Honest Swan

My exact sentiments.

That has to happen only in a show. Because what do you mean I am right here pining for you but you are instead yearning for another person? And you couldn't do that anywhere else but my bed? Yeah, we gonna fight.

I mean its not just him. Wouldn't you too like someone who goes all out for you? Especially if that person knows your heart belongs to another. Not just that, he's someone who sometimes questions himself. But that person validates you and boosts your self-esteem by telling you how great you are and how they admire you. I think those are enough reasons for anyone to fall for someone, don't you think?

I think whats more interesting than the show is that there are some people who actually tune in to the show to suffer even more. I must be the weird one because if a show is not for me, I normally never watch it again.
I mean we get it. The show is boring from your perspective. But do you really have to watch it week in week out just to come here to repeat the same story of how it was boring. What I would say though about the show is that its very mature. It portrays complicated feelings and situations that may not resonate to you if you have an innocent worldview to relationships. If you try to give it a mature view then you would know the intention of the show was never to tell us a story about what is right from wrong. It is to just open your eyes to what can happen to a longterm relationship. It is just to crack your brain open to a new possibility in relationships.
The morality and ethics to the decisions that the characters make is up to you to either agree with them or not. But that doesn't make the show bad. You watch a love story and it ends with a happily ever after. As much as we like that to be true, it rarely happens. As you stay together more, the butterflies fade, midlife crisis happens and you can outgrow each other. And now it becomes a choice of whether you choose to stay in a relationship. A good relationship means sticking together and embracing the new color to the relationship, which represents Namgung character. But what if we decide to do the opposite and try to bring back the excitement that was once there, this now represents Mi Do's character.

I think todays episode was my favorite. I didn't know I could relate with Namgung Ho than I did in this episode. I didn't feel as much love as I would expect growing up. I always think that I got past it. But it has a tendecy in showing that lack in serious relationships that I get into. You don't entirely accept other people's love. I am almost cynical.
But I like how Namgung Ho analyses his trauma. As a result, he has learned to accept all sorts of love he gets. But here's the thing I didn't know, self-pity can be insanely dangerous. I didn't know until he mentions it. If people pity you, accept it as love. But under no circumstance should you pity yourself back. He instead advocates for self-love. That helps you cope and more importantly, you can love others back if you love yourself as much. That was so eye opening for me. I am not against self-love but I always felt the danger of becoming narcissistic. So I always measure it or I am bit more cautious. I guess the trick is balancing between it. I guess that is what I am going to try from now on. But they are times where you feel low and pathetic, but you just have to remind yourself of that. Its a constant battle.
P.S Looking from outside and seeing Namgung abadon his brother, it sounds harsh. But how he explains it to his brother, I instantly understood him. He may end up hurting him more as a result of his trauma. He is too self-aware to know he's not fit to take good care of him. And I respect that.

Damn, the actress has some serious talent. She plays every role convincingly. Like how do you explain we can love and hate her at the same time. I think she should do a drama as a villain. She is sooo good in that as well.

And how do you know that? Is everything said about you true?

If you date someone as long as they have and known each other way longer, of course the butterflies will fade. But its supposed to happen. You don't go trying to get them back. Thats the flaw of their relationship.

Malicious how? He was actually calling him out that he has been seeing her but not really seeing her. If that makes sense. Provoking and taunting? He called him out saying there's more to worry than her broken arm.

He really isn't. You are just viewing his character from one angle. I am not saying he's likable per se. All I am saying is that he is relatable to people who have undergone lots of trauma. He's not exactly malicious. But he tends to hide pain and mask his true intention. He just suffers silently. I mean I get it. He isn't exactly soft, which most people love. I had a friend like that once. You just need to show them lots of love.

Then you must not have a deep relationship in your life. I am sorry it came off rude but listen to me a bit more. Ideally, we should catch our most loved ones at their lowest. But in reality, it doesn't happen like that. Sometimes we see what they let us see. Thats why in relationship its encouraged to talk more about your thoughts and feelings so the next person can be aware. To avoid all that.
Also, let me clear the part you said a dreamy version. In his mind, thats her old version not the dreamy one. Todays episode just showed that life sucked that part out of her so she's this empty and uninspired shell of her former self. Its when she spoke out (recording) that it became obvious to him that something was missing. I mean of course he knew she was having a hard time. So he would try to solve the surface level problems of their relationship like the lawyers, paying her staff, supporting her financially when he could, etc. But he didn't know she lost the passion she had from the start for filming (Meaning the problems run deeper than what he was actually trying to solve).
So yeah, the closest people to us can sometimes feel very distanced. They might be battling some battles that they never share with us. Does that mean we had a dreamy version of them if we don't notice? Or that your communication between us and them is poor? I will let you fill that for yourself.

This show definitely kept surprising me over and over again how good it was. I started watching without much thought and it turned out so good. I think thats the best kind of shows. They surprise you.

You either loose interest in it over time or the suspense kills you from waiting.

The director. Its the director. Its his trademark.

You know your stuff. Not many knows the director died.

Man, thats what I said. He knows how to carefully develop romances. Like he knows how to draw you to the romance between the leads and make you feel you are falling in love along with them. Like in something in the rain. I am so hyped going into this show know he directed it too.

Don't you have family members like that? They always look up to you like you could solve all their problems. And if you don't, they would claim you don't love them.

Claudia Kim had me believing she was actually Japanese. I had to confirm who she is. Solid watch though.

I think you are just typing things out. There are no 6 episodes out now. Just go and check it out.

Ooh well its just double standards. Drinking in S.Korea is actually pretty normal. Its like part of their culture to drink. Its like a social drink to connect to people more faster and in a business setting, it can help close deals. Smoking on the other hand is seen as a vice not really about morals. Its like a bad habit and its discouraged more to prevent more people getting into it or to stop it. Anyway, smoking is actually a common habit for most people in Asia. Most people in Asia smoke, especially China.