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Replying to russeka Sep 28, 2025
Title ABO Desire
viki had it close to time for me. better than last Saturday where I waited another 24 hours after for it to be…
yeah I jumped the gun this time. My bad
On ABO Desire Sep 27, 2025
Title ABO Desire
I suppose it was wishful thinking for viki to have the episode out on time.... everyone else enjoy for us poor souls <3
Replying to Eluvia Sep 11, 2025
Title Kill to Love
When we first met, it was only through lines and words, and none of it had anything to do with me. I thought the…
Sorry! I thought it should be shared. It helped me understand Shu He more deeply and I am also crying.
Replying to Eluvia Sep 11, 2025
Title Kill to Love
When we first met, it was only through lines and words, and none of it had anything to do with me. I thought the…
I know. They really gave their best efforts. I appreciate them so much <3 :)
Replying to Daffodils Sep 11, 2025
Title Kill to Love
Beautiful, thank you
I got annoyed at myself for being lazy and not writing all of it, so it's been updated with the full thing now O.O
Replying to Eluvia Sep 11, 2025
Title Kill to Love
When we first met, it was only through lines and words, and none of it had anything to do with me. I thought the…
^ Shu He's thoughts, posted by Mi Jin/XiaoShu He T_T I wrote most of it in the second post if you can't get to the link
Replying to Eluvia Sep 11, 2025
Title Kill to Love Spoiler
https://x.com/nevropatia/status/1966137289375150115Shu He's last thoughts after taking the poison were -"Forgive…
When we first met, it was only through lines and words, and none of it had anything to do with me. I thought the role was carefree, bearing loyalty to home and country yet still gentle - a character of great charm. Until fortune allowed me to truly become you. I realized: your lightness was but a mask of protection. You always seemed a little conflicted and fate gave you nothing but impossible choices.

As a child, you heard your brother say "When I grow older and inherit this land, If you are not there to ease me with your music, How could I bear it?" You believed him. You clung to him daily, practiced the zither diligently- yet in the end, why did he think you would turn against him? You never understood without the title of prince, without your father's favor, all you wanted was simple brotherly harmony.

Later you met Duan Ziang. At first you only sought to use him to balance Minister Gu. But as time passed you were drawn to him. Your brother doubted you, courtiers sought to exploit you and everyone speculated on your true nature. Only Zi Ang believed you had "A childs heart, honest in the dark" You told yourself you were only using him, yet why did you worry for his safety? Why did you abandon years of planning and risk yourself? You knew why - Zi Ang knew too...

When you saw with your own eyes the man you loved pierce your closest kin with a sword, the world became unreal. Every cruel choice fell upon you. Could you trust his words? could you trust yourself? You doubted everything except your own heart, which still loved him and yet could not. So you dared not see him again.

Imprisoned, you hid your heart. But seeing him once more, you faltered. You told yourself hatred was survival, yet why did you cry in the marketplace? Why did your chest ache at his wounds? The life of the people of Nanhui is like a knife cut on your heart, but your heart can't stop geting close to Zi Ang.

In dreams you returned to childhood, to music, wine and fleeting peace. But dreams break, and chains on your feet reminded you: you were a fallen king, you could not forget. Yes, you can't forget that you just wanted to spend your life in an ordinary way. Why does fate make you choose again and again? You hate how your love can be so impossible, but why does fate still bring you to him and take him away.

At last you said "I will use what he cherishes most- to atone to my father, my brother, my people and my love." You had seen too many die before your eyes. You drank the poison unable to bear watching Zi Ang fade away, unable to endure living in shame. It was revenge and punishment upon yourself. As Zi Ang's joy turned to fear, what did you think? of your people? Your father and brother? Perhaps of an apology

"Forgive me, Zi Ang - forgive me. I always hurt you with my sharpest words but one line was true, once more. Let us begin once more. If only- if only from the start, I had hidden myself in that pear-blossom courtyard, away from father, away from brother, away from fate itself."
On Kill to Love Sep 11, 2025
Title Kill to Love Spoiler
https://x.com/nevropatia/status/1966137289375150115

Shu He's last thoughts after taking the poison were -

"Forgive me, Zi Ang - forgive me. I always hurt you with my sharpest words but one line was true, once more. Let us begin once more. If only- if only from the start, I had hidden myself in that pear-blossom courtyard, away from father, away from brother, away from fate itself." T_T
Replying to Daffodils Sep 10, 2025
Title Kill to Love
Friends, lets keep supporting this series for a while in this forum, lets re watch, keep watching the vblog. Gagaoola…
Where do you follow them? I don't have insta, is that the only place?
Replying to SoHooked Sep 9, 2025
Title Kill to Love Spoiler
Tel me tel me...happy ending? I cant..just cant if it snt!!!!!
the ending is sad at first but then happy, wish it was longer though.
Replying to Eluvia Sep 9, 2025
Title Kill to Love Spoiler
They don't
I wanted it to happen too but dumby Hyo Ying still loves the dead CP apparently *large sigh*
Replying to Daffodils Sep 9, 2025
Title Kill to Love Spoiler
This is a misundersfanding. There was not poison in ep7 it was fake.. DZA was dying because he was an elite assassin…
I wish they extended the ending in the afterlife and we saw them in a house in the woods living peacefully. But all we got was 10 secs of them smiling at each other. T_T
Replying to Daffodils Sep 9, 2025
Title Kill to Love Spoiler
This is a misundersfanding. There was not poison in ep7 it was fake.. DZA was dying because he was an elite assassin…
The ending does make sense I just wanted to see more happiness without deceit.
Replying to Daffodils Sep 9, 2025
Title Kill to Love
This is a misundersfanding. There was not poison in ep7 it was fake.. DZA was dying because he was an elite assassin…
I know this is me trying to change the story, so I am saying I wish it was actual poison! Let me be dramatic. I am mad and sad T_T
Replying to WANG7XIAN Sep 8, 2025
Title Kill to Love Spoiler
I see everyone pitying Shu He, but my heart pains for Zi Ang more. I don't know, I start crying as soon as he…
Mine also hurts for Zi Ang he literally got given 2 options by Shu He - Watch him die or live being hated and ignored by him for the rest of his life. So fkn unfair, either suffering or suffering.