zay

super important info about MEEE

hihi i'm zay

i'm indian, but yes, if you saw my location i'm an nri (no coconuts in this house though i can assure you.) i can speak and read hindi fluently though so if there are any hindi (or urdu i guess lol we can still understand each other) speakers i would love to be friends!

it says male, i'm not a male, i'm not a female, but uh... i'm not non-binary either... idk we're still figuring all of this out lol you can address me however you'd like (keep it nice please i'm 17 and ik majority of yall are grown people with grown people jobs)

so yes that does mean i started watching these when i was 12... we don't talk about what's appropriate to watch and what's not we've passed that threshold a long time ago

i identify as biromantic asexual and it pains me that my only rep is a character played by drake but that's a-okay we'll get there some day

super important info about my mdl habits 😛

i rate based on how much i enjoyed something, not how objectively good it is!!

this is so you won't look at my list and go "why on earth did they give SECRET CRUSH ON YOU a TEN??" hey if you skip like. all of toh and nuea's weird freak matching. the show is very enjoyable

now if you ask why ITSAY is at a 7... sorry guys... but i watched it when i was like 12 got bored, maybe i'll rewatch it and reevaluate

and yes, i do need to reevaluate some of my 10s, but i'm not willing to spoil the magic by rewatching. be loved in house was my second ever bl and i LOVEDDD it i gave it a whole 9.5 then i rewatched it two years and many more bls later and i was like oh... this is kind of ass... and if that happens again i wouldn't be able to handle it

speaking of early bls, my first ever was color rush, because of an edit on youtube. that was back in like summer of '21, i was determined to watch all of the bls out there but then somewhere along the way the industry just blew up and now there are more than i can hope of keeping track of haha 

favorite shows (not in order don't ever ask that of me again)

• eternal yesterday (i hate angst idk how this happened)
• something in my room (again... i don't like angst... why do i love it...)
• a tale of a thousand stars (scratch that, maybe i do like angst... no)
• cosmetic playlover (i'm beating the allegations!)
• like in the movies aka gaya sa pelikula (no. i'm not.)
• muteluv: hi by my luck
• my school president
• only boo!
• our youth (k****** die)
• see your love
• semantic error
• thamepo
• until we meet again (ok back w the angst but i cant be a 2021 bl-er and NOT have this in my favorites)
• WEAK HERO CLASS 1 & 2
• rak diao (come back to me...)
• yyy (you have to get it ok she's like a cult classic)
• cherry magic
• we best love
• nuersyn cut of cutie pie literally don't watch anything else ok its the best scenes we have of tutoryim
• alice in borderland
• khemjira

favorite pairings

• tutoryim
• seakeen
• jimmysea
• tlefirstone
• saveauau
• yinwar
• perthlay (rip)

i like a lot of actors but that's because im into twinks

as for gl pairings i've only watched a few gls but i'm still kinda getting into them!! trust, i'll be caught up soon enough

i will absolutely take any and all recommendations please give them to me

other yaoi

biggest mdzs (mo dao zu shi, grandmaster of demonic cultivation, whatever) fan ever i have all the books and all the manhuas released thus far in english but if you had a gun to my head and told me to finish the untamed it would go off. nothing too against it but its so different from the og plot it makes me lose my mind

i also quite like scum villain. which is strange for me because i don't freak with the knew since a kid age gap plot but i didn't like it for the romance itself so

please don't ask me about tgcf lol

currently reading a ballad of sword and wine (qiang jin jiu) and for baihe im reading a clear and muddy loss of love (jwqs)

ive read some manhwa/hua/ga but i don't read them crazy often, so i wont put them down, but i think ive read like a decent amount of the popular ones and some randoms!

i read an insane amount of fanfiction ask me for my ao3 if you dare okay i have so many freaking ships bookmarked

other other

WEAK HERO. WEAK HERO WEAK HERO WEAK FREAKING HERO. OKAY?

i read the webtoon first like way back when and then finally in the big year of 2025 just before s2 i finally watched the drama and my god. the doomed yaoi. but seriously i love the show and i love the webtoon even more i LOVE shse and i LOVE bakugotak and im sorry but im a bakujin anti i gotta stay loyal to the webtoon HOWEVER there is baeksi potential and in this essay i will

i love k-pop! i like songs and people from first to fifth gen, but my favorites are stray kids, ateez, and the kingdom (ha ha typical bg fan but i swear guys i'm a big nugu & gg fan too... majors... azer... all(h)ours... ask me about anyone (but i think you should avoid 5th gen im not really that invested i think))

i LOVE arcane. any mention of it and i awaken like a sleeper agent.

this got way longer than i expected! if you read it all, thanks 🤍