To My Shore

BEST BL OF THE YEAR

I went into it expecting a mediocre plotline and okay acting like most bls do have.... But i was FLABBERGASTED by how AMAZING it was. The writer/actors knew what they wanted and they DELIVERED.

**The clash between evil and good, crazy and sane, life and death.**
Fan Xiao was so well written and well acted that although he is a big red flag, i was rooting for him the whole series. He managed to manipulate me the viewer and That's how a good plot is made.
You Shu Lang was not the pathetic victim you'd expect from series like this. He likes justice and keeps trying to get an eye for an eye, except some rare times with Fan Xiao, his weakness. You Shu Lang doesnt need a savior. He is the savior.

They nailed the trope of deity and devotee, and then they dismantled it only to build it again for us.

This is the type of series that is gonna have its place in my favorites for a loooooong time.

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One of the most amazing BL

Despite it being toxic and red flag 🚩 series. Male leads are perfect. I am in so love with this series and them.
Their chemistry is insane.
I love them both in those characters.









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The forced and rushed happy ever after ruined it for me

This show has one of the best mc’s in my opinion

The story is really dark, but the only saving grace is the fact that the mc:


• Doesn’t gaslight himself
• Doesn’t romanticize abuse
• Doesn’t forgive the ml until…..

Initial review: after watching ep 1-5
I genuinely cannot stand this ML(he’s the true definition of a villain in “love” he’s so shameless他简直事不要脸的) , and no amount of tragic background or “but he loves him” rhetoric will convince me otherwise. He is a calculated people user who treats human beings like disposable emotional experiments. He’s one piece of s**
He’s irredeemable
He will do absolutely anything short of physically killing the mc to be with the mc. I’ve lost count of the number of atrocities he’s committed.

SPOILERS !!!!! Just ep 1-5


Let’s start with the Lu Zhen, the mc’s bf .

Fan Xiao, the ML knowingly led him on lavishing him with gifts, compliments, emotional intimacy, and exclusive attention. He literally told him that he falls in love with whatever he paints. What part of that is not intentional romantic signaling? Then, when Lu Zhen who was already feeling emotionally neglected responds to that attention and ultimately ends his relationship with the MC for very real, very human reasons, the ML discards him like trash. Not only that, he gaslights him by saying he “misinterpreted everything,” calls him worthless, and claims he never meant to be with him in the first place. That is emotional cruelty, full stop.

Now the MC.

The ML has been clingy, invasive, and touchy despite being told off repeatedly. He knew exactly how vulnerable the MC was, and instead of respecting boundaries, he pushed them. And to make things worse : the MC was drugged and sent unconscious to the ML. Even if the ML didn’t “go all the way,” kissing him and leaving hickeys while he was completely unconscious is still a sexual violation. Softening that doesn’t make it less disgusting. (Love that the story does actually acknowledge that, and the mc didn’t go easy on the person he believed saed him, just wish he knew it’s that mf of the ml that did it, can’t wait for when he finds out 😈)

What enrages me most is the audacity of the ML using “我爱你” (I love you) to convince the mc to be with him, as if love can coexist with manipulation, coercion, and betrayal. No. If you loved him, why betray him? Why have him drugged and delivered to your bed? Mr, You weren’t in love, you were playing.

And the bf wasn’t a bad person . He was honest about his pain. He was lonely because the MC was emotionally closed off, yes—but that doesn’t justify being used as a pawn in someone else’s ego game. The ML hurt both of them and then walked away acting morally superior.

The only reason this drama is still watchable is the MC. He is not weak, not naïve, and not blindly forgiving. He calls out nonsense, resists manipulation, and takes time to trust and that restraint is the most realistic reaction in this entire mess. Kudos to the actor, because without him, this story would be unbearable.

My verdict for now bc still on going, I’ve only watched 5 ep so far.

The ML does not deserve love. He deserves consequences. He treats affection as a tool, people as interchangeable, and responsibility as optional. Don’t tell me to sympathize with him. I won’t.

And I don’t care what anyone says about Lu Zhen, I still like him.
As for Ml can’t wait for his karma 😈


One more thing that really bothered me:
That so-called dirty talk didn’t work on me at all. The ml telling the mc “You deserve to be under a man ” and “I’ve not met anyone sluttier than you ” didn’t sound sexy, sounded like the ML finally getting what he wanted(finally got the mc where he wanted him, under him). Especially when you remember he’s said homophobic things like (gay person is dirty, he called the mc dirty when someone asked him who he was looking for) and before and acted visibly uncomfortable seeing the MC kiss his boyfriend. With that context, those words don’t feel playful or intimate, they feel degrading. It came off less like love and more like a straight guy “trying something” and enjoying the power of it. Sorry, I just don’t buy that as romance.

Edit after watching ep 6-15
Unpopular opinion, I could not ship the main couple. I just couldn’t. I didn’t find their scenes enjoyable at all. I even get mad when I see simp edits of them online 😅.
I could easily give this a ten if not for ep 12 through 15. I know the bar is in hell but what kind of redemption arc is that? I’m someone who had already decried that the ml is irredeemable the last thing I wanted to see was him:
1. Pretending to be poor for the mc to pity him
2. Still making life controlling decisions for the mc (even getting him to adopt a child, buying shares in his name just to mention a few)
3. During the supposedly redemption arc he was still stalking the mc 🤦🏽‍♀️

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Hands down, the best POWER BOTTOM EVER??❤️

This series really traumatized me, I mean would you look at how toxic and manipulative Fan Xiao is…?? And you want me to believe that he just changes it whole f**king nature in just a snap of a figure?? Naah, I don't buy it. Honestly until the end, until now, I don't buy that he actually changed. I still think he was acting.

Don't get me wrong, until episode 8, I was in love with Fan Xiao, but the way he said, "I never lied” to You Shulang when he says, "can I trust you?”
Bro I literally had tears in my eyes when he said that but the audacity Fan Xiao had to say he never lied made me mad angry at him. I cried for hours when You Shulang cried in his room after learning the whole truth. And after all this, when Fan Xiao, still, forced You Shulang to be with him, the way he was so dead inside. You could actually see his soul has left his body 😭😭

The acting was so great that I could actually feel the pain through my phone screen🤌😭😭

But honestly, I loved You Shulang so much🤌❤️ I mean this guy is the definition of Power Bottom. The best POWER BOTTOM EVER, hands down 🙂‍↕️

The way he handled the hostess thing, was the first time I realised he had the guts to stand up for himself even if it's Fan Xiao 🫡 And when he found out the whole truth about Fan Xiao, my god🤌🤤❤️
I mean I know he was broken inside but after all that the Aura that guy had when he said “Fan Xiao is a terrific actor" I could not stop screaming🤌❤️

Although, I was very disappointed by the ending. I did not want them to be together. The way Fan Xiao treated You Shulang, he deserved to be left alone.

And, this series had major timeline issues, I mean in a snap a year is gone and no signs to tell us that, you need to figure it out yourself. Episode 1 there's a baby by the end he's grown up so fast. Honestly until episode 12 I was going to give this a solid 10/10 but after seeing the end, I'm not so sure.

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Complicated yet engaging and interesting !!

First of the initial episodes were really great to begin with , the story seems complicated and even the most toxic one out there but still it will hooked u till the end of the series. The pain and suffers shulang faced since his childhood till fx was in his life was really heartaching. he faced a lot by fx too and tho fx got what he deserved as after knowing the truths shulang treated him exactly well deserved!! Both the characters here suffers a lot that fx who was once so rich at the end he too lost everything but gain yu shulang. Anyways the story is well equipped and complicated tho certain things in the series seem to be little off. But i would recommend you to watch this series.

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Trigger Warnings for SA, rape, self-harm, drugs & alcohol, violence, & manipulation.

Even after this series has been over for months, I still see people who are obsessed with it. They post photos and reels almost daily about the show and the main actors, and after finally watching the series, I really don't understand. Overall, it was a good series, but nothing that I would put my time and energy into months after it's finished.

I have one question that I asked myself at the end, and that was, "Is this Stockholm Syndrome?" Is that the real reason Shulang goes back to Fan Xiao?

OST wasn't invasive, and when I do notice it, I like it.

I liked that they made Fan Xiao such a black flag. He's not the worst character in the series by far, but he's obsessive and possessive to a dangerous degree, and had the money to do what he wanted. All the trigger warnings are because of him. The man needs therapy to deal with his past trauma and his current obsession. They made it easy for me to want Shulang nowhere near this man, while also feeling a bit sorry for him when he's trying to be a better person, and Shulang is RIGHTFULLY pushing him away. (Sometimes my empathy is a problem; I see someone hurting and I hurt with them.)

I also like how Fan Xiao marks his territory. Sorry, not sorry.

Shulang was easily my favorite character (even though I got freaked out/worried by his hands a couple times) because of how much he reminds me of my mom. Kind to a fault, but you don't fuck with the people they love. He's stupid for going back to Fan Xiao, but I wasn't surprised either because no matter how bad the manipulation, you could tell he still loved him, and once the good things he did were brought to light, you could see that it was easily breaking down the walls Shulang built. This is why I suspected Stockholm Syndrome; he went back to him so easily.

The only thing I didn't like about Shulang was how quickly he moved on from his boyfriend that he'd been dating for years. At least I think it was years. He didn't seem affected by the breakup at all until he learned Fan Xiao's role in it.

I wouldn't blame Lu Zhen for breaking up with Shulang because he felt like Shulang wasn't emotionally available enough & he didn't see that until Fan Xiao started showing him attention. Sadly, it seemed less like he realized this and more like he liked the attention because after only the second meeting with Fan Xiao, he was already telling him that Shulang was a relative. He realized what he lost too late, and I can't bring myself to feel bad for him.

We have a relationship happening in the background between Xue Bao Tian and Zhang Cho, and I really wanted to know more about it. It was a red flag relationship that they just teased us with.

My least favorite character in the whole series has to be the brother. I don't know how old he was, but it acted like a 16-year-old who thought his brother owed him his life. Anyone who does a fake suicide attempt so they can live an easier life on the back of someone else's work should be ashamed of themselves. And his reasons made no sense. Why was he mad at Shulang for defending himself from bullies, but not the bullies themselves for his mother's death? How do we know if Shulang even defended himself? We get 1 flashback, and it didn't look like he was.

Alright, on to the things that I didn't like/annoyed me.

* The only thing that annoyed me more than it was actually a problem was that the main characters seemed allergic to closing doors sometimes. Multiple times, they just left doors open while having very private conversations or while it's freezing outside. Close the damn door!

* They smoked too much. Every time you turn around, they are smoking. Did they need to smoke that much?

* They say each other's names too much. Honestly, this goes for all Chinese dramas.

* Why are so many people speaking English? Why are so many people speaking Chinese? We are in Thailand a majority of the time, but everywhere our characters go, it's either Chinese or English being spoken. I'm not talking about the main or supporting characters either; I'm talking about the background/extra characters.

* The kissing was just okay, but the chemistry was good.

* Our main actors really didn't show that much emotion, and maybe that was down to direction so that it would be more impactful in the emotional moments. It made their acting feel stiff for the first couple of episodes.

* I didn't get invested in the story or the character until episode 8, where Shulang starts learning the truth behind Fan Xiao's lies and manipulations. For a series that is so highly rated and praised, that is too long before getting pulled in. I should have been gripped from episode 3 at least, but even after I got into the series, my feelings for it were still at "whatever". I was even a bit bored in the first couple of episodes.

* This series didn't need a happy ending, but if they had to give us one, I wish they had spent more time redeeming Fan Xiao in Shulang's eyes. Have Fan Xiao slowly redeem himself, not have them jump back into a relationship after Shulang's friend inadvertently points out that he's still in love with Fan Xiao, and that's why he can't let go. He should have already known that; what's important is Fan Xiao changing and winning Shulang over again.

* I hate that when time passes, they don't tell us how much.

* I would have liked to see Fan Xiao do some actual work, not just control & manipulate multiple people's lives, or drink & smoke.


Despite all the hype, I went into this show with little excitement or expectations, and my feelings stayed at a 7/7.5 the entire time. There was never a moment that got my blood pumping or my heart hurting so bad I cried. Nothing that made me mad or overly happy. I honestly didn't feel much of any emotion while watching this, which feels strange. I'm not going to tell anyone not to give it a try because it seems a lot of people really enjoyed it, but to me it was like throwing a pebble into the water.

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Fantastic start, unenjoyable finish

It started off so good. I was eating it up. It was toxic but it was supposed to be, great I love to see it that’s fine. I loved the first half or so. Fan Xiao was toxic and manipulative and it made the show really fun to watch, as awful as that sounds, it was fun seeing him worm his way in between Shu Lang and his boyfriend. I even loved when Fan Xiao and Shu Lang got together...at first.

Where the show really started to lose me is when Fan Xiao went from toxic to straight up abusive and a r*pist. I'll watch a toxic relationship all day long, but the second r*pe or assault comes in is where it's enjoyable anymore. I knew I was signing up for toxicity but not abuse so it very much threw me off. There were multiple scenes where Shu Lang clearly didn't want Fan Xiao and was forced to sleep with him or kiss him, and the show just kept throwing in scenes where Fan Xiao “realizes” what he’s doing is wrong and “apologizes” but the way they do it is like they want us as the audience to actually forgive him. Like girl what?? He literally just assaulted Shu Lang. Or they would have scenes where the show is like “No guy's Shu Lang stays because wants to” like GIRL NO HE DOES NOT. Why did we take this turn?? I hate it. Why does toxicity always have to mean SA? It was plenty entertaining and toxic enough before all that.

I hated that they ended up together too. I was really hoping this show would be different and would have it so Shu Lang actually moves on and goes on with his life happily, which he does, and then they ruined it in the last 10 minutes or so but putting them back together.

Like I said, I loved the first half maybe even a bit more of this show. The main two as well as Shu Lang's boyfriend were enjoyable to watch, and I really found the story entertaining. Once they made Fan Xiao turns so possessive that he was abusive is where I really didn't like his character anymore.

As for things I liked
-I loved the chemistry between the main two actors. They did a great job as well as the rest of the cast, but the mc's really stood out to me
-The story was never boring, even when I didn't like where it went, at least it wasn't boring.
-I LOVED seeing Fan Xiao go absolutely broke at the hand of Shu Lang. He deserved it.
-I love that Shu Lang adopted Tian Tian! So cute!
-The first half of the show is what I want when it comes to toxic relationships to watch! It makes it so fun to see!
-I really liked the finale. Even though I didn't want them to end up together and wasn't happy about that, I think the finale was really good.
-The kisses and spicey scenes were pretty good

Overall, I just don't know how to feel about it because I went from being so excited for the next episode to dreading the next one.

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The king of all WTFs

This series kept me hooked 'till the end, I couldn't help myself enduring 'till the end. I just couldn't drop this title but honestly I don't know why.
There's no reason for these two to be together, or at least there is no reason for You Shu Lang to fall in love with Fan Xiao.
The only thing that makes a little sense is all Fan Xiao's scheming because he's foundamentally troubled, mischevious, obsessed...insane.
Maybe the whole story might be reduced in two torn men meeting each other and finding solace to one' suffering in the other one's sorrow.
If found this drama extremely violent, but physically and psychologically.
Still I couldn't drop it...

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Good Bones But Wasted Potential

Chinese BL dramas are like unicorns: they appear sporadically, like one good one every five years, then get hindered by new censorship regulations. And I always try to watch because some of them are real gems.

(Looking at you The Untamed)

2025 has brought us some promising entries like "Revenged Love" and "ABO Desire."
"To My Shore" caught my attention because I saw its trailer, but ultimately, it didn’t really meet my expectations.

After watching all 15 episodes, my take is that this drama serves as a decent option if you're looking for some skinship in a Chinese BL. Oh, they do it a lot in this drama. The foundation for a compelling story is there, but the script feels more like a rough draft than a polished narrative.

While the characters and their backstories are intriguing, the arcs seem underdeveloped, and I don't believe this falls on the actors. The writers had a fascinating premise but failed to deliver to execute. Although I can appreciate complex themes, the portrayal of toxic and abusive relationships here wasn’t handled in a way that allowed me to believe in genuine redemption.

I did enjoy some aspects of the dynamic between the leads. I’m so tired of the typical top-and-bottom roles with the bottom assumed to be the "wife material." It's refreshing to see characters who break away from these stereotypes. The push-and-pull interactions were enjoyable. They were both trying to be in control. At least at the beginning.

Unfortunately, the narrative did suffer from poor execution. The uneven acting in the first portion of the drama and so-so camera work throughout didn’t help, but the real issue lay with the script and the story's presentation. Again, I did not read the source material and I have no idea if the script differs from it much in terms of pacing, but I do think more cohesive storyline was needed because pacing wobbled throughout. Additionally, the romantic situations that typically drive the genre were lacking. Things between the characters developed fast and then stalled, and then we have a rushed ending and not enough time for the true and meaningful redemption arc.

I think the point at least for me where I felt like drama well and a little bit downhill was when Shu Lang discovered the extent of Fan Xiao’s deceit.

Too many episodes were dedicated to rehashing the fallout from that revelation, with Shu Lang wallowing in despair far longer than necessary. It became tedious to watch, and the frequency of their sexual encounters, which felt non-consensual, didn’t need that much screen time. While I have no issue with dub-con in fiction(ABO Desire did it right), Fan Xiao became increasingly unredeemable as a result. What’s the point of doing things behind everyone’s back but being a dick to your loved one in front of him?

The notion that Shu Lang still loved Fan Xiao after he was hurt by him so badly was poorly conveyed, largely due to the script's shortcomings. The redemption arc for Fan Xiao should have been explored much earlier in the series.

I basically wanted for things to happen. For situations to happen. For interesting dialogues to happen. But most of it never did. I felt almost like the two of them were just going in circles.

Don’t get me wrong "To My Shore" isn’t a bad drama. It has some good bones, but the execution falls flat. The first half suffers from awkward acting, like they were still trying to get into the characters, though the emotional moments were somewhat effective. The cinematography is low-budget and forgettable, which is not an issue for me if the story is good. I wish the writers had focused more on refining the pacing of the story, which could have led to a more satisfying viewing experience. Some dialogue felt confusing, possibly due to poor subtitle translations. Or at least they felt confusing to me.

In summary, with a more polished script, "To My Shore" could have been an excellent drama. The conclusion felt rushed, highlighting the overall problem of mismanaged pacing. If it had been handled better, I think we would have a little bit more time to see the characters getting back together in a more organic way.

If you’re seeking a BL drama with a toxic relationship that ultimately results in a meaningful redemption arc, I recommend "My Stand-In." There are some true gems when it comes to Chinese BLs but Chinese BLs still have a long way to go to reach the level of Thai productions.

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One of my fav toxic couples to date

I love toxic couples so if you don't like toxic couples then yeah you may not love this as much as me.

The characters were written so freaking well. Fan xiao reminded me a lot of myself but I am less crazy I swear. His character was written with so much depth and he just felt so real. I loved that he was a flawed character and that he made mistakes. I loved that he was stubborn and sabotaged his love life bc losing control is scary. ugh I have already rewatched it like 5 times I love this drama so much.

This couple is so toxic and in reality they should not be together but I love when toxic love wins in the end XD.

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A beautiful film

This was a beautiful film. I was certain I would abandon it quickly because toxic people and toxic relationships are not to my liking, but I found myself captivated from the very first episode. I almost binge-watched it in a single night! :))) The actors did an absolutely outstanding job.
Fan Xiao was the epitome of toxicity; he may have been good-looking and all, but since I don't care for his kind, I couldn't feel positively towards him until late in the series, when he turned a new leaf. Although his love for Shulang was obvious all the way through—even if he wasn't willing to admit it—I still couldn't sympathize with him. Yet I was pleased to see him become a man both deeply changed and still evolving. And for that, yes, he deserved forgiveness.
Lu Zhen was a young, inexperienced man, prone to making mistakes given his age. Although it may be easy to criticize him for his bad decisions, we should keep in mind that his reproaches toward Shulang were valid, and a keen observer would easily see that he was right. Shulang may have been an ideal lover to him, but he still didn't let Lu Zhen into his world entirely; he remained somewhat distant, untouchable.
Shulang was the epitome of goodness, and despite Fan Xiao calling him a 'Bodhisattva' a little too often—which became somewhat annoying at some point—he completely deserved the title. Just watching him felt healing. Of course, it was heartbreaking to see him treated so badly time and time again. Yet, his most beautiful quality was his resilience; he was by no means a weak person, in spite of all the terrible things happening to him. On the contrary, he possessed immense strength, standing up for himself and taking matters into his own hands whenever necessary.
Whoever wrote the characters proves to be deeply knowledgeable about the human heart, behaviour, and psyche. Of course, toxic people don't just change for the better in real life, but this is a work meant to heal our hearts, so many thanks to the author for bypassing reality for us! Otherwise, the portrayal of these characters was accurate and surprisingly detailed.
Once again, the actors were stellar! All those details necessary to understand contexts and nuances couldn't have been visible without an art mastered to perfection. I bow to their talent.

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SLEEP? Who needs sleep when you could be binging this?!

IDK how to even express myself after this mastpiece of a show. I went from cheering, dreading uncovered secrets, fear, praying they would just let each other go, and then finally peace and happiness that they were able to fall into place after they each grew up and worked on themselves. One needed to learn to love himself and the other how to love others. It's a story about *how* to love. Regret, remorse, love, and lust are all big themes and of course, BL time. I think the turning point for Fan Xiao was when he pressed the send button for the whistleblower information. He knew he needed to be punished and didnt want Hao Yiran to have to live with making the decision to send him to prison. Hao Yirens turning point came when he chose not to be alone and adopted Tian Tian. He started veering towards his self-redemption when he abandoned his worthless brother who only saw him as an ATM. I love that they adopted the kid at the end and that they both worked through their issues. Everything came full circle.

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