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for a drama that came out in 2002, this is surprisingly well made. i’ve watched enough dramas from this period to know that good writing, good acting and good directing did not always come in the same package, but solitude feels much more polished than a lot of its contemporaries. the framing is thoughtful, the camera knows when to stay still and the drama is comfortable letting a small image or expression carry a scene without explaining every emotion through dialogue.

the story itself is very simple. two people who are in completely different places in life fall in love with each other.

youngwoo is almost aggressively optimistic. he is impulsive, emotionally direct and seems to genuinely believe that if he wants something badly enough, there has to be a way to make it work. kyungmin is cold, emotionally closed off and already looks exhausted by life before the story even properly begins. she has a teenage daughter, a past relationship that never completely disappeared and has basically convinced herself that the part of her life where she gets to want something for herself is already over.

youngwoo is attracted to her almost immediately. kyungmin takes much longer to even accept that his feelings could be real. she rejects him repeatedly, tells him he’s too young and keeps trying to create distance between them. somehow every rejection only makes him more certain.

the age difference is obviously a huge part of the relationship. youngwoo is young enough that he could almost be kyungmin’s son, and the drama never tries to soften that fact for the audience. they genuinely look like people from two different generations.

what makes it even more complicated is the way everyone around them reacts to it. youngwoo can mostly think in terms of what he feels. he loves her and wants to be with her, so everything seems fairly simple from his side. kyungmin carries much more awareness of how the relationship looks from the outside. she is a middle-aged single mother with a teenage daughter, while he is still young enough for people to assume that he simply does not understand what he is getting himself into.

that social embarrassment is always hanging over her. she knows exactly how people are going to look at them together, and at times she seems more disturbed by that than youngwoo is by the age difference itself.

i liked that the drama allowed all of this to remain uncomfortable. kyungmin never starts behaving twenty years younger just because she falls in love, and youngwoo remains impulsive and visibly young. their differences stay there throughout the relationship. that makes the romance much more interesting to me.

you also cannot really talk about youngwoo’s attraction to kyungmin without talking about his mother.

i wouldn’t reduce their entire relationship to mommy issues because that would flatten what the drama is doing, but the connection is clearly intentional. he takes kyungmin to his mother’s hometown and brings her to the river where they scattered her ashes. while talking about how cruel his mother was for leaving him, he looks directly at kyungmin. he tells her that his father used to whistle when he was trying to win his mother over and later repeats the same gesture with her. even his brother has noticed that youngwoo became interested in older women after their mother died.

there is obviously some kind of emotional transfer happening there.

at the same time, his attachment gradually becomes very specific to kyungmin herself. his unresolved grief may be part of what draws him toward her initially, but he keeps choosing the actual woman in front of him: older than him, emotionally difficult, already a mother and carrying years of history.

his relationship with jeongah helps a lot with that. some of the warmest scenes in the drama are between those two. he never treats her like baggage attached to the woman he wants. they argue, joke around and slowly become comfortable with each other. it makes his relationship with kyungmin feel much more convincing because he is willing to become part of the life she already has.

lee misook was probably my favorite part of the drama.

she was genuinely stunning here. i knew she was beautiful when she was younger but there is something especially elegant about her in this drama. i also appreciated that the styling makes no effort to disguise kyungmin’s age. she looks like a very beautiful woman in her 40s and the drama lets her be exactly that.

kyungmin is such a restrained character that most of lee misook’s performance is built around tiny changes. she barely smiles and rarely gives youngwoo the emotional response he wants from her, but you can always tell when he manages to get through to her.

ryu seungbeom works much better in the role than i expected too. his haircut is horrendous and somehow makes him look even younger than he already does, which actually works in the drama’s favor. there are moments where he looks almost ridiculously young next to lee misook and you completely understand why kyungmin keeps looking at him like he has lost his mind.

he gives youngwoo a restless energy that works really well against her. kyungmin feels like someone who has emotionally stopped moving while youngwoo spends most of the drama constantly moving towards her.

the directing is probably where the drama impressed me the most.

it relies a lot on framing, objects, empty spaces and recurring images. one small scene that stayed with me is eunseok staring at the lipstick mark kyungmin left on a white coffee cup after she leaves. it lasts barely any time, but it tells you more about what remains between them than a long conversation probably could.

the drama is full of little moments like that. houses, windows, the river and even the physical distance between characters are often allowed to do some of the emotional work.

even the music surprised me. this drama somehow introduced me to chava alberstein, an israeli folk singer i probably never would have come across otherwise. they used “the secret garden” as part of the soundtrack and it fits the mood almost too well. it has this worn-out melancholy that gets under your skin instead of trying to force an emotional reaction out of you.

i genuinely have no idea how someone working on a korean drama in 2002 even found that song, but whoever was choosing the music clearly knew what they were doing.

that same restraint carries over into the sadness of the drama.

it is obviously a melodrama, but for most of its runtime it never feels desperate to prove how tragic it is. these people already seem tired before anything especially dramatic happens. kyungmin has spent years shutting herself off. youngwoo is carrying grief he does not fully understand. eunseok returns to a past that continued existing without him. jinyoung is in love with someone whose feelings have already moved somewhere else.

the sadness is already sitting inside the characters.

that is probably where noh heekyung’s writing is most interesting to me. she is very good at writing lonely and emotionally difficult people whose behavior starts making more sense once you understand what happened to them. the plot itself is fairly simple, but the characters rarely are.

jinyoung frustrated me a lot though. she is extremely persistent with youngwoo even after it becomes obvious that his feelings are somewhere else, and there were definitely moments where i was tired of watching her continue to push herself into the situation.

still, i appreciated that she never turns into the standard evil second female lead. she genuinely respects kyungmin, which makes her jealousy more uncomfortable. she cannot simply decide that the other woman is awful and hate her.

seowon was very good in the role too and that pixie cut was one of the best styling choices in the entire drama.

and then, of course, the terminal illness plot happens.

this was easily my biggest problem with the drama because i genuinely don’t think it needed it.

i’ve watched enough korean melodramas from roughly 2000 to 2006 to know that terminal illness was practically part of the genre grammar at that point. eventually you stop being surprised when somebody gets diagnosed with something fatal and start being surprised when everyone survives.

here it felt especially unnecessary because the story had already created more than enough conflict. there was the age gap, kyungmin being a single mother, the social judgment surrounding their relationship, youngwoo’s family opposing it, eunseok returning and youngwoo’s unresolved grief over his mother.

there was already an entire melodrama there.

i understand what the illness adds. it makes youngwoo’s decision to stay more absolute and forces kyungmin to confront the fact that pushing him away is not automatically an act of protection.

i just found the relationship more painful when its biggest obstacle was their actual lives. two people can be completely wrong for each other on paper, fully aware of how absurd their relationship looks to everyone else, and still want each other anyway. that was already enough for me. adding a countdown over the relationship almost made the conflict feel less interesting.

the final stretch falls into more of the melodrama conventions of its time because of that, but by then the drama had already done enough work with the characters that it never completely lost me.

overall, this was one of the better forgotten melodramas i’ve seen from the early 2000s. the story is not especially unusual, but the execution often is. it is patient, visually thoughtful and surprisingly comfortable with leaving emotions unresolved for a while.

watching one of noh heekyung’s earlier works was part of the appeal for me too. you can still see her working inside the conventions of early 2000s melodrama, while a lot of the things she would become more associated with later are already here: loneliness, emotional exhaustion and people finding small reasons to keep wanting things from life anyway.