Doctor-X The Movie FINAL

Legends are made, not born

From the moment this series begun, the lingering question has always been "How is she like that?". All questions (at least the necessary ones), were answered through this movie. The most awaited backstory of Daimon Michiko was finally revealed. Although it is not what I initially expected, it is very humane and sonewhat realistic. What a way to cap off an amazing series (or should I say a series of series lol). The story was good, how the past and the present connected perfectly. Each character got their own time to shine, some redeemed themselves, some just existed for the sake of existing lol. Overall a good watch. Just wished characters like Kondo from Season 2 reappeared again.

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Ripped my heart out!

That final film is written like scripture disguised as television.

When I say it ripped my heart out, the last 20-30 minutes of the movie was me crying nonstop. I already guessed the backstory of Daimon Michiko and perhaps even that of Akira San as they were sprinkled throughout the series through 7 seasons. The backstory and failed surgery of Akira San from long ago is revealed. Hiroto has a grievance from his twin brother being unable to live a proper life as a result of that surgery. Akira San randomly gets a stroke in a confrontation by Hiroto, probably out of emotional distress of carrying that guilt and unfinished business for so long and becomes unresponsive in the hospital. It is not a coincident that Hiroto comes to become the director of that hospital, so that the past karmic knots could resolve themselves, all through Daimon Michiko. But when the guy Hiroto gets in a life threatening injury and the surgeon has to make a decision to save him when he goes into cardiac arrest and cannot use his brother’s heart for some reason, Michiko reaches for Akira San’s heart and does a transplant. “This is what Akira San would have done,” she says and knows this to be true. The boldness in her decision as well as her conviction shows that her mind is of a divine level. Then the whole movie framed it as if Michiko’s license will be revoked as she would have essentially killed Akira San- her beloved teacher and mentor. But she has flashbacks of Akira San saying “Never abandon the patient” and how he tells himself “I never fail” to set his mind right when he becomes afraid during surgery. So as this surgery transplant is going on, the entire cast including Hiruma the former director (sort of still a director) is weeping for this loss. And I was a puddle of tears! For some reason I cannot bear the loss of Akira San because the relationship between teacher/mentor and his beloved student Michiko is so sacred. He is also a father figure to her and her only real friend that she can trust, who is not corrupted by the world. But it kind of reminds me of Harry Potter how he is mentored by Dumbledore who made a mistake long ago from human fallibility and now Harry has to right the wrongs, and must surpass his mentor and teacher. Both mentors/teachers lose their life once the student has surpassed the teacher. Akira San literally tells her this “You have surpassed me, your mentor and have become an incredibly amazingly surgeon. Daimon Michiko, you are my pride and joy.” It just brought me to tears so much upon hearing this because I can relate to it deep down as Michiko.” It was so painful to see and feel that loss and to see Michiko crying in grief. But Michiko’s divine act-cutting into her own mentor, taking his heart, and giving it to the one who hated him, collapses every boundary between teacher, enemy, and self. Then while I was grieving, a logical point came to mind- what about that artificial heart thing that Hiroto developed? Can’t they use that for Akira San now that he doesn’t have a heart?

Then it is revealed that they did in fact use the heart valve thing on Akira San and his foot starts twitching at the end so he’s back to life… after I’ve been going through huge grief and sobs at his loss!

And then the question comes- wait! Couldn’t Michiko have used that heart valve machine thing on Hiroto in the first place instead of cutting into Akira San and taking his heart out and making us all cry?! This question: why not use the mechanical heart on Hiroto works only on the literal layer. On the symbolic layer, the “mechanical heart” was never meant for Hiroto at all. It represented the human attempt to replicate love through intellect and technology. Michiko’s choice to take Akira San’s real heart is what closes the karmic circuit: the living love that once failed now redeems the failure by giving itself away. The mechanical solution would have kept the intellect in control; the organic sacrifice allows Spirit to rule the body again.

The Japanese are masters at hiding theology inside melodrama. Every time Michiko enters an impossible surgery, she’s not conquering medicine, rather she’s healing the fracture between compassion and knowledge. Akira San’s final act, becoming the literal heart that saves the patient he once couldn’t save. is the death of guilt and the birth of pure function. Michiko doesn’t steal his heart; she completes his vow. That’s why he awakens later with the mechanical valve: his body stays in the dream as the new instrument of grace, but his living heart now beats in the healed field he once broke.

Akira’s heart being removed and given away isn’t a mistake in plot, rather it’s the culmination of the whole myth. He is the original mind that trained Michiko’s hands. The only way for Spirit (Michiko) to operate freely in the world is for the old master, the intermediary, to dissolve into her. His heart beating inside Hiroto, the one whose grievance kept the cycle of guilt spinning means the guilt has been absorbed and sanctified. The mechanical heart represents intellect, invention, the human solution. The real transplant, though, demanded living love-the teacher’s own heart, because it was never a medical procedure; it was the undoing of karma. That’s why she couldn’t use the machine on Hiroto first: it would have solved the medical problem but left the psychic wound untouched. The Spirit doesn’t settle for survival; it wants wholeness.

In the end, Daimon Michiko cannot be stopped- because her work goes beyond any medical license. She continues to save people, kings and princes around the world and divine mission continues.

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