Lost You Forever

Lost you forever

It’s been long since I watched a series that catched me so much, since the beginning I was interested in the plot/story because I could relate kinda personally in some way. I binge watched all episodes in a short time, because the show was just so amazing. The characters are very unique and well written. I never experienced the problem that I couldn’t decide between the male leads, but here I really couldn’t decide between Tushan Jing and Xiang Liu in the beginning because all two or maybe even three (except for fenglong, he is in my eyes rather a friend to her) male leads or love interests have something special about them. At first I was so rooting for Ye Shiqi/Tushan Jing and despised Xiang Liu, but I have a weekness for unique looking characters, especially in white haha, he slowly started to develop feelings for her or even liked her since the beginning, but hid it really well, throughout the show, he gets friendlier with her, although he is still sometimes a bit rude/angry, but Xiaoyao really knows how to interact with him and I liked her really much. Throughout the show, I found myself rooting for her and Xiang Liu, similar to Tushan Jing, she has a lot in common with both of them but I don’t know why, I feel like Xiang Liu would be the best match for her, because he is there in important situations, I just wish they had more scenes together, more romantic scenes, but I have hope in the second season and really can’t wait till it airs! I guess I have to read the novel in the meantime. I wouldn’t have minded if the season had more episodes or covered everything. I find myself dropping shows when they have a lot of episodes, which is typical for chinese shows, but in this case, I always wanted to know what happens next and had to keep watching. I really really hope that maybe she will end up with Xiang Liu and will be happy but my heart hurt sometimes for Tushan Jing, especially when Fangfang Yiying kinda druggend and exploited him? Triggerwarning!! Maybe even r*ped him, but I still think that the child isn’t his son, rather the one from his brother so maybe fangfang yiying didn’t do anything with him because she was disgusted. Still, I don’t understand why she still wanted to marry him and why he did it in the end. He really kinda broke his promise to give anything up for Xiaoyao, I understand that she was hurt and angry but it actually wasn’t his fault, still, I think they somehow needed to kind of end their relationship to hopefully give change to my beloved Xiang Liu haha.
But I kinda wish they would have also shed more light on Cangxuans feelings for her, I wasn’t sure for a long time because it’s rather subtle, but now I think he has feelings for her and only her (I already spoilered myself a little bit), so I still feel sorry for him that he can’t have her, but one notizes, that his status/power is more important for him than anything… and having a wife already is I think the elimination for him being a potential partner for Xiaoyao. So yeah, I am very very curious how the story will end and how the second season will be, but I have high hopes and expectations and I‘m very glad for another season, although I hope it won’t be too long to wait. I was also amazed by the beautiful dialogues/story telling sometimes, there were themes who really resonated with me and I often was very touched by the story and really felt with the characters. The visuals, acting and music also were really really good! But now I kinda feel lost after finishing it, this show was just too good, will definitely rewatch.

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What a talented cast! I came here for Yang Zi but from episode 1 have been captivated by the actors.

What a talented cast! I came here for Yang Zi but from episode 1 have been captivated by the actors from the little ones to the grown ups. The child actors did just a great job portraying little Xiao Yao and Cang Xuan.

Was waiting for season 2 to drop so that I could watch it all together. It finally has, I watched the newly released episodes of Season 2 before coming here and it wasn't necessarily a bad thing. I still liked the characters but I didn't know who they really were and why they were doing things they were. So, coming to this season, I can say that Yang Zi has grown so much as an actor. From portraying the Jin Mi in Ashes of love to Xiao Liu in Lost You Forever she has mastered the art of acting like a man. Her mannerisms are so on point. It puts other actors pretending to be men at shame. Kudos to her!

My two cents on the characters so far:
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Xiao Yao / Wen Xiao Liu / Haoling Jiu Yao / Xiling Jiu Yao: The woman has abandonment issues that are well warranted. Despite all that it is clear that she has liked Shi Qi from the get go. He has always treated her well. I was a bit mad at him for not showing up with Xuan and Nian came to collect the antidote, but since then he has proven himself. He is like a healing balm that Xiao Yao needs.

Xiyan Cang Xuan / Mr. Xuan: I guess we are supposed to forget that he had Xiao Liu tortured for hurting A Nian or that he had her leg broken. Xiao Yao doesn't seem to care about these things and has faith in her brother, so who are we to hold grudges? Although I liked the little boy and girl who promised to be each other's confidantes, the grown up Xuan failed her. But since he has found out that she is Xiao Yao he has treated her great so no more complains about him.

Tushan Jing / Ye Shi Qi: I liked his gentleness and care for Xiao Yao. The only thing that he has against him is that he is sometimes seems too passive. You can't help but love him, what a kind and gentle soul. He seems like someone who'll take care of Xiao Yao. I can't believe people hate his character. Why? Because he is too nice? Aren't you just like his brother Hou then. But I do agree that is a little too slow in taking action, I mean so many of the things could have been avoided had he taken care of his brother and fiancé's affair long time ago. I mean it is not like he doesn't have a brain, he helped Xuan so much in background.

Xiang Liu / Fangfeng Bei: We all have a thing for bad boys and the character shouts bad boy in spades. However, every time Xiang Liu met Xiao Liu, Xiao Liu ended up with physical injuries. And no, it is not just the fang marks, but the forty whips and the broken leg. I mean do you want to be kicked by your partner and it is not some kind of roleplay where he'll be gentle but with actual malice? I wanted to ship these two because they look great together but I don't want Xiao Yao to suffer more. He reminds me a lot of the Novoland Sky Castle character, Feng Tian Yi.

Haoling Yi / A Nian: What a cringeworthy character. I wouldn't mind if they stopped adding such childish characters to great productions like this. Spoiled, not held accountable so keeps on bullying other people. Where's the humility? Her character improved a bit as she grew to care for Xiao Yao, but she is just a brat that you can't tolerate.

About who Xiao Yao should end up with?
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=> Tushan Jing. I see his faults, he just lets people bulldoze over him. But Xiao Yao is no angel. Following the story, the guy basically was drugged and abused. He did not have anyone to comfort him because he wouldn't speak to anyone about it. What's worse, had Xiao Yao been fully invested in the relationship she wouldn't have taken the easy way out. She should have cared that he was violated and now with the child has no option but to marry the woman who did that to him. I believe had she chosen to stick by his side, they could have figured things out.
=> I wouldn't have minded Xiao Yao ending up with Xiang Liu / Fangfeng Bei because he did give up one of his lives to save her, which was actually quite selfless. It wasn't even the only time he did something like this, he even took on the poisonous bug knowing what it meant. But what do you want Xiao Yao to do, even had there not been Tushan Jing, do you want her to throw herself at Xiang Liu at every turn, knowing full well that he is only going to reject her in brutal ways? What's more, his rejection would never be just verbal one, but also physically abusive one. Had he wanted he could have tried to be with her, but he did not really want that. He never dreamed of it because of who he was.

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Wtf. What is this drama. It's stunning.

Lost You Forever is a different breed of xianxia drama. It explores love in its many forms, whether it be possessive, destructive, enduring, or honest, in a way that pays equal attention to all characters, so you can never really know where their relationships with each other are headed (if you haven't read the source material). There are a lot of dramas boasting insane production and interesting premises only to fall into cliches at the last half of the series, but the first season of Lost You Forever kept me hooked until the end with its unpredictability and impeccable chemistry among ALL members of the main cast. The plot does get draggy a bit in the third quarter, but by then you're probably in too deep and rooting for at least one favorite character to get a nice ending.

The characters, particularly Xiaoyao, Cang Xuan, Tushan Jing, Xiang Liu, and Chishui Fenglong have their unique charms that draw the audience in and drive the story forward. The characterization is complex, but so far consistent. For example, Xiang Liu undergoes some character development, but he doesn't completely change; his cruelty and coldness remain present. Tushan Jing is smart in business but too naive and kind for his own good, even though he tries to be more forceful. Xiaoyao shifts into the role of a princess but still retains some manly habits. Personally, I like Chishui Fenglong the best (as a character, not as Xiaoyao's love interest)-- he's introduced late in the series but he brought a bright, rejuvenating energy that helped prevent the story from being too heavy or too cutesy, and he seems to be the character that pulls everyone and everything together. Also, fashion king (the colors, embroidery/patterns, and silhouettes of his costumes are so pretty).

Of the cast, Yang Zi is phenomenal as always, and I want to praise Zhang Wan Yi as Cang Xuan, because boy, can he match the Yang Zi's energy especially when acting out the lowest points and most tragic moments of their characters (the screaming, the way they clutch at each other, the shaking and crying). Another standout is Tan Jian Ci, whose looks are arguably the softest out of the main leads, but magnificently brings the deadly and intoxicating Xiang Liu/Fangfeng Bei to life (his range!!) Also bless his sweet vocals in the official soundtracks.

The first season of Lost You Forever has it all with compelling storytelling, an impressive cast, gorgeous production, and lovely music (I've read some translations of the lyrics of a couple of songs in the drama, and I'm in love with the intricate lyricism.) I caught a couple of errors in the special effects, but they're only memorable because the effects are normally so beautifully done. I've seen glimpses of Season 2 from the official trailer, and we're gearing up for heartbreak, but here's to hoping the quality is up to par with, if not better than Season 1.

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A truly amazing story, it's basically perfect

"Lost You Forever" follows Xiao Yao, a woman who's disguising herself as a man to work as a doctor in a small town. In reality, she's the granddaughter of the King, but got separated from the family when her mother died. Xiao Yao has a cousin named Cang Xuan, he desperately tries to look for her, but since she's hiding her powers, he can't find her.
One day Xiao Yao saves a homeless man and she named him Shi Qi. Times passes and the two fell in love with each other, Xiao Yao then discover that Shi Qi is actually Tushan Jing, a rich young man. There's also Xiang Liu, a nine headed demon who basically keeps Xiao Yao as a pet, using her blood to heal himself, but actually Xiang Liu fell in love with her and is using that excuse to keep seeing Xiao Yao.

The drama is simply amazing, I was expecting a light story, but it's so much more than just that. The characters, the soundtrack, the romance and the whole development is spectacular, it really surprised me.
Xiao Yao is a badass, no wonder basically all the men fell in love with her. HAHAHAHA'
Speaking about the romance, it's hard to choose one man to ship, but my heart was always leaning towards Xiang Liu, his relationship with Xiao Yao was really beautiful.

Tushan Jing is the most weak character, I honestly think Xiao Yao could do better, but she loves him and it's clear he loves her too. That scene when Xiao Yao is in the forest and Tushan Jing just keeps holding her, not even caring for his own safety in the fire, it showed how much he cared for her.
But then we have Cang Xuan, who technically shouldn't love Xiao Yao, since they are cousins, but his love is something like an obsession and also because he thinks of her as family, maybe he can't separate the two things and are mistakenly thinking he's in love with her as a man.

There will be a second season and I'm very excited to see how this story will end <3

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A Tale of Love, Loneliness, and Power That Cuts to the Soul

If you are a sucker of good acting,wonderful storyline and beautiful casts then go for it!

“Lost You Forever” is not just a fantasy drama. it’s an emotional odyssey wrapped in myth, pain, and desire. At its heart lies Yang Zi, who delivers one of her best performances. Her portrayal of Xiao Yao / Wen Xiaoliu, a woman living disguised as a man for decades, is so authentic and layered that you forget you’re watching a gender bending role. Yang Zi completely vanishes into her character her voice, posture, and expressions perfectly capture both the weariness of someone who has suffered deeply and the quiet strength of a survivor. She plays Xiao Yao not as a heroine of fantasy, but as a human being flawed, scarred, and endlessly resilient.

What makes Yang Zi’s performance even more memorable is her undeniable chemistry with all three male leads each dynamic feels different yet equally convincing. With Tushan Jing (Deng Wei), she shares a tender, almost fated love built on quiet devotion. With Xiang Liu (Tan Jian Ci), it’s passion wrapped in pain, a love that burns brightly but cannot last. And with Cang Xuan (Zhang Wan Yi), it’s the bittersweet bond of family, duty, and destiny. The emotional intensity between her and each man forms the core of this drama’s power.

🌿 Character and Story Breakdown

🔹 Xiao Yao / Wen Xiaoliu (Yang Zi)
Once a carefree princess, Xiao Yao is forced into exile after her family’s downfall, leading her to live disguised as a man and survive through wit and endurance. She embodies heartbreak and rebirth a woman who has lost everything yet still learns to love again. Yang Zi captures her loneliness so vividly that every small smile feels like sunlight after years of darkness.

🔹 Tushan Jing (Deng Wei)
Gentle, loyal, and devoted. He is the embodiment of warmth and selfless love. His calm presence contrasts Xiao Yao’s chaotic life. Their relationship feels like a safe haven, and Tan Jian Ci brings an emotional purity that’s heartbreaking to watch. His love is patient, enduring, and silent, the kind that aches quietly rather than demands attention.

🔹 Xiang Liu (Tan Jian Ci)
The most complex and haunting of the trio. Half-beast, half-man, Xiang Liu is both Xiao Yao’s savior and her destroyer. He represents freedom and danger, and Tan Jian Ci performance gives him an almost tragic nobility. Every scene between Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao feels charged like a dance between longing and inevitability. His love is forbidden yet the most profound, existing beyond words or future.

🔹 Cang Xuan (Zhang Wan Yi)
Xiao Yao’s cousin and childhood companion. His love is entangled with ambition and guilt. As the heir to a throne, he chooses power over love, yet his heart remains bound to her. Zhang Wan Yi beautifully portrays a man torn between empire and affection, making him both sympathetic and frustrating. His and Xiao Yao’s relationship anchors the political side of the story.

🔹 Supporting Roles
The supporting characters whether allies or rivals enrich the world of “Lost You Forever.” Every subplot, from court intrigues to hidden loyalties, adds depth and tension, illustrating that in this world, love is both a weapon and a weakness.

⚔️ Story and World-Building

Set in a mythological era of gods, demons, and mortals, “Lost You Forever” builds an expansive yet intimate narrative. It explores themes of identity, loss, trauma, and the search for belonging. The pacing is deliberate, allowing the audience to live inside Xiao Yao’s world to feel her isolation and slow rediscovery of life and connection.

Visually, the show is breathtaking from the ethereal landscapes to the richly detailed costumes, every frame feels painterly. The cinematography and OST heighten the emotional weight, making scenes linger long after they end. The music, in particular, mirrors Xiao Yao’s melancholy and hope perfectly.

💬 Final Thoughts

“Lost You Forever” isn’t just a story about romance. It’s about how love survives in the face of pain, betrayal, and destiny. Every relationship feels raw and real, every emotion earned. Yang Zi anchors the entire show with grace and depth, while the male leads elevate it with distinct layers of devotion and conflict.

It is a beautifully heartbreaking drama that masterfully blends romance, angst, and politics. Its emotional depth keeps viewers captivated, as every character feels real and worth rooting for. The romance is tender yet painful each man in Xiao Yao’s life loves her selflessly but is bound by duty and fate, making their love both powerful and tragic. The show explores love not just as joy, but as sacrifice and silent suffering. With strong performances and intricate political intrigue adding richness to the plot, Lost You Forever is a gripping journey of love, pain, and destiny.

The result is a drama that leaves you aching, mesmerized, and completely undone. It’s slow, emotional, and deeply human a reflection on how even in a world of gods and monsters, love remains the most powerful and fragile force of all.

⭐ Rating: 10 / 10 — For the acting, emotional resonance, and unforgettable storytelling.
⭐ Must-Watch If You Love: Emotional fantasy dramas, strong female leads, and beautifully tragic love stories.

Though I understand this won’t be everyone’s cup of tea, I’d highly recommend you watch it for yourself and make your own choice.


"if you don't earn it on your own, even it's given to you, you won't be able to keep it." (epi 21 by emperor of xian)

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"Lost You Forever: A Disappointing Chinese Drama with Underwhelming Performances"

As an avid fan of Chinese dramas, I was eagerly looking forward to watching "Lost You Forever" led by actress Yang Zi. However, after investing hours into this series, I can't help but feel utterly disappointed and let down by the overall production.

First and foremost, the biggest issue with this drama was Yang Zi's portrayal of the lead character. Her appearance and on-screen presence were utterly distracting. Not to be overly critical, but her look was far from captivating, and it was challenging to become emotionally invested in her character's journey. As a lead actress, one would expect an appealing and charismatic presence, but unfortunately, Yang Zi failed to deliver on this front.

Additionally, Yang Zi's acting performance was heavily marred by her slapstick approach. While humor can be an essential element in a drama, her comedic attempts felt forced and exaggerated. It almost seemed like she was trying too hard to be funny, which resulted in awkward and cringe-worthy scenes that disrupted the overall narrative flow.

But Yang Zi's lackluster performance was not the only issue plaguing "Lost You Forever." The supporting cast also failed to impress with their subpar acting skills. The lack of chemistry and genuine emotion between the characters made it difficult to invest in their relationships and care about their individual storylines. A drama is only as good as its ensemble, and unfortunately, the weak performances from the supporting cast seriously hindered the show's potential.

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Remarkable cdrama that stands as a shining example of character-driven storytelling at its finest.

I always love the novel and I am so glad that the drama delivers the chapters in the novel with justice.

One of the standout features of the drama is its impeccable production quality and breathtaking visual effects. The attention to detail in the settings, costumes, props, and cinematography has earned praise from critics and viewers alike. Notably, the drama's use of original voices and minimal CGI adds to its authenticity and realism. Behind-the-scenes insights into the construction of the captivating town, the main backdrop for the story, have only deepened the audience's appreciation for the drama's craftsmanship.

As the story unfolds, viewers are drawn into a captivating world of mystery, love, and heartache.

In this show we follow the lives and troubles of four main characters: Princess Xiao Yao and the three men who love her: her cousin prince Xyian (who she sees and loves like a brother), Tushan Jing (who she has saved and fallen in love with), and Xiang Liu, the poisonous nine-headed snake (who Xiao Yao is attracted to but refuses to accept it).
This emotionally charged and intricately woven narrative pulls you into a world of passion, sacrifice, and complex relationships that will linger with you long after you stopped watching.

What truly sets Lost You Forever apart is its unapologetic willingness to delve into the complexities of human emotions. Our main leads choices are never simple, and the drama doesn't shy away from depicting the consequences of their actions and sometimes you will hate them for that.

The acting is the best I have seen in a long time from Yang Zi as the main female character, to Zhang Wan Yi, Deng Wei, and (my favorite) Tan Jian Ci, the nine-headed snake.

Yang Zi impression of her character makes her awesome. Each chapter or episode has a unique detailed from the book. Fascinating, excited, great panomaric scenes. I watched so many dramas but I really consider this one as a masterpiece.
Something that constantly struck me throughout the drama was when she was a male, there was perfect amount of feminine characters and perfect amount of masculine characteristics when she was a female. It is exactly what saved Ye Shi Qi, made Xiang Liu trust her and fall in love, made Fenglong admire her and made her someone that Xuan can depend on.

Tushan Jing/Deng Wei was the only compatible and safe option for her, I accept that, even though I didn't want them to be together. I didn't feel chemistry in their relationship and Jing was apathetic, I don't know how to say it seems like something was missing. He is the male character that treats her the nicest, and that can give her the peaceful life that she wants, but I still find him boring: he has no motivations for anything he does other than be with her and help her.

Tan Jian Ci playing Xiang Liu/FangFeng Bei, was the perfect cast for the tortured soul yet filled with love and compassion Snake demon. There were so many scenes where not a word was needed for this actor to be able to make us feel the pain and love of his character through the screen. Our beloved Xiang Liu, enigmatic and cold, but completely in love with Xiaoyou, loved her deeply, protected and saved her, the hard thing is that she didn't know about his love for her, he remained faithful to his principles until the end, it was difficult to follow his cruel and tragic destiny that he himself chose. I would also like it if he was Xiaoyou's choice. The last episode to me is really about him, and reminding us again, how deeply he loves her. He is the only one who loved her, not asking for anything in return. He always protected her, often at great cost to himself.
Tan Jian Ci did such a great job portraying the conflicted Xiang Liu that clearly cares for Xiao Yao but has his own values that he cannot abandon. Part of me thinks he was too stubborn in holding his values to the Chi Chen army.

Regarding the performances, Zhang Wan Yi /Cang Xuan - simply shone here, scenes of him drunkenly confessing his love to her are heartbreaking, you feel his pain, in the Karma tea illusion scene it is a very strong scene and what a performance!!!
I pitied him, whenever he appeared on screen, he brought a sense of melancholy with him: even in the few scenes where he was happy, I felt an underlying sadness for everything he went through, and likely will go through, that made his happiness unreal, short-lived; someone not destined to be happy.

He wants to be with Xiao Yao, wants to protect her, but to do this his sole focus is on his political ambitions, and thus ends up drifting more and more away from her in the process.

The childhood characters, young actor and actress portrayed a really excellent work. I already wanted to cry after their childhood scenes, how they only had each other to rely on. I could really see the feelings on the young actor and actress faces.

Lost You Forever is not just a drama, it's an emotional rollercoaster of redemption, love, and fate. The gripping storyline combined with outstanding performances makes it a must-watch for any drama enthusiast.

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Too Dark.

Coming from watching The Legend of Shen Li, This drama wasn't the best one to follow. Season 1 is just a constant game of tag between love triangles or squares I'm not even sure. But the relationships are too dark and disturbing to watch especially how beautiful Shen Li's story is. This one just takes too long to resolve issues. Too few action scenes. Too much focus on unnecessary love angles and the story takes a back seat. The most disturbing part is the characters the main FL "falls" for are either a sorry pathetic clingy rich boy or a psychopath who treats her like a slave in a plantation. Like falling in love with a crybaby or your sadistic torturer who whips your skin off or breaks your legs or tries to drown you every time you go on a date. I mean if that's your type of Romantic drama, this one is for you.

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A masterpiece !

In this drama you have 2 quests, one for the FL played by a stunning Yang Zi looking for her life, her love, and the second quest by Xiyan Cang Xuan looking to rule the empire.
Half of the drama is located in mortal realm, with the FL looking like a man, leaving as a doctor. She will meet the other leads there, but nobody will talk about her male appearance even if Xiang Liu and Tushan Jing discovered it. In the second part of the drama she will be back as a princess, and we will see more plots, broken love stories etc.
What s make this drama outstanding is the acting ! Yang Zi is clearly on my podium of Chinese actresses, same level of Xhao Lu Si. The character suits her so well ! The male leads are very good too, i discoverd Tan Jian Ci, and he is sooooo good ! I really want him to end with the FL !! I m looking forward the season 2 !

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