I am fully aware of how toxic this story is, and yet I simply cannot stop watching it. It is disturbing, intense, emotionally exhausting, and at times genuinely frustrating, but there is something about the way the characters are written and portrayed that makes it impossible for me to look away. Lu Feng is undeniably toxic, but Ayden Sng’s performance is truly impressive. He manages to portray so many emotional states with such precision — obsession, pain, anger, longing, fear, desperation, vulnerability. He does not just “act” those emotions. He makes you feel them. Even when Lu Feng’s actions are wrong, even when his love becomes suffocating and unhealthy, the performance still makes you understand where the pain comes from. He makes you sympathize with him, or at least suffer with him, even when you know he is crossing lines. I honestly cannot get him out of my head. And what makes it even more painful is that Lu Feng’s love, as toxic as it is, is also deep, powerful and persistent. He truly fights to be with Cheng Yichen. His way of loving is damaged, obsessive and overwhelming, but it is never shallow. He is driven by something very intense, and that is exactly what makes him such a complicated and memorable character. Cheng Yichen, on the other hand, is frustrating in a completely different way but I actually think that means Lyu Sitong is doing an excellent job. His passivity, hesitation and emotional paralysis are irritating to watch, but that is precisely the point. Yichen often feels like a boat in the middle of the sea, moving in whichever direction the wind pushes him. He rarely takes control, rarely fights with the same force, and that makes the dynamic between them even more painful. But his weakness, indecision and inability to act are also part of his trauma and inner conflict. What I appreciate is that both characters are flawed in ways that feel emotionally consistent. Lu Feng is too intense, too possessive, too wounded. Yichen is too passive, too afraid, too easily pulled by family pressure and circumstances. Their love is not healthy, and I would never romanticize it in real life, but as a dramatic story it is incredibly gripping.
Exactly my feeling. I have just binged watched this amazing series and now I cannot move on from this painful,…
I still feel the same, to be honest. I’ve been feeling down and kind of depressed the whole day because of the ending, I just can’t get it out of my head. If you happen to know where I can read the novel, please let me know. You can also send me a private message if that’s easier, I would really appreciate it.
I just finished it and I’m honestly heartbroken. The ending hit me so hard, and the fact that there won’t be a season 2 makes it even worse. I watched it almost all at once, with just one day break, and even then I could barely pull myself away. The leads were absolutely incredible. The way they portrayed their emotions felt so real, so raw, and deeply moving. You could feel every shift in their mood, every unspoken moment. And their chemistry was there from the very beginning, strong, natural, undeniable. I genuinely don’t know how I’m supposed to deal with the fact that this is where their story ends. It doesn’t feel like enough. It doesn’t feel finished. It just hurts.
I just rewatched it. I am waiting for the second season to be released. I am with mixed feelings because the cast (except for the main lead actor) is different. The chemestry between Yeon Si Eun and An Su Ho is perfect.
After I saw the preview o.o I don’t know how I am supposed to wait another week to see it . My heart can’t…
I haven't watched today's episode (I am going to) but I read in the comments about the next one's preview and... Next seven days will be the longest in my life...
Lu Feng is undeniably toxic, but Ayden Sng’s performance is truly impressive. He manages to portray so many emotional states with such precision — obsession, pain, anger, longing, fear, desperation, vulnerability. He does not just “act” those emotions. He makes you feel them. Even when Lu Feng’s actions are wrong, even when his love becomes suffocating and unhealthy, the performance still makes you understand where the pain comes from. He makes you sympathize with him, or at least suffer with him, even when you know he is crossing lines. I honestly cannot get him out of my head.
And what makes it even more painful is that Lu Feng’s love, as toxic as it is, is also deep, powerful and persistent. He truly fights to be with Cheng Yichen. His way of loving is damaged, obsessive and overwhelming, but it is never shallow. He is driven by something very intense, and that is exactly what makes him such a complicated and memorable character.
Cheng Yichen, on the other hand, is frustrating in a completely different way but I actually think that means Lyu Sitong is doing an excellent job. His passivity, hesitation and emotional paralysis are irritating to watch, but that is precisely the point. Yichen often feels like a boat in the middle of the sea, moving in whichever direction the wind pushes him. He rarely takes control, rarely fights with the same force, and that makes the dynamic between them even more painful. But his weakness, indecision and inability to act are also part of his trauma and inner conflict.
What I appreciate is that both characters are flawed in ways that feel emotionally consistent. Lu Feng is too intense, too possessive, too wounded. Yichen is too passive, too afraid, too easily pulled by family pressure and circumstances. Their love is not healthy, and I would never romanticize it in real life, but as a dramatic story it is incredibly gripping.
The leads were absolutely incredible. The way they portrayed their emotions felt so real, so raw, and deeply moving. You could feel every shift in their mood, every unspoken moment. And their chemistry was there from the very beginning, strong, natural, undeniable.
I genuinely don’t know how I’m supposed to deal with the fact that this is where their story ends. It doesn’t feel like enough. It doesn’t feel finished. It just hurts.