Your pov always a nice read!!! š It made me feel the pain in ep 13 again. I loved that they chose this route,…
Thank you, my love<3 I enjoyed the episode very much in fact but im a bit nervous about whatās about to happen in the last episode since weāve got little time left. It seems a bit inevitable that theyāll end the episode on a cliffhanger (unless they quickly try to wrap things up but it might feel rushed in that case), but I wonder what type of cliffhanger it would be. I feel like they could, within the episode, make kimchay forgive each other and even get back together as theyāre the couple that needs the least amount of screen time for that. In fact, based on Jeff Saturās Why Donāt You Stay MV, then itās very likely to occur (as we saw Kim in Yokās bar). Itās most probable that Kim will find Chay staying with Yok, and because the bar is more secluded from the apparent battlefield that will happen in the main house, they may have some time to sit down and discuss their feelings and opinions openly. The issue is that we did also see a shot in the MV of Kim smoking(?) near a staircase thatās likely to also be at Yokās bar, so unless thatās before he meets Chay there, it might mean that Kim failed to reach him again. However, given the pace of the series that might be redundant for the plot so I still think that the two will get to have a heart to heart conversation that will mend their relationship.
As for Kinn and Porsche, I believe that we will easily get to see them back together, or at the very least, weāll know that they still love and trust each other. Theyāve reached a point in their relationship when even if Porsche pulls things like this (running away, finding things behind Kinnās back), there is still a silent understanding that they do care and promise not to harm the other. I sense that from how Porsche listened and stayed by Kinnās side even when it was first revealed to him that his parentsā death was covered up by Mr.Korn and even when he found out that Kinn had manipulated him into becoming his bodyguard. Thereās also the note that he left Kinn before leaving, stating that he loves Kinn even at that point (when his departure could easily be considered a symbol of rupture in the relationship, or in the mafia world, treason). I just think that Kinn will still need that verbal confirmation from Porsche as we saw in the trailer: āIām on your sideā because now Porsche is indeed threatening Kinnās dadās life with a gun, literally.
Plus. VegasPete are just at the beginning of their love, it has not fully matured yet, in fact, depending on how you see it one could say that it hasnāt even begun (weāre at the pre-stages) because they need to rebuild their foundation, restart again as Vegas proposed (just not in the conditions he was suggesting, wherein he has power over Pete). So given that the last episode will be longer as well, and that we did already see Pete and Vegas reunite quickly last ep, weāre sure to at least have some fulfilling interaction (and not just, oh I see you on the battlefield and I quickly try to get past you), unless the ālongest episodeā just means thatāll be a couple minutes longer than the usual but now that would be cruel from BOC lol. Thankfully, because we have had them reunite previously, that means once they reunite once more they will (hopefully) get to settle things and find common ground. I think we will see them accept their feelings for each other (especially from Pete as I think that Vegas has already started to accept and has taken he first step to seek forgiveness, which was to see pete again and apologise). If thatās the case, I believe we will see that mutual acceptance in a more subtle way and that theyāll still be either physically separated by the end of the episode or then they will end the first season with mutual acceptance/love but that we wonāt see them cozy up to each other immediately nor become a couple.
I guess weāll just have to see. These last few episodes Iāve really been all about VegasPete and still am but Iām actually most looking forward to seeing Kim searching for Chay in Yokās bar. And I think thatās because Iāve been hoping to see Kim express himself in a vulnerable way to Chay (which he will have to do for Chay to believe him and return to him, as we saw previously that simply going back to him physically or even helping him out - like in the warehouse -doesnāt move Chay, in that sense, Chay is definitely more stubborn that Porsche for real). So Iām most looking forward to seeing Kim desperateness (at the risk of sounding sadistic), given that heās been good at keeping himself composed. Though even in the Chay-partying-scene, when Kim was much less composed, he gave himself away to anger which only distanced him from someone like Chay who needs a warm, and communicative approach (see how that works when Porsche talks to him directly, without deceit, and also comforts Chay in the process). So yeah, those are my thoughts for now :)
Thank you for often replying to my comments btw, that means a lot to me that you like my analyses ^^
This is the most unexpected crossover ever jdjhcdjc I watched I-land when it was airing and Geonu was one of my favourites, meanwhile I was already familiar with Mew through What The Duck and Tharntype, I never thought Iād see the day where they act together, and as romantic partners at that ?? lmao, it almost seems like a fever dream
The scene in which Vegas finds him must have been so difficult for him as Pete was still processing everything that had occurred, the trauma he'd gone through and the inner conflict growing inside of him. Pete is well aware of his feelings for Vegas yet knows he must push those feelings away as, morally speaking, if he doesnt refuse them at this stage, he knows he will completely lose himself. He could previously offer Vegas sympathy, and share more about himself in the form of a rival or friend, but romantic love is something else. Love is too much. This realisation is harsher for Pete as he knows full well that Vegas is still disturbingly abusive even if he understands that Vegas' abuse stems his own pain, that's it's because Vegas himself is hurt. Then again, Pete knows best that Vegas can disregard anyone at any moment, including him, but that even if Vegas keeps him around, it'd be as a mere pet or worse, an object of projection as he mentions. The realisation that the one person he shouldnt be feeling love for is also a person who doesn't see him nor treat him as human, to realise that you may be completely insifignificant to the one you love, just like how Pete felt around his father: useless, without worth. In the end, Pete and Vegas really are so similar.
I love your comments, and Im happy you liked ep, I loved VP, but have mixed feelings, so, what do you think will…
I'm flustered by your lovely comment/question, thank you ^^š To me, VegasPete is starting to slowly flow in the direction of romantic attraction, but it's not quite there yet. In the last episode, the sex scene was fueled by Vegas' mental breakdown/mourning but also as a way to satisfy the long-held curiosity that both Vegas and Pete had about each other. Plus how, Vegas is the type of character who needs to physically vent which he only knows how to do by either hurting/torturing someone else or himself, or then by engaging in sexual activities. But we know that, at this stage, he no longer wants to physically hurt Pete (at least not without consent and not as a way to vent), and so he resorts to slap and punch himself. Then when Pete stops him and asks him not to do so, it's almost like he has the realisation that he can try out the third option with Pete (as in, sex), of course, only with his approval. Which is why i really like that he slightly tempts Pete, without forcing him, not initiating unless Pete does, which is exactly why he seems to give up and Pete ends up initiating a deep kiss. So i see the sex scene in particular more so as exploration and as a self soothing mechanism (the colours really reflect this, mostly being blueish colours that are associated with feelings of sadness, plus the fact itself that the intimate scenes are an extension of Vegas' expressed sorrow).
There's also the rival factor that tunes in here. Im not sure if you remember, but in one of my comments i was explaining how i think one reason Vegas appreciates and is able to open up to Pete is because of how he treats him as an equal, and not just any equal, a rival in particular. This was especially apparent in the first torture scene when Vegas taunts Pete and in return, Pete sadistically laughs and smirks at him in retaliation, almost like a challenge. It's later brought up quickly with Vegas telling Pete to "stop pretending to sleep and laugh at (him)Ā Ā». And i feel like they've subtly kept this up until now without it necessarily being mentioned even, almost like a secret language. Which is why, before the sex scene, its almost like Vegas challenges Pete amusingly. I like to think that it's the reason why Pete blurts out "you're a psycho" because he didnt think Vegas would tease him essentially in that way, especially because he knows that Vegas is very capable of going through it if Pete takes up the challenge, and again, I appreciate that even then, consent is key.
So, to come back to your question, i think that in the next episode, we're going to see romantic feelings form and properly develop between the two as we saw in the preview that Pete and Vegas have a heart to heart talk after having had sex for the first time. I don't think they'd "fall in love" immediately just because of what they did but i think that we may start to see a stronger form of attachment where Vegas and Pete will finally interact without the power imbalance imposed by the chains (when Pete was still captive). Speaking of, i thought it was brilliant how they created an opportunity for Pete to escape before the sex scene because that truly showed Pete's stance, that there is a part of him that wants to be there for and be by Vegas' side, willingly. He's not so naive as to risk his own life, potentially his grandmother's, and even eventually Kinn and Porsche's possibly (as he could be used as a hostage), so it's not just pity that made him stay. It's a true sense of empathy and affection he is starting to feel for Vegas, and the way that, he too, could connect and open up to him in such a vulnerable way, that made him stay. So i like that those scenes took place as it would have been a lot more complicated to unpack the possible romanticisation/morally questionable aspects of the sex scene had he still been chained. In episode 11, the sex scene solidifies their trust for each other in my view, trust with the chains, the cords, the safe practice of sex. It's a safe space for the two of them, and in the act, they feel more complete than they ever have.
In the upcoming episodes, the foreseeing conflict will probably have to do with romance clashing with duty. Pete is technically free to some extent but he's going to stay for a while longer with Vegas out of his own volition, because he cares, and through that, their bond will strenghten. Issue is that, because he has attained a certain amount of freedom (he has a choice now). It might weight more and more on Pete that he has to return and fulfil his duties as a bodyguard, especially as he initially stayed because he couldnt bear to leave Vegas crumbled like he was. However, if Vegas' state improves, that need/sense of obligation almost may weaken in the face of duty (and we know that Pete eventually escapes, according to the novel, so im curious to see what specifically gets him to do so without him telling Vegas in an honest manner, given that he's been so straightforward with him so far, and unlike Porsche, he has a deeper capacity for psychological understanding/analysis). The question is how does Vegas evolve from here? Vegas is twisted and damaged character, he won't become a knight and shining hero overnight, he will perhaps, always retain bits and pieces of what made him this way in the first place. The scene in which he kicks the book from Pete's hands is a perfect example of this. It's a great reminder to both Pete and the audience that even after all the "wholesome" scenes of Vegas feeding Pete and the kiss etc., he can still snap and act violently (withdrawing to the only defenses he know of). I'm thinking he might become more and more open to hearing Pete out and connecting with him, as he is finally discovering that warmth that he had always (subconsciously) seeked - pete said it best: "in other words, you need love". But he might be more reluctant and taken aback in some instances like we saw in the book. There's not much else to go on so I'll leave it at that :)
Hopefully i gave you a satisfying answer (i might just repost my comment as a general overview of the episode). Tell me what you think! <3
Not sure why, but I really shed quite a lot of tears watching the last episode, just because i was so moved. I may have teared up a few times before whilst viewing the series, but i was strangely pulled to the screen, unable to focus on anything else for a while even after i had finished it. It was a strange feeling, particularly with VegasPete. I felt my chest tighten even at the thought of them, perhaps it's because the beauty of the intimacy they shared that was just that impactful, and the way it's progressing so- naturally to me. I tried to capture a bit of that feeling in this edit, im not sure if it emcompasses everything but i think it reflects a bit of the state i was in watching the episode in itself :
i loved your observations, so glad i got to read them again and i agree 100%. it must've been super intriguing…
Thank you, i'm glad you enjoyed them!! And for sure, Vegas is witnessing someone like Pete for the first time and it's blowing him away haha he doesnt know what to do (just thinking about Vegas' face when Pete was being picky about the food lol). I'm excited to see him in love with Pete. I've got to say actually that Pete could be turning into my favourite character. The scene of him explaining his past to Vegas just encapsulates the way he views life in a very sensible, understanding yet critical manner. His hopefulness amid the darkness is captivating. So yeah, i def look forward to the rest ^^
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I enjoyed the episode very much in fact but im a bit nervous about whatās about to happen in the last episode since weāve got little time left. It seems a bit inevitable that theyāll end the episode on a cliffhanger (unless they quickly try to wrap things up but it might feel rushed in that case), but I wonder what type of cliffhanger it would be. I feel like they could, within the episode, make kimchay forgive each other and even get back together as theyāre the couple that needs the least amount of screen time for that. In fact, based on Jeff Saturās Why Donāt You Stay MV, then itās very likely to occur (as we saw Kim in Yokās bar). Itās most probable that Kim will find Chay staying with Yok, and because the bar is more secluded from the apparent battlefield that will happen in the main house, they may have some time to sit down and discuss their feelings and opinions openly. The issue is that we did also see a shot in the MV of Kim smoking(?) near a staircase thatās likely to also be at Yokās bar, so unless thatās before he meets Chay there, it might mean that Kim failed to reach him again. However, given the pace of the series that might be redundant for the plot so I still think that the two will get to have a heart to heart conversation that will mend their relationship.
As for Kinn and Porsche, I believe that we will easily get to see them back together, or at the very least, weāll know that they still love and trust each other. Theyāve reached a point in their relationship when even if Porsche pulls things like this (running away, finding things behind Kinnās back), there is still a silent understanding that they do care and promise not to harm the other. I sense that from how Porsche listened and stayed by Kinnās side even when it was first revealed to him that his parentsā death was covered up by Mr.Korn and even when he found out that Kinn had manipulated him into becoming his bodyguard. Thereās also the note that he left Kinn before leaving, stating that he loves Kinn even at that point (when his departure could easily be considered a symbol of rupture in the relationship, or in the mafia world, treason). I just think that Kinn will still need that verbal confirmation from Porsche as we saw in the trailer: āIām on your sideā because now Porsche is indeed threatening Kinnās dadās life with a gun, literally.
Then the cliffhanger could easily be about VegasPete. I initially thought that maybe the sĆ©ries would end on a mysterious cliffhanger about the parents, but thatās already being answered and most likely going to be resolved in episode 14. I also thought that maybe weād get to see more of VegasPete interacting before Pete left and that perhaps the last episode would show us Pete leaving and the VegasPete arc in season 1 would end with the scene of Vegas apologising to Pete. However, all of that happened already in the 13th episode - and Iām really glad about that , actually, because Iād like their romance to actually take off in the outside world where the two of them have definite free will, so that their love doesnāt risk passing off as Stockholm syndrome. And so that their romantic relationship itself would develop healthily despite how they started out. Issue is that it seems too good to be true for all three couples to end on a happy note in the first season. I mean, the second season risks being dull otherwise.
Plus. VegasPete are just at the beginning of their love, it has not fully matured yet, in fact, depending on how you see it one could say that it hasnāt even begun (weāre at the pre-stages) because they need to rebuild their foundation, restart again as Vegas proposed (just not in the conditions he was suggesting, wherein he has power over Pete). So given that the last episode will be longer as well, and that we did already see Pete and Vegas reunite quickly last ep, weāre sure to at least have some fulfilling interaction (and not just, oh I see you on the battlefield and I quickly try to get past you), unless the ālongest episodeā just means thatāll be a couple minutes longer than the usual but now that would be cruel from BOC lol. Thankfully, because we have had them reunite previously, that means once they reunite once more they will (hopefully) get to settle things and find common ground. I think we will see them accept their feelings for each other (especially from Pete as I think that Vegas has already started to accept and has taken he first step to seek forgiveness, which was to see pete again and apologise). If thatās the case, I believe we will see that mutual acceptance in a more subtle way and that theyāll still be either physically separated by the end of the episode or then they will end the first season with mutual acceptance/love but that we wonāt see them cozy up to each other immediately nor become a couple.
I guess weāll just have to see. These last few episodes Iāve really been all about VegasPete and still am but Iām actually most looking forward to seeing Kim searching for Chay in Yokās bar. And I think thatās because Iāve been hoping to see Kim express himself in a vulnerable way to Chay (which he will have to do for Chay to believe him and return to him, as we saw previously that simply going back to him physically or even helping him out - like in the warehouse -doesnāt move Chay, in that sense, Chay is definitely more stubborn that Porsche for real). So Iām most looking forward to seeing Kim desperateness (at the risk of sounding sadistic), given that heās been good at keeping himself composed. Though even in the Chay-partying-scene, when Kim was much less composed, he gave himself away to anger which only distanced him from someone like Chay who needs a warm, and communicative approach (see how that works when Porsche talks to him directly, without deceit, and also comforts Chay in the process). So yeah, those are my thoughts for now :)
Thank you for often replying to my comments btw, that means a lot to me that you like my analyses ^^
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The scene in which Vegas finds him must have been so difficult for him as Pete was still processing everything that had occurred, the trauma he'd gone through and the inner conflict growing inside of him. Pete is well aware of his feelings for Vegas yet knows he must push those feelings away as, morally speaking, if he doesnt refuse them at this stage, he knows he will completely lose himself. He could previously offer Vegas sympathy, and share more about himself in the form of a rival or friend, but romantic love is something else. Love is too much. This realisation is harsher for Pete as he knows full well that Vegas is still disturbingly abusive even if he understands that Vegas' abuse stems his own pain, that's it's because Vegas himself is hurt. Then again, Pete knows best that Vegas can disregard anyone at any moment, including him, but that even if Vegas keeps him around, it'd be as a mere pet or worse, an object of projection as he mentions. The realisation that the one person he shouldnt be feeling love for is also a person who doesn't see him nor treat him as human, to realise that you may be completely insifignificant to the one you love, just like how Pete felt around his father: useless, without worth. In the end, Pete and Vegas really are so similar.
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To me, VegasPete is starting to slowly flow in the direction of romantic attraction, but it's not quite there yet. In the last episode, the sex scene was fueled by Vegas' mental breakdown/mourning but also as a way to satisfy the long-held curiosity that both Vegas and Pete had about each other. Plus how, Vegas is the type of character who needs to physically vent which he only knows how to do by either hurting/torturing someone else or himself, or then by engaging in sexual activities. But we know that, at this stage, he no longer wants to physically hurt Pete (at least not without consent and not as a way to vent), and so he resorts to slap and punch himself. Then when Pete stops him and asks him not to do so, it's almost like he has the realisation that he can try out the third option with Pete (as in, sex), of course, only with his approval. Which is why i really like that he slightly tempts Pete, without forcing him, not initiating unless Pete does, which is exactly why he seems to give up and Pete ends up initiating a deep kiss. So i see the sex scene in particular more so as exploration and as a self soothing mechanism (the colours really reflect this, mostly being blueish colours that are associated with feelings of sadness, plus the fact itself that the intimate scenes are an extension of Vegas' expressed sorrow).
There's also the rival factor that tunes in here. Im not sure if you remember, but in one of my comments i was explaining how i think one reason Vegas appreciates and is able to open up to Pete is because of how he treats him as an equal, and not just any equal, a rival in particular. This was especially apparent in the first torture scene when Vegas taunts Pete and in return, Pete sadistically laughs and smirks at him in retaliation, almost like a challenge. It's later brought up quickly with Vegas telling Pete to "stop pretending to sleep and laugh at (him)Ā Ā». And i feel like they've subtly kept this up until now without it necessarily being mentioned even, almost like a secret language. Which is why, before the sex scene, its almost like Vegas challenges Pete amusingly. I like to think that it's the reason why Pete blurts out "you're a psycho" because he didnt think Vegas would tease him essentially in that way, especially because he knows that Vegas is very capable of going through it if Pete takes up the challenge, and again, I appreciate that even then, consent is key.
So, to come back to your question, i think that in the next episode, we're going to see romantic feelings form and properly develop between the two as we saw in the preview that Pete and Vegas have a heart to heart talk after having had sex for the first time. I don't think they'd "fall in love" immediately just because of what they did but i think that we may start to see a stronger form of attachment where Vegas and Pete will finally interact without the power imbalance imposed by the chains (when Pete was still captive). Speaking of, i thought it was brilliant how they created an opportunity for Pete to escape before the sex scene because that truly showed Pete's stance, that there is a part of him that wants to be there for and be by Vegas' side, willingly. He's not so naive as to risk his own life, potentially his grandmother's, and even eventually Kinn and Porsche's possibly (as he could be used as a hostage), so it's not just pity that made him stay. It's a true sense of empathy and affection he is starting to feel for Vegas, and the way that, he too, could connect and open up to him in such a vulnerable way, that made him stay. So i like that those scenes took place as it would have been a lot more complicated to unpack the possible romanticisation/morally questionable aspects of the sex scene had he still been chained. In episode 11, the sex scene solidifies their trust for each other in my view, trust with the chains, the cords, the safe practice of sex. It's a safe space for the two of them, and in the act, they feel more complete than they ever have.
In the upcoming episodes, the foreseeing conflict will probably have to do with romance clashing with duty. Pete is technically free to some extent but he's going to stay for a while longer with Vegas out of his own volition, because he cares, and through that, their bond will strenghten. Issue is that, because he has attained a certain amount of freedom (he has a choice now). It might weight more and more on Pete that he has to return and fulfil his duties as a bodyguard, especially as he initially stayed because he couldnt bear to leave Vegas crumbled like he was. However, if Vegas' state improves, that need/sense of obligation almost may weaken in the face of duty (and we know that Pete eventually escapes, according to the novel, so im curious to see what specifically gets him to do so without him telling Vegas in an honest manner, given that he's been so straightforward with him so far, and unlike Porsche, he has a deeper capacity for psychological understanding/analysis). The question is how does Vegas evolve from here? Vegas is twisted and damaged character, he won't become a knight and shining hero overnight, he will perhaps, always retain bits and pieces of what made him this way in the first place. The scene in which he kicks the book from Pete's hands is a perfect example of this. It's a great reminder to both Pete and the audience that even after all the "wholesome" scenes of Vegas feeding Pete and the kiss etc., he can still snap and act violently (withdrawing to the only defenses he know of). I'm thinking he might become more and more open to hearing Pete out and connecting with him, as he is finally discovering that warmth that he had always (subconsciously) seeked - pete said it best: "in other words, you need love". But he might be more reluctant and taken aback in some instances like we saw in the book. There's not much else to go on so I'll leave it at that :)
Hopefully i gave you a satisfying answer (i might just repost my comment as a general overview of the episode). Tell me what you think! <3
I tried to capture a bit of that feeling in this edit, im not sure if it emcompasses everything but i think it reflects a bit of the state i was in watching the episode in itself :
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I tried to capture the eeriness and beauty of the moment they shared in this scene
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Porsche at the heart of it too
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The plotwist