Jess

and hey if you want dean's back story too.. click the reply to THIS comment. SPOILERS

hope you don't mind AI, Cause I'm too busy to type so I asked deepseek;

MAJOR SPOILERS BELOW.

Based on the novel translation, Moth’s backstory is the key to his entire personality. Here’s the full picture:---Who he is now:Moth is 24, a freelance artist/illustrator living alone in a Bangkok condo. He does commercial work—comics, mascots, logos, graphic design—but he used to be a serious painter. He’s tall, slender, fair-skinned, with dark eyes and a cold, sarcastic exterior. He pushes people away, hates birthdays, and has spent over ten years celebrating alone.

Childhood:
He was a sickly child—always catching colds, fainting in the sun, allergic to rain. He grew up determined to overcome his weaknesses and became healthier, even athletic. But the feeling of being “weak” stayed with him.

Art college ;
Mes (the core wound):Moth studied art in university. He was talented, painting contemporary/abstract work with raw emotion. That’s when he met Mes, a senior he deeply admired. Mes mentored him, praised his honesty, and told him he was “special.” Moth fell in love.

The Valentine’s Day rejection:
Six years ago, Moth gathered the courage to give Mes a rose on Valentine’s Day. Mes coldly dismissed him: “I don’t really care about this kind of thing.” He didn’t take the rose, didn’t even turn to look at Moth properly, and left him standing there humiliated. The text says: “That was the day Moth stopped being the same person.”

Aftermath:
Mes went abroad and started dating someone with an “incredible profile,” which made Moth feel even more inadequate. He stopped painting seriously, turned to commercial work to make a living, and built thick walls around his heart. He became cold, blunt, and pushed everyone away before they could reject him. He started hating Valentine’s Day and birthdays. He never let anyone into his condo or his bed.

Pan and the manipulation:
His only close friend was Pan, who secretly loved him for years. Moth knew but didn’t confront him because he didn’t want to hurt him. Later, Moth used Dean to make Pan give up on him—a manipulative move that shows how broken and desperate he was to avoid emotional messes.

How Dean changes it:
Dean becomes the first person Moth brings home, the first he sleeps beside, and the first he paints again. Moth eventually realizes the painting he made by the river was Dean, not Mes. His backstory is one of rejection, self-doubt, and walls—and his arc is learning to trust and let love in.

In short: Moth is a deeply wounded artist who was humiliated by his first love, convinced he wasn’t good enough, and spent years punishing himself by staying alone. Dean is the crazy person who finally breaks through.

He had a crush on a guy, the guy rejected him. it traumatized him so much he raised his walls so high no one can climb over them.

exactly 💯. we dont mind it if a person doesn't like this show and voices that dislike out, that's okay, we all have different opinions on things, but the negative comments here come from a jealous insecure place rather than unbiased review of this dram. so if she can't stand it when we defend you maniac from toxic haters then yes, it's best she leaves.

you'll probably find it on x

ahh see the thing is they use this word too. it might not be strong when I say it but is sure is when they themselves do. also who are you to make decisions about these pple when you are an irrelevant speck of dust? they don't even know who you are yet you stand so strongly against what THEY THEMSELVES have said. as if you know them personally or better than they know themselves. you are a ridiculous person and I hope you heal

and I think you should save yourself the mental trouble by finding pple that don't drag others down. go find them and watch their shows. cause I can tell you Est will never leave that boy so just save your time and leave.

you can't connect with William, it's great that you came to that conclusion so early on, now we won't ever see you in any williamest drama comment section. bye.

oh good. bye then 😌

he's not half while lol he's like 1/4th. mostly thai

what a sad boy Dean is

this is the most realistic red flag behavior in bl I've seen so far. usually red flags in bl involve rape, captivity, controlling behavior etc. like I can see two guys who are together simply cause of physical attraction, one wanting to help a friend out and the other wanting to get rid of an unwanted suitor. like yeah I see this happening in real life. I saw some pple saying why are they still dating each other if they clearly don't like each other's company. we're talking about men here... a man can hate you and stay with you for years purely for sexual gratification, these two are not only attracted to each other but they have motivation that's keeping them together. I like the realism of it

this is my first comment btw, the last reply to you. which also was my first time being here. I'd hardly say me replying to you means am "flooding" the comment section. yes I dropped it. it sucks. bye.

oh goodness please no. BL fandoms are so toxic nowadays, putting 3 pairs with big fandoms together in one show seems like a recipe for disaster

and williamest seem to bring out the insecurity in everyone. they were attacked plenty in the last show they were in cause of insecure fans and even got fans of DMD pressed with this show 😭 can you imagine the chaos if such a show existed ? 🫩

pple are only here cause you pple wouldn't leave you maniac page alone and everyone got tired. even I got tired of y'all flooding you maniac comment section with this lame show

exactly.

it's peaceful there cause fans of this show have better things to do than go to another drama comment section to talk crap about Mr fanboy while complimenting you maniac.

williamest are a prime example of why I will always be in support of permanent pairs
. like I just can't see them acting with other guys.

that's cause Mr fanboy fans are coming here to compare the two shows unprovoked while fans of this show who aren't planing on watching Mr fanboy, like me, couldn't care less and don't have time to go to another drama page and talk about you maniac

whats so hard to understand about people having different tastes than you? alot of us LOVE this drama, I haven't watched a show this good in a while. when I say it's the best Thai show that I've watched in a while, I mean it 😭. no need to fake reviews