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i found ih on the app on my Phone. I started it and then closed the app on the phone and started the tv app. Then it was listed under continue watching

exactly, i was also confused, have i overseeing the cousin before?

its still make no sense. Mud says it was rape, Knight says, he must apologized, but Mud doesnt know the whole truth. If there is a minsunderstandig, why apologize, but if it is rape, all Persons acted weird. It looks like they prepare a great plot twist without thinking what they really show now.

Its now on gagaoolala

Why you are angry about a matter you are not involved. Seek your love as you like but dont judge about the love of others, especially when it is just a fiction.

Must you kiss him? Its not your bussiness, in my youth people were disturbed by seeing two men kissing, also today there are enogh who couldnt let others in peace. Let others live their live in peace

Hey feel hugged, Life is often not fair. Its bitter to get such a reaction in this time, when you need confirmation/aknowledgement you get rejection and lose your selfconfidene and acceptance. As you i need years to come to terms with myself, when my best friend ened our frinedship cause he dont want do have a gay friend. So i become a littel like jung hyung, always in fear, my smoke friends could reject me. But it was stupid, because as i come back to myself years later, no one, absolutly no one rejected me, all were nice and give support.

Perhabs look again, in my country it is released the last week

i understand, you are a red flag who enjoys gossiping about others ok bye have a nice day ^^

Reason why i like Nut

Since many here don't like Nut, see him as a Red Flag or hate him, I would like to explain here my view of why I think he is lovable and why he deserves happiness in life.

First of all, you shouldn't accuse him of the carelessness of the script, I read somewhere that they forgot to show a time jump, it wasn't like Tofu died and immediately revived the relationship with Tarn, that probably took months to a year, which is understandable. Tarn was in a coma for months. And the sentence that he missed him doesn't mean that the relationship is yet back.

Furthermore, you have to consider that we were only half informed by the flashbacks of the entire series and that false impressions were constantly implanted in us, which were later relativized again in another flashback.

If you list chronologically, then there is already a picture. Nut is born into a happy family, especially the photos in the family album show that Sib loves Nut and is proud of his son.

As Nut grows taller, there are Sib's first disturbing actions, the tearing up of the drawing of the rainbow, the burning of the paper figures because it is too feminine.

I suspect that Sib was already afraid that Nut was not his child, but Saen's. Saen cared more about Na und Nut than about his own wife.

In addition, even today it is still difficult to determine them with certainty when identical twins are considered fathers, at that time it was not possible even with DNA analysis. There was no way for him to resolve his doubts, which led to them becoming ever stronger.

Nut senses the rejection and hopes for his mother, but she refuses any help.

He feels guilty and unloved because of his feelings for boys. At one point his father even calls him a bastard, the parents are completely incapable of dealing with Nut, the father only reacts with severity and tries to determine Nut's life in every aspect.

In the process, sib completely loses control that he even punches and kicks Nut, here you can only guess that this was probably not an isolated case.

First of all, Nut has to change schools, although there was no reason at all. We learn little about it, but in the end it means the loss of all his former school friends.

Through the friendship and later relationship with Tarn, he then lives in 2 worlds, the one in which he is accepted as he is and the other in which he tries to push him into something he is not with expectations and demands.

After he has been able to lead this double life unnoticed for a long time, he is then busted with Tarn, the director catches them kissing and they are caught twice by their father.

And in this situation, he then decides for the family, he breaks with tarn and tries to be a boy who lives up to expectations. In return for not being gay, he does not need to go to the military academy and is allowed to study what he likes.

But whichever way you look at it, he sacrificed himself for the family and that will continue.
This is an often observed phenomenon in family matters, that children then want to fight for the denied affection and love with loyal behavior. (I studied law and also work as a lawyer in family disputes).

We then learn little about his time as a student, except that he moves into a dormitory. In any case, he seems to behave as desired, has no connections and does nothing that could attract the father's indignation.

Then the father dies, the mother becomes mentally ill. Nut then tries to shed the past by changing his surroundings and moving into the new house. But he doesn't let the mother down and takes her to the new house and takes care of her, buys her things, Keungcha and tries to help her wherever he can.

But Na is no longer in reality, she loves her son as he is, but is unable to say or show it.
And when she shows it, as she did by cooking the lunchbox every day, it is a bad memory for Nut, because she always tried to sit out conflicts and arguments by asking for something to eat.
Several things come together here, at first Nut is completely overwhelmed. He has isolated himself and has no friends except his work colleagues, he no longer feels love for others and probably doesn't feel loved by anyone.

The care of his mother exceeds his strength, he becomes easily irritable and in the end only scolds her, even in trivial matters.

Na, if certainly due to illness, tramples on his feelings. Nut must have loved his father, otherwise he would have fled long ago before his death.

Now to see his mother living in an illusory world where her husband and Nut's father is Saen must be an ordeal for him.

He is in a dilemma, on the one hand he wants to be there for his mother, on the other hand he can't bear that his mother never has a good word for him and denies his.

That's why he's so quickly irritated, through all the years and certainly many attempts to turn something around for the better, he just can't do it anymore, which then leads to him freaking out even over small things.

After that, he is always sorry, and he wants to do better next time and fails again and feels unloved, misunderstood and ultimately incapable. This cycle between mistake, remorse, improvement and next mistake, fail makes him a highly unhappy person. But he wants to function and cannot escape this cycle.

This is the situation in which tofu enters his life. His naïve and innocent nature moves something in Nut, but only very slowly and at first hardly noticeably.
But you can tell how much he suffers when Tofu shows understanding in the conversation after Nut has beaten him up and is the first to acknowledge it ever, what situation Nut is in, how many scars rest on his soul and how overwhelmed he is.

Please don't get me wrong, that doesn't justify his outbursts of anger, but humans are not machines. Over the years, Nut has ultimately been turned into a mental wreck.

Although he sacrifices himself for others, he does not experience gratitude, respect or recognition from anyone, I imagine that is terrible.

What is particularly problematic here is that Na has forgotten how to speak at all. For example, when Nut reveals the love between him and Tofu, she doesn't say a word, which provokes Nut so much that he starts flirting with Tofu in front of her and kissing him in order to simply provoke a reaction, which Na is incapable of and then continues to make him believe that the silence would mean rejection and that they will continue to not accept him as the one that he is.

That's also the case in Chiang Mai, instead of countering Jan and saying how happy she is with Nut and Tofu and loves them both, she is silent again and Nut has to defend himself again.
At first I also asked myself why he didn't at least have the courage to seek out Tarn after the death of his father. Or why Tarn only tried to visit him after his return from Japan.

I think Tarn was waiting for him because he knew that Nut wasn't ready, but was trapped in loyalty to his family, who wouldn't accept him as gay. And Nut himself has given it up because he feels guilty for having left him for the good of the family.

The series particularly touched me in 2 points, on the one hand, like Song, I had to experience that my older brother died young in a traffic accident. On the other hand, like Nut, I denied myself for years for fear of disappointing expectations. My parents were not so much the problem but my best friend at the time, with whom I was in love and last but not least, I tortured myself because I didn't accept myself and felt irrationally guilty because I couldn't give my parents what they hoped for (didn't demand) and I always thought to myself, if only my brother could still live and relieve me of this burden.

That's why I feel so much for him. Nut is a highly sensitive person who has been downright broken in a hostile environment, who has always tried to prove his worth to his family, but has never received a word of recognition from family or friends.

I also think it's good that the story doesn't get cheesy and pretends that after the first kiss of Tofu everything is fine and Nut changes from one day to the next. This is a process that, as the story is told, always brings relapses, such as the scolding when it turns out that she forgot the visit of Tarn and that he gave the book as a gift. Or when she didn't turn off the stove and caused a fire.

Nut was under such indescribable pressure that the boiler exploded again and again. Only tofu was able to slowly but steadily take the pressure off him, because he was the first to understand him.
Not in vain he says after the song at the coffin, how am I supposed to get through everything without you. Tofu was the support and love of his life. What he once expressed through the sentence, through Tarn I got to know the world, through tofu the beauty of the world.

That's why I love Nut despite all his flaws, because I just think he deserves to be happy. You can't blame him for the problematic further development from the degradation of tofu from human back to a teddy bear, the script screwed up.

even worse, they gave him a horror experience, witnessing the murder of his love. I don't even dare to imagine what kind of images nut has in his head in many moments of his further life. And the constant reproach, why didn't I forbid him to go to Jan.

I feel so sorry for him that I also begrudge him that he can process Tofu's death in some way and have a happy relationship with Tarn.

Because what else is left for us humans, suicide? Depression or ones like Na, no we have to go further and at the same time keep our loved ones in our hearts and in our memories. And I have no doubt, that Nut is going this way, he had suffered so much in his young life, he deserve some happiness

There are far distances betwwen love and a red flag, you have no sense of being fair to people, you just see what you want to see so you can gossip.

Nonsense, what is wrong with you and others, they show us a deep character with flaws and advantages and you can just judge him. Perhapy you are a red Flag :D

Its so unrealistic, so my emotions are not really touched, its more anger about the stupid idea

Okay i dont now the book, perhaps in a Book that isnt so obvious. But to see the party and then "Hey we fund Knight in in your bed lying over you, but we thought, tets keep it secret is just crazy

The plot is simply miserably written. I don't know what the authors think, but if someone rapes, especially the brother or brother of a friend, they really want to make you believe that no one goes to the police, informs the parents, etc.
Of course he won't have done it, but the brother and the entire clique believe it and let him get away with it? On the contrary, except for the brother, all remain friends. And the brother allows an invitation? And the friends are also happy to see their old buddy again.
With many things that I don't understand in the Asian series, I wonder if they are simply cultural or educational differences. So for my taste the fists fly much too fast and no one cares.
But that's completely beyond my imagination, it's just far-fetched without thinking.

Its always the same, MDL Members has always something ot complain. So there are homophobic Voter, but also part of the communiy votes down, when they dont feel satysfied or believe the Plot shows homosexuals in way they dont llke.

You should help the Company by looking it on their channel. Its free, so there is no need to use other sources

is there an uncut version? They offers a directors cut at their youtube Channel. but i have no idea if this means more NC Scenes or just another Cut

But its typical for BL, who never respect the fact that time is precious. Wu Suo Wei will suffer in future, cause he regrets that he not spend more time with her. Also he couldnt prepare to this lost. BLs thinks always time is useless.

I dislke that the mother dont inform him. Time is something presious. Wu Su Wie will suffer in Future for the time he had lost. And a sudden Death hits you anexpected. if she told him, he would cherish her last time beeing together and learns to deal with her Dead better.