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I refuse to debate this. I have witnessed the best performance of my life. GUN?!

This man managed to play twins. My very naive brain was genuinely shocked to see the same person standing in the same room twice. (But HOW do you even do that?)

I simply have to highlight his talent for playing Black so brilliantly, then White, then White completely stepping into Black’s shoes, and finally White taking on his brother’s persona while still making it his own. I was absolutely blown away and completely absorbed by his performance. Everything felt so sincere, fragile, powerful, and tangible.



I honestly didn’t know what to expect going into Not Me. I’ve seen plenty of BLs that wanted to engage with political issues, only to eventually drift away from them and turn into neatly packaged, mainstream action dramas. Thankfully, that wasn’t the case here, even though I do feel like the series could have gone a little further.

Through Tawi’s character, it’s clear that the real target is an entire system, a government that fails to protect its most vulnerable citizens. I think a little more explicit exploration of these issues could have made the message even more impactful, particularly in terms of its real-world implications.

Still, I grew attached to the characters and their fight. Watching young people rise up, organize themselves, and fight for a future in which they don’t have to watch themselves slowly waste away is incredibly relevant to the world we live in today.

That being said, I’ll be completely honest: a lot of things went over my head. I knew absolutely nothing about the Thai judicial system, and I still don’t know much about it. But I think I got the general idea that things were unfair.

And anyway, all the corruption scandals, the drugs, the plans... I didn’t always understand how everything fitted together. Like White at the beginning, I struggled to see what impact these plans were actually supposed to have. Later on, I felt like they became less coherent and served more to build tension and keep the plot moving.

But anyway, just for that scene under the LGBTQ+ flag, where everyone walks alongside their partner and stands up for their rights...One of the most beautiful scenes I’ve ever watched.

It’s filled with so much emotion. Sean refusing to let go of White’s hand, looking at him with those shining eyes... And watching White shout for rights that Thailand had yet to fully recognize at the time makes the scene even more powerful, knowing that it was filmed before same-sex marriage was legalized in the country.

I could talk about this scene for the rest of my life. It doesn’t even last that long, yet I can only imagine how deeply it must have resonated with so many people.

Obviously, I also have to talk about OffGun’s performance.

This drama takes such an intense turn, and I imagine that’s what happens when you tell a story about fighting for freedom in a world full of corrupt powers and constant danger.

But when you manage to make a love story bloom in the middle of all that danger and ugliness?

I was emotionally DONE.

To be completely honest, I remember finding the first half of the drama a little slow. I didn’t always understand the logic behind certain things, and some of the character dynamics felt a little simplistic.

Your brother has just fallen into a coma. What do you do? Stay by his side until he wakes up and ask him who hurt him so you can get revenge together?

NO, absolutely not...

Obviously, the much more reasonable option is to steal his earrings, then his tattoo, and why not his identity and his apartment while you’re at it? Like... come on.

There were moments like this when I genuinely felt like the show was asking me to swallow something that made no sense so we could move on and get the plot going.

And that’s why, throughout the first half of the series, I wasn’t entirely sure where we were heading.

And then came White and Sean.

I still couldn’t tell you exactly how they grew closer, and honestly? I don’t even care. Watching their love story unfold felt just as revolutionary as the movement itself. They’re so beautiful together, and it’s incredible to watch something so fragile become virtually indestructible.

I loved everything about them: the way they look at each other, those soft little kisses when they can’t fully reveal themselves yet, and the way their care for each other shines through in every little thing they do.

However, this whole twin waking up from a coma situation?

NEVER DO THAT TO ME AGAIN.Top 10 most stressful moments of my life. I was literally screaming at my screen.

The chemistry between Off and Gun deserves all the recognition it gets. Their work is insane. I’m starting to think they’re almost too good at acting. 👀

As for Yok and Dan, I’ll be honest: I was pretty indifferent to this couple. I didn’t dislike them, but I didn’t find them particularly interesting either. Actually, I found most of the other characters rather insignificant because Gun genuinely stole the show.

That being said, as a huge First fan, I still thought his performance was incredible. But I wouldn’t go as far as saying that his love story with the police officer really captivated me.

I do, however, still have one question.

Were they actually signing (with his mother), or were they just messing with us?

Because honestly, I have my doubts. Even First seemed to give up halfway through. He was practically abandoning his sentences mid-sign. 😭

Beyond that, I also want to highlight the absolute SHAME of how female characters are constantly made to suffer, only for the story to expect us to just move on as if nothing happened.Eugene and Namo, I haven't forgotten about you. They were real pillars in their own way, and they deserved better.

#JusticeForThem #LOL #PATRIARCHYATITAGAIN

To conclude, I genuinely think this series deserves all the attention it gets. It brings together a talented cast, with Gun in particular leaving me completely stunned by his abilities, and a powerful political message. This is the fight of a rebellious generation finally finding the words to express a history of oppression. But it’s not just the fight of young people. It’s also the fight of workers, disabled people, and minorities.

Not Me doesn’t represent one isolated struggle. It represents a collective one.

Tawi, the drug trafficker? We don't give a damn about him. What matters is that he represents a rotten system in which power corrupts those at the top.

So yes, we have to make sure that even in the darkest moments, ideas continue to shine. Not me, not you, but everybody.

I believe in it too.

Freedom is the oxygen of the soul.