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Warm but preachy

I watched it all in one sitting.
And I loved the metaphors so much :
- the roti was the apple . The taste of "sin". The taste of freedom and the taste of Tanrak's own feelings.
- the confession scene with tanrak opening the door and barth joining him in his hell.
- Tanrak leaving his rosary with Barth and him losing it (he left his faith with him but he lost it)
Tongdech being also the one who brings it back : reminds him of it.
And there were many other ones...
I wish GMMTV made more series like this with as much symbolism as this one. I enjoyed it truly.
And I loved the acting of Fourth so much.
The only thing that i feel i differ on with many other viewers is i do consider the priest ( Father) as the villain of the story and the religion as a trauma. You can see it in Tanrak's reaction to them finding out. Because if his love was permitted in his religion, he wouldn't have had such a big reaction. That episode broke my heart for him. Kongdech was the sneakiest b**** ever, i hated how every time he came in on the moral high ground, acting like he didn't know nothing, when he knew.
I hated how the priest didnt reach out and ease his worries, and instead he repeated the same message "choose between god and love". Implying that if you choose love, you are forever guilty of being flawed.
I hated how Tanrak fully believed that, and lived many years feeling flawed as a human.
And I think if it wasnt for the trans character i would hate this story. She came in like a fresh breeze in the middle of hell. She was an ICON.

All in all, this show is for someone who is both religious and lgbt and it is important to have shows like this. But it is also important to remember that you do not have to live in guilt. YOU ARE NOT FLAWED FOR BEING YOU. And you shouldn't feel guilty because if god exists, He would love you either way. Being gay is NOT a sin to repent from. Neither is acting on it. Being alive and well and with your loved ones is the best that can come out of this life.
So I hope that this series wont reinforce the religious guilt many still feel to this day. And I hope it will instead be a message for love.

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BEST BL OF THE YEAR

I went into it expecting a mediocre plotline and okay acting like most bls do have.... But i was FLABBERGASTED by how AMAZING it was. The writer/actors knew what they wanted and they DELIVERED.

**The clash between evil and good, crazy and sane, life and death.**
Fan Xiao was so well written and well acted that although he is a big red flag, i was rooting for him the whole series. He managed to manipulate me the viewer and That's how a good plot is made.
You Shu Lang was not the pathetic victim you'd expect from series like this. He likes justice and keeps trying to get an eye for an eye, except some rare times with Fan Xiao, his weakness. You Shu Lang doesnt need a savior. He is the savior.

They nailed the trope of deity and devotee, and then they dismantled it only to build it again for us.

This is the type of series that is gonna have its place in my favorites for a loooooong time.

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