Makabe Hitoshi who i guess is trying to kick out Hospital director Takamori. cause in this 1st ep there were a hell of a lot of misdiagnosis that endangered people's lives. and that doesn't seem normal - to have So many incompetent doctor's in one place, so think Makabe is behind it all - only for the director's position? some other devious plan? **********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************who "Dr. White" is, why she suffer from amnesia and yet is capable of retaining extensive medical knowledge. how or why was she "left" for Masaki the reporter to find. let alone how she connected to Yuki the missing son of Hospital director Takamori (why he go missing in the first place, as he left on his own ) a lot of open questions. but this a huge puzzle given the subs - still interesting
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hmm felt like a little bit of drama in this ep - didn't get why throughout he never found a chance to mention his family or wife, to the flirty "full of life" lady - yeah she kept saying "joking" at the end of her offers. but why do i have a feeling that if he looked anything but stupefied, she would've welcomed him with open arms?!? ironic that all through this, i was worried about Ritan so not my favorite ep to date. neither the food nor the double entendre hinted at throughout this ep, gave me the warm and fuzzies
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took me a while to make-up my mind to continue watching this - what with how it ended in the previous ep and it was bitter sweet - ironically for-tellable... just was sure the "grand-gesture" would come from Kurokawa. ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************but before get to that - have to say, i really don't like Hiyama (and i know i'm bias towards Kurokawa), so it's obvious why i dislike his advisory and maybe cause of that, everything he does is viewed with tons of skepticism - like the whole incident with Aono. i don't think he was that praise worthy - yeah Aono was in a risky situation. but Hiyama startling him, put him in more danger - in my POV. ***********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************Kurokawa and Yukiko, i "get" both their POV's - i just wish they used their words and didn't end up having truthful conversation with themselves - what is the point? ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************at the start of any relationship, when u really love someone and r finally in a happy place with them. u don't want anything to come between u - and a sacrifice such as a promotion, letting that go doesn't feel like a sacrifice. cause there is something more important in ur life. that u can't give up. ****************************************************************************************************************************************as an adult that has been supporting himself since he was a child, Kurokawa knows what he wants and what's important to him. Yukiko should've voiced her worries/insecurities instead of pushing him away, hoping he would chose work over her. and in her case it was more running away from the situation, let alone deciding what's good for Kurokawa, instead of hashing it out and working through the problem. ****************************************************************************************************************************************the argument "it's for my partner's good, so it doesn't matter if i hurt them in the short run..." is a tedious plot-point, over done trope and and not really praise worthy . be truthful and voice ur worries, but it is what it is... ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************the sister, she's sweet - but dude u aint a man - so Shishio wont ever see u as anything but a good bff - she keeps shooting herself in the foot with her delusions. so can't feel sorry for her
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must ask WTAF is going on?!? in the previous ep pointed out how annoying and tedious i find all the grand self sacrificing and ironically the out and proud dude, is the one with a "beard" in this ep and i'm confused - why? what happened between him going to get Hyun Woo's desk, and that girl wanting a "favor" (btw if she the new gf - she NOT praise worthy, sorry if i'm mean - but she looks like she's a wrestler that could take Ji Seok out - more bully then gf material...) to him suddenly back-tracking and avoiding Hyun Woo - why? this his way of protecting him?!? cause the bullies targeted Hyun Woo and not Ji Seok??? the writer needs to explain this plot - like What the Actual Frack **************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************and if that not confusing enough, Hyun Woo didn't look that attached to Ji Seok, let alone Do Jin and yet his reaction with both guys was like he was more invested then he looked - only me wondering what... What... WHAT is going on?!? ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************oh i donno why i'm surprised that this plot is just all over the place - but hearing this got another ep added - is that good or not, only time will tell (after viewing it)..
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