Faeriedust95

Someone told me this story was meant to be like an epic romance that women enjoy. I call bullshit. It's literally toxic and ... ugh. Okay, don't get mad, see I'm not an anti-man crazy feminist. I actually love powerful men. I love romances where the man protects his woman and would do anything for her. But as a woman, I also want a romance that is mature and honest and does not require that a woman give up her power to satisfy his need for power. So without further ado, this story isn't great but it isn't bad. The actors were good. Really good. Like I want to watch them again, they could kiss all day and I would happily keep watching it. They had chemistry but she ended up with the wrong guy (same actor, wrong character). The music was whatever, I mean, no one should ask me that because unless the song is awesome or totally wrong for the scene, I don't pay that much attention. My opinion on the OST does not matter. The story was indeed epic, I loved so many parts and the overall feel of the story. And then I started to hate it, because the romance is toxic and stupid and the woman becomes a blithering fool as soon as the man enters the room. I really .... ugh. So that's my basic feeling on this series. They took a woman who was supposed to be amazing and cool and powerful and turned her into a fool. Barely able to cast a spell, let alone defend her weak little self and it was so wrong. So despite how well this story started out, it ended so badly. I can't love it anymore. I can only comfort myself by forgetting the ML ever existed and imagining that Bai Qian ended up with her master, the great Mo Yuan.

Now for the spoilers, if you don't like spoilers, don't read this part: Bai Qian is this amazing woman. We start out with her being taken to Mo Yuan to become his disciple. He's the God of War and he is sexy. She dresses like a boy and acts like a boy and calls herself Si Yin and Mo Yuan loves him/her, but knows who she really is. He respects his role as her master and takes good care of her without crossing any lines, but he grows to love her. She likes someone else, the Ghost Lord's son, and Mo Yuan allows her to be happy in whatever way suits her but he protects her with all his heart. Something bad or scary happens to her and that man is like tearing down the world and starting wars to be there for her. You might think this is the romance that you've been waiting to see, but no. She trains with Mo Yuan (reminder GOD OF WAR) for 20,000 years or some such nonsense and then there is a huge war with the Ghost Tribe. He even makes sure she knows the spell to seal the big bad guy Cang (don't ask me the rest of his name so just go with Cang) in this bell so he can't destroy the world. Mo Yuan and she are the only people who know this spell. He trusted her to save the world. This girlie is powerful and she takes charge of an army of men and goes out there to fight. It's a horrible war with death and pain and struggle and she is right in the middle of it. And at the end, in order to save everyone else, Mo Yuan dies but he promises her he will return. The war ends. Then after his death, she refuses to let his body be buried and steals it away, using her own heart blood to keep his body from rotting. The man she liked before, the Ghost Lord's son, cheated on her and she hates him but she goes to him to ask for something to save her master's body and he refuses, so she has to use her own blood. Tragic and overwhelmingly powerful. So if we end the story there, we think that's the romance and it was wonderful. But no, they lied to us.

You see Mo Yuan's twin brother (who was stuck inside a lotus and not born until after Mo Yuan's death) is born. Through some stupid arranged marriages, Bai Qian is supposed to marry this man, Ye Hua, who is 90,000 years younger than her and she has never met. She doesn't care, she's focused on her people and Mo Yuan coming back. Then when the Cang guy almost gets out of the bell, she goes to seal him away and though no one understands why Bai Qian was the one to know a spell that only Si Yin should have known, she does it. But he hits her with a parting shot and she is sent to some mountain in the human world with no memory and seems like a mortal. In this part, we meet Ye Hua who meets her and falls in love with this mortal woman who is called Su Su, but is really. Bai Qian. He marries her in secret in the human world and she gets pregnant and he brings her back to the celestial realm to be with him. Where he already has a woman who is expecting to marry him (Su Jin) and a fiance named Bai Qian that he has never met -- obviously not knowing Su Su is Bai Qian. This is where it gets toxic. No one in the heavens likes this poor mortal woman and he is not married to her in the heavens so she basically has no power and no backing. Ye Hua thinks he's going to protect her by pretending that he doesn't love her and just brought her to the heavens because she's pregnant. But all this does is isolate her further and leave her open to the bullying of Su Jin. Su Jin makes it look like Su Su hurt her and he knows it isn't true, but instead of allowing the Emperor to kill her, he takes her eyes (yes, gouges out her eyes himself so the last thing she see is his face before he hurts her) and then he continues to act as though he doesn't care for her while secretly taking a punishment so she won't be killed. Basically, she thinks he doesn't love her, so as soon as the baby is born, that woman is out. She wants to leave, she doesn't trust him and doesn't want to be with him so she decides to throw herself off some platform that Su Jin told her will return her to where she belongs and he understands will kill her. He tries to save her but it's too little too late.

Now she returns to being Bai Qian and with this mortal trial, she has become a high goddess, so we add to her badass powers, right? Wrong, she drinks something to make her forget and goes back to being Queen and High Goddess and doesn't really do anything until she meet Ye Hua again. He realizes that she's Su Su and finds out that she has forgotten but the toxic jerk decides that she did that because she didn't love him it's because she loved Mo Yuan and didn't want to remember that she was with Ye Hua (who happens to look exactly like Mo Yuan). Now this takes time, it's not all one episode but over the episodes he keeps testing her to see if she loves him but she doesn't feel anything for him because for her, they seriously just met and they are in an arranged marriage. He's clingy, he keeps pushing his son on her to use the child to make her be nice to him, and all along he's now married to Su Jin and even brought another woman back to live with him as a sort of servant. Making Bai Qian think he isn't especially interested in being with her either. He manipulates her, trying to make her jealous and all along he doesn't want her to remember her time as Su Su because he's afraid she will hate him for taking her eyes and giving them to Su Jin. Over time, as he's doing all this manipulation, she falls in love. He takes advantage of her feelings to sleep with her several times and she assumes they are truly in love while the whole time he's thinking she loves Mo Yuan.

This is bad enough, but while this is all happening a few situations happen where she has to fight. In one instance, she puts up a force field to stop her ex from approaching her but he breaks it down instantly. Later, she fights a bunch of regular soldiers in the Purple Palace (ghost lord's palace) and is almost killed. Ye Hua comes and saves her just in time and when she tries to kill the villainess, her ex boyfriend brushes away her attack like it was nothing. This woman is supposed to be a high goddess, she was trained by the god of war himself for 20,000 years and led armies in war. But they take away her power as though she never had it to begin with all so Ye Hua can rush in and save the day. But wait, it gets worse. At the end, Cang is trying to break the seal and get out of his prison again and she, the one person who has the spell meant to seal him away and who did it before, goes to stop him. BUT Ye Hua puts her in a little bubble which she is powerless to escape and goes and dies trying to stop Cang. Did he not get the memo, she literally stopped him the last time. She was trained by the God of War, is no one (not even her) aware of all this?! Now Ye Hua dies. somehow supposedly redeeming himself for taking her eyes and she's left with no way to continue to blame him because he's done this incredibly selfless (selfish if you ask me) thing for the whole world. So she mourns him and eventually he returns and the two of them are in love and yay. By the way, Mo Yuan is alive again too and he still loves Bai Qian but because he loves her without having to possess her and in a mature and good way, he wishes them well. So please, someone explain to me how she ends up weak and stupid with a man who hurt her, lied to her, manipulated her, and wants to possess her rather than love her. Tell me how that makes sense! Tell me how women are supposed to love this love story. I don't. I hate it. Mo Yuan, you deserve better. Bai Qian, what's wrong with you? Get therapy! Ye Hua, grow up. Be a man. Look at your brother. He's a man. Ok. Sorry. I just ... ugh.