SilverBallerina

This was the first drama I watched with this ML, so I was struggling to warm up to him at first. It would probably have been easier if he were portraying another type of character, but since Bai Jiusi is very mysterious and very wtf in the first few episodes, it was a hard start for me. In the end, I warmed up to him, so it's cool (pun intended).

Bai Lu carries this entire drama on her back, full stop. If Si Ling were portrayed by someone else, I would probably have hated her. But the pain Bai Lu brings while bringing her to life is exactly what we need for Si Ling to make sense.

Now... Story-wise. It is a beautiful story. I love angsty plots, so it was exactly what I was expecting. However, when we get to the ending, it feels like the story I came to love just doesn't matter anymore. I understand Si Ling changing some events in the past would not overwrite everything (since the villain was her karma), but it erased the most important details that made Bai Jiusi and Si Ling who they were. It changes everything, and it changes nothing at the same time. It makes it possible for Bai Jiusi to come back to life (and whoa, the number of times we think he's dead and comes back is insane, so it stops being something new), but it erases all the growth they had as individuals. Not as a couple, as individuals.

It also brings up the question: what about their son? When she went back in time, she fixed the miscommunication arc about the sealing of her powers and being pregnant. So where is he now?? It's such an important part of their journey together, and then we receive zero closure (it wouldn't have needed a closure if she hadn't gone back in time - yeah, I really hated the ending).

The side characters were forgettable, except for Ming Xianqian, who was amazing, and I wish we had more screen time for him.

Argh. I don't even know how to rate this drama at this point.