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He means that he loves You Shulang too much to just have one night of sex with him. It's easier for him to abstain entirely than to give in and then to experience an even bigger anguish over being unable to touch him again. He's trying to heal and to persuade himself that just watching You Shulang from afar is enough; being offered a night of bliss just to be abandoned again pains him too much.

I found it fascinating from the first moments. A psychopath smiling to the face of his future love and backstabbing him and plotting against him all the time? Count me in.

Wow!!! So we'll get both the filmed version and new written extras? That's so incredibly exciting! I just hope they get translated quickly, the original website doesn't let my country in, so I can't pay or do anything to support the author and access their work.

You seem to know so much, so I have to ask, do you know what these special episodes are based on? Like, are they entirely original, or did the novel writer helped develop the script? The trailer is full of scenes that aren't in any extras, I'm fascinated.

I felt so, too, when I was first watching, but on my re-watches I developed a very different view. Maybe reading the book helped: it gave a lot of insights into what the characters were feeling, which softened the arc to me. When I watch it now, I see how much and how deeply YSL still loves FX. How he lets him in despite still being so hurt, how he can't say no to him again and again, how he worries for him and is willing to take a beating for him; and then he worries again about FX getting into trouble for retaliating. We do need some very happy moments, though, and I hope the special episode will deliver them!

Wow, I'm so happy I checked back here, you made my day, I love you!!!

Feels like the best drama in the world to me at the moment, I'm still completely in awe. Everything about it is perfect; the book is also amazingly good. I wonder if there is a way to get updated about special episodes, dates, etc.; any channels to follow?

Huh, but there are just two couples sleeping with each other? The main character and his initial boyfriend, and then the two main characters.

Same! It's been a while since I was so in love with the drama *and* the actors/singers in it. Truly amazing.

So glad to see the comment section gradually fill with appreciative fans who, even if they don't like something, avoid slipping into toxicity <3 On this happier note, I'll go continue my re-watch, read fics, and stalk socials for the current Desire4 fan-meet, which seems to be going wonderfully.

It's Gau Tu's neighbor alpha who had a crush on him and who helped him survive the pregnancy by being near and comforting him with his pheromones. Gau To rejected him later, so they stayed friends and Ma Heng got a girlfriend.

I couldn't disagree more. And I'm astonished that you continued watching this series if you felt like it had no character development, emotion, and growth.

The book is clear about it. Gau To moved to another exclusive country, and Wenglang visited it and met him there by accident.

Yes

Just re-watched the last episode: the first half actually has a pretty decent pacing. The issues start with the second half. Still, one rushed half of one episode is nothing when compared to the overall greatness of this series. It sucks that the ending couldn't flow better and that important arcs were treated like this, but it doesn't affect the re-watch value, imo, not at all.

Apparently, there is a petition for S2. Not sure how legit it is, though https://boysloveinsider.com/abo-desire-season-2-official-fan-petition

I haven't stopped re-watching since the first time I watched it :D

A voice of sanity in the pit of madness.

Yeah, I'm dismayed by the amount of entitled comments. Criticizing the episode is fine, and I'm not happy with it either, but attacking the creators and the team? Ugh, I do hope they don't see most of it.

I didn't see such comments? Who can belittle his acting, he shines the brightest of all exactly because he managed to convey such different parts of his character perfectly. I was in awe of his skills even more I fell in love with Desire as a whole.