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You actually make me want to vomit it’s nuts

What a taunting sick fuck ?

What a literal god at writing BL’s and the screenwriter of almost all of my top favorite BL’s. She really knows how to make the story lines and characters come to life in such a real and authentic way. So grateful, such a talented writer

I was excited for this but the trailer? Man this shit definitely weirded me out. Honey sexual harassment counts for ALL GENDERS and the stalker thing like why’d they do this to a bl that could’ve had so much potential with these actors? Idk, not feeling it. I’m even willing to wait for all episodes to come out and then watch it at first because I’m not that eager

Jesus Christ you are such a fucking hypocrite considering you contradicted EVERYTHING YOU JUST SAID in your previous statement that started everything. Plus you’re shoving words into my mouth because you know your bitchass is wrong. “It is NOT my or your job to "support" him no matter what he does-“ Are you illiterate? Blind? Or just plain stupid. When did I EVER say we should support him NO MATTER what he does? Here let me see I believe I said “our job is to simply support him and hope he does well with his career.” Aka he is an actor doing a great job at acting therefore we should support him and hope he goes far in life. Does it ring a bell? Probably not because you’re too dense to read what I said to protect your ego of “I’m right you’re wrong and you can’t tell me otherwise.” By “helping” him that only meant trying to provide emotional support if he were to ever plummet into a dark shit hole of depression and probably doing stuff that is extremely damaging to his physical and mental help out of being good human beings trying to look out for someone.

When did I say I am a part of his personal life? Bitch apply that to your fuckin self. That’s why I said “we are merely fans of his work” to fix YOUR mindset of “it’s my business.” Good God I hate morons. He doesn’t have to fix shit because to be quite frank he doesn’t give a shit on what you gotta say either. We wouldn’t be having this conversation if you and the rest of the bunch didn’t keep your worthless, useless, and irrelevant thoughts to your worthless selves either

Pro-drunk? Do you know me? Would you know I spent 7 years living with nothing but a drunk father that fucked up my family along with a drunk abandoning cancerous mother and a drunk abusive grandma and a drunk neglectful aunt and everyone in my family who are DRUNKS? Shut up. I despise drunks. But I’m sure he’s not out there being wreck less and ruining his family, abandoning/neglecting his kids, or being abusive THAT WE KNOW OF. Because again, we are just fans.

Extreme drugs or murder isn’t even comparable to a gateway drug. Don’t even try to compare you’re such an idiot. Taking an innocent person from this world and sniffing lines of crack isn’t even comparable to getting drunk on a set of a successful actor. Despicable of you to think you can.

If you don’t like the way it’s written or the way he had some whiskey while acting well then fuck you and be on your marry way. Nobody wants you here

It’s not promoting drunk acting. It’s about minding our own buisness specifically because we are merely fans of his work. His job is to entertain us and our job is to simply support him and hope he does well with his career. Our job is NOT to medal in his personal life outside of a camera besides a few things which can be deemed as we should aid him and try to help him. You’re ridiculous. If he drinks, well hey he fuckin drinks he’s a grown ass 27 year old man who drinks like a shit ton of people in the rest of the world. Let’s be grateful he isn’t doing crack cocaine or heroin. Now that? We can try to support him and talk amongst ourselves on what we can do to uplift him. Other than that whether he drinks at work or not is none of our business. If you don’t like what he does on set even though he did a beautiful job entertaining us and portraying his emotions perfectly along with delivering his lines as if he WAS sober, then stop watching cause you’re just being a nosy picky prick. ?

You said this perfectly

(This is just a warning I wrote MULTIPLE LONG PARAGRAPHS so if you like analyzations or other opinions that go into depth then this is for you, but if you get bored easy definitely don’t read anything below the first paragraph)

I have a lot of thoughts and opinions on the second episode, but before I even try to get into that, after reading this comments I say this: shut the actual fuck up and mind your own fucking business. You are a fan and absolutely nothing more, so over analyzing whether he is drinking while acting WHILE HE IS A GROWN ASS MAN who can do WHATEVER HE WANTS whether he is an actor or not is not your fucking business. He is of age to drink as much as he wants when he wants wherever he is besides in a car while he is behind the wheel. You are merely a fan, nothing more. He doesn’t even know your name so shut your Goddamn mouth and keep your irrelevant opinions to yourself. Don’t like the way he acted? Nobody cares and he surely doesn’t you’re just a nosy moron. Anyways...


I loved this episode, despite it being heart wrenching of course. The “Hi” was enough to make my heart beat fast. I didn’t have a lot of remorse for Gao Shi De at first which I find understandable, but now as a person who holds a lot of empathy I couldn’t help but feel for him while he was in such a vulnerable state. Now I know some background information on why he left (which is Shi Yu’s dad). I can understand and that opened a whole new door way.

For Shi Yu, I can tell he’s hurting just as much. What can you do? I mean he was left in the dark for five years and felt abandoned because the love of his life went to America and never came back. How was he supposed to know? For him wanting revenge, I mean seriously I expected it. His character is stubborn and a bit petty so that’s just his nature, but that fits well with Gao Shi De because he is an eavesdropper and definitely not stupid so he’s the only person he can’t fool which I’m grateful for and that just shows they are a great match.

For the father? He can go to hell. It’s neither of the boys fault it is THE FATHER. They are victims to his little game. Neither of them are in the fault and they have the right to the way they feel. I’m glad the father walked in and I hope he learns the truth soon and forgives Shi De. Their acting was absolutely stunning and the emotions were protested beautifully on display in front of the camera.

Now onto the side couple, I’m already in love. Their story will definitely be intricate and probably puzzling at first but I love that. Pei Shou Yi has always seemed closed off and cold, I like his mysterious nature. Zhen Xuan is a perfect portrayal for individuals with autism, they are unique and extremely intelligent than any neurotypical. But they always have their vulnerable side which we saw when he dropped his smile when Pei Shou Yi pushed him away. I’m glad they are complete opposites. That makes their story more interesting.

Ok I’ll shut up now my thumbs hurt ??

Exactly, it’s so heart warming ?

My thoughts:

I’m not gonna lie, when he smacked the shit outta him and pushed him away I didn’t not feel bad at all ? he could’ve done so many things to track him down, especially since he loved him so much whether it’s his sick fathers fault or not. I love both of them! I just don’t feel bad for Shi De, but I feel for Shou Yi. Though, I hope he wins him over again and grows big enough balls to tell him why he was gone for so long and Shou Yi will hopefully understand.

Besides that, the side couple is absolutely THE CUTEST and they haven’t even had screen time together ? I love this mashup with all of my heart. It does seem like they will have a lot of angst but nevertheless they are so fucking cute together