idontwanttothanks

Sand. I hope he wrecks him.

I don't think I'm talking about poly as in a relationship with more than one person at once. I'm talking an open relationship where Nick and Boston both sleep with other people but come home to each other. I do think Boston likes sex and he likes it with more than one person, but I also think that he's very good at separating feelings from the sex act.

I think I'd be more irritated by it if Mew was. But Mew super didn't care so it's like...why should I? And I know they say once a cheater, always a cheater, but eh, I don't necessarily buy that and also, the circumstances were weird.

I do think karma is coming for Ray though in the shape of a leggy musician. Or maybe I just hope so. :D

Yeah, me too. Ray was the one character that I was having problems with for my own reasons and also because Sand is my baby (I admit my own biases freely). Like I said I think it helped that he was mostly sober this ep so his worst qualities weren't being exacerbated. I just need him to calm down a little.

But other than that I like everyone in this bar. And now I'm sitting back and just waiting for whatever happens.

Yeah I still think they dragged it on far too long - it was clear to me that neither of them was feeling it half as much as they were pretending last ep, and I honestly felt like if they kept it up this one I was gonna quit. Dragged the whole show down for me tbh. But I am looking forward to the real BFF era.

Ray doesn't want a threesome he's just learned that that gets people away from Sand so he pulls it out every time he thinks Sand's getting too close to someone. I want someone to call his bluff already.

Won't lie that I'm turning around on Ray a bit - for the first time I actually see what people have been telling me I should be seeing for episodes, lol. I think it helped that Ray seemed mostly sober all episode? So he's generic shitty instead of the kind of dick he was last ep. And I can deal with generic shitty - I love me a good generically shitty character.

That said, I've been in Top's corner for ages now. And controversially I never was that mad about the Boston thing. I'm rooting for him and Mew tbh, but I still kinda want a Boeing threesome - either in flashback with Sand or in real time with Mew. Please.

I don't mind if Boston falls in love. I always thought that might be in the cards. But what I will mind is if it suddenly turns him into someone monogamous. Does that happen for some people? Sure! But Boston has never once given an indication that he is about that monogamous lifestyle. And I don't think that being in love with Nick means that he can't be in an open relationship. Out of all of them he's the one I see feeling happier doing that. Now Nick might not be, but that just makes them incompatible.

We'll see i guess.

If it's a threesome like I crave it'll be a flashback, but if it's not then I demand real time.

When he was getting in between Sand and Nick? Mr. "oh yes threesomes are fine they're great I don't care if you slept together at all let me just push myself in between you two and wrap myself around Sand like a possessive octopus so no roomies with Ideas can lay their slimy hands on him"? That bit?

I did laugh I admit. Ray you loser.

I was really surprised. I would have bet actual money that Mew and Ray would sleep together before they figured it out, but like I said my Mew is back and he's definitely more a talk things out kinda guy. I still want him and Sand to be friends and maybe make out.

Yeah I get that, that was wrong. I don't think that he was only talking about Mew in a lot of it but that part was very Nice Guy and I can't hang with that shit. I won't excuse it either, it was gross. No amount of being nice to someone means you get a ticket into their pants.

If you can't get past that, I get it. I'm still salty with him for the wore comments lol.

That's okay! You like who you like!

I am getting such a kick out of the fact that I suddenly like Ray now and more people seem to hate him, haha.

Like idk I was impressed with how honest he was this ep. Yeah he's fucked up but good for you for using your words for once and not being an angry shit at everyone.

Maybe it's just that I'm so happy the RayMew stupidity is finally over, haha. And that my Mew is back, a little less prone to being judgmental and maybe a little less naive, but still my old, communicative, boundary setting Mew. I missed him a bit.

Also really impressed by the acting of both Book and Khao in their last scene together. For once Ray wasn't looking at Mew like someone to be worshipped, and Mew was so easy and relaxed with Ray knowing that bit was all over. Good for them.

Okay I can't believe I am going to do this but...I get Ray here.

Even I have to admit that it was clear all episode he was pretty much done with the whole Mew loving thing, but he was also fighting it pretty hard because how is it that the love of his life (or so he thought) suddenly isn't after just a few short months of knowing someone else (yes he ranted at Mew about this very thing but it also applies to him)? And I think a part of him was worried he'd lose Mew completely if he let him go because he pushed so damn hard for what he had, how could he just turn back and say no it's not right? He knows Mew doesn't want him but he pushed for this so he feels he has to keep pushing even if he no longer wants it either. And I'm very glad that both Mew and Sand called him out on his bullshit, even if it was gentle. And he might not feel particularly sorry lol but he does know it was wrong. He seemed sorrier with Sand which again, makes some sense because Sand is actually the basket his emotional eggs are invested in.

I think that it would have been harder had Mew actually cared about him, but the truth was he never did and never would. So in the end Mew let him off because it didn't actually cause him any harm. And Sand let him off because he was also actively and willfully participating, haha. It wasn't like Sand was gonna stop sleeping with him.

I like Top and Mew and I will not apologize for it. They really started doing it for me after episode 6 and now I want them to be endgame. I think Boeing will be a roadblock but I don't think that it'll be that big, personally.

And I root for Boston and Nick always. Have since the beginning, will always. I'm in too deep to stop now.

WHY did this ep feed me so well???

Look my two favorite forms of fucked up love are mutual obsession and mutual destruction. If I get both out of these two I will cry tears of joy.

Yeah he definitely reads that way to me too. I forgot I wasn't watching a soap opera haha. My bad.

YES at first I was like NICK NO but then he said all that and I was like oh oh this is gonna get the good kind of messy and it DID.

it looks like we might get our wish I am LIVING. Please let Sand shatter Ray for once please please please. /I am an awful person I don't care