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i am sorry, but i don't give two shits that "...Kanda is also a victim..." he - as the adult - didn't know a better way to guide & help Akira??? grooming & f*cking him was the best way????
i will NEVER accept the excuse where someone will say "i was hurt, thus i hurt." - if u were hurt, u know how it feels & should DO BETTER!!!

he saw how vulnerable Akira was, saw the opening & took it - there aint NO justifying his actions. even now he keep suggesting they end things, but he never say "let's end it" he knows that even now Akira is emotional dependent on him & this is something he has subconsciously nurtured, isolating him - making Akira feel like he is the only one that understands & will be there for him.
that's why it didn't bother Akira that Kanda sleeps around. cause this relationship is f*cked up. & to Akira he is a life line - this sad & messed-up & Kanda knows he is *cked up & that's why he told Akira to not only keep the secret but not disclose everything to Kanata, not cause he cares how hurt Kanata might get. it's his own ass he is covering.

what is He Jin's deal?!? from the 1st ep i am getting a really bad vibe from him. if this was an american drama, i would say he's the type to turn "school shooter" here idk.... but every time he is on screen, he has this weird look on his face & idk how to read it.

* btw he is Chen Ke's roommate - the 1st one he met - for those who donno who i am talking about.

just noticed, there only 3 more ep's left 😥

ahhhh.. guess i didn't know that there were supposed to be 2nd seasons for any of the C-BL's. i just assumed as they have all the censorship issues, that the actors would avoid doing more than one BL. so never bothered to check if there was more to come. 😅🖐

sad, hurt - when he realized he was actually avoiding him & wasn't busy

scare? if anything maybe "false hope" might be more fitting... cause if there is a 2nd season (🥳) even if the 1st season has a sad ending, u know there is more to come & then we might get a happy ending.
but even if we get a happy ending & there's no season 2, that would be disappointing - cause no more after this BL ends 😥 which is usually the case not just with C-BL's, but with the pairs (actors) in these BL's.

u mean erotic 😏😁🖐

even though the vibe was laid back, u could feel the tension between the leads - the acting is solid, but that's to be expected with mature actors. can't wait for more 😊

not these days - have u watched the Pornographer? that's wild (any of the drama's & short movies in that series) usually the J-BL r PG, but there r always ones that r very adult in content. just need to find them lol

finale?!?? u mean to the ArthitDao story right - cause there still 8 more eps to go 🤔

from where to start - i knew that "mother" came cause her "new" child is sick & she needs Nabnueng to physically give of himself. not cause she was sorry she abandoned him or cause she missed him... in cases like this, i would say f*ck-off & rot in hell for all i care😠 but the half-sibling isn't at fault. so idk what Nabnueng will do - but considering what we have seen of him, i think he will chose to help. don't have to like it but it is understandable & the mature thing to do.

mentioning Nabnueng am happy he & Sailom r together, even though idk if Sailom is ready to be in a relationship, as with him everything is baby steps. still very happy for the progress he has made, still it's just the start & he hasn't even gotten/talked about to root of him PTSD.... mentioning the rotten root, wont lie every scene i expect to see his step dad lurking... cause there's no way he went away after getting kneed in the balls once. just hope when that does happen, Sailom wont be alone 🤞

regarding Nava, OMG but i wanna smack the dude up-side the head. here when i figured out that he was dying (a few eps back) i thought that he was literally dying & the doctors were offering him an experimental drug which had like 2% of success or something... nope - not the case. dude just gave up cause he was depressed - but this the same dude that told Sky he was living a good life, what chained to that work desk, being treated like a slave??? seriously - but that whole issue was solved with Sky not having to sell himself - guess there was more then enough drama with Nabnueng, Sailom, Tawan & Dindin lol... 😅🖐

they realized this fact wayyyy before they stood before her. cause normally the sec u realize someone is hurting ur child, most normal people would call/go to the cops (me would go beat the living crap out of her no questions asked, heck might even have to worry about getting rid of the body.) they shouldn't have brought Qin home 1, they should've asked the doctor to document every injury 2 & made him call the cops 3.
their every action after understanding what they son went through was selfish - they even made a point to tell her they could call the cops, this was more a threat to make her leave quietly, it wasn't something they would've done & she knew this fact - that's why she had the balls to throw the truth in their face.

about the rest agree with what u wrote - their son wasn't as important as the image they wanted to project as a successful, wealthy family.

the abuse story was very uncomfortable to sit through, but i was here for the tongue lashing Qin's parents got - for a millisec i wondered Why The F*ck weren't they there with the cops. but then i "got it" they were ashamed of how they abandoned their baby.

if u got cameras at home, the one thing parents do is check up on their child, just to see them - whether they r sleeping or being looked after by a family member. the fact Qin's parents were so preoccupied with work, that they just didn't care to check up on how he was going - what he was doing tells me that, that nanny might have been spewing bile when she got caught - but almost every word thrown at the parents, about themselves was the truth. am sure that's also the reason Qin was never taken to a psychologist, they just dealt with the nanny & moved on with their lives as if nothing happened.
this make me doubly infuriated at Qin's mother telling Duang that he needs to take care of Qin. his parents even now r carting him off to others, guess the only thing they r good for is money. some people shouldn't have children!

glad i aint the only one finding this rating crazy weird 😅🖐

if there was a general page to post this comment i would - but WTF is the deal with people rating shows & wondering about the rating, when the drama has just started airing? 🤷‍♀️
what u gonna rate this by? the good looks of the actors? how much y'all r "fan girling" over actors??? the director?!?? the writer??? the novel it was adapted from etc...???

the rating system here is whack - so freakin weird.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh lol - stupid me - guess wishful thinking got the better of me. thank u for clearing this up 😅🙏

was so freakin happy Kanata saw Akira with his groomer. Akira is annoying the f*ck out of me & i KNOW he can't help himself & it isn't easy to get out of an abusive relationship. but he is pissing me off nevertheless.
it's like people that want out of a relationship (for whatever reason) but can't seem to find a way, yet start a new relationship - which is built on lies. so am glad Kanata who is falling hard & fast will not get blindsided - even though i am sure he will get hurt even at this stage - but better now then later on. 😫🖐

nah, if anything Liu Yi is more of an open book then Chu San. Chu San keeps his cards close to his chest, cause he isn't ready to face his feeling regarding Liu Yi.

Liu Yi is an open book that is written in Chinese & i need a translator ASAP cause after that kiss, he didn't react in anyway out of the ordinary & am confused how his mind works🤷‍♀️

it was so dreamy, i didn't want it to end 😂🥰😋🖐

i usually skip the previews & now when i finally want/need some hints to what's gonna happen in the next ep - we don't get previews 🤦‍♀️ugh

my heart broke a bit for Xia Liu Yi, cause he doesn't know a different way of life & that's his way of keeping Chu San in his life & close to him. can't wait for next 😫🖐