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Sure! And the same goes for you too☺️ I might have made you wait a lot over the past three months, and I’m really sorry for that😅 But I've really enjoyed this too (I’m literally being emotional right now😭)

Bye-bye naa, My Wenlang!!!!!🥹🤧👋

Wenlang’s sudden action left Gao Tu stunned for a few seconds. He didn’t know what to do—but eventually, he gave in. He gave in to those soft, warm lips that were practically devouring him. The kiss was sudden, unfamiliar… yet painfully familiar at the same time. A fully conscious and intentional kiss from his Wenlang.

Can he call Wenlang his now!? Can he stay by Wenlang’s side!? Forever!?

Can’t he call it forever!? Him, Wenlang… and their little one… 🥹❤️✨

[Is this the end!? OMG, we finally came to the end. I’ll really miss this! Miss these three months of our Wenlang–Gao Tu tale! 🥹😭 At least we made it through and are satisfied with it (aren’t we!?👀😶‍🌫️😆)… Feel free to knock me anytime 🤧

And lastly, sorry again for being late—for the last time🤧 (I guess!😶‍🌫️😆). As I said, I had to go to a different city for my exams, and we had to delay our return by one day for some reasons. After coming back, I was so tired that I literally fell asleep immediately, so… 😅]

“Wenlang, you—!!!” Gao Tu couldn’t believe his ears. He couldn’t believe what he had just heard. The one thing he had always thought was impossible was now actually happening. How was he supposed to believe this!?😭

But Wenlang’s eyes told him he wasn’t joking. The firmness in his voice was proof that every word came from the depths of Wenlang’s heart. How could Gao Tu doubt that!?

“Wenlang, I like you too!”

Before Gao Tu could even process what Wenlang had said, his body—his mouth—had already reacted. And now, he didn’t want to stop. He didn’t want to lose this chance… lose Wenlang. He wanted to tell him everything, all at once, and he was speaking so fast that some of his words barely made sense. His eyes were already filled with tears, which soon began to fall.

“Yes, Wenlang… yes. I like you. I like you so much! I’ve liked you for so long that I’ve forgotten when it even started. I really wanted to stay close to you, but then all of this happened. I had to make the decision to go away. You know there was no other option, but I really wanted to stay. I wanted to stay close to you, stay by your side for as long as possible.

I never thought you would like me back. I even thought you would hate me after knowing the truth. But just now… just now… you…”

His voice trembled. “I like you too. I really like y.....”

[How about making Wenlang suddenly kiss Gao Tu right here!?🤭 Or you can write it however you think is better — I’ll just edit my part then😉

Good to hear that you did well on your exam! And yeah, the grading system really is a little different here — a B is actually the 4th or 5th grade (it can vary😅) Pray for me too, so I can do well in my exams as well. I have exams on January 16 (tomorrow) and January 17 (I actually had three exams that day, but I decided to take only two, because the other one is in our city, while these three are in a different city, so I’ll be traveling today to there.
My next reply will probably be after I return to my city (I think I’ll be back on January 18, if everything goes well 😅) Sorry for replying that late in advance😓 And, don’t worry about your results — this one will be good too…☺️

Anyway, I’ll miss this sooooo much too😭 You can DM me or reply in other places as well 💜💜💜 (Don’t look for the meaning of the purple heart either!!!😆)]

“Wenlang, what are you talking about!? Do you… I mean—by any chance, are you saying you want to take care of my… o–our baby even after his birth!? You don’t have any problem telling others that he’s yours!? You… you want us to… can you please say it more clearly, please!?”

[No, I didn’t really have any specific question that I wanted you to ask, I just said it so I could get some reference or anything for Gao tu's reply😅 But honestly, I also think we’re close enough to the end.

How about Wenlang saying a little more clearly that he wants to take care of Gao Tu and the child—not because it’s his responsibility, but because it’s what he wants!? Because... "he likes Gao Tu (no, he doesn’t need to say this too clearly, just enough for Gao Tu to understand that Wenlang likes him too, will do)". Then Gao Tu will say that he likes Wenlang… that he has liked him for so many years and so on. All in all, he’ll confess his love, then they’ll kiss, and we’ll declare the end 🤭

If you have other ideas, you can share them too, then we can decide how we want it to end😉 Best of luck for your this exam too☺️ (Ahem… how was the exam!? Was it good enough!?😅 Yeah, this part is edited too🫠)

Edit: 😮‍💨 Sorry for being late again 🥲 I couldn’t post any comments here for the past two days. After trying multiple times, I thought something was seriously wrong with my account. So I tried to see if I could DM you here or not, and to my surprise (more like shock), I discovered that I had somehow logged out of MDL, and my stupid brain completely ignored this fact for the past two days🙂😭🤡 Right now, I want to dig a hole and hide in it😭🫥 Anyway, sorry again naa 😭🙇‍♀️]

“Wenlang! I’m not rushing you about anything. I know you might have gotten a huge shock after suddenly knowing it and you really need enough time to properly process it or accept it! Believe me, the fact that you don’t hate me even after knowing the truth means a lot to me—and I really mean it.

Yes, neither of us wanted things to happen like this. I really had thought about many scenarios of you finding out about me, but I couldn’t even imagine this as the worst scenario. Still, it has happened, and we can’t change it. But I’m really happy that you didn’t misunderstand me and are even trying to help me. I’ll try my best to make everything right, and I know you’ll always help me.

I just want you to always be honest with me—even if it’s something negative, even if it’s something you know I might not expect. We may have known each other for a really long time, but when it comes to knowing each other intimately or deeply, we are not any better than strangers. Sometimes I might understand a few things, but I couldn’t expect them to really happen. You can take our current situation as an example. I never could have expected you not to hate me after knowing that I’m an omega—let alone knowing that I’m the omega from that night who is also pregnant.

And please ask if you want to know about anything I might have done, or if you need any explanation I might know about any incident that has happened. Do you want to ask anything right now?”

[Girl!!! That’s the main problem—I couldn’t think of what Gao Tu should say! What topic he should talk about, or what he has to explain more!? 😭 It’s like my brain has gone on a vacation, so help me! Help me… suggest something, ask something, give any clue about what Gao Tu should talk about or anything—just help me, please!!! 🙏😭😭

Oh! You were talking about maternity leave! 😅 Well, I kinda knew about the Chinese system because we actually also have half a year of maternity leave here, just like China! And don’t worry about it—we already have so many potholes, and this isn’t even one of them!

As you’re replying after your exam, best of luck with that. About my exams, the results are not out yet, actually, and I have more exams in a few days—literally three exams in a row, and two of them will be held on the same day 🥲—so I’m really busy with that! I had even forgotten about the School Trip’s special episode if you hadn’t asked about it🫠]

"....Thank you, Wenlang! I’ll tell you if I need it, but… do you understand what you’re saying right now!? I know what you meant, but it could be misunderstood, you know😅 (And I think I prefer the misunderstood version better😞) Don’t say things like this... at least in this situation😓

Also, please let me know if anything about me or… the baby makes you uncomfortable. I really don’t want you to force yourself for me… please!"

[Where did this “You will eventually leave after a few months anyway” come from, huh!?🥲 Wenlang, try your best to keep Gao Tu with you, bro. Why are you already giving up!? Fighting, bro—fighting!!!!✊🫠

Anyway, I think I just need my Gao Tu and Wenlang talking their hearts out and having a happily ever after! You can say I want them to become an over-communicative couple atp 😆 (I’m literally trying to make Gao Tu say what he’s been hiding for the past 10 years—and I mean literally everything 😶‍🌫️)

(Gao Tu is blushing internally so hard right now 🤭)

“Umm… it would be great if you could give me some of your alpha soothing pheromones when needed😅 As I already told you, I have a pheromone disorder (I, Tanha, forgot whether it was a pheromone disorder or a hormone disorder, sorry about that 🥲🙇‍♀️), which is also the reason I had to take leaves from the office that frequently. So I'll really need some soothing pheromones from an alpha during the pregnancy😓

I even thought… about taking pheromones from… someone else, since you didn’t know about it before😓 But now… if you really can… that would be great! But since you hate omegas, would it be okay for you!? Please don’t force yourself for me, okay!?😓”

[Let me tell you something: in the novel (I haven’t read it fully and have forgotten some parts, but as much as I remember), Gao Tu took those pheromones from another alpha, whom (and whose partner) he stayed with while he was away from Wenlang. When Wenlang met them after the time skip (I forgot how long it was, what’s wrong with my brain today!?🥲 🧠: 🤨 “😴” 😒), he doubted (for a moment and not very strongly) that Lele wasn’t his child, because Lele also smelled like that alpha.

Okay! I won’t give any more information right now, because for some weird reason I’m confusing myself🫠 (I even tried to search it up in the novel just now but I couldn’t find it🙂)

Anyway, don’t apologize, naa, I should be the one apologizing for confusing you. As I already said before, English isn’t my first language, so sometimes it can be a little…😅 (ehm… that’s just an excuse. I really think I’m not good at my first language either!🥲🫢)]

“It’s not the same, Wenlang. Me, with an inhibitor, claiming to be a beta who just has an omega partner—and me without the inhibitor, smelling like a pregnant omega, are not the same. Everyone will find out that I’m an omega, and more than that... a pregnant omega.

I was even scared that you’d find out I was the omega from that night, even though I was using an inhibitor. I tried to finish my work quickly so I could leave the company as soon as possible. I tried so hard to ignore you. I even tried to keep my distance while talking to you.

But… but why do I feel like you don’t… mind letting others know!? Won’t you mind if people in the office find out that one of your secretaries, who claimed to be a beta but is actually a secret omega, is now pregnant with your… child!? Won’t you!? Why!!?”

[Haha, that was a smooth way of blaming Wenlang for the plot holes and moving on!😆 But yeah! Please keep giving hints like that when you already have some things in mind for the next replies 😁

And I didn’t really tell you I would reply after my exam👀🫢 I said I’d watch Heated Rivalry after that and read your previous reply again because I got nothing about the thing you told about it and 10 Dance😶‍🌫️

I was even planning to reply as soon as possible! (Ahem… about that, I have a strong doubt that I time-traveled. I mean… how did I already reach the 1st of January!? How!?😭🙇‍♀️) (Well… ehm… but my next reply will definitely be after my exam!🫠) I’m kinda feeling jealous of you right now 🥲 We even had exams on the 2nd of January, but they got postponed because the government declared three days of state mourning in our country. And I was low-key expecting my exams would be postponed too—but they weren’t!😭😮‍💨 (We didn’t even get to celebrate New Year properly because of that 🥲)
Anyway—Happy New Year!!!!!! 🎉🥳🥰✨ May this year become the best year of your life so far!!!!!❤️]

“Alpha!? What alpha!? You’re the only alpha except my sister, who knows I’m an omega! Which alpha could possibly stay with me during my heat!? 😄

Anyway, then... I’ll go back to the office again from tomorrow, so please handle the reverse resignation process for me!🙏😆

But... you won’t be uncomfortable if I go to the office, will you!? You can say it! And don’t worry, I will try to let no one know about it😅

Oh—no, wait! There’s a problem. I can’t use inhibitors that much right now. I already have a pheromone disorder, and that will make…!😅 So what should we do now!? My pheromones are also changing like a pregnant omega… they don’t even smell the same anymore. So... everyone will...

No, no, we have to do something about it. Can you think of anything!? What should I do!?😓😖”

[About the changing pheromones—I’m not really sure, because I haven’t read that much omegaverse, and I don’t think it was mentioned anywhere in Desire. Even though I also haven’t completed the novel (and it also doesn’t have enough Wenlang–Gao Tu scenes 🥲). But I read somewhere in the comments, people were talking about Gao Tu ignoring Wenlang (the scene where Gao Tu steps back when Wenlang tries to reach him) and someone said that an omega’s pheromones change during pregnancy! Like, you can tell if that omega is pregnant or not from their pheromones, So...😅

Special episode confirmed!? Really!? I want to kiss your hands right now for giving me such a great news😭 Yahooooooo!!!!!🥳🥳🥳

About 10 Dance... honestly, it didn’t feel that bad to me. I did feel it was a little rushed, but they didn’t have that much runtime since it’s a movie. So I think I shouldn’t really compare it with a series. That’s also why I said I want a sequel or something like that! That metro scene was really insane!🤭 And about the ending—I liked it too. Even though I thought something more might happen and I was surprised when it ended, but I still liked it!

And… nah! I haven’t watched Heated Rivalry yet 😭 I was waiting for it to be fully aired, but now...🫠😮‍💨 I’ll start it after my next exam (which is on the 2nd or 3rd of January🥲🤧) So I’ll come back and read your reply again after finishing it (because I didn’t understand anything!🫣)

Happy to hear you spent Christmas well! And honestly, gifts to ourselves are always the best, because no one knows us better than ourselves. Going to a K-pop concert would definitely be my favorite present to myself too😆 (but I think I still need to wait a few more years for that 🥲). And exchanging gifts? No—no one really does that here (except the Christian community, I guess 😅). For us, Christmas is fun mostly because it’s a public holiday! But nowadays, we sometimes wish each other “Merry Christmas,” even though elders still give bombastic side-eyes sometimes!😆]

“......Wenlang!?.... Please continue! I don’t want to imagine anything on my own. You said it doesn’t bother you that I’m an Omega, and I’m really thankful that you didn’t hate me even after knowing the truth! But about pheromones… I don’t understand it… or maybe I do!?... Still, I told you I don’t want to imagine anything!

Umm… and... I want to ask one thing though! Don’t I need to go away anymore!? Should I keep coming to the office again from tomorrow, or...!? You can say it without any hesitation, because I already told you I was literally ready for the worst! You can also say if you are uncomfortable about anything!”😅

[Yeah! That was exactly my reaction to Watarai too😆 And I would absolutely love it if they give us a special episode—or even another season! 🤭 Most famous Japanese BLs actually get special episodes or more seasons, so we can definitely hope!🫣 But I recently watched 10 Dance, and I want a continuation(or anything more) of that movie so badly too—I feel completely robbed after watching it for some weird reason!🥲😆

Congratulations on finally being able to write it, I guess!🫠😂 And Merry Christmas!🎄🎅❄️ Even though it’s already the 26th of December😅 I was really busy catching up with people yesterday—everyone was a little too free🫢😶‍🌫️ I even hung out with my school friend after almost three years🥲😆 How was your Christmas!? (Am I being rude again!? Then sorry in advance and just ignore this question like life ignores me!🤧)]

Gao Tu was already surprised enough that they had somehow reached this point. But after Wenlang said all those things, he found himself wanting to expect things he never should... again. He wanted to dream again. He wanted to let out the feelings he had been hiding for almost ten years… 😮‍💨

“Umm... Okay! Then... Let’s sit on the bench for a few minutes and watch the kids play!” Gao Tu looked at the children playing nearby. “Then we’ll go to the lake, okay!? But please let me know if you have something to say too, 'cause this... this is about us!😅☺️”

[Yeah! That was such a cute episode! But I seriously thought Watarai would say something like, ‘I thought we were already boyfriends!’ (Yup! For some weird reason, I really thought that!!!🫠😆) But then… Aaaaaaaarrrrrgggghhhh!🤭
I’m kinda sad too, though... ’cause… it ended😭😭😭

Hmm! Please do it! Please make Wenlang say everything and as for Gao Tu’s cooperation, I’ll try to make him do it. I mean, yeah, it’s been three months here, but in their world, it’s just a single f*cking day!!! 🙃]

Gao Tu could tell Wenlang was rambling just to distract him from asking anything, so he decided to play along and didn't press for details on their destination. However, when Wenlang finally parked the car by a park, Gao Tu was genuinely surprised. What are they doing here!? What is Wenlang even thinking!?

​Gao Tu was lost in thoughts when Wenlang suddenly grabbed his hand. He felt a strong blow of something unfamiliar in his heart, but it was definitely not unpleasant. Wenlang led him to a quiet spot; even though the park was already peaceful today rather than holidays, this area felt even more quite. The beautiful scenery and the calm atmosphere made Gao Tu feel so much better—it was as if the mess of his recent life just faded  in the background!

​He took a deep breath and looked at Wenlang to find Wenlang was also looking  at him, and though he seemed lost in his own world, his eyes were incredibly soft. Gao Tu just couldn’t resist his gaze. So—

​"Why... Why did you take me here!? Umm... I mean, what are we doing here!?" Gao Tu rushed. "Even if we are doing something, can we just sit here for a few minutes!? I really liked this place(😅☺️)"

​[Aaaah! I'm so sorry! I shouldn’t have asked that😭 I thought you might be really excited for Christmas, which is why you might have asked me in the first place! Sorry naa😭😭😭

​And we actually can consider the breakfast as part of the date too, because they didn’t really come here thinking they were going on a date. So if we consider it a date, the whole time they spend together is basically part of it😅(I think, I really suck at explaining things🥲) Anyway, you get what I mean, right!?😓

​Also, yeah! Let Wenlang talk everything out, every single thing! Let him talk his heart out! Let him speak, confess, cry, kiss(🤭😶‍🌫️) whatever he wants!🫣 and I'm so here for it! We will definitely get to that point(even if it takes the whole damn year!😤)😆

​Sorry again naa!❤️‍🩹😅]

“Mn…!? Oh! Umm… okay! And yeah—it really might never have happened. But don’t worry, I actually kinda like it that at least we’re talking like this, even if it might be the worst way to reach here!” 😅

[What the hell is Gao Tu even supposed to reply!? 😭 My brain is not braining! 🥲
Let’s just make them finish breakfast and go on the date 🤭
—or you can make Wenlang confess something and end me properly! 😭

Ahh! And… thanks for understanding. It does get celebrated here, but not as broadly as in Christian countries (yeah—our country’s main population isn’t Christian, so...).
I was actually busy with my exams, and on top of that, it was my brother’s birthday, so I was occupied with that too. Some relatives also came to visit (because most kids’ holidays have already started—and no, I’m definitely not jealous 😶‍🌫️).
Then I got sick (and I also had... more like have🫢... some eye issue, so it's takes way too long to type than usuals😓), ahem... so... yeah! now I’m literally handling all of this mess together (don’t worry, I’m still alive🥲👍). I’ll also get my holidays very soon—even though it won’t be for too long, and I’ll literally have an exam on New Year’s Eve… I just realized my life is really f**ked up, and I’ve started rambling! 🫠
Btw, how are your Christmas preparations going?

And please suggest something for our Wenlang–Gao Tu! 😭]

At first, Gao Tu didn’t realize what Wenlang had asked him because he was too focused on Hua Yong’s information—like he had literally met an enigma!? A real enigma!? No, wait! What did Wenlang just ask!?

Gao Tu became redder than a tomato after realizing it. Too flustered to talk! Too stunned to answer!!

“Umm… umm… it… it was… okay! Don’t worry!! 😖”

But he still couldn’t continue speaking. He was so embarrassed that he wanted to dig a hole and hide in it. He started getting flashbacks from that night! He definitely didn’t want it to happen like that. But now, when Wenlang was talking about it…!!? How could he....!?🥴

[Ah! I really thought for a split second that it could be that, but then I was like—nah! It can’t be! Under what circumstances would Wenlang even ask that!?🤔 He probably wouldn’t, right!? 😆

Thank you, jaa!🙇‍♀️ (Happy!? 😂) For me, life is too short to set rules even in my entertainment! If I feel like rewatching something, then it’s worth revisiting—no matter how terrible the show is or how many times I’ve already watched it!😶‍🌫️ If it still makes me want to watch it, that means it still has something entertaining in it for me, which is what really matters! Like, even when I watch a show just once, I still can’t finish all of them—so why create pressure when we’re supposed to relieve it here!?😅🫠😆 And if it loses its entertainment power midway, I don’t have to tell myself what I do, right!? 🫢😉

And sorry for being late as always😶‍🌫️😭 Believe me! I'm trying!! Really!!!😭😭😭]

Huh! Wenlang!? Why would I think like that!? 🤨😅 Yeah, okay, we both definitely didn’t want it to happen, but the fault was obviously mine. I know how much you hate omegas, so there’s no way you’d want to be around one during their heat! 😓 It’s totally me—I shouldn’t have been there that day. I should have just taken a leave like on other days of my heat and stayed at home! Then… then…!😮‍💨

And it’s really crazy—how are we 90% compatible!? 😆 I never thought that could be possible! Oh! By the way, you said Hua Yong told you something before about this!? What did he tell you!? And… and if he’s not an omega, then he is—!? 😅 Umm… it’s okay, you don’t need to tell me if that’s a problem; I was just a little curious. It’s not like I’m judging you or anything! 😅 [It’s definitely not Gao Tu, but Tanha whose brain is spiraling🫠😶‍🌫️ (I haven’t slept for 32 hours already! 😓)]

[Girl, just ask the question already! I’m dying of curiosity here🫠 I literally rewatched ThamePo ep 10 twice instead of studying and got depressed over P’Per’s breakup a few hours before my exam 🥲 (I mean, you wanna fight or what!? 🙃😆) That’s one of the craziest and messiest episodes of ThamePo—what the hell is your question!? I’m really too dumb to get the clue, I guess 😆 (but, I’m going crazy! 🥴) Congratulations! You successfully made me start rewatching ThamePo for the 968639829638399.... times! (Nah! I'm rewatching it because today is its one year anniversary, so why not!😌)]

“Ah! It's not like that! Yes, Secretary Hua knows, but it's not like I told him. He figured it out because of the pictures—the ones he said he sent to me! But I don’t think he knows everything. He only knows I'm the omega from that night and nothing else.

And... I'm really sorry, Wenlang. I know you must be really hurt right now because I lied to you. You might think I tried to take advantage of you. I won’t stop you from thinking that—you have every right to. But believe me, I never wanted to do anything like that, and I truly didn’t have any other choice except lying to you.

It’s not that I lied about being a beta just to you… I’ve actually been living a beta’s life long before I met you. And after that night... I didn’t know what to do anymore. I even thought about telling you, but then you said you would tell that omega to get rid of…

So I—!... I'm really, really, really sorry!”

[Yeah! I saw some edits on IG too, but then I read the comments here and in some other places… you can’t imagine the kind of gross comments I saw somewhere😮‍💨 So I thought maybe only a certain type of people like me are enjoying this—and maybe we’re very few, just like with those other Japanese BLs 😅]

"Wenlang!? I'm sorry😓... and thanks for asking, but no! I don’t really want to ask anything right now. It’s just that... please tell me if you ever feel uncomfortable about the truth, and... you really don’t have to take any responsibility for it — I mean it!😅

Btw, I think I actually should ask one thing😄 — is there something on my face!? Where is it!? I tried to wipe it off but I couldn’t, I guess... I mean, you were really staring at it nonstop🫠😄"**
(𝑻𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝑮𝒂𝒐 𝑻𝒖’𝒔 𝒂𝒘𝒌𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒎𝒑𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒑𝒊𝒄 — 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎)

[Ah! Are you watching "School Trip" too? I thought I was the only one enjoying it, because even though its rating is good here, the comment section—!?...😅
Oh! And thanks….]

Wenlang’s sudden action left Gao Tu dumbfounded. He didn’t know what to do. He had thought Wenlang hadn’t noticed his tears—but not only did Wenlang notice, he even wiped them away. Something between them has really changed. Something about Wenlang has really changed. And right now, this small gesture was making Gao Tu want to cry his heart out. It made him want to tell Wenlang everything—every little thing in his heart!

“Wenlang!? What are you doing!?”

Gao Tu noticed that Wenlang’s expression wasn’t good either. It felt like he was suffering too. Could it be Gao Tu’s imagination!? Really!? He doesn’t think so…

“Um... are you... okay!?”

[ I have a bad feeling about this reply too😅 I’m malfunctioning after watching 𝑴𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒆 episode 4🤭 ( I'm actually a little sick, so...🫢) Sorry about that🫠 ]

Gao Tu was stunned by Wenlang's question for a few seconds, but after seeing Wenlang’s reaction, it became even harder for him to answer. He knows the answer, yet he still couldn’t say it out loud. He thought he had taken control of all those feelings from the past 10 years! Okay, he knows he didn’t—but he thought at least he could control it for his baby.

But now, when Wenlang is asking him directly like this, he doesn’t even know anymore what the answer is supposed to be!😮‍💨

"Mm... I think... I… would… but…"

But he couldn’t say anything more. He couldn’t explain further. He… he wants to say so many things… he wants to explain so much at once that he forgets how to do it. So he just silently lowers his head, eyes teary, like he has done something terribly wrong but doesn’t want Wenlang to see his tears.

He really wants to know Wenlang’s reaction—his thoughts—but it feels like Gao Tu has lost his voice, his courage to look at Wenlang or say anything at all!

[Wenlang, bruh! That’s a really great question to ask casually🫠🙂😆
Yeah! Just the two of us🤭... ehm ehm…]

The waiter had served them a table full of dishes, but Gao Tu’s mind wasn’t there. He was thinking about many things at once. He didn’t know what to say to Wenlang anymore. He had no idea what Wenlang was thinking, but one thing he could say for sure was that there was something about Wenlang he had never seen before. He thought Wenlang would hate him—that Wenlang would never want to see him again—but the reality was different. It feels like he didn’t hate Gao Tu at all. It is more like he—! No! Gao Tu doesn’t want to assume anything anymore.

“Wenlang, we can talk. Let’s really talk after breakfast. Anywhere is fine, as long as there’s no one else. You can ask me anything and I’ll answer. But I have one small request: please tell me everything you want to tell me, honestly! I’ll take it, no matter what it is. And don’t worry—I was already prepared for the worst.”

[Ahh! Okay, but share it if you get an idea later, and I will too if I get one😅
And best of luck making Wenlang finally say the things he couldn’t say in ten years🫠]