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What a ride. I won’t lie, I almost dropped this show LOL, but to my credit I was “speed watching” a bunch of shows that have been on my list for a while on Viki since I was planning on pausing my membership.]This show was the third K-drama to throw in a ridiculous “serious” scene within the first episode. I *still* don’t think the bathroom scene made any sense LOL it felt so abrupt and forced. I know bullies exist, I have been victim to a few, but it’s very rare for them to just attack someone so unconnected to them at a train station bathroom. I would expect them to at least have been her classmates or something.

That said, I still pushed through because I wanted to give it a chance and I’m glad I did. I know I would have ATE THIS SHOW UP in high school. While I’m not exactly like Song U Yeon (Baby Blue), I do think there are very relatable growing up elements to her that I would have connected with back then even more than I connected with it now at almost 30 years old.

While Song U Yeon was relatable, she does get a bit redundant with her thoughts and self-deprecation. Younger me might have been more graceful about it, but as someone who has gone through therapy and understood just how mean we are to ourselves, I was loosing my mind with how regressive she was after every bit of progress. It’s realistic don’t get me wrong, but upsetting nonetheless. Most specifically, I hated how she behaved after seeing Nam Gi Jeong model. It was so hateful for no reason and rather than think, wow my boyfriend is so cute and a good model, she “hates” him? The story doesn’t play this out properly and it honestly felt kind of forced rather than a natural regression on her part.

Nam Gi Jeong (Red) was hilarious and honestly kind of carried the show for me arguably even more than Song U Yeon. He is silly, confident, and terribly optimistic. No one else could balance out Song U Yeon as well as he does haha.

I loved all the other fingers especially Black because they gave her sooo much personality. I was honestly rooting for her and Khaki, but I guess it wasn’t meant to be haha. I will way while I was very happy for Nam Geu Rin (Mint Finger) and Koo Seon Ho (Blue Finger), their romance did start to frustrate me in a similar way as the younger main leads. I don’t like to hate on FMLs but Mint was really frustrating. The man bared his soul 100 times and she still just could not properly articulate her feelings. I liked her as a character but when the two of them where on screen together, I would honestly zone out for a lot of it because it was basically the same conversation between them from after her confessed until she confessed her elementary school crush.

I enjoyed dynamic between U Yeon's friends and how they all had their own growing pains to reckon with. I also liked the sibling dynamics both for U Yeon with her brothers and Nam Gi Jeong with his sister. I think those were really cute and relatable sibling dynamics. I was curious about Nam Gi Jeong’s parent dynamic when U Yeon’s family is so visibly chaotic. I do think they tied U Yeon’s family story quickly in a nicely wrapped bow more than I liked. I get why they did it but I think it could have been less intense if they wanted it to be “happy”.

### Original Thoughts & Ideas
- The idea behind them drawing just because they like it, even if they aren’t good was a great capture of how much we put other people’s perception of ourselves in front of our own true desires. We live life by this societal rubric that does nothing but hold us back from discovering and loving our true selves.
- The one friend that was jealous of U Yeon once she started to enjoy herself and her hobby goes to show just how much of unhealthy friendship you can find yourself in if you are “too nice”. I am glad they were able to reconcile and move on, but real life can be a lot messier, as I know from experience lol