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love stayed longer than life allowed

eternal yesterday is not about ghosts or miracles—it's about the unbearable gentleness of holding someone who is slipping away, slowly, lovingly, and completely. it is about youth wrapped in the warmth of first love, and the cold that follows after.

koichi and michan love each other with the quiet certainty only teenagers know—a kind of love untouched by shame, unafraid of truth. they fall not with fireworks, but with open palms and tender eyes. it's all so soft—until it begins to end.

koichi dies. and then he doesn't

he comes back, not fully alive, not fully gone—a miracle that feels more like a wound. he smiles, he talks, he stays. but with every passing day, the world forgets him. only michan remembers. only michan holds on.

and what is grief if not the act of remembering when no one else will?

there is something devastating in their devotion—not in tragedy, but in kindness. koichi loves michan enough to stay. michan loves koichi enough to let him go. this is a story where love is not proven by how long you hold on, but by how gently you release what was never yours to keep.

their story isn't fair. it isn't easy. but it's full of a kind of purity that hurts—the kind that only youth and first love can create. that ache of knowing you've found something real, and still having to say goodbye.

in the end, eternal yesterday is a love poem disguised as a ghost story. a soft ache that lingers in the chest. a reminder that sometimes love, no matter how brief or broken, is still real. still worth remembering.

they were just boys. but to each other, they were everything.

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a brutally honest portrait of love, change, and emotional accountability

this isn’t the kind of BL film that wraps itself in idealized tropes or gives comfort in romance. it’s an uncomfortable, messy, and deeply human story—and for that reason, it's one of the most powerful i’ve seen.

at its core is kyouichi, a man who lives a pitiful and hollow life. a womanizer and emotionally vacant, he gets married not out of love, but out of a vague sense of obligation—because it’s what society expects of him. he’s never really stopped to think about what he wants, who he is, or how his behavior affects others. he moves through life selfishly, detached, never truly caring about those who try to get close to him.

then there’s imagase, who represents everything that challenges kyouichi’s emotional stagnation. his love is obsessive, manipulative—even predatory at times—but it’s also raw, honest, and unwavering. his searing line, “you have a weakness for people who love you, but you don’t trust that love in the end, and sniff around the feelings of those who approach you,” cuts deep, not just into kyouichi’s character but into the emotional detachment that defines many modern relationships.

and yet, what makes this film resonate is not the toxicity—it’s the potential for growth. kyouichi isn’t a likable man, but he is human. and for all his flaws, he proves capable of change. he begins to accept who he is, stops running from himself, and starts taking emotional responsibility—not just for his own life, but for the people he’s hurt. that willingness to grow doesn’t come easily or quickly. it comes from being challenged by someone who, despite everything, truly loved him.

this is beautifully encapsulated in the final scene. kyouichi sits alone at the barstool—on the same stool where Imagase always waited for him. the ashtray is no longer thrown away but placed gently on the table, washed and cleaned. the curtains are white and sheer, replacing the tacky blue ones. small, quiet details, but they say everything. he’s not waiting for someone to fix him anymore. he’s doing what he can, on his own. as he puts it, “i want to wait. by myself. i want to do what i can.”

in the end, imagase's love—unconventional, obsessive, but undeniably pure—becomes the catalyst for kyouichi’s growth. and in that sense, the film suggests that to truly love someone is for them to become your only exception.

it’s not romantic. it’s not easy. but it’s real—and that’s what makes this story unforgettable.

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so good it hurts

"i wanted to find my own universe. in my once dark heart, i now have one little star shining so bright. i have found my universe with all our stories."

i wasn’t prepared how raw and painful this was going to be. it was completely different from how sweet and wholesome the first season was.

first off, seojoon. i was genuinely hurting for this man. i wanted to go inside the screen just to hug him and tell him he didn't do anything wrong to deserve the kind of treatment from the person he thought he'd spend his life with. i was like his best friend throughout the show because i wanted to hit him just to make sense out of him. face palming myself when he kept coming back just to get the worst treatment back. it was genuinely heartbreaking to see someone who has so much love to give even when he didn't grew up nor surrounded with it willingly endure all that. personally, wouldn't dare to think for a second to take someone back after getting that treatment the first time around.

second, jiwoo,it wasn't exactly easy to understand this man but i do, only to an extent on what he felt during the relationship. his feelings at that time were valid. he had his own problems and fears and those fears tend to come out in the worst way possible which lead us to make the worst decisions ever but what i don't understand was how he treated seojoon after. i've come to know him in S1 as someone who might seem reserved but is actually a very warm person and to see him treat seojoon like that, the one person he always protected even in the smallest things, was maddening. what was even worst was he was doing it intentionally, he did everything to make seojoon hurt, to push him away. not knowing that was actually his worst fear, seojoon finally giving up on him because how lucky you are to have someone unconditionally love you in spite of your flaws, faults, and weaknesses and yet be so cruel to have that someone swallow their pride to beg for your love and take every worst treatment from you just to have you back in their life even if you're not the least bit deserving.

lastly, i don't entirely agree on the writer's view of how one person needs to be more giving in order for the relationship to work but i do agree with the line "in this world, there's no perfect man nor the perfect form of love. it's just a matter of understanding and adapting to each other through love. it's about learning to speak one's mind rather than put one's pride ahead" because what is love if not learning and growing to be better individuals to each other. as much as i love how sweet and easy the S1 were, i love how depth S2’s story got because i was able to relate with each character and i get to be invested with them; to feel for them, to hurt and learned from them.

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