Lost makes me feel like I find myself a little at a time with each episode, and I am not sure if that was the intention of the storytelling. If it is, it works, and if not, it still worked. Boo Jung and Kang Jae's intimate moment was everything I hoped for, but then all the moments in this episode and the series as a whole are not merely touching, but powering in many ways. It's the first time I felt like I couldn't, nor did I want to judge any of them for their choices. I simply wanted them to leave their sadness behind and go for their happiness. It's like they say, life is about finding the ones that make you happy, and freeing yourself from those who don't. Always easier said than done though, because as life gives, it also takes -- I hope it gives a lot more than it takes this time around.
There was so much to like in episode 12, so much intimacy and openness it made my heart flutter. Be it with Boo Jung and Kang Jae, Min Jung and Tak-yi, Woo Nam, and even the mother-in-law. For the first time, it seemed like everyone was being honest with themselves. They say first impressions are lasting, but this episode made me realize that not everything we see or think of someone is always true. That there is a story behind every person, there is a reason why they're the way they are -- it gave me hope not only for how things may turn out for Boo Jung and Kang Jae, but also for everyone. And as much as I found joy in their togetherness, as much as I was hurt by their goodbye. I felt something priceless was coming to an end.
Despite this not being a tragic or distressing episode, it was touching and emotional. It brought me to endless tears, yet made me laugh. I admire how the drama takes its time, nothing is ever rushed, not even the dialogues, but more than other episodes, this one was elegantly done. But then I am always mesmerized by Boo Jung and Kang Jae when they are together. The anticipation and longing on Kang Jae's face when he saw Boo Jung through the police station window was palpable, but so was hers when she spotted him. She looked like she wasn't sure he would come. I didn't expect Boo Jung to be as direct as she was, nor did Kang Jae from his reactions. I loved every minute of them together.
The darker the mood, the deeper the anguish. It's telling, even in the way the scenes are shot, everything is bleak and somber. The agony each character lives in this drama, it's debilitating to watch. But more than any other episode, this one hurt. I felt physical pain. I've never felt like this about a drama before, and I am not sure I will ever again. They say time heals all wounds, but not for Boo Jung or Kang Jae. On the contrary, time seems to have stood still, if not grown more agonizing. All the narration is getting to me, his, hers; it's killing me.