Kate

First half was a solid 9/10, second half was a solid 8/10 - when combined it gives me a mediocre 6.5. How they concluded first half left the bad taste in my mouth as I was watching the second. How they continued the second half of the drama made me feel uncomfortable with what was in the first half. They completely failed at transitioning between two plot points, ruining the whole experience for me. It does not matter how many good ingredients the dish has, when one of them is crap. This is how I felt about this show.

It starts with a rather good depiction of various disorders presented in a way that even people who have little to no professional training in any field related to mental health would understand. The visual pictures they created to showcase the inner struggles the characters were facing was such a great touch to make the issues feel real and not just “in their head”. What’s more, I honestly felt like they managed to humanize the patients - while the focus was on their issues, it wasn’t the only thing we saw. What I saw was more than just their symptoms.

The second half is a great representation of various stages of depression - getting ill, denial, struggling to accept it, treatment, and slow recovery. The raw performance by Park Bo Young was gripping and horrifically realistic. You could see her pain and torment. I appreciate how they did not sugarcoat it too much as if getting treatment solves all the issues. The perceptions the society has on you will be changed forever, you might feel limited by many external and internal factors. In just 6 episodes they were able to show that getting better is a long journey not a sprint.

So where’s the issue? The complete mistreatment of Kim Seo Wan as a character. The issue is not that he died, but how his death never got a proper closure and became just a way to give female lead mental disorder to make the second half of the show happen.

You want to tell me that not one person except for the female lead was questioning discharging him, when he literally just got out of his delusion and was clearly struggling with depression? They literally talked about how his mood is down. His parents talked about how he wants to go back to studying, when studying was the trigger for his mental health issues in the first place. He literally faked relapse not to leave. And they still discharged him. The arc was honestly ridiculous and made everyone feel unqualified for their job. Still, I could look behind it if they gave me a proper closure. If people involved in his wrongful discharge at least admitted it was a mistake. Apologized to the parents. If they had one conversation about what and why it happened. But no one took accountability. It was just something sad that happened and then everyone played the victim calling themselves “suicide survivors” - I was so angry I was seeing red.

Then there is the fact that without even giving a good closer to such a devastating and tragic story, they decided to use it to give Da Eum depression. That’s why he died? Not to make the story more deep, to present his characters’ struggles, how sometimes the system fails, how sometimes good intentions to help are not enough. It was there to give Da Eum depression and focused the story on her and her recovery alone. How infuriating.

So when these two halves are combined, I’m just angry. Angry about how they made one of the best and most caring characters' death into a cheap plot device for the female lead’s progression which made me question the sincerity of the presentation of the problems all the other patients were facing. Angry how disrespectful was the set up for the female lead’s struggles and how because of that I could never truly connect to her arc.

What’s more to hate? The romance. I am sorry, but why was it needed exactly? Not only was it painfully unnecessary, the way Dong Go Yun’s character was written gave me a weird type of chill. There was something weird about him.

That said, I still enjoyed the first half of the show a lot. I also really liked the second lead couple. I found the toxic family issue Deul Re was facing and how it was resolved extremely refreshing. Instead of the typical “family is family, one apology is enough, you need to forgive, everyone changes” crap, we got a clear message: abandon your mother. When Yeo Hwan said it I literally clapped.

The acting was perfect. Obviously Park Bo Young aced the role. I don’t think anyone would disagree. One more performance that stood out was Noh Jae Won as Kim Seo Wan. Yes, the way the character was written was extremely charming, but I think the acting had also a lot to do with why I loved him so much.

Overall, I was thinking about writing a more in-depth review, but I’m honestly too annoyed with the show to do it.