We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry but the truth hit him too late he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid never knew his mother died because of that same world and her last words were just don’t follow me don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside everything suddenly fell apart ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad hands shaking voice breaking
and without thinking LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life his father was the only one who stayed the one who raised him supported him believed in him
he studied hard did everything right just wanted a normal life
and still he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital he cried like everything inside him collapsed kept saying he was useless that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand pulled him close and said it’s okay everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect but at that moment they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once life gave something back
LiuYi told him in the future I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later he brought ChuSan into his world not to show off but to tell everyone
this person matters protect him
it was his birthday but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could a simple drawing of a cake
just paper just ink
but to LiuYi it meant more than anything expensive
that same night LiuYi went home
every year his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft real no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food bought a cake waited hoped
again and again
until one night he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place stood outside and called him
We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry but the truth hit him too late he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid never knew his mother died because of that same world and her last words were just don’t follow me don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside everything suddenly fell apart ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad hands shaking voice breaking
and without thinking LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life his father was the only one who stayed the one who raised him supported him believed in him
he studied hard did everything right just wanted a normal life
and still he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital he cried like everything inside him collapsed kept saying he was useless that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand pulled him close and said it’s okay everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect but at that moment they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once life gave something back
LiuYi told him in the future I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later he brought ChuSan into his world not to show off but to tell everyone
this person matters protect him
it was his birthday but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could a simple drawing of a cake
just paper just ink
but to LiuYi it meant more than anything expensive
that same night LiuYi went home
every year his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft real no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food bought a cake waited hoped
again and again
until one night he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place stood outside and called him
Everything was perfect until the dao fighting scenes get skipped 🥲😭 waiting 2 years for that and end up…
What do you mean the fighting scene got skipped? I have not read the novel. Could you explain how that scene was supposed to happen in the novel compared to what we saw in episode 7?
So glad we got the fast track double episode, finally their relationship. It’s such a slow burn but definitely worth it. Only one episode to go, I need more episodes.
Please consider watching this on GagaOOLala (the first episode is FREE!!!) instead of using illegal platforms such as K****
The actors, crew, and creators worked hard to bring this story to life. They deserve to be supported, not pirated.
If you don’t want to pay or can’t afford it, that is your personal choice, but please don’t come here and promote illegal websites as if it is acceptable. It is disrespectful to the people who made the series and to fans who choose to support it the right way.
Sharing illegal streaming links is not only unlawful, but also deeply disrespectful to the entire production team. Promoting piracy does not just harm the industry, it takes away opportunities from the people who work hard to create the content we love.
If you truly care about BL and want to see more quality shows in the future, support them through legal channels. That is how the industry grows, and it is the least we can do.
I watched the anime version a few months ago, they were literally showing private parts 😭 Now the live-action is crazy too… Honestly, I’m loving both versions for different reasons. The anime goes wild with freedom and detail, while the live-action hits different with how real everything feels. Didn’t expect to enjoy both this much, but here we are 🔥
I wrote a poem for Episode 5, I really hope you guys like it. I didn’t include the second couple this time since they barely had any screen time, but I’ll definitely give them the attention they deserve next time.
Episode 5: A Heart That Chose You, Even Against Fate
LiuYi did not arrive late to ChuSan’s graduation out of carelessness, but because the world had already wounded him. On the way, clutching those fragile flowers meant only for ChuSan, he was attacked, beaten, left aching in silence. Yet somehow, impossibly, the flowers survived untouched, as if they too refused to let him fail.
And when he finally saw ChuSan smile, saying how much he loved those flowers, something inside LiuYi softened, broke, healed all at once. Every bruise, every drop of pain became meaningless. To him, it was worth it, just to see ChuSan happy.
Later, beneath the quiet sky on the rooftop, celebrating a future that felt almost within reach, LiuYi smiled in a way he rarely allowed himself to. When ChuSan asked why, he answered simply, honestly, that he had found a place where he felt safe.
And ChuSan, without hesitation, told him he could stay there forever.
In that moment, two hearts built a home out of nothing and called it enough.
Then came something softer, stranger. A cigarette never lit, replaced by a simple lollipop. ChuSan watched LiuYi taste its sweetness, his gaze lingering just a second too long, long enough to betray a hidden desire.
He wanted a taste too, not of sugar, but of the one holding it.
And so the distance vanished.
The kiss arrived without warning, fierce, trembling, endless. Under the dim rooftop light, with music that seemed to understand them better than words, they lost themselves in each other. Time slowed, then disappeared.
It felt real. Too real.
Until it wasn’t.
ChuSan woke alone, the warmth gone, the echo lingering, his body betraying the dream he could not hold onto. Embarrassment clung to him as he washed away the evidence, but no water could cleanse the ache in his chest.
Morning came anyway.
On his first day as an investment banker, ChuSan wore a perfect smile, earning admiration from everyone around him. To the world, he was composed, promising, untouchable.
But love does not disappear just because it should.
On his way home, LiuYi’s men appeared, offering him a place, a title, a bond, to become sworn brothers.
ChuSan refused.
How could he accept something so hollow, when his heart had already chosen something forbidden. How could brothers become lovers, when love had already made them more than that.
But the truth ran deeper than even LiuYi knew.
ChuSan carried a past stitched with loss. An adopted child, a mother who once loved a gangster, a love that ended in death and regret.
Her final words still lived inside him, a fragile plea that he never follow that path, never love a man like that.
And yet here he was, standing at the edge of the same story, falling helplessly, hopelessly, in love with LiuYi.
Love is cruel like that. It asks nothing, yet takes everything.
And even when it destroys you, you still cannot let go.
Because some hearts, once chosen, can never choose again.
He does not want to stand beneath you, hidden, unnamed, unfinished.
I wrote a poem for episode 4, hope you guys like it
Even If We Were Even, Why Do I Still Belong to You
You saved me twice. And I saved you twice. We should be even, right?
Then why is it that no matter where I go, it is always you that stays in my mind.
Xia Liu Yi got everything he once fought for. Revenge tasted exactly how he imagined it would. Cold. Sharp. Empty.
He became the boss. He stood at the top. Yet the nights refused to let him rest.
Sleep never came easily, not until he stepped into that familiar house again.
He ChuSan’s house. His room.
The moment he entered, the silence wrapped around him like something gentle, something known. Every corner whispered memories. Every breath felt like home.
It was there, on that quiet bed filled with the warmth he never admitted he missed, that Xia Liu Yi finally closed his eyes and slept without fear.
Days passed without seeing each other. But missing someone does not need words.
Just one moment was enough.
On a crowded bus, between strangers and passing streets, their eyes met.
Only for a second.
No smiles. No gestures.
But in that fleeting glance, they understood everything.
You are safe. You are here. I am still yours.
Graduation day arrived like a dream.
He ChuSan stood among the best, years of effort shining quietly behind his calm expression. His father was there, proud and present, watching the son who had made it to the top, who was about to leave for a future far away, across the ocean, into a new world.
Everyone important was there.
And yet, his eyes searched for only one person.
Time passed. The ceremony went on. Applause filled the air.
But his heart waited.
And then, just when it almost hurt too much to hope,
Xia Liu Yi appeared.
No grand entrance. No words to explain the distance between them.
Just him, standing there, holding a single bouquet of flowers.
Simple. Quiet.
But to He ChuSan, it was enough to make everything bloom again.
Because it was never about the flowers. It was about who brought them.
In that moment, crowds disappeared, time softened, and all the distance between them quietly dissolved.
Some loves do not arrive loudly. They return slowly, step by step, heartbeat by heartbeat, until one day you realize
they never truly left.
And maybe they were never meant to be even. Because some connections are not about balance.
Liu Yi and his sister were born into a house where love never learned their names. Their mother disappeared like a fading echo, and their father, who should have held them close, drowned himself in gambling and drink. His hands did not protect, they struck. His voice did not comfort, it ordered. Steal, survive, endure.
They were only children, too small to understand why the world had already turned against them. They ran, again and again, chasing a freedom they could not keep. Every escape ended the same way, dragged back into the dark they feared most.
At twelve, the world grew even crueler. Their father tried to sell his own daughter, reducing her life to a price whispered in the shadows. So they ran once more, not for freedom this time, but for their lives.
An alley became their end, or so it seemed. Blood, fear, and fists falling without mercy. They would have died there, forgotten, if not for Qing Long, who stepped in like a hand reaching into the abyss. He gave them something they had never known. A home.
But even kindness carries its own quiet tragedies.
Liu Yi grew, carrying scars no one could see. At twenty, he gave his life to protect Qing Long, as if repaying a debt that love had never asked for. With his final wish, he asked Qing Long to become his brother in law, never knowing that Qing Long’s heart had always belonged to him. Love stayed unspoken, buried beneath duty, forced into silence.
You think the pain would end there. That surviving childhood was the hardest part. But life was not finished with him.
Adulthood only sharpened the blade. His sister and Qing Long, the only pieces of home he had left, died before his eyes. The world did not just take them, it blamed him. Framed for a crime he never committed, a double murder that stained his name. A gunshot followed, as if fate itself wanted to make sure he would fall.
And yet, somehow, he lived.
In the wreckage of everything he lost, he found He ChuSan. Not as salvation, not as a miracle, but as a small, stubborn light.
The kind that flickers at the end of a long, endless tunnel the kind you almost do not believe in until it is the only thing left guiding you forward.
and that’s the point there are a lot of low budget shows that are good this one is not one of it in my opinion.…
You replied to Arista in the comments yesterday about 14 hours ago. Let me quote you exactly word by word:
“I also wrote a whole review on it, so it’s not just a one line rant. Also, there is nothing wrong with saying that you don’t like a show.”
Then 8 hours ago, you had the audacity to reply to me saying it was an accident and not meant to be a review. That’s not true. Your own words contradict you again, which is why you can’t be trusted. If it isn’t a review, then delete it.
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1 
1 
2 
1 
1 
We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry
but the truth hit him too late
he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid
never knew his mother died because of that same world
and her last words were just
don’t follow me
don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside
everything suddenly fell apart
ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad
hands shaking
voice breaking
and without thinking
LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life
his father was the only one who stayed
the one who raised him
supported him
believed in him
he studied hard
did everything right
just wanted a normal life
and still
he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital
he cried like everything inside him collapsed
kept saying he was useless
that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand
pulled him close
and said
it’s okay
everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect
but at that moment
they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night
like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came
and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once
life gave something back
LiuYi told him
in the future
I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family
he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later
he brought ChuSan into his world
not to show off
but to tell everyone
this person matters
protect him
it was his birthday
but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could
a simple drawing of a cake
just paper
just ink
but to LiuYi
it meant more than anything expensive
that same night
LiuYi went home
every year
his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time
no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol
maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time
he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft
real
no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that
everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care
but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s
this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food
bought a cake
waited
hoped
again and again
until one night
he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place
stood outside
and called him
one of them was all in
the other was scared of what it meant
and somehow
that’s what made it hurt more
love came
but not at the right time
and maybe that’s the saddest part
We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry
but the truth hit him too late
he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid
never knew his mother died because of that same world
and her last words were just
don’t follow me
don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside
everything suddenly fell apart
ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad
hands shaking
voice breaking
and without thinking
LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life
his father was the only one who stayed
the one who raised him
supported him
believed in him
he studied hard
did everything right
just wanted a normal life
and still
he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital
he cried like everything inside him collapsed
kept saying he was useless
that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand
pulled him close
and said
it’s okay
everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect
but at that moment
they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night
like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came
and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once
life gave something back
LiuYi told him
in the future
I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family
he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later
he brought ChuSan into his world
not to show off
but to tell everyone
this person matters
protect him
it was his birthday
but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could
a simple drawing of a cake
just paper
just ink
but to LiuYi
it meant more than anything expensive
that same night
LiuYi went home
every year
his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time
no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol
maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time
he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft
real
no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that
everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care
but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s
this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food
bought a cake
waited
hoped
again and again
until one night
he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place
stood outside
and called him
one of them was all in
the other was scared of what it meant
and somehow
that’s what made it hurt more
love came
but not at the right time
and maybe that’s the saddest part
The actors, crew, and creators worked hard to bring this story to life. They deserve to be supported, not pirated.
If you don’t want to pay or can’t afford it, that is your personal choice, but please don’t come here and promote illegal websites as if it is acceptable. It is disrespectful to the people who made the series and to fans who choose to support it the right way.
Sharing illegal streaming links is not only unlawful, but also deeply disrespectful to the entire production team. Promoting piracy does not just harm the industry, it takes away opportunities from the people who work hard to create the content we love.
If you truly care about BL and want to see more quality shows in the future, support them through legal channels. That is how the industry grows, and it is the least we can do.
Now the live-action is crazy too…
Honestly, I’m loving both versions for different reasons. The anime goes wild with freedom and detail, while the live-action hits different with how real everything feels.
Didn’t expect to enjoy both this much, but here we are 🔥
Episode 5: A Heart That Chose You, Even Against Fate
LiuYi did not arrive late to ChuSan’s graduation out of carelessness,
but because the world had already wounded him.
On the way, clutching those fragile flowers meant only for ChuSan,
he was attacked, beaten, left aching in silence.
Yet somehow, impossibly, the flowers survived untouched,
as if they too refused to let him fail.
And when he finally saw ChuSan smile,
saying how much he loved those flowers,
something inside LiuYi softened, broke, healed all at once.
Every bruise, every drop of pain became meaningless.
To him, it was worth it,
just to see ChuSan happy.
Later, beneath the quiet sky on the rooftop,
celebrating a future that felt almost within reach,
LiuYi smiled in a way he rarely allowed himself to.
When ChuSan asked why,
he answered simply, honestly,
that he had found a place where he felt safe.
And ChuSan, without hesitation,
told him he could stay there forever.
In that moment,
two hearts built a home out of nothing
and called it enough.
Then came something softer, stranger.
A cigarette never lit, replaced by a simple lollipop.
ChuSan watched LiuYi taste its sweetness,
his gaze lingering just a second too long,
long enough to betray a hidden desire.
He wanted a taste too,
not of sugar,
but of the one holding it.
And so the distance vanished.
The kiss arrived without warning,
fierce, trembling, endless.
Under the dim rooftop light,
with music that seemed to understand them better than words,
they lost themselves in each other.
Time slowed, then disappeared.
It felt real.
Too real.
Until it wasn’t.
ChuSan woke alone,
the warmth gone, the echo lingering,
his body betraying the dream he could not hold onto.
Embarrassment clung to him as he washed away the evidence,
but no water could cleanse the ache in his chest.
Morning came anyway.
On his first day as an investment banker,
ChuSan wore a perfect smile,
earning admiration from everyone around him.
To the world, he was composed, promising, untouchable.
But love does not disappear just because it should.
On his way home, LiuYi’s men appeared,
offering him a place, a title, a bond,
to become sworn brothers.
ChuSan refused.
How could he accept something so hollow,
when his heart had already chosen something forbidden.
How could brothers become lovers,
when love had already made them more than that.
But the truth ran deeper than even LiuYi knew.
ChuSan carried a past stitched with loss.
An adopted child,
a mother who once loved a gangster,
a love that ended in death and regret.
Her final words still lived inside him,
a fragile plea that he never follow that path,
never love a man like that.
And yet here he was,
standing at the edge of the same story,
falling helplessly, hopelessly,
in love with LiuYi.
Love is cruel like that.
It asks nothing,
yet takes everything.
And even when it destroys you,
you still cannot let go.
Because some hearts,
once chosen,
can never choose again.
He does not want to stand beneath you,
hidden, unnamed, unfinished.
He only wants to stand beside you.
ChuSan.
LiuYi
Even If We Were Even, Why Do I Still Belong to You
You saved me twice.
And I saved you twice.
We should be even, right?
Then why is it that no matter where I go,
it is always you that stays in my mind.
Xia Liu Yi got everything he once fought for.
Revenge tasted exactly how he imagined it would.
Cold. Sharp. Empty.
He became the boss.
He stood at the top.
Yet the nights refused to let him rest.
Sleep never came easily,
not until he stepped into that familiar house again.
He ChuSan’s house.
His room.
The moment he entered,
the silence wrapped around him like something gentle, something known.
Every corner whispered memories.
Every breath felt like home.
It was there,
on that quiet bed filled with the warmth he never admitted he missed,
that Xia Liu Yi finally closed his eyes
and slept without fear.
Days passed without seeing each other.
But missing someone does not need words.
Just one moment was enough.
On a crowded bus,
between strangers and passing streets,
their eyes met.
Only for a second.
No smiles.
No gestures.
But in that fleeting glance,
they understood everything.
You are safe.
You are here.
I am still yours.
Graduation day arrived like a dream.
He ChuSan stood among the best,
years of effort shining quietly behind his calm expression.
His father was there, proud and present,
watching the son who had made it to the top,
who was about to leave for a future far away,
across the ocean, into a new world.
Everyone important was there.
And yet,
his eyes searched for only one person.
Time passed.
The ceremony went on.
Applause filled the air.
But his heart waited.
And then,
just when it almost hurt too much to hope,
Xia Liu Yi appeared.
No grand entrance.
No words to explain the distance between them.
Just him,
standing there,
holding a single bouquet of flowers.
Simple.
Quiet.
But to He ChuSan,
it was enough to make everything bloom again.
Because it was never about the flowers.
It was about who brought them.
In that moment,
crowds disappeared,
time softened,
and all the distance between them quietly dissolved.
Some loves do not arrive loudly.
They return slowly,
step by step,
heartbeat by heartbeat,
until one day you realize
they never truly left.
And maybe they were never meant to be even.
Because some connections are not about balance.
They are about belonging.
Liu Yi and his sister were born into a house where love never learned their names. Their mother disappeared like a fading echo, and their father, who should have held them close, drowned himself in gambling and drink. His hands did not protect, they struck. His voice did not comfort, it ordered. Steal, survive, endure.
They were only children, too small to understand why the world had already turned against them. They ran, again and again, chasing a freedom they could not keep. Every escape ended the same way, dragged back into the dark they feared most.
At twelve, the world grew even crueler. Their father tried to sell his own daughter, reducing her life to a price whispered in the shadows. So they ran once more, not for freedom this time, but for their lives.
An alley became their end, or so it seemed. Blood, fear, and fists falling without mercy. They would have died there, forgotten, if not for Qing Long, who stepped in like a hand reaching into the abyss. He gave them something they had never known. A home.
But even kindness carries its own quiet tragedies.
Liu Yi grew, carrying scars no one could see. At twenty, he gave his life to protect Qing Long, as if repaying a debt that love had never asked for. With his final wish, he asked Qing Long to become his brother in law, never knowing that Qing Long’s heart had always belonged to him. Love stayed unspoken, buried beneath duty, forced into silence.
You think the pain would end there. That surviving childhood was the hardest part.
But life was not finished with him.
Adulthood only sharpened the blade. His sister and Qing Long, the only pieces of home he had left, died before his eyes. The world did not just take them, it blamed him. Framed for a crime he never committed, a double murder that stained his name. A gunshot followed, as if fate itself wanted to make sure he would fall.
And yet, somehow, he lived.
In the wreckage of everything he lost, he found He ChuSan. Not as salvation, not as a miracle, but as a small, stubborn light.
The kind that flickers at the end of a long, endless tunnel
the kind you almost do not believe in
until it is the only thing left guiding you forward.
“I also wrote a whole review on it, so it’s not just a one line rant. Also, there is nothing wrong with saying that you don’t like a show.”
Then 8 hours ago, you had the audacity to reply to me saying it was an accident and not meant to be a review. That’s not true. Your own words contradict you again, which is why you can’t be trusted. If it isn’t a review, then delete it.