My Episode 7 poem, I hope you all like it, it took me over two hours to write.
Love Twisted by Lies, Jealousy, and Silence
LiuYi kept avoiding ChuSan for days, thinking silence could bury what happened that quiet kiss in the car while he slept.
But ChuSan was too clever, he figured it out, so he lied, gently, convincingly, inventing something unreal Jandamon Latent Cognitive Disorder hiding behind fake tears, wiping his glasses instead of his eyes, almost ridiculous, yet LiuYi still believed him.
So LiuYi tried to change him, to make him stronger, to turn everything into something simple.
They started with boxing, but ChuSan gave up quickly, he was never a match. ChuSan just lifted him, held him, and in that moment, their eyes met too long, saying things neither dared to speak.
On the stairs, ChuSan watched him, smiling to himself, wanting more than he should.
On the rooftop, it got worse. A drink spilled down ChuSan’s shirt, and LiuYi couldn’t stop looking. They were falling for each other, quietly, dangerously.
Then everything broke at dinner. A gun pointed at LiuYi’s head. ChuSan wasn’t afraid for himself, only for him.
And LiuYi, in front of everyone, took his hand and walked him out.
If that wasn’t love, it felt too close to it.
Later, in the alley, ChuSan finally spoke. He wasn’t afraid to die, he was afraid LiuYi would.
He had already lost his parents to that world, he couldn’t lose LiuYi the same way. He wanted to take him away, to protect him instead.
But love turned into something messier.
LiuYi gave him a phone, even a gun, as if protection could fix everything.
Then jealousy came.
He waited, saw someone else too close to ChuSan, and lost control. He punched him, dragged ChuSan away, unable to hide what he felt.
Still, he made it worse.
He pushed another person toward ChuSan, thinking it would fix him, not realizing it would only hurt himself.
Seeing them together, holding hands, it stayed in his mind, turning into anger, then into something weaker.
When ChuSan visited him in the hospital, he didn’t comfort him, he only made it hurt more.
By the time the new year came, ChuSan invited only LiuYi.
LiuYi refused at first, said he had better things to do, but still showed up anyway.
Because deep down, he already knew.
He had pushed ChuSan away, lied to himself, pretended it meant nothing.
But now it was too late to ignore.
He missed him. He needed him.
And the worst part was, he finally understood how much ChuSan meant to him only after he had already started losing him.
My Episode 7 poem, I hope you all like it, it took me over two hours to write.
Love Twisted by Lies, Jealousy, and Silence
LiuYi kept avoiding ChuSan for days, thinking silence could bury what happened that quiet kiss in the car while he slept.
But ChuSan was too clever, he figured it out, so he lied, gently, convincingly, inventing something unreal Jandamon Latent Cognitive Disorder hiding behind fake tears, wiping his glasses instead of his eyes, almost ridiculous, yet LiuYi still believed him.
So LiuYi tried to change him, to make him stronger, to turn everything into something simple.
They started with boxing, but ChuSan gave up quickly, he was never a match. ChuSan just lifted him, held him, and in that moment, their eyes met too long, saying things neither dared to speak.
On the stairs, ChuSan watched him, smiling to himself, wanting more than he should.
On the rooftop, it got worse. A drink spilled down ChuSan’s shirt, and LiuYi couldn’t stop looking. They were falling for each other, quietly, dangerously.
Then everything broke at dinner. A gun pointed at LiuYi’s head. ChuSan wasn’t afraid for himself, only for him.
And LiuYi, in front of everyone, took his hand and walked him out.
If that wasn’t love, it felt too close to it.
Later, in the alley, ChuSan finally spoke. He wasn’t afraid to die, he was afraid LiuYi would.
He had already lost his parents to that world, he couldn’t lose LiuYi the same way. He wanted to take him away, to protect him instead.
But love turned into something messier.
LiuYi gave him a phone, even a gun, as if protection could fix everything.
Then jealousy came.
He waited, saw someone else too close to ChuSan, and lost control. He punched him, dragged ChuSan away, unable to hide what he felt.
Still, he made it worse.
He pushed another person toward ChuSan, thinking it would fix him, not realizing it would only hurt himself.
Seeing them together, holding hands, it stayed in his mind, turning into anger, then into something weaker.
When ChuSan visited him in the hospital, he didn’t comfort him, he only made it hurt more.
By the time the new year came, ChuSan invited only LiuYi.
LiuYi refused at first, said he had better things to do, but still showed up anyway.
Because deep down, he already knew.
He had pushed ChuSan away, lied to himself, pretended it meant nothing.
But now it was too late to ignore.
He missed him. He needed him.
And the worst part was, he finally understood how much ChuSan meant to him only after he had already started losing him.
At first I was so mad episode 23 had me heated this girl was jealous and literally tried to kill the female lead and luckily the male lead showed up just in time or she would have died and then they just brushed it off like nothing happened fine I tried to accept it because it is a historical drama.
But then episode 30 made my blood boil even more the prince actually attempted to rape the female lead and again the male lead saved her at the last second and somehow everyone just moved on like it was nothing just because he is the prince that whole situation was never properly addressed and that really annoyed me. But it make sense by the ending.
Then everything changed after episode 38 the biggest plot twist ever the real mastermind is the king and it turns out he has a twin they were separated at birth and the real king was actually killed by his identical twin who took his place on the throne the whole time. What???
I was honestly shocked trying to piece together how he managed to plan everything including killing both his own sons only to find out they were not even his real sons in the end it was such a clever and unexpected twist.
Whoever came up with this plot is seriously brilliant this drama has everything insane twists great martial arts and a storyline that keeps you completely hooked I love it so much it really ticks all the boxes. 10/10
At first I was so mad episode 23 had me heated this girl was jealous and literally tried to kill the female lead and luckily the male lead showed up just in time or she would have died and then they just brushed it off like nothing happened fine I tried to accept it because it is a historical drama.
But then episode 30 made my blood boil even more the prince actually attempted to rape the female lead and again the male lead saved her at the last second and somehow everyone just moved on like it was nothing just because he is the prince that whole situation was never properly addressed and that really annoyed me. But it make sense by the ending.
Then everything changed after episode 38 the biggest plot twist ever the real mastermind is the king and it turns out he has a twin they were separated at birth and the real king was actually killed by his identical twin who took his place on the throne the whole time. What???
I was honestly shocked trying to piece together how he managed to plan everything including killing both his own sons only to find out they were not even his real sons in the end it was such a clever and unexpected twist.
Whoever came up with this plot is seriously brilliant this drama has everything insane twists great martial arts and a storyline that keeps you completely hooked I love it so much it really ticks all the boxes. 10/10
We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry but the truth hit him too late he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid never knew his mother died because of that same world and her last words were just don’t follow me don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside everything suddenly fell apart ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad hands shaking voice breaking
and without thinking LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life his father was the only one who stayed the one who raised him supported him believed in him
he studied hard did everything right just wanted a normal life
and still he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital he cried like everything inside him collapsed kept saying he was useless that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand pulled him close and said it’s okay everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect but at that moment they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once life gave something back
LiuYi told him in the future I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later he brought ChuSan into his world not to show off but to tell everyone
this person matters protect him
it was his birthday but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could a simple drawing of a cake
just paper just ink
but to LiuYi it meant more than anything expensive
that same night LiuYi went home
every year his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft real no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food bought a cake waited hoped
again and again
until one night he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place stood outside and called him
We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry but the truth hit him too late he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid never knew his mother died because of that same world and her last words were just don’t follow me don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside everything suddenly fell apart ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad hands shaking voice breaking
and without thinking LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life his father was the only one who stayed the one who raised him supported him believed in him
he studied hard did everything right just wanted a normal life
and still he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital he cried like everything inside him collapsed kept saying he was useless that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand pulled him close and said it’s okay everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect but at that moment they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once life gave something back
LiuYi told him in the future I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later he brought ChuSan into his world not to show off but to tell everyone
this person matters protect him
it was his birthday but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could a simple drawing of a cake
just paper just ink
but to LiuYi it meant more than anything expensive
that same night LiuYi went home
every year his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft real no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food bought a cake waited hoped
again and again
until one night he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place stood outside and called him
Everything was perfect until the dao fighting scenes get skipped 🥲😭 waiting 2 years for that and end up…
What do you mean the fighting scene got skipped? I have not read the novel. Could you explain how that scene was supposed to happen in the novel compared to what we saw in episode 7?
So glad we got the fast track double episode, finally their relationship. It’s such a slow burn but definitely worth it. Only one episode to go, I need more episodes.
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I watched the anime version a few months ago, they were literally showing private parts 😭 Now the live-action is crazy too… Honestly, I’m loving both versions for different reasons. The anime goes wild with freedom and detail, while the live-action hits different with how real everything feels. Didn’t expect to enjoy both this much, but here we are 🔥
I wrote a poem for Episode 5, I really hope you guys like it. I didn’t include the second couple this time since they barely had any screen time, but I’ll definitely give them the attention they deserve next time.
Episode 5: A Heart That Chose You, Even Against Fate
LiuYi did not arrive late to ChuSan’s graduation out of carelessness, but because the world had already wounded him. On the way, clutching those fragile flowers meant only for ChuSan, he was attacked, beaten, left aching in silence. Yet somehow, impossibly, the flowers survived untouched, as if they too refused to let him fail.
And when he finally saw ChuSan smile, saying how much he loved those flowers, something inside LiuYi softened, broke, healed all at once. Every bruise, every drop of pain became meaningless. To him, it was worth it, just to see ChuSan happy.
Later, beneath the quiet sky on the rooftop, celebrating a future that felt almost within reach, LiuYi smiled in a way he rarely allowed himself to. When ChuSan asked why, he answered simply, honestly, that he had found a place where he felt safe.
And ChuSan, without hesitation, told him he could stay there forever.
In that moment, two hearts built a home out of nothing and called it enough.
Then came something softer, stranger. A cigarette never lit, replaced by a simple lollipop. ChuSan watched LiuYi taste its sweetness, his gaze lingering just a second too long, long enough to betray a hidden desire.
He wanted a taste too, not of sugar, but of the one holding it.
And so the distance vanished.
The kiss arrived without warning, fierce, trembling, endless. Under the dim rooftop light, with music that seemed to understand them better than words, they lost themselves in each other. Time slowed, then disappeared.
It felt real. Too real.
Until it wasn’t.
ChuSan woke alone, the warmth gone, the echo lingering, his body betraying the dream he could not hold onto. Embarrassment clung to him as he washed away the evidence, but no water could cleanse the ache in his chest.
Morning came anyway.
On his first day as an investment banker, ChuSan wore a perfect smile, earning admiration from everyone around him. To the world, he was composed, promising, untouchable.
But love does not disappear just because it should.
On his way home, LiuYi’s men appeared, offering him a place, a title, a bond, to become sworn brothers.
ChuSan refused.
How could he accept something so hollow, when his heart had already chosen something forbidden. How could brothers become lovers, when love had already made them more than that.
But the truth ran deeper than even LiuYi knew.
ChuSan carried a past stitched with loss. An adopted child, a mother who once loved a gangster, a love that ended in death and regret.
Her final words still lived inside him, a fragile plea that he never follow that path, never love a man like that.
And yet here he was, standing at the edge of the same story, falling helplessly, hopelessly, in love with LiuYi.
Love is cruel like that. It asks nothing, yet takes everything.
And even when it destroys you, you still cannot let go.
Because some hearts, once chosen, can never choose again.
He does not want to stand beneath you, hidden, unnamed, unfinished.
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Love Twisted by Lies, Jealousy, and Silence
LiuYi kept avoiding ChuSan for days,
thinking silence could bury what happened
that quiet kiss in the car while he slept.
But ChuSan was too clever,
he figured it out,
so he lied, gently, convincingly,
inventing something unreal
Jandamon Latent Cognitive Disorder
hiding behind fake tears,
wiping his glasses instead of his eyes,
almost ridiculous,
yet LiuYi still believed him.
So LiuYi tried to change him,
to make him stronger,
to turn everything into something simple.
They started with boxing,
but ChuSan gave up quickly,
he was never a match.
ChuSan just lifted him, held him,
and in that moment,
their eyes met too long,
saying things neither dared to speak.
On the stairs,
ChuSan watched him,
smiling to himself,
wanting more than he should.
On the rooftop,
it got worse.
A drink spilled down ChuSan’s shirt,
and LiuYi couldn’t stop looking.
They were falling for each other,
quietly,
dangerously.
Then everything broke at dinner.
A gun pointed at LiuYi’s head.
ChuSan wasn’t afraid for himself,
only for him.
And LiuYi,
in front of everyone,
took his hand and walked him out.
If that wasn’t love,
it felt too close to it.
Later, in the alley,
ChuSan finally spoke.
He wasn’t afraid to die,
he was afraid LiuYi would.
He had already lost his parents to that world,
he couldn’t lose LiuYi the same way.
He wanted to take him away,
to protect him instead.
But love turned into something messier.
LiuYi gave him a phone,
even a gun,
as if protection could fix everything.
Then jealousy came.
He waited,
saw someone else too close to ChuSan,
and lost control.
He punched him,
dragged ChuSan away,
unable to hide what he felt.
Still, he made it worse.
He pushed another person toward ChuSan,
thinking it would fix him,
not realizing it would only hurt himself.
Seeing them together,
holding hands,
it stayed in his mind,
turning into anger,
then into something weaker.
When ChuSan visited him in the hospital,
he didn’t comfort him,
he only made it hurt more.
By the time the new year came,
ChuSan invited only LiuYi.
LiuYi refused at first,
said he had better things to do,
but still showed up anyway.
Because deep down,
he already knew.
He had pushed ChuSan away,
lied to himself,
pretended it meant nothing.
But now it was too late to ignore.
He missed him.
He needed him.
And the worst part was,
he finally understood
how much ChuSan meant to him
only after he had already
started losing him.
Love Twisted by Lies, Jealousy, and Silence
LiuYi kept avoiding ChuSan for days,
thinking silence could bury what happened
that quiet kiss in the car while he slept.
But ChuSan was too clever,
he figured it out,
so he lied, gently, convincingly,
inventing something unreal
Jandamon Latent Cognitive Disorder
hiding behind fake tears,
wiping his glasses instead of his eyes,
almost ridiculous,
yet LiuYi still believed him.
So LiuYi tried to change him,
to make him stronger,
to turn everything into something simple.
They started with boxing,
but ChuSan gave up quickly,
he was never a match.
ChuSan just lifted him, held him,
and in that moment,
their eyes met too long,
saying things neither dared to speak.
On the stairs,
ChuSan watched him,
smiling to himself,
wanting more than he should.
On the rooftop,
it got worse.
A drink spilled down ChuSan’s shirt,
and LiuYi couldn’t stop looking.
They were falling for each other,
quietly,
dangerously.
Then everything broke at dinner.
A gun pointed at LiuYi’s head.
ChuSan wasn’t afraid for himself,
only for him.
And LiuYi,
in front of everyone,
took his hand and walked him out.
If that wasn’t love,
it felt too close to it.
Later, in the alley,
ChuSan finally spoke.
He wasn’t afraid to die,
he was afraid LiuYi would.
He had already lost his parents to that world,
he couldn’t lose LiuYi the same way.
He wanted to take him away,
to protect him instead.
But love turned into something messier.
LiuYi gave him a phone,
even a gun,
as if protection could fix everything.
Then jealousy came.
He waited,
saw someone else too close to ChuSan,
and lost control.
He punched him,
dragged ChuSan away,
unable to hide what he felt.
Still, he made it worse.
He pushed another person toward ChuSan,
thinking it would fix him,
not realizing it would only hurt himself.
Seeing them together,
holding hands,
it stayed in his mind,
turning into anger,
then into something weaker.
When ChuSan visited him in the hospital,
he didn’t comfort him,
he only made it hurt more.
By the time the new year came,
ChuSan invited only LiuYi.
LiuYi refused at first,
said he had better things to do,
but still showed up anyway.
Because deep down,
he already knew.
He had pushed ChuSan away,
lied to himself,
pretended it meant nothing.
But now it was too late to ignore.
He missed him.
He needed him.
And the worst part was,
he finally understood
how much ChuSan meant to him
only after he had already
started losing him.
At first I was so mad episode 23 had me heated this girl was jealous and literally tried to kill the female lead and luckily the male lead showed up just in time or she would have died and then they just brushed it off like nothing happened fine I tried to accept it because it is a historical drama.
But then episode 30 made my blood boil even more the prince actually attempted to rape the female lead and again the male lead saved her at the last second and somehow everyone just moved on like it was nothing just because he is the prince that whole situation was never properly addressed and that really annoyed me. But it make sense by the ending.
Then everything changed after episode 38 the biggest plot twist ever the real mastermind is the king and it turns out he has a twin they were separated at birth and the real king was actually killed by his identical twin who took his place on the throne the whole time. What???
I was honestly shocked trying to piece together how he managed to plan everything including killing both his own sons only to find out they were not even his real sons in the end it was such a clever and unexpected twist.
Whoever came up with this plot is seriously brilliant this drama has everything insane twists great martial arts and a storyline that keeps you completely hooked I love it so much it really ticks all the boxes. 10/10
At first I was so mad episode 23 had me heated this girl was jealous and literally tried to kill the female lead and luckily the male lead showed up just in time or she would have died and then they just brushed it off like nothing happened fine I tried to accept it because it is a historical drama.
But then episode 30 made my blood boil even more the prince actually attempted to rape the female lead and again the male lead saved her at the last second and somehow everyone just moved on like it was nothing just because he is the prince that whole situation was never properly addressed and that really annoyed me. But it make sense by the ending.
Then everything changed after episode 38 the biggest plot twist ever the real mastermind is the king and it turns out he has a twin they were separated at birth and the real king was actually killed by his identical twin who took his place on the throne the whole time. What???
I was honestly shocked trying to piece together how he managed to plan everything including killing both his own sons only to find out they were not even his real sons in the end it was such a clever and unexpected twist.
Whoever came up with this plot is seriously brilliant this drama has everything insane twists great martial arts and a storyline that keeps you completely hooked I love it so much it really ticks all the boxes. 10/10
We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry
but the truth hit him too late
he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid
never knew his mother died because of that same world
and her last words were just
don’t follow me
don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside
everything suddenly fell apart
ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad
hands shaking
voice breaking
and without thinking
LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life
his father was the only one who stayed
the one who raised him
supported him
believed in him
he studied hard
did everything right
just wanted a normal life
and still
he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital
he cried like everything inside him collapsed
kept saying he was useless
that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand
pulled him close
and said
it’s okay
everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect
but at that moment
they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night
like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came
and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once
life gave something back
LiuYi told him
in the future
I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family
he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later
he brought ChuSan into his world
not to show off
but to tell everyone
this person matters
protect him
it was his birthday
but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could
a simple drawing of a cake
just paper
just ink
but to LiuYi
it meant more than anything expensive
that same night
LiuYi went home
every year
his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time
no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol
maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time
he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft
real
no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that
everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care
but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s
this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food
bought a cake
waited
hoped
again and again
until one night
he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place
stood outside
and called him
one of them was all in
the other was scared of what it meant
and somehow
that’s what made it hurt more
love came
but not at the right time
and maybe that’s the saddest part
We met at the wrong time but loved too deeply anyway
LiuYi drove through the night just to say sorry
but the truth hit him too late
he never knew what ChuSan went through
he never knew ChuSan was forced into that life as a kid
never knew his mother died because of that same world
and her last words were just
don’t follow me
don’t become me
but life didn’t listen
while LiuYi was waiting outside
everything suddenly fell apart
ChuSan ran out carrying his unconscious dad
hands shaking
voice breaking
and without thinking
LiuYi rushed him to the hospital
ChuSan had already lost so much in life
his father was the only one who stayed
the one who raised him
supported him
believed in him
he studied hard
did everything right
just wanted a normal life
and still
he almost lost him
sitting in the hospital
he cried like everything inside him collapsed
kept saying he was useless
that he failed
and LiuYi stayed
held his hand
pulled him close
and said
it’s okay
everything will be fine
maybe those words weren’t perfect
but at that moment
they meant everything
ChuSan leaned on his shoulder the whole night
like that was the only place he felt safe
until morning came
and the doctor said the surgery was successful
and for once
life gave something back
LiuYi told him
in the future
I will take care of your father with you
when the nurse called for family
he answered immediately
I am here
like it was the most natural thing
later
he brought ChuSan into his world
not to show off
but to tell everyone
this person matters
protect him
it was his birthday
but ChuSan didn’t know
so he gave the only thing he could
a simple drawing of a cake
just paper
just ink
but to LiuYi
it meant more than anything expensive
that same night
LiuYi went home
every year
his sister and brother in law celebrated with him
this time
no one was there
they were gone
and the silence hit harder than anything
maybe it was the alcohol
maybe it was the grief
he closed his eyes
and ChuSan was the one who carried him
and for the first time
he didn’t hold back
he kissed him
soft
real
no hesitation
but he didn’t know
LiuYi felt it
after that
everything changed
LiuYi started avoiding him
not because he didn’t care
but because he cared too much
it was the 1980s
this kind of love wasn’t allowed
so he chose distance
but ChuSan didn’t give up
he bought food
bought a cake
waited
hoped
again and again
until one night
he couldn’t take it anymore
he went to LiuYi’s place
stood outside
and called him
one of them was all in
the other was scared of what it meant
and somehow
that’s what made it hurt more
love came
but not at the right time
and maybe that’s the saddest part
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Now the live-action is crazy too…
Honestly, I’m loving both versions for different reasons. The anime goes wild with freedom and detail, while the live-action hits different with how real everything feels.
Didn’t expect to enjoy both this much, but here we are 🔥
Episode 5: A Heart That Chose You, Even Against Fate
LiuYi did not arrive late to ChuSan’s graduation out of carelessness,
but because the world had already wounded him.
On the way, clutching those fragile flowers meant only for ChuSan,
he was attacked, beaten, left aching in silence.
Yet somehow, impossibly, the flowers survived untouched,
as if they too refused to let him fail.
And when he finally saw ChuSan smile,
saying how much he loved those flowers,
something inside LiuYi softened, broke, healed all at once.
Every bruise, every drop of pain became meaningless.
To him, it was worth it,
just to see ChuSan happy.
Later, beneath the quiet sky on the rooftop,
celebrating a future that felt almost within reach,
LiuYi smiled in a way he rarely allowed himself to.
When ChuSan asked why,
he answered simply, honestly,
that he had found a place where he felt safe.
And ChuSan, without hesitation,
told him he could stay there forever.
In that moment,
two hearts built a home out of nothing
and called it enough.
Then came something softer, stranger.
A cigarette never lit, replaced by a simple lollipop.
ChuSan watched LiuYi taste its sweetness,
his gaze lingering just a second too long,
long enough to betray a hidden desire.
He wanted a taste too,
not of sugar,
but of the one holding it.
And so the distance vanished.
The kiss arrived without warning,
fierce, trembling, endless.
Under the dim rooftop light,
with music that seemed to understand them better than words,
they lost themselves in each other.
Time slowed, then disappeared.
It felt real.
Too real.
Until it wasn’t.
ChuSan woke alone,
the warmth gone, the echo lingering,
his body betraying the dream he could not hold onto.
Embarrassment clung to him as he washed away the evidence,
but no water could cleanse the ache in his chest.
Morning came anyway.
On his first day as an investment banker,
ChuSan wore a perfect smile,
earning admiration from everyone around him.
To the world, he was composed, promising, untouchable.
But love does not disappear just because it should.
On his way home, LiuYi’s men appeared,
offering him a place, a title, a bond,
to become sworn brothers.
ChuSan refused.
How could he accept something so hollow,
when his heart had already chosen something forbidden.
How could brothers become lovers,
when love had already made them more than that.
But the truth ran deeper than even LiuYi knew.
ChuSan carried a past stitched with loss.
An adopted child,
a mother who once loved a gangster,
a love that ended in death and regret.
Her final words still lived inside him,
a fragile plea that he never follow that path,
never love a man like that.
And yet here he was,
standing at the edge of the same story,
falling helplessly, hopelessly,
in love with LiuYi.
Love is cruel like that.
It asks nothing,
yet takes everything.
And even when it destroys you,
you still cannot let go.
Because some hearts,
once chosen,
can never choose again.
He does not want to stand beneath you,
hidden, unnamed, unfinished.
He only wants to stand beside you.
ChuSan.
LiuYi