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Reason why i like Nut

Since many here don't like Nut, see him as a Red Flag or hate him, I would like to explain here my view of why I think he is lovable and why he deserves happiness in life.

First of all, you shouldn't accuse him of the carelessness of the script, I read somewhere that they forgot to show a time jump, it wasn't like Tofu died and immediately revived the relationship with Tarn, that probably took months to a year, which is understandable. Tarn was in a coma for months. And the sentence that he missed him doesn't mean that the relationship is yet back.

Furthermore, you have to consider that we were only half informed by the flashbacks of the entire series and that false impressions were constantly implanted in us, which were later relativized again in another flashback.

If you list chronologically, then there is already a picture. Nut is born into a happy family, especially the photos in the family album show that Sib loves Nut and is proud of his son.

As Nut grows taller, there are Sib's first disturbing actions, the tearing up of the drawing of the rainbow, the burning of the paper figures because it is too feminine.

I suspect that Sib was already afraid that Nut was not his child, but Saen's. Saen cared more about Na und Nut than about his own wife.

In addition, even today it is still difficult to determine them with certainty when identical twins are considered fathers, at that time it was not possible even with DNA analysis. There was no way for him to resolve his doubts, which led to them becoming ever stronger.

Nut senses the rejection and hopes for his mother, but she refuses any help.

He feels guilty and unloved because of his feelings for boys. At one point his father even calls him a bastard, the parents are completely incapable of dealing with Nut, the father only reacts with severity and tries to determine Nut's life in every aspect.

In the process, sib completely loses control that he even punches and kicks Nut, here you can only guess that this was probably not an isolated case.

First of all, Nut has to change schools, although there was no reason at all. We learn little about it, but in the end it means the loss of all his former school friends.

Through the friendship and later relationship with Tarn, he then lives in 2 worlds, the one in which he is accepted as he is and the other in which he tries to push him into something he is not with expectations and demands.

After he has been able to lead this double life unnoticed for a long time, he is then busted with Tarn, the director catches them kissing and they are caught twice by their father.

And in this situation, he then decides for the family, he breaks with tarn and tries to be a boy who lives up to expectations. In return for not being gay, he does not need to go to the military academy and is allowed to study what he likes.

But whichever way you look at it, he sacrificed himself for the family and that will continue.
This is an often observed phenomenon in family matters, that children then want to fight for the denied affection and love with loyal behavior. (I studied law and also work as a lawyer in family disputes).

We then learn little about his time as a student, except that he moves into a dormitory. In any case, he seems to behave as desired, has no connections and does nothing that could attract the father's indignation.

Then the father dies, the mother becomes mentally ill. Nut then tries to shed the past by changing his surroundings and moving into the new house. But he doesn't let the mother down and takes her to the new house and takes care of her, buys her things, Keungcha and tries to help her wherever he can.

But Na is no longer in reality, she loves her son as he is, but is unable to say or show it.
And when she shows it, as she did by cooking the lunchbox every day, it is a bad memory for Nut, because she always tried to sit out conflicts and arguments by asking for something to eat.
Several things come together here, at first Nut is completely overwhelmed. He has isolated himself and has no friends except his work colleagues, he no longer feels love for others and probably doesn't feel loved by anyone.

The care of his mother exceeds his strength, he becomes easily irritable and in the end only scolds her, even in trivial matters.

Na, if certainly due to illness, tramples on his feelings. Nut must have loved his father, otherwise he would have fled long ago before his death.

Now to see his mother living in an illusory world where her husband and Nut's father is Saen must be an ordeal for him.

He is in a dilemma, on the one hand he wants to be there for his mother, on the other hand he can't bear that his mother never has a good word for him and denies his.

That's why he's so quickly irritated, through all the years and certainly many attempts to turn something around for the better, he just can't do it anymore, which then leads to him freaking out even over small things.

After that, he is always sorry, and he wants to do better next time and fails again and feels unloved, misunderstood and ultimately incapable. This cycle between mistake, remorse, improvement and next mistake, fail makes him a highly unhappy person. But he wants to function and cannot escape this cycle.

This is the situation in which tofu enters his life. His naïve and innocent nature moves something in Nut, but only very slowly and at first hardly noticeably.
But you can tell how much he suffers when Tofu shows understanding in the conversation after Nut has beaten him up and is the first to acknowledge it ever, what situation Nut is in, how many scars rest on his soul and how overwhelmed he is.

Please don't get me wrong, that doesn't justify his outbursts of anger, but humans are not machines. Over the years, Nut has ultimately been turned into a mental wreck.

Although he sacrifices himself for others, he does not experience gratitude, respect or recognition from anyone, I imagine that is terrible.

What is particularly problematic here is that Na has forgotten how to speak at all. For example, when Nut reveals the love between him and Tofu, she doesn't say a word, which provokes Nut so much that he starts flirting with Tofu in front of her and kissing him in order to simply provoke a reaction, which Na is incapable of and then continues to make him believe that the silence would mean rejection and that they will continue to not accept him as the one that he is.

That's also the case in Chiang Mai, instead of countering Jan and saying how happy she is with Nut and Tofu and loves them both, she is silent again and Nut has to defend himself again.
At first I also asked myself why he didn't at least have the courage to seek out Tarn after the death of his father. Or why Tarn only tried to visit him after his return from Japan.

I think Tarn was waiting for him because he knew that Nut wasn't ready, but was trapped in loyalty to his family, who wouldn't accept him as gay. And Nut himself has given it up because he feels guilty for having left him for the good of the family.

The series particularly touched me in 2 points, on the one hand, like Song, I had to experience that my older brother died young in a traffic accident. On the other hand, like Nut, I denied myself for years for fear of disappointing expectations. My parents were not so much the problem but my best friend at the time, with whom I was in love and last but not least, I tortured myself because I didn't accept myself and felt irrationally guilty because I couldn't give my parents what they hoped for (didn't demand) and I always thought to myself, if only my brother could still live and relieve me of this burden.

That's why I feel so much for him. Nut is a highly sensitive person who has been downright broken in a hostile environment, who has always tried to prove his worth to his family, but has never received a word of recognition from family or friends.

I also think it's good that the story doesn't get cheesy and pretends that after the first kiss of Tofu everything is fine and Nut changes from one day to the next. This is a process that, as the story is told, always brings relapses, such as the scolding when it turns out that she forgot the visit of Tarn and that he gave the book as a gift. Or when she didn't turn off the stove and caused a fire.

Nut was under such indescribable pressure that the boiler exploded again and again. Only tofu was able to slowly but steadily take the pressure off him, because he was the first to understand him.
Not in vain he says after the song at the coffin, how am I supposed to get through everything without you. Tofu was the support and love of his life. What he once expressed through the sentence, through Tarn I got to know the world, through tofu the beauty of the world.

That's why I love Nut despite all his flaws, because I just think he deserves to be happy. You can't blame him for the problematic further development from the degradation of tofu from human back to a teddy bear, the script screwed up.

even worse, they gave him a horror experience, witnessing the murder of his love. I don't even dare to imagine what kind of images nut has in his head in many moments of his further life. And the constant reproach, why didn't I forbid him to go to Jan.

I feel so sorry for him that I also begrudge him that he can process Tofu's death in some way and have a happy relationship with Tarn.

Because what else is left for us humans, suicide? Depression or ones like Na, no we have to go further and at the same time keep our loved ones in our hearts and in our memories. And I have no doubt, that Nut is going this way, he had suffered so much in his young life, he deserve some happiness

I find him admirable despite the mistakes he makes. When i have more time i will explain it in a longer post. Just now, i want to say he is a good guy. he's had to go through more than a boy/man should have to endure

Yes that was amazing, You know if there is a Flashback just because of the acting of Inn

You hate Nut?

IKR, i thougt about the same idea, inspired by the Film "The Flatliners".

I think another problem of the current ending is , that they have forgotten to intodruce Tarn to us.. We see just a highschool romance with a bitter break up.

over and beyond they didnt realize the fact, that they was not grown up then. People devolop their personlities in this years, i was not the same when i was 17 und i was 27. Studies, work new fiiends came in this time in my life.

So iths hard to believe that they should meet again und they could continue where they left off.

All we see in the past are two young boys in love. hanging together talk about love and life watching movies and then brutaly seperated.

So it make sense that both of them never tried to meet again. in 10 Years. And they ignore the fact, that a first love in School often comes to end, when school time is over. Tarn has studied far away and moved then to Japan. How would their relationship developed under this circumsance.

Im truly sad and angry about the ending, they build up a perfect plot and in the end they choosed the simplest ending.

i cant deal with thinking, the ending is happy for nut, His lost leaves a deep scar in heart and soul, he will never forget. Its only his knowlegde, that shown in the last scene, that tofu wishes him happiness though he has gone. Its the way in live to deal with the loss of your beloved. its the only way to deal with your grief,

Interesting theory and a good observation. I rewatched the ending and found another clue that the final encounter is a dream of Nut's. Because it's the only scene where Tofu can be seen as both a teddy bear and a human.

But the script then contradicts the theory that it was all just a dream. Especially since you can hardly solve your problems with dreams, especially when they are so deep. Before and ofter yyou see tofu not as Teddy bear and human separated. In this scene tofu dont wear his necklace. So its the farewell, Nut desired. And when Tofu speaks later from the real world, it means just, that they now dont live in the same world together.

I also have a different opinion about the nature of Tofu, the story tells us that he was made human but then he is no longer a teddy bear. He exists as a human being and the plot wants now athat we ccept that he has gotten over all the human things he has learned and allowed his personality to develop and is happy with passive observation and cuddling.

I fear that we think more about this than the authors. The ending is simple and superficial, they were simply overwhelmed to bring the story to a decent end.

After torturing us in the last episode with the murder and burial, Nut's song at the coffin, they wanted to make us happy. So they create a dream in which Tofu appears again and Nut gives his blessing for Tarn.

It remains superficial and unsatisfactory; they simply haven't dealt enough with the topic of loss and processing.

I explained this in detail in my review, I would be happy if you leave me a comment.

You mentioned a comment you made about Tarn, I would like to read it, where can I find it?

I wrote a Review to get all out of my chest, where i explain in Detail my view about the ending is Bad. And made me sad and angy. Only for tarn is the dead of Tofu a Happy End, he dienst know him. Also we dont know tarn

I agree but there is more Even if Nut had mourned for months or even a year, he n the end, he would only have come to terms with the death of his loved one. The wounds in the soul and heart do not heal. We only learn to deal with them better over time and move on with our lives. So I just can't understand why some people think that the End is for Nat a happy Ending.

im feeling like you, i must talk about it, The series stirred me up emotionally and opened up old wounds

I has gone a simular situation as Song. My older brother died young and though my parents doest act like Songs Father, i suffered because i always compared me to hin and the fact i cannot fullflill the wish of my parents for grandchildren

Happy end for Nut? he has faced the murder of his Love. Remember Songs Father, who surely have good times with Song, but also has a deep scar in Soul and Heart for the loss fo neung. Did you really think of an happy ending just while Nut learned to live his further live in a good way?

to be honest, no one cant answer your question, because the ending touches everybody in different way.. But for me the love story of nut and Tofu is wonderful to view. ts just the end, what leaves me speachless in Grief and Anger

Don't let the ending stop you from watching the series, it's still worth watching. The serie really touched my heart and though im really unhappy with the ending the story deserved to be wachted.

Its good for you to see it in this way. I have seen it as a story with elements of fairy tale so my view at the endig, is sad, anger grief and frust. The love bounds between Tofu and Nut were to deep for this ending

I agree with you except for the rating of the ending, but if I accept a fairy tale setting I also have to rate the plot as it was described.

And then the ending is not bitterly sweet but a tragedy, I explained this in detail in my review.

But otherwise I agree with you, I am deeply moved by the series