Cigarette after cigarette, you’ll fall for me
I felt so much pain while watching this series. At first, I thought: “Okay, this is a tense, almost predatory conquest of a man”—like a cat catching a mouse. But after they got together and started sharing cute and tender moments, the revelation of lies hurt even more. I truly suffered. This series broke me.
Fan Xiao is definitely toxic and awful - not only at first glance - but over time it becomes clear that he genuinely starts to love Shu Lang. His trauma does not excuse his behavior; yet as the series progresses, I found myself feeling sympathy for him, especially because he also does many good and caring things for Shu Lang.
Shu Lang isn’t a bodhisattva, which makes his role an especially interesting counterpart. On the one hand, he was very caring towards his ex-boyfriends and, with Fan Xiao, may be experiencing for the first time what it really means to be cared for and to open up to someone, rather than just caring for others. On the other hand, he consistently stands up for his own dignity and refuses to lose himself completely in the relationship.
If you’re looking for an emotional roller coaster with heavy themes, this series is exactly that. Additionally, the cinematography is excellent—for example, the cigarette-lighting scene at the beginning is beautifully shot. For my personal taste, there was a bit too much smoking, but I understand its dramaturgical purpose.
Interestingly, there are no side couples, which allows the viewer to fully focus on the multilayered main characters.
I’m also really looking forward to the special episode and hope for a few more sweet moments.
Fan Xiao is definitely toxic and awful - not only at first glance - but over time it becomes clear that he genuinely starts to love Shu Lang. His trauma does not excuse his behavior; yet as the series progresses, I found myself feeling sympathy for him, especially because he also does many good and caring things for Shu Lang.
Shu Lang isn’t a bodhisattva, which makes his role an especially interesting counterpart. On the one hand, he was very caring towards his ex-boyfriends and, with Fan Xiao, may be experiencing for the first time what it really means to be cared for and to open up to someone, rather than just caring for others. On the other hand, he consistently stands up for his own dignity and refuses to lose himself completely in the relationship.
If you’re looking for an emotional roller coaster with heavy themes, this series is exactly that. Additionally, the cinematography is excellent—for example, the cigarette-lighting scene at the beginning is beautifully shot. For my personal taste, there was a bit too much smoking, but I understand its dramaturgical purpose.
Interestingly, there are no side couples, which allows the viewer to fully focus on the multilayered main characters.
I’m also really looking forward to the special episode and hope for a few more sweet moments.
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