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My Golden Blood was my highlight of the week. Now it's My Stubborn. My Ex Morning is hot on it's heels. All these 'My's. My Highlights 😂 I won't apologise for loving this show, or any of My Highlights.
I started Top Form thinking I won't like it and now I'm just like well, I've found what's going to entertain me until Sunday 😂 most of the time, the show isn't bad, it's just not what you're looking for at the time.

awwww, that first realization that my Wednesday is now empty =( Will have to make it a rewatch kind of evening <3

I've just come from youtube where Idol Factory have posted video for Interminable's ceremony. The Sign is my favourite BL and it just suddenly occurred to me that Buddhism seems very prominent. I havent watched anything else from Idol Factory, and obviously Thailand is a Buddhist country, but just an after thought really. That both shows, The Sign and here, Buddhism is a very central theme. Here it's more about community and peace and how, fingers crossed, getting Yo to ground and mature a little.
Just some morning thoughts.

I started off binge watching so I think I've been unfair to a lot of shows in the past. I think having multiple shows to watch throughout the week is a much better pace for me to give me time to breathe.
I havent binge watched anything in months now but I always feel if it's a more intense show, I might find it easier to watch a few episodes at a time instead of just straight through.
It's a battle with my anxiety really LOL But I think I've found the happy balance.

It's reminiscent of the first few episodes, just a slew of this sucks lol so it's not so much because we here, it's more that watching a show in parts helps make heads or tails of it, but when you watch in one go, you're a lot more critical because you miss the smaller details. It's like cinema, you're expecting something epic every time. So now I'm just thinking damn, try watching My Stubborn in one go, you're brain will be cooked 😂

I was just thinking damn, Wednesday is going to be so lonely without Golden Blood, so I went over there to commiserate and it was like that meme, of the guy walking in with pizza and it's all gone to hell 😂 I recognise a lot of accounts watching the shows I'm watching while its airing, for every show since last summer, we are all making each other laugh and talking our shit out in the open for some group healing, and then when we all leave and the binge watchers come in, it's like a bomb goes off 😂 there's no decompression with binge watching so the comments just become a Hunger Games arena with no mercy. Just verbal assault and hurt feelings everywhere, and now there's a morbid part of me that is looking forward to seeing this comment section when our little hippy circle leaves 😂😂😂

What I really love about this show, is despite being a break up service, the couples we've seen, break up on their own. With an exception of the opening scene to the serious, Break Up Service is more of a push or a mirror held up to them, and for all the couples so far, it's just shown them their relationship was already done or it wasn't what they wanted long term. And despite the hijinks of the characters, the couples deal with their issues maturely, most of the time LOL

Does look like we're going to have a bit of third party back and forth now lol

Even just the title makes it sound like its going to be on the melancholy side

Just came from the trailer......so, how much do you think this one is going to hurt? LOL Because historical BLs never end well LOL Or at the very least, bittersweet.

So ~ what chaos am I reading this morning? LOL

This is one of those conversations where I've experienced both sides of the conversation, and it's just a matter of personal interpretation and comfort. We all perceive the world through our own psychological lens, and we then place that onto the character we're living the story through.

For me, and I imagination for most of us, it's Jun, and my interpretation of Jun is that he's still relatively new to relationships in general, not just gay ones. He's still in that awkward finding himself stage. He's 21? In my experience, people will go through a metamorphosis of character roughly every several years. Our psyches are designed that way.

So this is Jun's first one. He has a lot to learn, and perhaps he's never performed oral before. He was ready for it but we all know how fast and furious Sorn's libido can be, and I did interpret it as taking him off guard. I also interpreted the tapping as code for, 'hey babe, slow down' because that's what I would also be thinking during sex. I have even had to tell a partner once to slow down LOL It's all just a part of my journey in life and I will naturally imprint that on Jun.
So I understand the people saying they were uncomfortable because I did flinch a little myself.

On the other side, I have said from episode 1, and I have seen a few others as well, call this show an old fashioned yaoi. This is what I use to read back in the early 00s when the internet was a much wilder place. Sometimes there wasnt even a translation. It was just a scan of the original japanese manga. And some of them were just wild and there was plenty of non-con.
I dont feel any of this has been non consensual. It's been rough and impulsive but sometimes sex is

A good friend in college used to ask me to drag my nails up his arm, occasionally, because he was feeling frisky and liked it. At the time I use to do my nails like Druisilla from Buffy, and it became a joke that my nails were the nicest and he wanted to ruin them LOL

Random life story is random but I get it. It's just rough sex in this scenario. In reality, Sorn and Jun would need a safe word or something but in fiction, it becomes a safe expression of wild sex. I would be the first to drop something if were non-con. That's really something I cant stomach and I've genuinely never felt that way with Jun. I think he's shy and awkward, but I've never felt that he was a non consenting party in his escapades.

From the start, this is the kind of kinky show that will only appeal to a certain person, whether they're here for the NCs or just the pure wild gay randomness of it all, and I love randomness. I love ridiculous things. As long as everyone's having fun with it, it's really nothing to get upset over and I dont think it's meant to be upsetting to anyone.

And there you have it, another novel length comment from me on in this section, the caffeine must be extra potent over here LOL

damn, this is longer than the original, oh well 🤣

Since I missed my opportunity to entertain myself during My Golden Blood with The Adventures of a boy named Tonkla, out of sheer laziness, I have decided to make up for it here. I made a casual joke about werewolves, and they served me 'choking on hot dogs and moonshine drunkenness' and I just can't resist.

So let me rephrase my previous comment into my new take on this show.

*Ahem*

My Stubborn Hunger - The trials and tribulations of a Wolfman, from finding trousers that can house his voluptuous booty cheeks, work as designer for a company and that's all you ever know, and being bound together with a delicious looking Wood Sprite that may break the curse once and for all, if only he can stop trying to eat him every 5 minutes.

Jun started the week like a mischievous little sprite, twinkling with confidence as he teased Sorn at his own game. I could see his little nymphette glow in his eyes. Unfortunately for him, he forgot that the man he’s toying with is cursed with lycanthropy, and every bold move he makes only inches Sorn closer to losing control. The moment Jun softly placed his hands on Sorn's chest and fairy walked his fingers onto his shoulder, the beast was awake and our little sprite was mere seconds away from being eaten alive right there on the staff lunch table, spread eagled I'm sure.

His confidence is growing and he revels in his new found power over his beast man, oblivious to the critical levels of peril he is placing himself in but rubbing his victory in the man's tormented soul and accompanying blue balls, nonetheless, with impish glee. It's cooking up a nice little supernatural disaster, dont you think?

Meanwhile, between the Wolfman frenzy in the conveniently empty toilets, I'll get back to that, we also have a Wicked Witch to deal with. Phut is her villain story, she's going to be drinking the poison potion soon that will dry up and wither her heart, and make her skin a lovely shade of green, much like Sorn's balls if he doesn't pounce on Jun upon every half of the hour. How supernatural wraith security didn't descend screaming the wails of the damned and throw her out of a window, was very disappointing.
Phut is like a happy frisky little hobbit when he's high on Jun's pheromones and immediately transforms into Smeagol when she appears in a black smoke and a BOO! from the audience. HISS. She's got flying monkeys now and everything. Give that woman her broom, she's ready to ride in a ball of fire, and her target is our sweet little pheromonal Jun, because of course it is.

Jealously is a terrible look but I think our sparkly little sprite is going to have a doll made of him very soon.

Now, Jun. Sweet, naive little Jun. His roller coaster ride of an episode started with playful seduction, and then crashed into the conveniently empty staff toilets, to choke on Wolfman's very own hot dog. Now, I'm a blasphemous semi vegetarian faery, so I kind of choked with him a little for literal and metaphorical reasons. No secret that Wolfman Sorn is a kinky diabolical hound and nearly came again at the sight of his sweet little wood sprite, swallowing a mouthful of his litter.

He ran to the rescue of his mate when he was being savaged by the witch, told the gnome to grow a pair, caught some curry and brought it back to his den. Very domestic.

When Jun confessed over his rice and shrimp, I could feel his little dead heart beat for the first time in his cursed existence. A casual moment for Jun, a breathless pause in the battle against the evil forces for Sorn. Jun has no idea that the closer he gets to Sorn, Sorn's suffering deepens, and just when things seemed to be heading toward freedom, Jun’s magic pheromones betrayed him again and Sorn’s younger brother casually gets him in drunk on the family's dark magic home made brew.

Because of course, this show hates Jun. It hates us. Right at the moment of consequence, right as something monumental was about to happen - cut to black, like the Abyss of Eternal Mockery. The episode ends. Whoever planned that cliffhanger deserves to step on a Lego. That needs to be said twice. Please step on several, barefooted as you are running for the toilet *shakes angry faery fist*

Thankfully, the preview twinkled with the possibility of another drunken confession. One can only assume that Wolfman Sorn will howl and bay for wood sprite flesh within the following 10 seconds. The moon will be high, the magic will be potent, and the odds of Jun actually remembering his words are about the same as a cute little goldfish. But if it means Sorn suffers even more, his hopes rising, his control slipping, I’ll take it.

Destiny or disaster, this tragic, ridiculous, pheromone-fueled romance will have me grinning a mischievously faery grin, and sipping my tea, whispering, 'Sorn deserves this'

Thank you for your service 😂 *evil cackle*

Thankfully, I enjoy cooking, so naturally don't trust anyone else with my food but now every time I see a male chef, I will be battling a lot of intrusive thoughts 😂

It's my favourite curse personally. And no question, they should be barefooted when they step on several. Fingers crossed 😂

This comment just yanked a memory out of my psyche, one where I stumbled upon a collection of articles, written by men, of course, proclaiming the benefits of cooking with their own semen and sharing recipes. A movement nobody asked for, I'm sure but recall one particularly proud comment, recounting how he served a secretly enhanced meal to his unsuspecting wife, who now raves about his cooking while he just sits there, with a knowing smile.

It would seem, I had repressed this knowledge, only for it to resurface now, uninvited. So, thanks I guess? 😂

Someone replied to me that they design and create furniture, that's why they have a factory as well. So Sorn and co are the design team. It never shows us the outside of the building so maybe it's a small building? But still, I cant help but wince at the all the conveniently empty hallways, staircases and toilets. I was expecting Thai or the reception guy again, to be in the other toilet 😂

I may have belly laughed at Sorn's home and pat my own shoulders at the 'moonshine'.
Werewolf curse, confirmed. I am now going to run with that version every week for lolz 😂

I have a lot to say about this week's episode but that there wasn't a security guard, or a staff member in sight, that just took me out 😂 I mean, they are working in a commercial office building aren't they? You trying to tell me there's a group of what, 9 people and 3 interns running a business for international design and sales? 😂 No wonder they can hook up anytime, anywhere. The building's bloody empty! 😂

Ohhh, we got a little bit of sass from Jun last week, and this week, he was fully serving 🔥

Bold move. I liked it. Pity playing fire with fire is going to get him burned though, and immediately too, no waiting period. That scene was a little uncomfortable though. We were teetering on a dangerous non-con line there. Tread carefully, writers. I want more of Sorn being uncomfortable and more of Jun being happy and rubbing it in Sorn's face.

Meanwhile, between the cottaging and Vee’s meltdown, it just goes to show that this company once again confirmed it operates with the same level of protection as a street gang. Every man for himself! 😂 Pretty sure Vee was on grounds for arrest right there or at the very least, escorted off the property and banned from ever returning 👋.

And yes, for once, I agree with Sorn. Vee is the type of woman you want to stay several postcodes away from. Seriously, why bother at this point? She has Phut on radar because she seems to know every time he’s buying a coffee, and now she’s got informants watching out too 😂

And Jun, sweet, little Jun. It was quite the roller coaster ride for him this week.
He started off like a frisky little bunny playing Sorn at his own game, promptly suffered the consequences, got publicly walloped by Vee, casually confessed to Sorn over some rice and shrimp, and then spent the last 15 minutes fully embracing his childlike aesthetic with a hairstyle to match, before getting drunk and trying to kiss Sorn’s cool little brother while Sorn looks on in horror.

Speaking of hair, Sorn turned up to meet Jun’s dad looking like the heartthrob from every high school drama. Despite Jun declaring he’s not a child anymore, they both still needed Daddy’s blessings so Princess could travel to meet his in-laws 😂

And then, because this show clearly hates us and Jun, Sorn’s little brother out-brothers Jun by getting him entirely wasted, and just as the moment I actually cared about was about to happen, the episode ended 😭. I hope whoever planned that cliffhanger steps on a Lego.

Judging by the preview, we might be headed towards another drunken confession though, and probably an opening sex scene because I’m noticing a trend for putting the smut at the beginning of the show. And the odds of Jun remembering are about the same as a goldfish. But if it makes Sorn suffer more because his hopes are high now, then ok. I can deal 😏.